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zenobia
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Posted: 12 February 2008 04:40 pm |
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So this is Twincomparison and I recording that "random munching" we are guilty of. i really think this will help us both.....
well, this morning started out alright. been worse, but i did nosh on some cheese and cool whip.... *sigh*
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zenobia
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Posted: 13 February 2008 12:57 pm |
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well, yesterday was quite strange. i think i am seriously rebeling against myself. i am knowingly completely throwing everything out the window.
Doritos. of all things, freaking doritos. i don't even really like doritos. i purchased a bag of them at work yeasterday. and not one of those small bags either. i also bought the cheese dip. i snacked ALL night at work on them. i ate till i was more than full. and i ended up feeling like complete #%@&!.
on the up side, i di end up throwing the rest of the bag away last night, along with the reast of the dip. i actually consumed quite a lot (really, and i am not a big fan of doritos!!! i could have actually made it "worth it"..)
i quite feel like i put on 10 lbs.
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so, for this morning, i munched on a few grapes, maybe 7-10 of them, and a spoon of cool whip, when i was topping off my tea. 
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twincomparison
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Posted: 13 February 2008 06:18 pm |
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i know the feeling...it always seems way worse when i go buy the junk food on my own...it feels bad enough when someone else buys it and i just happen to take a few here and there..but when i go out and buy something i konw i'll regret later..thats the worse..it's weird how i can convince myself that i'll be able to just eat a few and i'll be fine..when i know deep down that i won't be able to
yesturday was ok...was to busy to really eat random things...plus..i feel so full from the food i eat (that i plan to eat)..i feel really self conscious that i'm eating to much...
but i had some peanuts, a few handfuls of cereal, 1/2 granola bar, then the other half later...my basic routine...pretty much the same deal everyday...
This morning while my breakfast was cookin i had a handful of cereal and a few grapes...
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zenobia
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Posted: 15 February 2008 09:37 pm |
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you know.... your post made me think- you said that "it's the usual stuff"... maybe that implies that we are just sort of binging out of habit. granted, when i eat it's usually not out of hunger (or else because i am starving after not eating for a long while), but out of bordom and out of habit. i tend to eat the same things every day. i tensd to binge on the same things every day. i seem to make the same mistakes every day. this implies that either i don't care, i don't know how to change, or i don't want to change. so.... what does this all lead up to? lol- i am not sure yet!
like i mentioned in my journal, i really need to do some searching. i need some time away... to get it all straight. i liked abby's idea- a little note book so i can just jot things down as i go along. maybe that will really help.... heh- and i've to to learn to tell myself "no".... i think that's one of the first steps...
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twincomparison
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Posted: 16 February 2008 03:00 am |
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that is so true...i KNOW it's out of habit..i think all it's going to take is self confidence and will power...
its funny that you say you need to do some searching..becasue that's how i feel too..like i don't need to focus so much on this stuff and maybe things will happen the way i want...maybe if i focus on the things in life that i am doing well at, then i'll do well in other aspects of my life as well...i think confidence is the only thing that will let me stand up to my habits and say "no"...
that's why i haven't posted on here so much lately...i feel like i can't focus on the bad stuff i do..because i make a lot of good choices too...
I know i will be great if i stay confident...maybe we should have this be about the good things we do and are proud of ourselves for instead...:)
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zenobia
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Posted: 16 February 2008 03:27 pm |
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yeah, it's sort of like the affermations thread. i'm not sure where it is, but it is inspirational and has some neat ideas.. lots of positive thinking. maybe that is the key.
i have been really considering hypnosis again. i tired the one that is suggested on this site, but i really didn't care for her or her voice. just didn't work for me. but i would love to find someone that would work. i'm just not sure where to start looking.
yeah, i am not doing so well. though i havn't really bought anything again, i have been way over indulging. it's almost like i am pushing myself to see how far i can go. and i do it completely intentionally. and i am still not working out. ok,k it's time to stp rebeling now...
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kukalachka
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Posted: 26 February 2008 02:10 pm |
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Zenobia,
I'd love to be your buddy in this forum and discuss our bad habits...i read the short thread and have experienced alot of the same stuff....munching here and there out of complete habit, boredom, or fact in point that im standing in the kitchen and it just seems natural to throw something in my mouth.
pointless. pointless. pointless.
its 10 am where i am now...i woke up this morning at 630 am, hit the gym for an hour and a half, and had a breakfast of a banana, some fatfree yogurt, and a little cereal on top...so far the day is good...but weakness has yet to rear its ugly head in the coming hours...
*stay strong*
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zenobia
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Posted: 26 February 2008 03:29 pm |
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hi! i'm happy you could join me here. you already hit the gym? wow! i am going to workout shortly here. unfortunatly, the kitchen has already called me... some fat free pringles, some soy crisps, whipped cream. yeah, all of my weaknesses... i don't understand why i even have these sorts of foods in the house. soy crisps i can't live without, but there is no reason for the other stuff. but then i think about it, it doesn't really matter. anything in the house is going to be munched on. that's why i have to get out of this place...
so, are there any suggestions on how to stop? i try to tell myself no, to hold myself back, to remember how muchi am going to regret it later, but it doesn't seem to help much. i think i am already at 450-500 cals. why can't i just stay out of the kitchen?
and oh yes, i know what that "standing at the fridge with the door open, mindlessly grabbing at stuff, munching away" is like. oh yeah, i live it constantly.
you too, kuka--- stay very strong. if we can go just one day, or even just part of the day, without doing it, it's an accomplishment. keep yourself busy. i am getting out of the house!!!
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kukalachka
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Posted: 26 February 2008 07:52 pm |
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I'm at a solid 1000 cals so far today...which isnt too bad, its about 4 pm...and everything ive put in my mouth today is truely "healthy"...besides the nutri-grain bar i had for lunch (high fructose corn syrup is the devil, i tell you!)...but it was followed by a healthy fruit cup, and a light salad when i came home from classes...
the threat of thai food for dinner tonight with my brother scares me...but i craaaaave it...as long as i stick to something healthy, a salad or something, i should be okay...
winter is the enemy. the cold weather. seasonal depression. the lack of things to do. the desire to stay inside and avoid the treacherous weather. all of this is taking its toll on me, and bad. so much so that i dont even want to speak to or hang out with my roomates or friends.
seems like the only friend i have right now is breakfast, lunch, and dinner. even those three dont make me happy anymore.
ohhhhhh spring, where art thou? :(
ps. even though alot of this is mindless babbling...i feel like its REALLY helping me...just gettin my thoughts out there who someone who doesnt think i'm crazy...glad we found each other.
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zenobia
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Posted: 27 February 2008 10:36 pm |
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so how did the thai food experience go? i love thai and i am always craving chinese food....
yeah, i havn't been doing well at all. this is just plain rediculous. i feel like i am a bottomless pit. it's gotta get filled up at some point, yes?
i am still fighting though. i am very happy we found eachother!
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kukalachka
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Posted: 28 February 2008 03:40 am |
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the thai food...oh boy.
well i always want to try something new when i go there...this time i thought spinach with chicken in their house peanut sauce would be tasty and still healthy...however, the peanut sauce was more like peanut butter soup! but soooo good. i ate about half of the portion, and it wasnt very big to begin with, so i decided to splurge and get dessert! my brother and i shared fried banana and coconut ice cream...still, not a massive portion between two people and i tell you what, had i been in private, i couldve eaten about 498574 portions. :x bad bad me. but prior to dinner, i only consumed about 1000 cals, and had worked out that morning, so i figured, why not.
today was really really good...i wasnt home much to do any thoughtless snacking! (okay-i lie- around 4 pm i had about 7 little wheatcrackers...whatever). but lunch AND dinner consisted of fresh fruit and fresh veggies! i shouldve incorporated more protein and meat into my diet today but oh well...
and i worked out for an hour and a half tonight at the gym, w00p w00p! i think total cals today is around...1480...not bad, not bad at all!
tonight i definitely feel good and happy. food and my daily caloric intake has soooo much to do with how i feel...if only i would stick to this pattern and realize that although mindless snacking and "bad" foods taste good--later i dont feel happy or good AT ALL...thus STAY AWAY FROM THEM! mind over matter...mind over matter...
crossing my fingers for another "well-behaved" day tomorrow...although i cant stop thinking about breakfast...im faaammiishhhed...better get to bed.
goodluck, friend.
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kukalachka
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Posted: 28 February 2008 09:07 pm |
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oh my godddddddd
i just had a small shamrock shake..thanks to my wonderful peer pressuring roomate, low self control, and unmotivated sense of self today.
ugh. i feel horrible :(
definitely hitting the gym tonight for at least 2 hours of cardio...that tiny shake alone has about 415 cals in it
grossssssss.
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zenobia
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Posted: 29 February 2008 06:56 am |
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ok, kudos to you for having the motivation to work it off after. if i could only get that back!!!!!!!!
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zenobia
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Posted: 1 March 2008 05:13 am |
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i hope you are still not beating yourself up over the shake. it happens, you know? pick yourself up and just keep trucking. you don't want to kill yourself after one little slip up. do you never ever want to eat ice cream again? i doubt it. just try to stick to your guns the rest of the week. i learned a while back that one treat isnt' going to break you. it's the constant treats and indulgances that turn to binges and gain.
i hope you are not planning staying away for too long. this place will help you get it back.
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zenobia
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Posted: 9 March 2008 07:00 pm |
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just checking on ya to make sure that you are doing ok.... i hope you are still not upset over the shake. post if you get a chance and let me know how you are doing. hope all is well...
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kukalachka
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Posted: 10 March 2008 07:58 pm |
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hahaha, no, i'm over the shake. dont worry.
sorry i havent been an avid poster, ive been busy and preoccupied with things other than food...i searched out this site in a really really low time, i think i will revert back to it when i feel like i need to...
but the more, or rather, less i can think about food and all that nonsense i get upset about, the better.
thanks for caring though! and i do still check the site, so feel free to post your daily concerns or diet problems, ill be here to reply :)
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zenobia
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Posted: 13 May 2008 04:40 pm |
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ok, so we are giving this another go. AshIdiot and i are reving this up again. (peter, can you change the names on the topic? thanks!)
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 13 May 2008 05:00 pm |
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I went to the store (yet again) this morning. I think that's one of my several addictions....
I got apples, more yogurt, high-fiber granola bars, rice cakes, sugar-free hot chocolate, and gambled on some sugar-free ketchup. Sounds healthy, right? Yeah, it always does. But then I eat more than one serving of ice cream or granola bars and send my day into havoc. I had to get the ketchup because plain chicken is so bland and I don't look forward to eating it. Hopefully now I will, this stuff only has 5 cals.
Added to the list of things I can have at the end of the day to bring my total up to 1450, now I'm at 14 snack suggestions. My problem is letting myself have something earlier in the day, then feeling like I'm missing out come nightfall because that's when I usually have it.
Hoping to exercise today for the first time since Saturday. Trying to only do 45 minutes instead of an hour, because I'm so injury-prone. I even sprained my wrist in bed last night flipping over onto my comfortable side. How on earth I did that, the world will never know. Work tomorrow will be LOADS of fun...I wonder if I can make myself be left-handed....Intervals are supposed to burn more fat, but those sites also warn against doing more than 30 minutes of cardio per day. It's almost offensive, being told to exercise less. I want to do more because I can't lift weights for a few days and my legs are finally free of aches and pains. But if I do more, my feet will become sore....ARGH.
My mind is an adorable place. I just want to hug it.
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zenobia
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Posted: 13 May 2008 05:19 pm |
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seriously, like everyone at the grocery store knows me by name and product. i am a Cub Foods staple. i'm there at least three times a week, if not more. yeah, it's an addiction of mine as well. almost embarassing.
i am so guilty of trying to "save" my cals for later in the day.. but then i binge in the morning because for some reason, that is sort of my time.. then i don't really hav cals left for evening, but i end up throwing all my efforts to the wind... lame, i know. totally self defeating.
I really don't mind intervals- you have to work harder, but for a shorter amount of time and it's really not so bad if you find a way you don't toally hate (tried with jump rope... completely blew... i don't mind doing it on a stationary bike, though.) i only do it for 20 minutes. started with ten then worked my way up. i say give it a go, but really if you can only do ten minutes, that's still awesome. and don't do HIIT more than once or twice a week.... i used to do normal intervals for about 40 minutes on the bike with varying resistance... it seemed to work.
on spraining your wrist while sleeping- well, can't really help ya with that one. maybe you could just tell people you got in a fight or something.
there's really no need to do more than 45 min of cardio a day. someone told me that more means just that- more.... not necessarily better. 45 min of moderate cardio and then maybe take some walks if you want something more. that really worked for me in the past and i am going to give it a go again...
bah- work sucks.... off to that soul sucking establishment now.... lol...
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 13 May 2008 09:45 pm |
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...Why do I bother.
The dog's been horrible, whining and barking and jumping around all day. He's driven me insane and I ate half my mom's box of chocolates and a few high-fiber granola bars. That's always a smart idea. But I did get in an hour of exercise. I wonder if I can eat all of the calories I exercise off since the diet plan I outlined only adds up to my RMR's worth (using methods/calculators that assume I'm sedentary). That would be sweet. I'd lose weight a lot more slowly, though....hmph. There's a downside to everything, isn't there?
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zenobia
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Posted: 17 May 2008 05:20 am |
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ugh- i really think i have to try hypnosis again. it's gotten to be pretty gross. i have been looking at pitures from my wedding to help motivatre me to get back to that blessed 116-118 range. this has come to the point of rediculous....
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 17 May 2008 05:25 am |
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So I did that stupid gorging thing and a fruit/fruitjuice fast today...until like 10 pm when The Soup came on, I remember I was eating ice cream and baked lays. I guess that's close enough, I just wanted to do a tiny detox. And then jam it back up again with things like pancakes with syrup.....Ah well.
Tomorrow is work, the weekend, and a return to my normal diet. Wow, I sense some tension and problems. But I'll make it work somehow. Maybe I can take some 25-cal hot chocolate in a thermos and drink that in the car on the way home so I can eat my normal lunch without feeling too hungry. Better than that 150-cal fiber bar in my purse, that's for sure....
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zenobia
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Posted: 17 May 2008 05:58 am |
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i would really love to do some sort of detox. it always seems like a great idea, but i never really get to it.
yeah, had some homemade garlic bread (been craving garlic more than usual- which is a lot!)... after a birthday dinner and cake and ice cream. totally shot my blood sugar level up... felt "hungry"... jees.... and i feel really really bloated- why on earth do i do this to myself?
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 18 May 2008 03:25 am |
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| Today I stayed on my calorie limit but didn't stay on my list of approved foods. Give a little, get a little. The only exercise I got was walking all around the supermarket looking for a lint brush.
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zenobia
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Posted: 18 May 2008 01:43 pm |
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wish i could say that much. my demise yesterday was a party at a friends house. didn't have real food so i had to sustain on tortilla chips and cheese dip. supposed to go to a bbq today so i don't know how that is supposed to go. then i really have to get back to being good again.
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 18 May 2008 10:45 pm |
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Today wasn't a nightmare. Well, kinda. Work was terribly busy and ALL the new people have sprained wrists, we faux-cried together during the slow periods 
The family members I dreaded didn't even come, I worried about nothing. Made my first smoothie today so of course I had a kid's cup of leftover. I brought it home and gave it to my sister instead of eating it myself, which is good. I didn't think I would but I get surprised sometimes. When I got home I had a travel mug of hot chocolate, a banana, and a slice of angel food cake in place of my waffles, since I THINK afc has the same number of calories (140, I'm praying, instead of 180). I should be on track calorie-wise. I wish I knew the effects of italian dressing marinade on grilled chicken breast....I'd love to think it has the same calories as when I make five plain tenderloins. Psh, I'll just make my own. Screw other peoples' feelings.
I'm debating a diet dr pepper + sugar/fat-free ice cream float for dessert....
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 20 May 2008 01:46 am |
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Yesterday I was only 15 cals under my limit. Then at 1 am, I grabbed a granola bar and a 100 cal pack of oreo bites. It pretty much ruined today for me, even though I slept through breakfast and lunch. I scarfed down a couple apples before work. Got home at a quarter 'til 8, so I had time to make up for. In a manner of speaking.
Ended up going way over my limit, I just can't stop myself sometimes. I really don't think I'll ever lose weight...
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zenobia
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Posted: 20 May 2008 04:28 pm |
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aw ash... it sounds like going over by about 250 cals isn't too bad. at the very least, it would be mantenance (if that).
yeah, i know what you mean, though. i am binging bad again (doesn't help that thre are chips in the house.... at least there is no ice cream).
i probably had one of the worst days yesterday- came home, had two glasses of wine, probably ended up over my limit by a lot... woke up feeling like #%@&! and completely not motivated.
can i ask, what number are you limiting yourself to for cals?
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 20 May 2008 04:33 pm |
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I'd love to do 1450, which is supposed to be my RMR. But of course, I have mini-freakouts at night and eat 1000 cals of useless, worthless junk before I even know what's hit me. Last night it was a pack of nutty bars, fudge swirl non-sugar-free ice cream, and about four 100 cal packs of oreos. And sunchips and granola bars...ugh.
I have to redo my food plan because I'm tired of half of the food on there, like turkey bacon and egg whites. I can't sneak junk food in it because then I'll be even more malnourished. I'm an inch from giving up on this whole "get healthy" hoopla, I can't even exercise because I keep straining/spraining/tearing stuff. And if I'm not burning any of it off, no reason to eat extra protein. Ayiyiyi. I suppose my bran flakes will have to give me all my vitamins and minerals.
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zenobia
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Posted: 20 May 2008 05:01 pm |
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ok, i am having the same problem. how do we go about beating this? yeah, i know, if you had the answer you wouldn't have a problem... but is there something that maybe we can do together to get us through those really rough times?
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zenobia
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Posted: 20 May 2008 05:02 pm |
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giving up is really not going to be doing much good either. i feel like i have given up already, but at the smae time, i am sticking around so all hope is not lost. at least you are now aware- we now just have to figure something out. is there anything you look at for motivation?
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 20 May 2008 05:23 pm |
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Haven't really done that in years. I don't even have too-small clothes in my closet anymore, they're boxed up and in the basement. I have a second food-related journal full of post-binge anger and 'advice'. I never remember to look at it when I'm getting antsy though. Maybe if I bookmark it and add a shortcut to my desktop.
I'm debating two hours of slow cycling when I get home from a meeting around 5. How bad can that be on my joints if I'm not pushing myself to go 24 mph? Plus, there's a stash of motrin somewhere because there were a few on my nightstand when I woke up.
Edit:
UGH! So frustrated and worried about the upcoming ice cream festival. 4,000 people per day?! What's the big freaking appeal, you can buy it at the store! GOD! I'm going to kill someone.
Also frustrated because I hate this town. I hate everyone in it. I want to go HOME! But the closest thing to home is a giant Hershey almond bar (540 cals) and a ziploc full of peanut butter cups (200 cals per 3). I have the rest of the PB cups for later plus a giant slab of generic milk chocolate. Because making sugar-free chocolate is a crime against humanity and punishable by lethal injection or something.
I have 145 calories left for the rest of the day. I really need to exercise. And tell people to go bite themselves when they whine about how busy and important their lives are (*cough*mysister*cough*).
Edit2:
Must calm down and remain in said state. Eventually my sister will go to Colorado for whatever fake college she made up and eventually my brother will move to Columbus for whatever fake degree he got at college. Oh well! Simpsons is on! Whoohoooo
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 May 2008 03:55 am |
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hey, would you like to do our own little challenge? we can just be accountable to ourselves. we can have mini goals and dates and guidlines based on what we want.
what do you think?
oh- and REWARDS! we can't forget about those bad boys!
so are you the yongest in your family? can't wait to get the place to yourself?
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 21 May 2008 04:15 am |
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I'll probably be at home a few more years since I can't find a job that pays enough for me to live on my own. Which sucks, of course. I can't remember if I mentioned it but my sister's 10 years older than me, my brother's 5 years older than me, and my stepbrother is in his mid-late thirties along with my stepsister. So I don't remember when they lived with us at all. My stepdad is 40 years and one week older than me, so he was a bit more advanced in his life than my mom when they met.
For challenges, right now I'm trying to just chill out and stop being so stressed and angry at stupid stuff. I've noticed over the past few weeks that every evening when the sun goes down, I get loopy. I space out, I forget where I am, I make a lot of nonsense come out of my keyboard, and I shovel down anything with sugar in it. Right now I'm blaming this on not sticking to my carefully-structured food schedule that made sure I was getting protein and calcium and all that every few hours.
But I do need to start exercising again, definitely. 6 hours a week would be heaven, and with my sister being so "busy with her life", it might even be attainable if she isn't coming over every Saturday derailing my daily schedule and food plan. I'd love to average 1500 calories per day, as well. I know I'm going to lose control once in a while and I have to plan for it, but not give myself an enormous amount of leeway that I'll take advantage of and later regret.
Argh I'm all spacey. I should get to sleep and add to this when I'm more coherent.
Things I need to fix:
Stress eating
Night eating
Screaming
Caffeine after 6 pm
Dropping $15 on chocolate and chips every time I leave the house
Ordering/cooking/eating more food than I know I can physically handle
Eating really fast, having two bites in my mouth at any given time
Being discouraged at how much I have to accomplish 
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 May 2008 04:30 am |
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wow, quite the spread in the family. i thought mine was crazy (my youngest sister is 14 years younger than me, my brother is 10 younger, step brother is 6younger and i am 10 years younger than my husband... lol- and i am 26 going on 42 going on 17... it's a wierd place to be ).
ok, you have this list- how about you just pick one. you know, what i think my problem is is that i did start to give myself waaaayy too much leeway, thinking that i "will be able to drop it pretty fast if i have to", or "it's super easy to get back on track". what i wasn't realizing was that by doing the sorts of workouts i was doing, i was able to have a few nights of fun a week... if i ate well 90% of the time, i was ok. i just let everything slip and now it is really starting to show- and i am finding it much more difficult to get to where i was.
anyway, i am the same as far as spacing out. it's usually around 5 in the winter and 8 in the summer. i am not sure why.. after a few hours, i tend to perk up, but really, i am so jealous of those little kids that get to take naps!
maybe your blood sugar gets too high during the day and you have this massive crash later on. sounds gross, but maybe add some fiber or something to your diet. do you like oatmeal? might be a good late afternoon snack- it will help stabolize.
yes, you are going to screw up... but you remind me of me- you sort of have to be hard on yourself or things get out of hand. not to like throw it all away if you go 100 or so cals over your limit, but yeah, either bike a bit longer, take an extra long walk, cut back the next day....just think about how much you do not want to take part in the behavior anymore. i amtrying so hard to get there myself.... lol- this talk is not only for you, but a pep talk fo me, too... so thanks!!!
oh- one more thing. how about you pick just one from that list and start working on it. (i say keep the screaming- it can help with the stress! as long as you arn't cussing people out - to thier face- at work... you get my point). wanna give it a go? i will pick 1 thing from a list of mine and we can hold eachother accountable. worth a shot?
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AshIdiot
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Posted: 21 May 2008 06:13 pm |
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Ha okay, I'll work on my furious internal monologue that sometimes escapes. I'm broke, so junk food isn't a problem at the moment. I'm even home alone today, it ought to be a breeze
I've decided that I'm going to do at least 1 1/2 hours of SLOW cycling daily so I don't ruin my ankles/feet. Hopefully 90 minutes is enough for me to wind down and get in enough Alone Thinking Time.
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Posted: 21 May 2008 09:29 pm |
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so, has it been a breeze today? i had a pretty good day until i got home from work where i indulged in a few (yes, i did actually keep it to a few!) pieces of baked lays, 2 eggwhites, a few blueberries and about an 1/8th cup of raisin bran.
at work my biggest mistake was a few (yes, like 7) cheese puff things (about 50 cals worth), gum (guessing about 50 cals), and two monser dirnks (had a really rough time sleeping- needed the energy for truck... those were 20 cals each)
totalling it all up...
gonna round up to 950.
that leaves about 400 cals for the day.
i am going to be by my lonesome till 7 and then again from about 8 or 9 till bedtime.
i am going to the grocery store (god help me)... i think i can hadle it. hey, at least when i take samples of cookies, i only break off a piece (granted, that piece maybe on the bigger side sometimes, but it's still not a whole cookie!... man, i gotta quit that entirely....
oh, so is that the one thing you are going to work on? the 90 min biking? can i hold you accountable? if the answer is yes, then i have to figure something out....
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Posted: 21 May 2008 09:50 pm |
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I did 90 minutes today by the skin of my teeth. I'd almost forgotten how boring it is, only having 100 songs to choose from...have to redo my mp3 player someday.
I've been having a few tiny snacks here and there like sugar-free jello, plain rice cakes, a slightly bigger bowl of cereal, and miraculously I still have calories left for a filling dinner and dessert. I never got around to thawing chicken, so fish it is.
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Posted: 21 May 2008 09:58 pm |
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if you are riding slowly, try reading a magazine. seems to help me.. or watch a movie (tv is too broken up with commercials and stuff).
if you really wanted to thaw chicken, it goes really quick if you put it in warm water and change out the water every 6 minutes or so. doesn't take too long if you have your heart set on chicken. i have my shrimp thawing that way right now.
ok, so you gonna bike daily? alright- hold me for 40-60 min a day (some strenght and some cardio). right now, i am shooting for through tuesday... sound alright?
if so, what's your reward gonna be? i am thinking that i will get a new book. i dunno- but i will get something!
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Posted: 21 May 2008 11:12 pm |
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Hmmm...I'm not great with thinking up rewards but I'll probably do something goofy like a coloring book. There are no cds coming out and anything else would be too expensive. Actually, I just remembered a brand new perfume I saw at Walmart while trying to find astringent. It's supposed to be tahiti coconut or something loopy, but it's only a few bucks.
Daily exercise for a week: cheap perfume
Averaging 1480 calories per day for a month: get a used PS2 game at GameStop
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Posted: 23 May 2008 12:31 am |
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Today wasn't all that great. I snagged a mini-buckeye and a cashew (yeah, a single cashew) at work while refilling them and it sort of ruined my day. It's probably only 15 calories. Then I came home and ate a bunch of tortilla chips, nearly 300 cals worth. And I had two slivers of iced marble cake, I put that at 200 cals. The chips were kind of weird, it was only crumbs at the bottom but I told myself it was a whole second serving. I didn't get waffles for lunch, haven't eaten dinner yet (205 cals). What am I supposed to do with the leftover 45 calories....gosh. Nothing whatsoever. That's like a slice of diet bread with spray butter. I almost gave up a few times today. But I didn't :D
I even exercised....shock. Less boring than yesterday but still almost intolerable.
Of course, I'm inexhaustible in my quest for lower-calorie equivalents of my favorite foods. They now have unsweetened Almond Breeze, and it's only 40 calories for a cup. 5 less grams of protein, though....I guess I'm supposed to have that. Grr, I'll never be happy :( Being hungry sucks.
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Oh noes....I ate TWO poptarts. I don't even like them that much. I'll have to look for fat/sugar-free at the store in the morning...if I can't live without them, I'll have to find the calorie-obsessed version.
Edit again:
Yes, it is official, I have lost control of myself. Well...not really. But I don't like thinking about the mentality of it or the reasons I give myself permission. Let's just say I had a whole lot of snacks after midnight.Last edited on 23 May 2008 04:40 am by AshIdiot
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Posted: 23 May 2008 02:15 am |
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awesome for getting through it! some days are just like that. the big thing is to not let it get you down or to allow yourself to have an excuse to make the situation worse.
hey, i am the same way- always looking for the lowest cal version. if you have stuff you want to find low cal, let me know. i have lots of experience in that category.
sort of had an epiphany today. i did really well for the first time since god knows when (ok, since early feb, aside from my couple of weeks on that cycle (which didn't end too well)).
there were cheese poof at wrok again, but i only allowed myself 5. i also ended up wth gun (really trying to break that still... the sf kind came to around 60 cals.- not sure who to trust- says the gim contians 5 cals, but 2 carbs... wouldn't that be 8 cals total?... i don't know).
so i did absolutely no binging this morning (lst night didn't end up the greatest by any streatch, hence the pics in my diary), got up and did 20 min of TJ and am about to do my real workout of the day.
total cals ended up at about... 1050. wow. i didn't realize i was that low. this is good- i think it's quite alright to have a pretty low day after w lot of high days. i will even things out and get something normal down eventually. i did a lot of my "saving" during the day and i think that halps me out immensly. i realize i should have probably had more, but i am really not all that hungry anyway. i gotta get to bed early and make sure i do my morning workout. i like how i felt afterwards.
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Posted: 24 May 2008 12:19 am |
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When I got on my computer this morning, it was like a mini warzone of pink sugar all over my desk from the poptarts. I kind of laughed, then I felt guilty. Same when I did the ice cream/cake/poptarts/peanut butter dishes.
Went shopping, of course. Got fruit, gum, catfood, a sugar-free angel food cake, granola bars, diet sierra mist...$30 in all. I couldn't find sugar-free poptarts anywhere.The entire AF cake is 360 cals. I cut it up into 8 pieces instead of the recommended 6. Now THAT is comfort(ing) food.
The Cookies n Cream granola bars were 25% less sugar, 90 cals. The strawberry vanilla were 90 already, it seems. SV is my favorite flavor combination of all time so they should be greattt.
I'm thinking of making up some smoothies, but when you think about it, it's just yogurt. I mean you add some sierra mist to regular yogurt and whole fruit. Why not just buy the strawberry banana yogurt, am I right....Maybe I'll make some if the fruit gets mushy, since I got doubles of everything.
Mostly good on eating, I had a few sunchips when I was separating a big bag into single-serving ones.
Exercised, my knee hit the monitor with 6 1/2 minutes to spare, I kind of lost my spirit. But my brother was in the shower so I figured I'd go finish working out.
Oh, I totally bought straws today! They're fun, bendy, and make drinking water a lot less tedious. And to think, my parents told me 89 cents was too much for them!
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Posted: 24 May 2008 12:28 am |
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89 cents is so worth it!
ooh- top that agngle food cake with fthawed out frozen starwberries- i don't know about you, but i love the juicy part (well, i really like syrupy, but the juice is just as good). there a lot and the berries are slightly mushy but still cold anf fresh tasting. add 2 tblsp sugar free coolwhip and it's a really yummy dessert that hits your sweet tooth and gets in your fruit serving. it feels wrong, but it's guilt free.
and that's awesome that you pushed yourself to finish anyway. i know, stupis stuff like that can kill the workout, but hey, you kept going!
just finished biking, too! twice today, and got my weights in. i thnk i'm gonna make it through the week!
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Posted: 26 May 2008 01:02 am |
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Feet are killing me, worked 8 1/3 hours nonstop, no exercise tonight either. Only 350 calories as of 9 pm, I'm going to have a big giant dinner and collapse into bed.
Weighed myself this morning or last night, can't remember which. Gained 1.4 pounds, which makes no sense. And now, after chugging 10 oz of coffee and a banana, my net gain is only 0.4 lbs. Stupid poptarts from last weekend!!
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Posted: 27 May 2008 02:05 am |
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I don't know what's going on...I've been at/under my calorie level for a few days now and at least 6 hours of rushing around the past three days....and still, I've gained a pound in the last 24 hours. And the day before that, I'd gained 0.6! I just don't get it. It's driving me a little loopy. But I got new soymilk and new cereal so that's 15 calories less that I'll never miss. No idea what to do. When the blisters on my toes go down I'll cycle again. I'm tired of stuff.
I'll weigh myself first thing in the morning and see what's really going on. Maybe that's what it is, inconsistent weigh-in times. I have to go back to writing stuff downnnnn
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Posted: 27 May 2008 11:26 pm |
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Yep, 138.6 when I woke up. Much better.
Cashed 1/2 my check and went to the grocery. $20 on 2 kinds of reduced fat cookies, low-fat 'wheat crisps' (sunchips alternative for me), new yogurt flavors, and 15 calorie 'juice'. I ended up in the cookie aisle after googling sugar-free poptarts. Kellogg owns a brand of sugar-free cookies and my local store happens to carry them. They had a lot more calories than the Chips Ahoy and Nilla Wafers I bought, though Plus the packages were TINY and cost twice as much.
Also went to the feed store that used to be my dad's electric company. $1.50 for 4 pounds of corn? Oh yeah! The squirrels will be so happy. I saw one staring at the empty feeder for about 15 minutes today, I felt so bad. It's not like everyone else in the neighborhood doesn't have a feeder but still. I have a somewhat charitable side in me.
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Posted: 29 May 2008 02:17 am |
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Nothing notable today. My mom brought me home a single KK donut (glazed with sprinkles) but it's 220 calories. Forget thattttttttt.
Getting a lot more frustrated than usual lately. I'm just so tired of everyone's #### and putting up with their annoying little problems. I'm tired of swallowing my opinions and advice (which 99% of the time consists of "shut up!"). So I'll just avoid people, screw it. The less stress and annoyances I have, the less I eat. And that can only be a good thing.
Edit: Okayyyyyy I did end up having the donut. And an extra granola bar. Why couldn't I have JUST had the granola bar...ugh. Over 1500 cals today. At least I worked out, I suppose....
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Posted: 29 May 2008 08:07 pm |
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When ice cream attacks...my self-discipline!
I had a couple tastes of a few ice creams, probably 25 calories total. I had most of a serving of ice cream, I'd say about a cup, which is more than likely 300 calories. Then I had a Reese ice cream bar at the gas station, 310 calories. BUT this is all better than my original plan of getting two pints, which would have been 1480 total. Yikes.
So let's see. 645 for ice cream, 230 for breakfast....375 calories left today, roughly. I'm so close to giving up and hitting Wendy's. I really want to. I want the taste. I want the salt. I have the cash. I'm curious about those new Frostys. I'd only get a small anyway. God, my view of life sucks. I need a real job where I make decent money and don't have to see binge food constantly. Why do I even eat it, I get to see the fat people that order it. Sheesh, depression is a cruddy thing.
Edit: Yep, went to Wendy's. Large fries, jr frosty, and two 5 pc nuggets. It was so good, though. I can feel the toxin headache coming on already.....I wonder if we have a KFC around here. I could start getting their boneless skinless chicken breasts instead of all the other fast food I usually get...140 calories. And a diet pepsi. Hmm.
Edit again: I went to the store (meant to go to the gas station but some guy cut me off in traffic, thus the re-route). I was gonna get one of those tiny, tiny things of ice cream for $1. On the way there I saw a wall of popsicles, half of which was sugar-free. YAY! I got a box that's one flavor on top and another on bottom. Sounded cool. Then I deliberated probably fifteen minutes which tub of ice cream to get. I should have just gotten the Ben & Jerry's cookie dough for $1 and 220 calories. But the number on the label scared me and I kept putting it back and getting another. For god's sake, that's something you eat once and it's gone, it's not like a pint (which I ACTUALLY ended up buying) that lasts for like five days. Why do I do this to myself?
Hopefully final edit:
I've decided on rewards. I found some shirts I like online, $17 each...for every ten pounds I lose, I get one. I just hope they're still in stock by that time. Oh well, there are like fifty sites for stuff like this, I'll find SOMEthing.Last edited on 30 May 2008 12:47 am by AshIdiot
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