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Peter
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Posted: 15 February 2009 07:51 am |
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I'm going to abstain from the following, and post about it if I fail or change my mind:
a. Alcohol, with the option to have one drink when I'm with other people and/or at a public place.
b. Desserts, with the option to have one serving when I'm with other people and/or at a public place.
b. Soda pop, with the option to have some when I'm away from home.
c. Candy
I changed my abstinence, above, to allow soda pop when I'm visiting someone... not just in a public place. I just don't want it to become an addictive habit again... so I won't have it at home or sip it all day elsewhere.
Food's been good; no sweets today.
The last two nights I'd planned on having popcorn instead of a dessert, but ended up feeling so full it seemed ridiculous and I just had nothing after dinner. Good for me!
Course I felt full because I am eating more with my family than at home, but I'm doing well for being on a trip.
Peter
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Peter
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Posted: 17 February 2009 04:40 am |
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Still doing fine. Not sure I'll post again in this challenge with my trip ending tomorrow... I'll be back to posting in the New Years Challenge.
Thanks so much,
Peter
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cportwine
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Posted: 17 February 2009 11:17 am |
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I was really bad yesterday. So, going to try and do better today.... No treats for me... 
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BJD74
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Posted: 17 February 2009 03:36 pm |
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hey cport, just remember that the weight loss is not your main goal right now...but rather that the quitting smoking is your goal...with wl in the background. Dont be too hard on yourself if you let the ball bounce a little more this weekend or just yesterday....just keep bouncing the ball and chewing the straws!!!
as for me, i thought i didnt do well, but maybe its more that i am not used to really eating out...the ribs place was ok. I chose to get fish and chips cuz i love the steak fries there......but the fish was mush and overbattered beer dipped and i have to remind myself i am not in California any longer where battered fish is crispy crunchy and loaded with FISH! So that was not the best, i chipped off the batter and ate what i could scrape of the fish. I had all my fries and some onion rings and a green salad and iced tea. I munched a little last nite, since we ate at like 2pm...but i did ok i suppose since my wt is down a pd. Yay! Being aware maybe makes things easier? i dont know why i am down, except that i didnt eat as much or as bad as i thought for the entire day.
I did have an oreo, spring style with yellow filling last nite. I got them for D since yellow is his favorite color, the novelty really and he insists on the Oreos not Hydrox...so what do you do, you get the good stuff and enjoy it more!! Why cant they make the oreo lower sugar style or something? i bet it would be just as good, I like the crisps they make ok, but the creamy part is yummy......cant there be a way??? come on Oreo gods???? find a way to make em creamy but less fat and calories!!! BAAAAGGGGGHHHH!! 
Other than that i did really well. :)
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Posted: 20 February 2009 03:11 pm |
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hey where is everyone??? Cindy? Hiker? Peter?
ok well, i am getting prompts in email but its wierd....so i am making do.....this week wasnt terribly bad. I came in at 174 today! I did make D cookies, chocolate chip and then chocolate chip/oatmeal.....i had 3 of them last nite, after a relatively low calorie day. I had a 4th one out, but D reminded me kindly it was after 8, that he loved me alot and so he was reminding me to stay focused.....so i put the 4th one back. I make them like the size of a 50 cent piece, very bite size so i feel not quite so guilty eating two or three.....(ha yeah right, me not guilty????? )
I made our first crock of corned beef and cabbage, kicking off to St Pattys day.....cant wait to have that for dinner tonite! Last nite i made some yummy fajita like steak with veggies and we shared an artichoke..he is taking a liking to my artichokes....kinda fun to watch him like something HEALTHY!?!?!!?
Anyhoo, Cindy I hope you are back on track...and succeeding...Hiker, how are the doggies and your maintenance? Peter, are you back on track and at home???
I miss you guys!
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cportwine
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Posted: 20 February 2009 04:20 pm |
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I know, Bj. It seems no one is around lately. Which sucks, cause I am struggling getting my butt back on track. It would be nice to have some freed back once in awhile.
So far, on eating well. I do good for awhile and then I slip up. I am just going to have to take it slow. So, I am setting smaller daily goals. Like not to have certain things for lunch, etc. I did join a challenge over on the livestrong site. But, I doubt if that will help me at all. Those people are less then motivating. Might as well talk to myself, lol.
I hear you on the corned beef and cabbage. Man, I have been craving it so bad. But, I decided to wait awhile to make it. I make this kind of dip stuff in the crock pot and then we spread in on rye bread.  Yum! I might pass on that this year and just do our Rubens up town like normal. It's an Irish pub, so they go all out for st. pats day.
Ok, well I have had all good stuff this morning, so if I can keep it going the rest of the day, I should be doing good.
Will check in with you guys later and let you know how it all goes.
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Posted: 24 February 2009 03:28 pm |
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hey cindy, i hope you had a good weekend! we got all our chores done, i ate mini candy bars on the fly and i even bought a sampler box of decadent cakes on the clearance shelf on sunday... i know! It has carrot cake, red velvet cake, german chocolate and a triple fudge....oh man, you know mostly i got them for D to take some as his sweet in his lunches..but i wanted to try the RVC and the GCC.....i had little finger slices of the RV and the TF and made it about half way thru before i put them back in the fridge...too sweet too rich........too much....i learned that i have changed my habits alot...there was a time when......well, that is no more! So they will go for his lunches and I am not tempted any longer....good self discovery you know??
Aside from the chocolate kicks i got over the last few days, i did pretty good. Kept busy so that had to help...but the corned beef was less than i expected..it was super salty and the next day my wt shot up! I never went back, so that too is now D's food. I dont want anymore....wierd. All very wierd...
I cant seem to get the veggies still. I go over almost daily on fruit, but the veggies i just cant make it happen.....how do you guys do it?? :)
Keep it up! Hope all are doing well! Glad you are back Peter!!! We missed you!! 
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cportwine
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Posted: 24 February 2009 09:12 pm |
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That's funny about the veggies. I do just the opposite. I eat a ton of veggies and hardly ever eat fruit. I just don't like fruit that much. It's crazy.
I know salty things always do a number on my weight. So, I completely understand about the corn beef.
I think my biggest problem right now is that I am just taking in to many calories. Probably cause I am always piecing at stuff and then there are times when I just lose it and pig out. So, I need to do better about that.
I am doing better and better everyday. I am cutting back on the chantix now. I think it makes me tired. Which doesn't help the weight thing.
So, I am hanging in there and trying to work my way through this.
You know, I just got to say that you have been doing so good lately BJ! Just keep it going... 
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cportwine
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Posted: 25 February 2009 02:08 pm |
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Ok, I thought that I had done really bad yesterday. But, this morning I went and filled in my daily plate and It wasn't bad at all. I did pretty good.
The best part..... I ate well!!!!! I had fish allot. About the only really bad things that I had were a chocolate pudding snack and a bunch of butter on my potato.
So, I am proud. I went a whole day with totally caving in and pigging out on something stupid like pizza.
I am feeling positive that I can pull it off again today....
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BJD74
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Posted: 25 February 2009 03:54 pm |
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yesterday i ate #%@&!. M and me went to ABQ to get my insurance paperwork signed and we failed to plan ahead since it was a pop up trip! So, at 3 we were both growling and starving and still an hour from home, so i went to MCDonalds....blah...it started so good then ickey and i regretted it. I even had a big mac...I KNOW>>>>>>I deserve a butt kick for that!!! desparation hunger is never a good thing for me!!! I didnt eat the rest of the day, short of beverage and a slice of french bread with nothing on it.
Funny thing is, I really wanted the Panda Express....I should have stuck to my guns and had that instead...i would have enjoyed it a lot more.......
Other than that, I am doing fine....not much here in the house appeals to me right now....all i can think about is chinese....so maybe i will splurge and get something when i go back out today.....and that will be my big meal for the day.....I can have a small 200 calories dinner to keep the calories lower......you know how you just get an itch for something you havent had??? that is where I am? any advice to combat that craving???
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cportwine
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Posted: 25 February 2009 04:30 pm |
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lol, I remember the first time I cheated and had McDonnell's on my diet. It didn't really affect me in the bad way that I thought it would.
But, you know this last time I had mickey D's was at the hospital with my mom. Day after day. Still paying the price for that one. Not so much the bad quality of food. But, how much I was eating everyday. I am still trying to cut calories in my days, since then. So, I was glad that you made up for it.
Also Chinese~ not sure what to tell you there. I am not a big fan. I have to make it myself or chances are I won't like it.
So, good luck with that one, Bj......
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cportwine
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Posted: 27 February 2009 01:01 pm |
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Ok, I did really good with this challenge on tues/wed. Then on Thursday I didn't do very good at all.
I was cooking all day and pretty everything that could go in my mouth did.
So, I bummed about that, but I am happy for the two good days. It means I am getting back to normal. Just not as fast as I like. But, all good things are worth waiting for.
My exercise has been good lately. So, maybe some of that will rub off in my eating department.
Here's a new list for me....
1. Try to chew gum instead of eating when not hungry. Find something else to replace smoking besides eating.
2. Think fish and veggies, more fish and veggies, lots of fish and veggies. 
3. Cut back on the sweets. Seriously, how many treats a day do you need.
4. Limit carbs to a few a day. ~been getting out of control with those lately
Ok, that's a start.....it's getting printed and put on the refrigerator.
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cportwine
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Posted: 27 February 2009 01:19 pm |
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I didn't know we were killing off this challenge. Ok, moving myself and my list on to another challenge....
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BJD74
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Posted: 27 February 2009 02:28 pm |
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hey....who said it was a dead challenge? i am still here? I will keep coming to keep myself in check....:)
I didnt do well yesterday, I had french bread pulled off the loaf not even cut...with v8 juice...like 3 slices...then i had a mini snickers bar, then a reeses cup single snack cup, then i had a little baby slice of D's german chocolate cake that i had half of and gave to him...that was the bad one..it was like 9pm! I also had 2 cookies! ARGHHHHHHH....i was overthinking the car, we were kinda arguing about my mood yesterday and how i was barking at him over all things he said....it was true, not sure why?
So, todays weigh in may not favor a loss as i have most of this week....but with eating habits like yesterday how could i expect it??? I did have a nice dinner, low calories..but still???? BLAH!  the devil is getting to me!!
Still not eating enough veggies..i need to go back to the prevention site and take the serving size quiz so i can remind myself how much is a serving for things like cucumber or carrot or lettuce even...which lately i am just not into...i am totally into avocados that fall under the fruits...I wonder if i dont eat a lot of veggies, but eat a lot of fruits, do i get the similar vitamins and nutrients? I know its prob not the same, but it has to be somewhat.....Doesnt it??? I need to get away from the bread...but every once in a while i want french bread, just plain, no butter, just the soft squishy bread...i have to let it pass, i had it around all this week...no more....
I also had a mt dew, full regular soda....anxious nerves talking again...they still toss me off the path i am on so easily at times when i am weak........
I have two days of workout left for this week, today and tomorrow, and anything else that comes up will be a bonus!
Hang in everyone! We need each other!!!!
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cportwine
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Posted: 27 February 2009 04:22 pm |
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Oh well then, I will keep posting here as well.
Bj, that sounds just like my day yesterday also.
So, I guess we both need to be eating better... So far, today I have been really good. Let's hope I can pull it off the rest of the day...
Ok, got to get out of this house for awhile. That should help some, I would think.
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BJD74
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Posted: 6 March 2009 04:05 pm |
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well my week went horrible food wise. from tuesday thru thursday i ate pretty much whatever i put my hands and eyes on. I wont even list, but maybe i should...
mini candy bars, dove dark chocolate hearts with almonds, bread with mayo or butter before dinner, cereal with 2% milk, rich cakes that i dont enjoy, thin mints and peanut butter cookie sandwichs from girl scouts...overconsumption to say the least. i guess if i could have spread it out over the days it wouldnt appear so bad, but consider it all going on together, each day, usually between the 2 and 5pm time window or before lunch. Altogether unhealthy. I forgot the soda! How can i leave that out!? But I shared it with M each time....the two times i caved...
baaahhummmmmbugggg....i cant keep doing this! its here so i eat it, i tense up and i dive into the #%@&! jar....i then go and feel bad and eat the healthy sweets that i got for myself, thereby doubling all that i just did!!!! Total loss of control for the week.
I even went so far on tuesday when i had a bad headache to have a cup of coffee to stir the ache.....i had a small mug but then tossed about half of that....i couldnt do it, but then, why is it easy to go for the jar of chocolates???
I gotta work on my head, its the problem......I can get into my dress now, its a size 10 and i still want to defeat myself??????
Go figure! I hope you guys all do better than I!!! I need to work on myself again!!!
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cportwine
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Posted: 6 March 2009 04:50 pm |
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Well, I can say that I am doing better at this challenge. I am still messing up once in awhile. But, eating much healthier for the most part.
So, I will just trying and continue this and do even better at it. Also, need to watch how much I am eating...
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BJD74
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Posted: 7 March 2009 03:18 pm |
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ok, so the girl scout cookies are finally gone. i finished them off yesterday. for the past 4 days i have really eaten myself into a rutt of carb overload. My tummy hurts, I have a headache for the 4 th day and I am a crabby skanky mom today. M got up at 7am, and that makes for a long long day for her and i. God give me patience, give me strength, give me the courage to not eat when i get tense, give me the motivation and purpose to work out today and not sit around feeling sorry for myself....
i will try to do better today.
Cindy, I am really proud of you for working so hard to eat healthier, on top of all your changes made, you are awesome! Keep up the good work!
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cportwine
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Posted: 7 March 2009 06:46 pm |
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Thanks BJ! I need some encouraging words, since my scale does not want to recognize my efforts. It's got to go down sooner or later. I can't keep eating healthy and stuff, without it showing up.
So, two bad eating days last week is the reason for my scale problem. So, more then ever I need to eat clean.
I did good this morning. I made a healthy concoction for breakfast and then had a rather high in calorie mixed fruit bowl. But, I figure up all my calories and I am at about 700cal or something so far. So, I think that's good, cause I know I will exercise and stuff today. And the best part.....it was all healthy stuff.
So, I still have hope~how I don't know~but I do. 
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BJD74
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Posted: 10 March 2009 09:10 pm |
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hey cindy...hows it going this week? :) I must admit, I am finally rid of the JUNK craving...thank you Jesus! LOL....seriously i was starting to really worry that i was losing my control and drive to keep losing....
however, this weekend after the pizza party on sunday i got back onto the track in a big way! I even worked out yesterday. I did a 3 mile fat burn walk and kicked my butt! My foot is a bit sore today, but I did 1 mile today so far plus the bowflex and its not even 3pm yet. I have eaten really well today too....:)
and the best part is, my scale appears to be my friend today, as it said I was DOWN to 171~!
could it be all that hard work this past few days to get back on track actually worked?? what a thrill?! :) Yay!
So I hope that maybe my good luck of the irish is going to spread thru the computer to you and you will come out with a negative gain as well!!!! :)
hugs and warm wishes! :)
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cportwine
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Posted: 10 March 2009 10:01 pm |
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Oh Bj! No such luck here. I have gained allot since last week and I don't really know why. I am going to give it another week and if I am still gaining, then I am heading into the doctor. I think it's my thyroid from quitting the smoke thing.
I tried to do some research and haven't come up with much. So, I went on a quit smoking forum and ask others. Almost every single person on there had to have thier meds readjusted. So, it's a definite possibility that my thyroid could be off. So, I'll see what the scale say in the morning then decide if I need to call the doctor.
I really trying to avoid a visits right now, cause I owe them a ton of money. UGH! Always something.
But, I am glad to hear that you are doing better..... Keep up the good work...
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BJD74
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Posted: 10 March 2009 10:51 pm |
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hey cin' sorry to hear you are struggling...it may just be the meds. I admit i am not too terribly familiar with smoking and meds conflicting or causing a change etc...but its worth looking into.
i am sure you still diary your food yes? and have you noticed that you're maybe eating something more than you should or eating something too much even if its good for you? i recall atkins always emphasized that you shouldnt pig out on bacon or veggies just because its something you can eat alot of.....anything you eat shouldnt be in larger than life amounts, just enough to satisfy. I know you are using the straws to keep the mouth happy, but is there anything, anything else at all that you are doing more of to make up for smokes? I am just trying to get you to think outside your box since you sound so down about it. I am definately not saying you are doing any of these things, so you know...I want you to succeed! :) I just know too that when we let go of something we enjoy regularly we often pick up something else we like and start to increase it...you know? Plus you have been working out alot more, what about muscle? just cuz the scale said its number, what are your clothes saying? how do you feel physically? are you draggin or up up and feeling healthy? I know the change from smoking will take a while too, so you have to let your body adjust fully to not having them anymore. If you are chewing gum is it sugar free?
I havent had a chance to go read your diary, so forgive me if i said too much or repeated things you already considered...like i said, i read this entry and felt badly for you since you have been going so strong with workouts esp and eating veggies......and using the straws.. :)
Just some thoughts to bounce off you, help you consider all things you are doing daily. We have to remember when we lose something we usually put something else in its place, hopefully a better thing, but we usually by habit will fill it with another something.....so think hard about anything you may be allowing yourself that perhaps you kinda steered clear of before you quit smoking?
I wish you luck getting back on track! Just remember all that you have achieved, esp the quitting smoking...that is soooo much better for you than any diet!!! The wt will get gone when you arent looking, and I bet you look great now! I bet your skin is glowing just from the change to your body with the nicotine... :) I bet you shine like a star!
Good Luck and a big hug to you!!!!
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cportwine
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Posted: 11 March 2009 12:20 pm |
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Thanks BJ! I really appreciate the extra time and thought you have given me.
But, good news! weight was back down this morning. I won't go into the tmi of it all. But, I think I ate something bad or had a touch of the flu.
So, all is well for now. Going to try and get one more pound off for the challenge this week. We'll see what happens the next few days.
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BJD74
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Posted: 11 March 2009 02:41 pm |
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| BIG HUG CINDY and Amen that you are seeing yourself come back into shape and view....just remember there is a light at the end of our long tunnel. :)
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Posted: 11 March 2009 08:59 pm |
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Doing pretty decent today food wise. I had more out for lunch and put away the fruit and the half cup of yogurt. Wasnt interested after my salad and egg with a small glass of 2% choco milk. I will have them for my afternoon snack. Tonite I am making boneless beef cajun bbq type of ribs. Gonna bake in the oven. Thinking of corn on the cob with it. :)
For exercise I have just done a 3 mile fat burn workout. I really felt beat just into the 1st mile, then again on the end of the 3rd but I made it through and stretched. I didnt sleep very good last nite, maybe that had something to do with my drag. I am really happy I got thru the workout. I dont know if I will do the bowflex, but I am still coming down from the video...so maybe in a while...Or M and I will maybe go for a small walk around the neighborhood instead. We are supposed to be getting clouds and cold thru friday, some winter storm...yay. Just as the grass is going green! D found his tulips coming up from last year last nite while he was trimming some of the edges of grass in the front yard. he was so excited, I thought he saw a snake the way his voice squeeked! LOL
Its midweek, I hope everyone else is holding strong....almost thru the week!!! 2 more days till the weekend! :)
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cportwine
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Posted: 12 March 2009 12:25 am |
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Had to mention flowers. I can't wait until spring here. I love watching all the flowers come up and bloom. It should be pretty this year. I had a ton of tulips come up last year. And I should have more iris also. I swapped a bunch of them out a few years ago to get some different colors going. So, I can't wait, they should bloom this year.
Ok, enough talk about that.
I have done good on eating today. I had two pieces of toast this morning, then salmon and mashed potatoes for lunch, then had fat free nachos for a snack. I am a little hungry now, but not to bad. So, I will hold out as long as I can and have something closer to bed time.
I might try to do the elliptical tonight and see how it goes. I am not sure I am up for it tonight. I have kind of lost my exercise drive since hubby is away. Feeling lonely I guess.
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Posted: 13 March 2009 04:19 pm |
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i did good yesterday as well! i even ate out and did good! Funniest thing happened to my leftovers.....I was getting M into her chair and she saw a crashed up car like mine, in the rear and same corner even and we laughed....and i got into the driver seat and closed the door and drove off......LEFT THE LEFTOVERS ON MY ROOF!!!! I had three sopapillas for D to enjoy, and puppy leftovers of meat and beans........BUt I guess it just wasnt meant to be that I brought it all home! LMAO...I have never been that careless or spacey before......I am sorry for the mess I surely left behind though! LOL.....
I am doing pretty good overall, I had a few weak moments with some stashed mini candy bars, and I have had a few of my dove chococates but no bingeing...and lots more exercise than last week...so I am happy!
:) Here is to a strong weekend team!! :)
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Posted: 13 March 2009 05:30 pm |
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Sounds like you are doing good Bj! I had to laugh about the leftovers. lol, I usually do that with my soda and it spills down the front windshield on the first stop I make. I am always like what is that. Oh yea! lol
Well I have been really good the last couple of day. I ate shrimp and peppers yesterday for lunch. Made a healthy breakfast today and I am not hungry yet for lunch. So, I have been cleaning the house up for when hubby gets home tomorrow. I can't wait I am going to kiss him silly.
Exercise has been good lately. But, I think I want to finish the house today. Then I have a tax appointment later. So, it might just be the elliptical tonight and call it good. I trying not to stress about exercise anymore I find it's been kind of sabotaging me. I get down on myself if I don't get a bunch in. Then when I get down, what do I do. Yep, eat! So, not stressing about it. If I get some in fine. If not.....oh well....
Ok, well everyone have a good weekend... bye
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BJD74
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Posted: 14 March 2009 04:02 pm |
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i hear ya Cindy, dont give up altogether on the exercise but dont do too much..its hard to find a medium happy point isnt it? I get all gung ho and go go go each day, then i beat myself up for a day like yesterday where i didnt realy workout...and did what you do, get down and then i go eat instead of go workout! What is up with that???
I didnt eat badly yesterday, but i ate too much. I just kept snacking on things like hourly. I forget that it adds up you know? I kept telling myself I will workout before 5, I will get up and workout. I would get up and jog in place.....that is so not doing a workout, but it is something.....somedays i just need baby steps i guess...but the emotional turnoil in my head never seems to stop even when i say its ok to take a day off....its so twisted...
Do all of us go thru this? Are me and Cindy the only ones who go on this cycle of pushing then eating then pushing and eating?? how do you guys combat it? how do we bounce back from letting ourselves take a day off? is that allowed when you exercise? I am all bent out of shape knowing I consumed like 1800 or more calories yesterday.....and to think I USED TO DO IT DAILY!?
Anyway, I am nuts, and I think waaay too much, I know.....so thanks for listening and I really really hope that you all are doing better than me!!!! Cheers and chins up! (wait, shouldnt i be telling myself that!??!!
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Posted: 17 March 2009 05:18 pm |
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in a bad place at this time, i shot up to 173 today and i am really unhappy about it. i know that fluctuations happen daily, by the minute even, but today is the st pats final day for that challenge, I set a modest 170 as my goal, that was only 4 pds, but here i am one pd down when i was only 1 pd away the other day! I am very sad about it and want to let out steam.... hate holidays they always mess with my emotions....
eating today, dont even want too because anything i am doing will hurt me more. Its like when you are down, all the food you eat just turns right into fat and soaks up into your body, i can workout which i did yesterday and sunday even....which for me, is not the usual for weekends....i woke yesterday with terrible headache and bleeding again, so i attribute to ANOTHER period, but darn it if i am not bleeding today...I JUST DONT GET IT, MY BODY IS A MESS. I cant believe I am up to 173, I had that challenge and goal in my pocket, how could i let it go?
I havent eaten out of my calorie range, unless I am totally miscalculating all things i put into my mouth, and i have had worse than 2 1 in slices of brownies and not seen such r rapid gain.....I just want to quit.
Sidenote, Cindy I am really excited for your progress this weekend, you stuck to it and did great!!! Hiker, you even went down on the wt, AWESOME!!! GO GIRLS!!!
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BJD74
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Posted: 17 March 2009 10:37 pm |
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hey guys,
sorry if my last post sounded EXTREMELY DOWN. I will work on being more positive, as I realize that we all need to be positive in order to succeed. I am on a low point at the time, but I am bouncing back today slowly, I am currently doing a bowflex workout and I have been good today eating wise.:)
I enjoy being here with all of you, but some days for me are really really hard and challenging and I know it is not all about weight loss. I need to work on many other areas of my life and some days its easier for me to do. Today, is not one of those days though...
I will be back and in a good light tomorrow. Happy St Patricks Day and enjoy the CB&C!!!! :)
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Posted: 19 March 2009 03:16 pm |
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i am making myself get rid of the chocolate in the house that i had here for me. its those dove dark chocolate hearts, the individual wrapped ones. I only have a handful left and when they are gone, NO MORE. I mustnt have the temptations around. I am much better off to eat a snack bag for 100 calories than those that are 120 for 3 of them...and who can only eat 3? not me....i can eat all of them if noone in my head were to stop me.
I am also in a weird place with my nite time eating. We eat dinner between 530 and 7 and it seems that at 8pm something goes off, D gets his snack and i want to eat too. I get munchies something terrible. I have something that I can have, like a 100 calorie thing, but then inevitebly i go back and get something of HIS per se' a regular sweet thing, or chips, or some of his sweet tea...its bad and i cant seem to get a hold of this dragon. I have noticed it the past few days, or weeks. He eats too you guys, he had cookies, a bowl of cereal, crunch n munch and tea last nite! I cant do that!!! I mustnt!!! I move away, I dont sit next to him to avoid wanting to reach into the box. He takes it personally that I dont want to be near him, which is silly...but then is it? I get so upset that he can just eat and eat and eat and he never gains, sure i do, who wouldnt? But its not something I would hold against him, its just something i must learn to accept as his being. But I do have to move away, its too hard for me. I feel like i am being tortured to watch someone else eat. Isnt that twisted? Does anyone encounter that feeling? I almost feel a resentment at times and a weariness that I cant and wont ever be able to do that. I saw a blip on a thread here about someone losing like 60 pds converting their metabolism enough that they can now eat WHATEVER THEY WANT...some hpc diet or something? THAT CANT BE POSSIBLE....you cant get a new body inside...it can be cleaned, but to totally change the metabolism to allow you to eat anything you desire and gain nothing??? hmm....skeptical. I am very skeptical.
Anyhoo...just some eating issues i have to work thru. I know we should grab a healthy snack, but sometimes i dont want healthy. #%@&!, alot of the time I wouldnt mind junk. Bad I know...but a carrot is not chocolate by any means..and where does chocolate go in the food pyramid? is is a fat? or is it a veggie due to being made by beans? where do sweets go when we are watching calories and servings of foods? I tried to find something online to no avail...
Oh well, life goes on and the challenge continues. Havent eaten yet today, too early to eat, otherwise i am hungry all day.....HA WHAT IS NEW ABOUT THAT???
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cportwine
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Posted: 20 March 2009 12:05 am |
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Bj! I have felt like that many times while watching hubby eat. I can actually laugh about it now. But, that first year dieting it was hard. It was hard not getting ticked off at him. But, unlike your husband mine does gain from it and you can tell. I keep telling him it will catch up to him and he will have to start watching what he eats.
I am also with you on the chocolate. I made this stuff for hubby and guess who can't stay out of it. Yep! that would be me........So, starting right here right now.....NO MORE OF THE CHOCOLATE STUFF! I have got to shut it down. It's getting out of control.
So, that is my new goal for this week.... See how many days I can stay out of the chocolate....
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BJD74
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Posted: 20 March 2009 03:46 pm |
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OH AMEN CINDY! I finally did away with the last of the Doves last nite! I had my dinner, started a bath, and grabbed the last 10 of them, gave D two for his tip  (he was playing acoustic guitar while i took my bath!) and i ate the rest in the bathtub. It was around 630. I didnt eat the rest of the nite. I had an urge, I grabbed a 100 snack bag and then tossed it to the counter grabbed my gatorade 32oz btl of water and sat my arse down to finish the movie we had started. RESOLVE. 
It wasnt easy though, but i dont know if i was hungry or just wanting to munch? Sometimes that is the hardest thing to figure out.
Ok, so when we say no chocolate? no sugar free cocoa? no 100 calorie snacks with chocolate? What are the guidelines, if any?????? (i am digging for options, cant you tel!!! Stop Me Cindy Stop Me!!!! LOL....We can do it! As long as I can keep the individual candies and snacky mini bars and PURE chocolate around, I THINK i will be ok! Its just those that make me go running...esp when tense. I can do THIS! You can do THIS and We Can Do This! :)
PS....I read yesterday somewhere that it takes 10 days to clear your system of chocolate. I dont know if that is true, but starting today, I will see if I can make it 10 days.....wanna try with me??  
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cportwine
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Posted: 20 March 2009 04:44 pm |
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BJD74
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Posted: 20 March 2009 05:23 pm |
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oh yeah...well guess what I had???? I had a small 1 cup size of coffee with fat free half and half and splenda!
we are going to make it! dont give up! just dont go back for more!!!! we musnt! we cant!!
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BJD74
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Posted: 21 March 2009 02:33 pm |
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i laugh at the last entry i made....cuz right after i went to the fridge and grabbed the leftover chocolate frosting and had two tablespoons full of it. Maybe my last last binge on chocolate...i will really try now from today forward....
Yesterday I maintained since today the scale is again 172. Given my headache that came on early afternoon, I am pleased its not worse.
I didnt eat too bad, but the mac and cheese i gave to M forced me to eat a few bites. How do we count a bite? lol....i always try to give it more calories so that i can have a higher number than i really hit, does that make sense? like a cushion in my head for calories. How can we ever be exact anyway? we can only try to get it right!
Today, I will try to be healthy since Pizza and Wine are on the menu for tonite. After tonite, no more Pizza for a while. Even D was saying last nite, as long as we dont have pizza or cb&c I dont care what we have!!! LOL....
The sun is rising over the mountains and the sky is clear, so much for rain today...its ok though, i love the sun except for when it blinds me and i cant see much!! LOL...
Ok team, here is to a strong healthy day!!! Esp for me as I really really need the strength!!
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cportwine
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Posted: 21 March 2009 03:07 pm |
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Well BJ, I didn't do to well at resisting the chocolate either. I ate some more of that stuff. Thank god, someone ate the rest of it last night. So, now it is gone. I am making no more treats here for along while.
I think for this challenge I am going to focus on fruits and veggies. I really need to lay off of the carbs. I have been having these little pig outs on carbs and it needs to stop. So, goal for today......... fish and veggies, maybe I can force some fruits down my throat also, lol.
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BJD74
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Posted: 21 March 2009 04:34 pm |
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you can do it cindy! i came to a similar conclusion in that i am still not getting the veggie and meats enough..so today, instead of my normal oatmeal, i made scrambled eggs, and lean deli ham with a piece of toast and a few grapes. I had more calories sure, but maybe i wont get the munchie cravings and i can go thru till lunch without eating anything? I am willing to try since I just hate munching all day, even when busy i wanna munch. I gotta see what I am missing too, since something is not right since i am not losing anything now. I have to remind myself as we exercise we turn fat to muscle, you must be all muscle girl!!! My head still hurts, and i just wanna curl up in a blanket and stare at the tv, but i am washing the towels and busy anyway...so stubburn am i.... :)
Reports later....10-4 over and out!
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cportwine
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Posted: 22 March 2009 03:00 pm |
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Well, yesterday didn't go to bad. We went out and I got a turkey wrap. Yep, a turkey wrap. It was ok. I was kind of ticked that it was cold. I am sure that's the way it is served. But, it would of been better warm. So, had that and fries. I thought that was pretty good for eating out.
Ok, so today I am aiming for fish.... yum! Probably be salmon on the grill.
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BJD74
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Posted: 24 March 2009 01:26 am |
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we havent gotten into grillin yet due to the wind. i am however working with the broiler when i feel so inspired. havent mastered that quite yet! Havent eaten yet tonite either, i have had such a headache food hasnt tasted so hot...
i did however make pasta last nite, ate two cereal bowls of it with butter, parsley and oregano and cheese. i enjoyed it immensely. Other than that i had a few wintergreen lifesavers and drank lots of water. :) Didnt do too bad then I guess!
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BJD74
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Posted: 25 March 2009 12:02 am |
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ok guys i just did a shopping run and went over the budget by 80$$$. I got all the items on the list we made, but in shopping i discovered some low fat snacks, got some fresh meat markdowns, even got myself some filet mignon for when D has his meat and artichokes. Basically i restocked the house since it has run bare again. Our normal weekly budget is about 75$! I also had to get dog food, chlorine for the spa, but even those two items went up on price and are outside of the 75 budget!
Is everything getting more expensive or is it just really hard for me to stay in our budget? i try so hard to just get what is on the list, but I almost always forget till i pass it in aisle you know? Dont we all do this?? I am trying to find a way to justify it to myself to be ready when D comes home since I am sure he will be a little upset with me... :( WIth good reason too, i have to learn to budget....but its is really hard sometimes.
And so to make myself feel worse, I went to the Panda Express in the shopping center where the Walmart is and i got some food there....Dam dam dam...i know...luckily i couldnt or didnt eat it all but i enjoyed some of it. I came home and my dad was in the driveway....brought down some scrap veggies for the horses and to see M and of course to question me on why i wont let M go to their house.
As an example of how he still isnt attentive enough to M, she got out into the garage and into my car and she went to the bathroom and needed help wiping her bottom after goin poopie...dad missed both moments cuz he was wrapped up in talking to me about gramma and T my brother.....I said quite plainly that that right there, youre missing those two moments are exactly why you cant have her.....He had nothing to say. Ahh the silence....
Oh lord help me handle the surprise visit with ease when D comes home, I am sure he wont be happy that he came down without a heads up.....and about the cash, since we are so tight right now on hours....or maybe he will say its ok, and we needed food so i am glad you got it all now....Lets hope he sais that!!!
Ok, enough now, just wanted to share with someone, anyone.....its so hard to stick to the grocery list and how i pray i am not the only one!! all in an attempt to eat well!!!!
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cportwine
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Posted: 25 March 2009 11:44 am |
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I know I need to get stocked up on good foods again also. I do still have some stuff in the house. So, I should be ok until pay day.
It gets hard, cause I got to buy almost three sets of food. My diet stuff, then the daycare stuff, then my families stuff. I think everyone should just eat healthy, then I could just buy one set of food. lol, my family would hate me if I made them eat what I do all the time.
Anyway, I have been doing pretty good in this department. I am still apparently eating to much according to the scale, but it has been all good and healthy stuff. I haven't been pigging out on chocolate or anything bad the last couple of days.
Ok, so at this point just staying on track and eating good and exercising...
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BJD74
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Posted: 25 March 2009 09:05 pm |
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it sure does get hard to shop sometimes. D took the spending in stride, esp since he was more occupied with my dad coming down to the house without an invite or any notice. That blew our whole nite to smithereens! He realized that we do need things for the house, its just so hard when the hours are slow at work, we have so many little things to handle....but i remind myself we are without credit, so we are ahead of the game. no shopping till i have too!!
i can understand the frustration with having to shop for 3 different things, as its the same here. I have 3 different tastes here and sometimes I make up to 3 different meals for dinner! I feel like i should have a bed in the kitchen sometimes i am in there so much! LOL
we can do it even if we have to plan plan plan though so we just have to hold strong and keep our heads up and not looking down.....we have to be able to see the end of the road and know that this struggle is worth it!
Today I started with an edge of left over pizza...not soo good...but then i went back and attempted to have the actual slice, got mad at myself and tossed it to the doggs to eat. I did my bowflex workout before lunch, tried to clear my brain a little of the stress i am feeling. I made some tuna fish and I am eating a tunafish sandwich with some sugar free apple sauce. I have a terrible headache, I wish it would just leave me be for ONE DAY!
I have no idea what to do for dinner, let me get thru lunch first. I am craving an artichoke, so maybe i will have that with some fruit and stay on the lighter side for dinner...we will see how the day goes.
Thanks for being around guys, its really getting me thru some tough #%@&! times...esp in my head.. 
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cportwine
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Posted: 26 March 2009 12:29 pm |
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LOL, getting mad and tossing it to the dogs.... I did that the other day. I made myself a big bowl of ice cream, but got distracted and when I came back to eat it, I thought what am I doing. So, yep, down the drain it went.
Could your headaches be related to dieting. I know when I first started my diet way back when I use to get horrible headaches. I don't have much advise, besides maybe some vitamins might help.
Well, I have been doing good at this challenge. The only thing I could probably work on at this point is getting rid of the carbs. I am trying to cut back on them, but it is hard. I don't even think about it until it's to late. So, I need to be more aware of what I am eating.
ok, I will check in later ....
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BJD74
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Posted: 26 March 2009 04:32 pm |
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ha ha lol......i probably would have given the ice cream to the dogs too!!! they are my little disposals, esp when their food is running low. I just gave them the last of that pizza with a mix of their food this am. I know its not the best, but its only once in a while.....I like to take the carton of ice cream when its empty and break it open and let them lick it clean, they get such a kick out it. We are actually out of ice cream and i didnt replenish it. M is reallly the only one who eats it anyway...its her special treat. Right now, I have those otter pops from last summer, she enjoys those too.
Oh the headaches....something i have fought all my life, but since sept when i got on the birth control pills again to get my periods regular i have experienced much worse longer duration headaches that kick my butt. I have been doing more research after i heard the YAZ commercial, its a form of BCP's but its got a different hormone that is aligned more to help with severest form of PMS that is called PMDD. Its premenstrual dysphoric disorder. Basically, you get really extreme symptoms of PMS and most dont know how to handle it. I took a few quizzes and it appears that I may have this condition ontop of the polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) that i have. Having that is why I am on the bcp's and metformin in the first place! But I am not getting a regular monthly period. Instead I get two weeks, 1 the first week that is light and spotty, then again in the 3rd week i get more of the same. The symptoms for PMDD hit you hardest the week prior to period so no wonder i feel mental all the time. I have markedly changed since sept and i am not happy with it. Esp the headaches, the temper tantrums, the irritability, the lack of patience....just all symptoms of what could be the problem. I am glad to learn more now and not later. Apparently my mom suffered from this as well, i recall how her moods would change...she didnt get help and it finally stopped at 52. I wont go till i am 52 to get better, #%@&! no! I want whatever they give me and i want to feel better.
I started today off well, i had a bowl of oatmeal, water and my vitamins. I am in a terrible mood though, my head is aching and it makes me so short. I am raising my voice to get points across to MJ already and it pains me to do so. Sometimes she is soo stubborn. It is too early to feel this #%@&! I say. Too Early, its gonna be a looong day!
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BJD74
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Posted: 26 March 2009 09:18 pm |
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ok i am gonna keep myself accountable to you cindy! about those honeycombs...? I just ate a bowl of them. I only had the serving amount, didnt go back for 2nd....actually they kinda hurt my mouth, very crunchy..
i need to workout to get that out of my counts, but dam if my head isnt hurting and i just wanna lay down? i hope you are doing better than i am!! but as you said in the challenge, we can do this!!!! one step at a time!
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cportwine
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Posted: 27 March 2009 03:44 pm |
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Woohoo, does that mean I get to crack the whip on you.... lol~ jk!
I am doing much better at this challenge. Now, making it last for any amount of time will be a different story. I usually lose it after a few days. Today, I have had toast so far and that is it.
I think I am making something with ground turkey for lunch. Not sure what yet. I want to keep food light today, cause I didn't sleep worth a hoot again last night. So, I have pretty much been up since about 1am this morning. UGH!
Definitely going to get some Tylenol pm for that. At least until I can deal with this quit smoking thing. I am sure that is the reason I can't sleep.
Anyway, the plan is to eat clean and have turkey something for lunch...
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BJD74
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Posted: 28 March 2009 03:42 pm |
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crack the whip sister! I did even worse yesterday after the dr appt, was so hungry and had a $20 in my pocket burning a hole....we ended up getting taco bell....ugh.. i know! two chalupas, a taco with a pepsi! I ate all three items since i hadnt eaten all day and then i had about 1/3 of the super size pepsi then got really freaked when i looked up the calories on the food..and dumped a really yummy pepsi down the sink! Control came back i guess!
No more. Ick. It was cold by the time we got home, i ate it, but it gave me terrible burpies all the rest of the day, that meat they use! ARGH! Will I ever learn?? At least I snapped back to reality for dinner, made some steak and melted meunster cheese ontop, with an artichoke and fresh fruit. I redeemed myself and i also did a 30 minute jog and cleaned the house.
Today, i have a small headache and i am cold, so i am sipping a small cup of coffee. Its so strong its taking a loooong time to finish! I am not sure what to make for breakfast, not sure if i am hungry, but to not eat would set me up to binge later today......so i better think of something fast!
I am proud to say that I made daddy rice crispy treats, and havent had any!!!! YAY FOR ME!
My dr was very pleased with my loss! I had last seen her in sept 08 and weighd 190.5! I tipped the scale yest at 174 there! I know the house and there are different, so i am still accounting to my digital at home *169 again today*, but its a neat feeling to have your dr and the nurse complement you on the loss! *sad to say that i think my dr gained the wt i lost! but then, being a resident your schedules are crazy, so what else would one expect?* She couldnt stop saying how good i looked and how you can really see i lost some weight! (more than my dad ever even said to me!..he just shakes his head in disbelief and tells me how much he weighs instead)
Anyhoo..i better get to making some food so i can take my meds and start a new day! :)
see you guys in a bit!
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cportwine
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Posted: 28 March 2009 05:14 pm |
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BJD74 wrote:
My dr was very pleased with my loss! I had last seen her in sept 08 and weighd 190.5! I tipped the scale yest at 174 there! I know the house and there are different, so i am still accounting to my digital at home *169 again today*, but its a neat feeling to have your dr and the nurse complement you on the loss! *sad to say that i think my dr gained the wt i lost! but then, being a resident your schedules are crazy, so what else would one expect?* She couldnt stop saying how good i looked and how you can really see i lost some weight! (more than my dad ever even said to me!..he just shakes his head in disbelief and tells me how much he weighs instead)
Isn't that a great feeling. I still remember when I had my first apt after losing a bunch of weight and the nurse said. Have you lost weight. I said yes. She said "no I mean like allot of weight" lol, yep like 40lbs.... it was so funny. I don't know if she thought she was losing it or didn't take the scale reading right or what.
That was four years ago. I don't think anyone hardly remembers me being fat now.
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