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zenobia
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Posted: 13 October 2009 06:15 pm |
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lol. i'm talking about the cool ones :)
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 14 October 2009 02:05 am |
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"tUnless you're talking about just creepy old guys who aren't really that old - just kinda predatory and sad (um, think Jon of Jon & Kate + 8 fame)."
Actually...never mind 
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zenobia
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Posted: 14 October 2009 02:35 am |
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ok. today was decent as far as food goes. class was alright. still didn't say much. i mean, i could have, but i just can't open my mouth.
still really thinking about going into social work. i sort of brought it up to hubs, but he dismissed it since i had been drinking. i did tell him to remind me about it, but he has yet to do that, so i have yet to mention it again. but, it still weighs heavy on my mind. lol, i could honestly go back and get my BA in a number of things. grad school, particularly literature, is just freaking me out and i don't know if have have the stuff for it. i dunno. it's like... i want to do something to really make a difference. a real difference. i think it would tie in with my wanting to volunteer, with watning to teach, with how good i am with teenagers, with me being into psychology,, me wanting to help... i've just been thinking about it and it might be a viable option. i should talk to straylight about it.
no workout again today. *sigh*. i gotta get it together. still better than i could be. ate at home instead of eating out- made a healthier version of my favorite sandwhich.. drinking more water than i have in a while. little things. i just want to get to where i was. 110% into it....
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Hisgal
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Posted: 14 October 2009 04:39 am |
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Zen, I haven't worked out for 2 weeks now!  Sure can tell the difference in how I look and how I feel. Ended up working late again, then watched Biggest Loser, did dishes and worked on getting some of the hubs' food ready for his lunch tomorrow. Anyway, I really know I need it, but things just come up or get in the way........or I let them?  I could always use the sprained ankle as an excuse, but I can do some stuff without the ankle! We've got 3 weddings to go to from Dec. 12-Jan 2, and I need to be able to get into at least one of my dresses!
Now about the career choice..............let me tell you a short story. My youngest, our son, was the only one who went into college very sure of what he wanted to study. The 2 girls kinda drifted for a while at college. Well, the son got almost to the end of the first semester.........and called one weekend, and told us he was changing his major! Could have knocked us over with a feather! So, I asked him, "To what?" Well, he said he had an idea, but wanted to think it over for a bit, before he made the choice. You know me, Zen.........I told him to pray about it, and so did I. About a week later, he called back and said he was switching from Computer Science to Teaching! At first, I thought "What is he thinking???" But, he talked about how it fit with what he enjoyed and with what he'd always been told he was good at. I thought back to Parent-Teacher conferences througout the years........and I remember hearing from almost every teacher, about how good and patient he was at helping his friends when they didn't "get it"........how even in high school, he explained things in such a way that he didn't give them an answer to the problem, but actually helped them understand how to do it themselves..........even better than the teacher (that teacher told me that). So, suddenly, I felt good about his decision. He's now a high school math teacher, head of the math dept., assistant coach for baseball, and coaches jr high basketball. All things he loves  to do!
So, Zen, think about it............it sounds like maybe making a change in your life, would fit more with what you enjoy doing too. BTW, my son is 27 years old..........same as you, right? Another thing...........I went to college, and became an RN. It was OK, but I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought I would. So, after raising 3 kids, I am now a bookkeeper...........and love it! I always loved working with numbers. If I'd listened to my heart, and thought about what I enjoyed and what I was good at (always staight A's in all my math classes)...........instead of listening to what my father wanted me to do, I could have been playing with numbers for a long time. Go with your heart Zen! We don't always know what we should do with our lives, until we get a little more life lived, and get to know ourselves a bit better.
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 14 October 2009 05:02 am |
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Hey Zen,
From my own experience, I will say, at one point, I got out of computers and into being an insurance agent, because it was the family business. I didn't like it though. To much paperwork. I remember when I got drunk, I would think, I really want to just get back into computers. Also, going into college, my dad suggested I major in accounting - which I did, but I wasn't much good at it or interested in it. I took a bunch of courses in computers, and aced them all, and got a nice job in that out of school. It was a good ride until the dot bomb and outsourcing!
I guess I'm little bit surprised you're not liking the English that much, though. You love to read, and love music. My daughter's like that, and she's majoring in English, and she likes it. You're sure it's not just the newness of the situation, for example?
The stuff you're saying about social work makes sense, too. Maybe if you get a job with the state, it would be good. You know, they get pretty good pensions, like 80% of salary or something.
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 October 2009 12:32 am |
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pat- yes, that is my age. and i think it's really cool that your son decided to go for it. i really do have to do a lot of soul searching. thanks for the story :) i am the first one on my dad's side to get a degree. my mom's side is sketchy- a lot of military guys in there, farmers, drug addicts, alcoholics...i am definately the first one to take on grad school. hubs' side is full of high achievers.
jack- i looooooooooove literature. i loooooooooooove reading. i loved the fact that i got my BA in literature. i really really enjoyed it during my undergrad years. i will have my office lined with books, no matter what i did for a living. i still want to own the bookstore/wine bar. I'm just not sure i want to spend my life writing critical essays. yes, it is something i am interested in. i still want to be involved in anything wordsworth and blake and coleridge. i DO love it. absolutely. but do i want to do it for a living? that is what i am not sure about.
still considering teaching english. but the more i think about it, i'm pretty sure social work is something i really really want to look into. i want a 9-5 job, maybe have a couple of kids, have insurance, make a living and do something really really positive.
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suenos
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Posted: 15 October 2009 05:08 am |
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As someone who changed undergraduate majors a million times, finally got a degree in a field I never worked in, recently went back and got a second (undergraduate) degree in yet another field that I am currently not working in - well, let's just say I have NOTHING in the way of advice here ....but lots of support for whatever you chose to do, and positive vibes for you in making the choice that's right for you.
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 October 2009 09:14 am |
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suenos- honestly, it was so great to read that. really. like, i feel so strange thinking about going back to get another bachelor's degree. i know people collect masters. you don't really hear about that for bachelors degrees.
and you are not doing anything with yours. lol- for some reason, that's really comforting for me. i don't know. i feel like i should have this all figured out.
going to set up a meeting this week about it. i looked up the requirements. i could go to a masters directly, but i want the undergrad work....
i just have to commit. if i'm going to do anything, now is the time...
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 October 2009 06:47 pm |
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man, i slept like #%@&! last night. way too much thinking and i have quit benedryl... super tired and it's my long day at school.
so i was looking at requirements for social work. i think i would have two years of schooling. i'm hesitant to take on the masters straight off since i really don't know much about the basics.
i talked to hubs about it last night and he will supoort me in whatever i chose to do, but whatever i chose, i have to commit to it. lol, despite being married, i'm not very good with commitments. but seriously, i want to set up an apt. for either friday or next week. probably next week.. just to look at my options. i think i will talk to my mom about it, too, but i know she will try to talk me out of it...
breakfast was a sandwich and soy crisps. i have a stomach ache today. i hope it goes away before my night class. i need to work out tonight too, and start on a paper.... *sigh*
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 15 October 2009 09:49 pm |
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I'm sure you'll succeed at whatever you do, Zen. Before you make the jump, you should know that college professor is the top third rated job in America. Just sayin' that to mess you up
I'm also interested from my daughter's perspective. She's going to face the same situation when she graduates, 2.5 years or so from now. What does the future hold?
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Hisgal
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Posted: 15 October 2009 11:40 pm |
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Zen, I'm glad you are going to talk to your mom about the career switch. I was going to suggest that  (being a mom who's been in that situation). When my son called about the change in his major, my first instinct was to talk him out of it. But, he explained to me why he wanted the change, before I could object. And I'm glad he did, because when I stopped to think about it, my objection was because of it taking longer to finish college..........but also because women tend to like security in things. His making a change, somehow made me feel insecure, which probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense. But, when I really thought about it, I could see that this new career fit his personality better, and fit with what I'd seen in him as he grew up through the years.
When you talk to your mom, lay out your reasons for your decision. Let her know where you are coming from..........and why this new road might be better for you in the long run, than the old road was. And ask her, if she really thinks about it, can she see you..........with your personality.........with your talents and gifts as an individual........with the insight she has, as your mother...........can she see you doing this with your life? Sometimes we mom's need to stop and think things through, instead of objecting to the things our kids want to do. Sometimes we know best....and sometimes we don't, we just react to a change. Make sure her opinion comes from her knowledge and wisdom in knowing you for 27 years.
Best of luck, Zen!
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zenobia
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Posted: 16 October 2009 04:05 am |
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hey hisgal! yeah, i had the misgivings about talking to my mom thinking that she would do exactly what you did- try to talk me out of it. but i told her that i was thinking of changing my degree, and i said, it might sound strange, but i think i want to go into social work. she loved the idea, as far as how it suits my personality. she said she always found it hard to see me as a professor and i said that yes, i had toruble seeing it too, though i tried my darndest to talk myself into wanting that. she reminded me of why i wanted to go into teaching waaaaay back when i was in high school- that i wanted to change the world.
she did tell me to be careful with the avenue i chose to take in social work because my heart will be ripped out. it's emotionally draining and you take a lot of work home with you. i said i understood that but it really does get to the heart of what i have always wanted to really do, and that's help people.
so i am going to set up an appointment for sometime next week :) i feel pretty good about this.
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suenos
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Posted: 16 October 2009 05:38 am |
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ya know what - that's what mom's are for!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 17 October 2009 02:13 am |
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Hi Zen! I'm so glad you're back to posting regularly again!! I know I need to do the same. That's so cool you were able to have a talk with your Mom. Indeed, that's what Moms are for. Glad you're feeling good about your future possibilities, too!  
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zenobia
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Posted: 17 October 2009 10:24 pm |
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well you will never guess what....
i actually worked out today! haha!! i know, i bet you were hoping for a weigh-in... yeah, not likely 
but, i did a bit over 20 min of mostly lower body, buit it was the sort that got my heart rate up and really got me sweating. my right leg burns particularly strongly, so i hope i didn't do anything to it.
i realize i only have about 9 weeks till we leave. not really sure how much i will be able to loose at that time since i really am sedentary, but i think if i can put in at least an hour of working out in a day and keep my cals right at about 1300, and drink tons of water, i think i might be able to drop close to 20 lbs. i should really really cut out drinking entirely.
i do have to work today, so i will be moving around then. tomorrow and monday are devoted to homework (my first paper i've had to write in years!!!), but again, i should be able to squeeze in an hour or two a day of working out. even if i read while on the stationary??? hhmmmm.... it's a thought. yeah, and i think this first week or so is going to be devoted to cardio. i don't think starting on the toning was the brightest move. but, it was a dvd i have never done before and i really wanted to chceck it out.
and i still want to do 20 min TJ before i shower. i hope to do it again tonight after work as well...
oh, food was left-overs
1/2 chicken pesto feta sandwich on ciabatta and a few chips. (sandwich~ 450, chips~ 200?) ~ 650 so far. aiming for 1300-1350.
ETA:
20 min of TJ almost killed me
Last edited on 17 October 2009 10:49 pm by zenobia
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 18 October 2009 05:19 am |
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zenobia wrote:
well you will never guess what....
i actually worked out today! haha!! i know, i bet you were hoping for a weigh-in... yeah, not likely
What!!!? You worked out??? Well, I'll be darned. I was thinking to myself all day "Is Zen gonna work out? Nah, I don't think so. Absolutely not." And there you went and worked out. Had me fooled!
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zenobia
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Posted: 18 October 2009 06:37 am |
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Jack- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
you slay me
i did really really well for the day. made my lunch (my old staple of a wrap and soy crisps and water... and btw, it was really really good and i wasn't stuffed when i was done!), i had natural popcorn for a snack, and there was half a glass of wine left in a bottle at my house, so that's what i get for tonight. and i have ended around 1200-1300 cals. now i just have to stave off any munching tonight.
i don't know if i am going to work out again tonight, i''m pretty tired and sore from today. but i think this one day is really going to kick me hard and i'm much more motivated now. 9 weeks...
i think the worst thing about today was the left overs form breakfast. i would have a much more balanced day if i didn't have that, but honestly, it really filled me up. i just wish i could have something tonight. but it's probably alright that i don't anyway.
tomorrow is homework!!! lots of it!!! my paper is due on thursday, but i really want it done by tuesday morning. we'll see how that goes. also another great work out (it was fabulous today! i felt so great!). on a side note, i was in an awesome mood. i hope it had something to do with the exercize.
ETA:
ok, so i had some slices of deli meat and a flat wrap with a bit of mustard- 150-ish
BUT- i did do the stationary bike for 24 min and i think that will stave off some of it, so i should still be in my goal for the day.
here's to a good tomorrow!
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zenobia
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Posted: 18 October 2009 07:39 pm |
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pretty ok sleep last night, even though i didn't get there till after 2:30. woke up at 9:30ish, got out of bed at 10, realized how sore i actually was at 10:01. went to the grocery store and got caffine and breakfast food....
yeah, my body hurts!!!! so i'm not sure what i want to do for a workout today. my arms are alright, didn't do much with them, but i really want to do cardio. so maybe i will lay low for part of the day and see how i am feeling later. all else fails i can do upper body and abs...
food:
breakfast- yogurt, cereal, blueberries=175
snack- luna bar- 180
lunch- pita w/ ff cream cheese, spinach, sprouts, and ham-180 (?)
soy crisps- 140
apple- 130 (?)=
805 ish.
not too bad, but next time, i think i will save the apple for a snack later.
we'll just say 500-550 left for the day....
Last edited on 18 October 2009 11:59 pm by zenobia
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 18 October 2009 11:43 pm |
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zenobia wrote:
Jack- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
tomorrow is homework!!! lots of it!!! my paper is due on thursday, but i really want it done by tuesday morning. we'll see how that goes. also another great work out (it was fabulous today! i felt so great!). on a side note, i was in an awesome mood. i hope it had something to do with the exercize.
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Zen, I gotta say, I like your energy. Heck, I'm going to review some goals and get back on track myself, with that kind of talk....
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zenobia
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Posted: 19 October 2009 02:57 am |
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always happy to inspire, jack
workout
15 min upper body (arms and back)
20 min TJ
yeowza!
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suenos
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Posted: 19 October 2009 05:09 am |
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| you're on a roll girl....good for you!
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zenobia
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Posted: 19 October 2009 09:12 pm |
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yeah, it does feel pretty good to be getting back into the swing of things.
well, last night wasn't a total bust, but we did go out for a few hours. i didn't eat before we left, but i wasn't that hungry... i did end up eating 1 piece of pizza at the bar. not to bad.
today, extremely sore.
food:
breakfast- eggwhite omlette, toast (shouldn't have had the toast)- about 375
not sure of what i can do for a workout today. i'm in paaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiinnnnnnnn!
so i was trying to find a good motivational pic of me, but i couldn't find the one i was looking for.... maybe later...
ok, slam on the breaks! an apple AND a luna bar???? what was i thinking!!???!!!
slightly over 700 for the day so far. ugh. gotta hold out till about 8-ish, i think.
ok, light popcorn~ 200 cals
shrimp, cocktail- 100
soy crisps~ 150
brocoli and cauliflower- not counting
about 1150 for the day! might do some pudding later, too
still need to workout as well
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zenobia
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Posted: 20 October 2009 08:48 am |
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no workout today. still really sore. and feeling sorta depressed. i know working out would have probably helped my mood, but like i said, still in lots of pain.
i'm down down down. i read my favorite funny author to help cheer me up, but after i finished the book, the world and all that comes with it dropped smack on my head and now i have to try to sleep. i don't like these sorts of nights. it's like a sunday evening, the last day of summer, and all you can feel is that sinking feeling in your spirit...
sometimes i just want to sleep for weeks and weeks and weeks. i am an escapist at heart.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 20 October 2009 04:15 pm |
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sometimes i just want to sleep for weeks and weeks and weeks. i am an escapist at heart.
You and me both sister.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 20 October 2009 04:15 pm |
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| Ugh, stupid server. Last edited on 20 October 2009 04:15 pm by MidgeH
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 October 2009 03:54 am |
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first, business:
food:
breakfast- the usual (termed as such now- the yogurt, cereal, berry mix)- 175
lunch- extreme pita gyro, no dressing, but with tzetziki, small (they say it's 360 cals, but i'm not sure how accurate that is, so we'll just say 400
snack- fiber 1 bar- 140 cals-
715 total for the day
yeah, i need to eat something else, i know....
workout:
35 min TJ (my back started to get really really tight, so i skipped the last few minutes. i don't want to over do it so soon)
spent the day at school in class and working on that paper. yeah, my goal of getting it done last night didn't happen. i do have all of tomorrow to finish it up, though, as well as going back to it tonight if i want to.
other than that
midge- yeah, i am an escapist at heart, but i know that i really don't escape. i mean, if i do, it's temporary (as in some of my adventures in drinking), but overall, i get back to it. i went through some pretty rough things a few years back, i ended up failing and dropping some of my courses in undergrad because i didn't think i could handle it, amidst the mess that was my life at the time. but i ended up retaking courses, excelling at them, and getting back to my goals, and then accomlishing them. i'm not sure if i really believe in "what is meant to happen will happen", but i'm not closed off to it either. i know hard work and struggle is a part of life and nothing really comes easy, but based on my past experiences, i think there is a tiny bit of fate in the mix. i don't know if i'm explaining my position properly, but i am pretty sure i believe in gut instinct and a small element of fate....
do i have the strong urge to run away at times? yes. and if i really really wanted to, i would do it. if i really really want to do something, i usually find away. now if i could just make that work for winning the lottery....
and once again, exercize is agian my cure for stress and a depressed mood. god, i love those endorphines!!!!! and it's getting me closer to that healthy body i really really want
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Posted: 21 October 2009 04:22 am |
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| 750 for the day? You're darn right that's not enough. Especially if you're working out. Eat up, kid, eat up :) Speaking of escapism, I'm going to escape off into sleep.
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 October 2009 06:39 am |
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ok, so i had half a roast beef sandwich with gorgonzola (homemade), soy crisps, pickles, and sf pudding. i should be right at about 1300-1400 cals. not too bad. now i just have to get myself to sleep.
oh, and super pumped that i didn't go out and i didn't get any wine. lol- i *blame* working out... it totally stopped me :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 October 2009 06:13 pm |
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sleep wasn't too bad last night. wish i had worked out more, but i got a really bad stomachache around 11. i think it was from the gorgonzola...
going to hang out in the library today, for a while at least. i have to get that paper done for sure. lol. it's due tomorrow. then a different power point project to do for the presentation. :P. then i can rest for a little while, at least. well, actually then i am going to talk to the social work department. then i can chill for a bit, focus on what i am going to do my final paper on (a 20 pager, i think), and work on my final project annotated bibliography (i still think i might submit the abstract for a conference in new york)... then the semester will be pretty much over. this week of #%@&! and then i will work on a bit here and there....
food so far today:
egg white sandwich- pita, eggwhites, ff cheese, ham- 185
lunch will probably be subway
don't know after that... i will probably be pulling an all nighter of sorts tonight. i don't want to work on it tomorrow morning at all. going to sleeeeeeppp...
work out is going to have to wait till tonight, if i can get one in at all. didn't have time to o it this morning. i couldn't sleep till almost 3 last night and was already up at 9:30. wasn't going to sacrifice the already little sleep i had. i could sleep for another 2 hours as it is...
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 October 2009 11:46 pm |
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well i have been it school for almost 4 hours, steadily working on my paper for about 2:45- 3 hours. getting there, but i still have to get the rest of my evidence and put it all into some coherant for by 5 pm tomorrow. hopefully closer to midnight tonight.
lunch was subway- club, no cheese, light mayo and baked chips. says there are 320 cals, but add the light mayo and i think that's another 50 or so cals...
so 520 for lunch?
720 total for the day so far. not too bad.
i'm thinking about going home and taking a nap. sort of regroup, change my environment. i hope i won't be too distracted, but i think i can still pump out this paper by the end of the night.
also, it will give me a chance to workout when i get sick of reading and writing again.
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zenobia
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Posted: 23 October 2009 09:53 pm |
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so i finished my paper yesterday. eh. not happy with it, but at least it's done. i have another project i want done by monday. a gorup project and i have pretty much commited to having it done by then, though we are not presenting till thursday.
yesterday was decnet food wise- not a whole lot of food, i was at about 750 for the day, if that... then we went out. had a roast beef sandwhich and some sweet potato fries. no horrible. i didn't work out though, but i did do a lot of pacing (i do that whne i am stressed and thinking). today i have been in rocovery mode and will start working on my project shortly. i'm excited for a workout tonight.
breakfast was a homemade taco- probably 250-300. not too bad.
might have a glass or two of wine tonight as well.
yay! we get to watch last nights episode of the office tonight, too :)
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Posted: 23 October 2009 10:03 pm |
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Yay, Zen, you got the paper done! Awesome!
I caught the tail end of an old office episode yesterday. It was sooooo funny. Mike was hosting a "diversity" session at work. He made everyone put stickers on their foreheads representing a different ethnicity, then they had to "mix it up". It was beyond hilarious. The actor who plays Mike was born to do this kind of comedy.
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zenobia
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Posted: 24 October 2009 07:22 pm |
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jack, i know! i love that show!!!!
ok, so it's been 3 days since i worked out. i did go into work for a few hours yesterday because tehy were short handed. today is dedicated to homework. i'm going to take over the second bedroom and spread out my stuff and pound out some substantial work. i will break up my homeowrk time with a workout. time to regroup and stop thinking for a little while.
food eysterday was not great. didn't eat a whole lot in the beginning of the day. i had a chicken sandwich. no awful, not great. also had a few glasses of wine and then some popcorn. i know i went over my 1350. the popcorn was sooooo not necessary.
today breakfast as usual. no wine tongith, probably a sanwhich for lunch/dinner and something small later. work tomorrow then back to homework. probably no wine until monday night, probably more like tuesday. i'll probably be getting my paper back on tuesday and i am not looking forward to it.
i guess that is all for now.
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zenobia
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Posted: 24 October 2009 10:58 pm |
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ok, so i am stuffed from my roast beef and gorgonzola sandwich (bought not home made) and kettle chips . that should hold me for a while, though.
doing homework, getting distracted. want to work out in a few hours when i am less full feeling. dinner has to be really light. i don't know the nutrition info of what i had... i hate that. i just gotta stop eating out. i should ban anything i don't know the calories contenct of. it would just make so much more sense...
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zenobia
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Posted: 25 October 2009 09:25 am |
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so today was sort of a wash. no workout. i waited to long to have dinner, but i just had a left over taco. then i had peanut butter on bread. and then later i found the oreos...
so not so great. i avoided going to the bar though, so i will totally workout tomorrow. i also switched my shift so i don't work (i seriously have to get my butt in gear with the homework, but i did do some tonight). my new goal is to work out for 20-30 min right when i wake up, then a longer workout at night/afternoon.
ok, so taking a cue form Jack--- goals for tomorrow
wake up by 9 am
bike for 20-30 min
meditate
light breakfast
put in 8 hours of homework
workout again (TJ)
stay away from wine
go to bed around midnight
stay relatively low carb all day
can i make it just one whole day with sticking to plan??? yeah. it's just one day
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zenobia
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Posted: 25 October 2009 07:39 pm |
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well i couldn't get to sleep until around 5 am, so waking up at 9 didn't happen. it was 11 when i crawled out of bed. slept on the couch for most of the night, too. yuck.
i almost had breakfast right away, but there wasn't anything for breakfast, so here i am, about to work out.
oh. i FINALLY stepped on the scale this morning. i figured that the number is going to be the same whether i check or not, and i guess i would rather known than not know... the number wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. i was expecting the worst... anything from 150-160. mild relief washed over me when i sw the number was about 143.
yeah. where i started form when i started on this site years ago.
well, it really could be worse, so i am not freaking out too much about it....
and now i know where i am starting from.
so i am down to about 8 weeks before we leave. my realistic goal is 130. that's not too ridiculous, though i will probably have to go shopping for clothes before we go. that's ok since 130 is a decent size for me. i will still want to drop another 10 lbs after that... i'm actually gong to really shoot for a loss of 15 lbs. i am really considering joining the inevitable Christmas challenge since i am over my fear of the scale.... oh, i'm thinking that even if i really work for a few days, i will still be at about 143 because of yesterday's minor binge. oh well.
going to do my short workout now, then go grocery shopping. strict count of calories. checking wight twice a week at first... then maybe daily again after.
here i go!
ok, 20 min of biking down!
my short-term goal is 139... 4 lbs!
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Posted: 25 October 2009 10:04 pm |
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| 143? Not so bad...I've got you beat by goodly margin. Very good point about it being the same whether you know or not.
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Posted: 25 October 2009 10:33 pm |
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Yay! Go Zen Go! Congrats on stepping on that dreaded scale; I know how hard it can be for sure! But just like you said, you do have to know where to start from. I so hated stepping on it this weekend too; mine was not as good though. 159.5. And all I could think of was - hey, it's least it's not 160! HA! Yeah, that's how my pathetic mind works.
I'll probably join that Christmas challenge too - if we're having one. I really need the inspiration, and simply joining in here more.
Keep rockin' girl!
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 31 October 2009 05:37 am |
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Heya, Zen!
Happy Halloween...what's your costume? I have a good idea..how about a sexy witch :) I thought long and hard about that one, I bet you can tell :)
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suenos
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Posted: 1 November 2009 05:27 am |
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Hiya Zen! Figuring a pic is worth a thousand words............
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zenobia
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Posted: 1 November 2009 09:35 am |
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aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwww! (yes, it HAD to be said!) is that your totally adorable fuzzy cuteness????? i doubt it, but i had to ask. and yes, that is about how i have been lately. yup, that pic says it all
so what have i been doing. well, presentation is over. yay. have no idea how i did.
didn't work out for oh about a week, if not longer. yeah. food has not been good. but you know, i am not giving up. we booked our flight to go back home for a few weeks over chrstmas and new years (yeah, MN in december. gross.) but it will be a nice change and we will get to see everyone :)
so this leaves me with about 7 weeks to really accomplish soemthing with my weight. and the end of the semester is coming and that is always soooooo stressful. i didn't fair so well with the stress of the last two projects, but i am going to be starting on one fo them on monday (due nov. 19th... maybe i will start tomorrow...)
then the second one is due dec. 14th... oh there is another and i think that is dec 4th or soemthing, but it is sort of part of the first one..... anyway, it's going to be a pain in the arse.
so i want to handle things differently this tiem, start 'early", work on it a bit at a time, and workout in the process. good food, stress relife of working out, blah blah blah. i know i've said it before, but one of these times it is actually going to work. so. working out tomorrow (if i can fall asleep tonight, i want to work out once in the morning before work.....and then again later). just 20 min in the morning. that's all.
oh, Jack. yeah, i had to work.... so no dressing up. but i did actually do my hair and eyes. so i guess that was kind of fun...
anyway, i hope to sleep soon.. looking forward to reporting good things tomorrow.
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zenobia
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Posted: 3 November 2009 03:43 am |
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whew. so food wasn't so awful yesterday. but no workout. blech. met up with hubs after teh Vikes game (we won! woot! but i still hate favre).
so i went to the bar looking as cute as possible. i had a good time. and i looked pretty cute . oh, and who spends their time at the bar trying to figure out who was fighting who in a scene from hamlet, and what act the whole "do you bite your thumb at me???" spiel occured in? who DOES that???? oh yeah... me. and hubs. and a recruited friend via the phone. dear god we are weird (but we got the answer. it felt sooooooooo good to get the answer!)
so i woke up feeling pretty darn good today. i cooked breakfast (my super awesome french toast) AND i cooked dinner (my even awesomer angel hair alfredo). yes folks, that's twice.
i. cooked. twice.
and i pretty much cleared the diningroom table of pdf files (though we did not eat there... i know. weird) and random receipts.
*gasp*
shock!
am i suddenly Suzie Homemaker? did i get some steppford wives flu? did i get domestic?
no, but it's fun to play house sometimes
that being said, i had french toast and sausage for breakfast, and shrimp alfredo with bread sticks for dinner. with pinot noir for the latter (hey, you eat italian, you gotta have red wine. it's pretty much a fact). but, the noodles were wheat and the syrup was lite. so it could have been worse.
on another note, my computer caught something thanks to LOLcats. oh, i found that pic, suenos . LOLcats make me giggle, virus or not.
so i don't know what i am waiting for. must be soemthing. better be something. there is a game and my head needs to be in it. and i wrote not too long ago that i was "restoring the balance". but i have to wonder, did i ever really have the balance to begin with? i'm really doubting it.
oh, and this is random, but does anyone find it really really odd that merril lynch commercials use the awesome song by The flamming Lips "do you realize" ......
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0GSboEx4vJg
........for financial planning, particularly in the event of your inevitable death???? 
so i'm off to listen to music..... that will probably end up in a commercial someday....
*sigh*
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suenos
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Posted: 3 November 2009 04:54 am |
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zenobia wrote:
on another note, my computer caught something thanks to LOLcats. oh, i found that pic, suenos . LOLcats make me giggle, virus or not.
so i don't know what i am waiting for. must be soemthing. better be something. there is a game and my head needs to be in it. and i wrote not too long ago that i was "restoring the balance". but i have to wonder, did i ever really have the balance to begin with? i'm really doubting it.
wow zen, did my lttle kitty give you a virus? sooooo sorry...i'm a LOl cats freak and send 'em all over the place when I find a really good one - but nobody every got a virus from 'em before...now I feel terrible.
and...I'm dying to comment on your "balance" thing...cause that's been my own song for the last two years...but running crazy short on time....I'll be back (without LOL cats)
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zenobia
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Posted: 3 November 2009 06:07 am |
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suenos
ackshully.... no, it wasn't you. i am a LOLcats freak myself and i was viewing them and seomthing attacked me. i found the kitty, but it was not the pic that gave it to me. no worries post the LOLcats!!! pure coincidence.
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zenobia
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Posted: 4 November 2009 06:31 am |
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ok. first off
food:
yogurt (lemon chiffon- my new favorite!!!)- 80
protein bar- 210
chicken pesto sandwich- 810
light popcorn- 250?
so 1350! nice. was on campus today, then walked to the movie store... i just have to say, we have been renting tons of movies lately and have found some pretty awesome ones. after you see all the new releases, you starting going for the indie films and classics
City of God- 80s i think??? super amazing
surveillance- it will screw with you head. awesome
Fly away- just all around great
ok, there are more and i probably could have described them better, but i'm just saying... these are some really great movies... and i'm so happy i'm actually starting to expand my movi horizons. why didn't i do this earlier???
anyway, it's 11:30 and i still want to work out. i could bike. i just took some 5-HTP, so at least i won't get goofy tired... um, and i'm still hungry and i refuse to eat. so either i sleep or i bike.... tough choice... ggrrrrr.... too bad i can't dream about biking and it would be the same as actually doing it...
ok, that was a lame post. i am out.
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 4 November 2009 07:03 am |
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City of God, Surveillance, and fly away. Got it.
Suzie Homemaker? Perish the thought. You've got to listen to those old Moody Blues tunes.
Good point about the implicit assumption in restoring the balance...it's a worthy objective, nonetheless.
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Posted: 4 November 2009 07:04 am |
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zenobia
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Posted: 6 November 2009 06:53 am |
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ok, i suppose i'm back :)
not been doing so great on the working out. i don't know what happened. i was all gung-ho, and then  . feeling sort of down lately. i know, a stupid reason to stop working out... probably would have felt better if i did. anyway, i was feeling froggy tonight, so i did work out. well, if it could be considered working out... 20 min on the bike. not awful.
still have some big projects coming up fast. i just don't know what to do my research on right now. i have to do something with renaissance lit. (not a fan) and i'm not sure where i want to go with it... well, i better figure it out soon...
ok, so about 1500 cals ? a brat and chips. ugh... the chips. a protien bar for breakfast... i went too long in between meals, i think. so i ate a bit too much. i worked for a little over 2 hours toinight (class was cancelled and work needed the help). so i behaved for the most part (i.e. not going out...)( and at least got something in as far as getting the heart rate up). i think i can keep this up. it really helps when you are not drinking...
so working, 20 min bike, walked on campus, about 1500 cals. coulda been better, coulda been worse...
peace out
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zenobia
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Posted: 6 November 2009 06:58 am |
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p.s.
did i ever mention that i LOVE annie hall??? or rather, i lurve it.... i luff it.
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jackbenimble
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Posted: 6 November 2009 01:49 pm |
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Heya Zen!
Annie Hall was so funny. Is that the one where Woody Allen sneezes into a container full of cocaine on the table, completely emptying it? I couldn't stop laughing at that.
<warning - thread hijack>
Speaking of the renaissance, I was just thinking about it the other day. What a revolution the printing press must have been...taking jealously guarded knowledge from a few meticulously copied books and sending out it out to the four winds...what an impact that must have had. It carried the seeds of an amazing surge in creativity and knowledge which shaped much of the world as we know it today. It was kind of like a first cut of the internet, or vice-versa, perhaps. One famous example of the the renaissance is when you look at these 12th century medieval paintings, they don't have perspective - they look as if they were done by grade-schoolers when compared with the stunningly detailed works by Michelangelo, De Vinci and all those guys. What a bleak period the Dark Ages must have been - no significant advances from the fifth century until the renaissance. Then kapow.
What got me thinking about it was an interview I heard on NPR with this guy who wrote a book about a world map which was the first one with the north america on it. It was drawn around 1508. It actually influenced Copernicious to write his missive about a sun-centered solar system. The name of America, which was given its name by the authors of the map, itself turns out to be an epic pun. Besides being a variation on Vespucci's first name, it makes it a name of place, translates to the Greek "born new" and the Latin "No place land", gives it a feminine connotation as was the tradition with continents, and inspired Thomas Moore's naming of "Utopia". Quite a name for a country which for all its flaws has represented freedom, hope and opportunity to the world for much of its history...here's a link if you're interested.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/magazine/8328878.stm
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