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emmachantal
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Posted: 5 November 2009 08:04 pm |
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My name is Chantal and I am 50lbs overweight. I have 4 children all under the age of 7 and am married to a wonderful man named Craig.
I guess my weight struggles started after the birth of my 1st son. was a nice 160 lbs befor I got pregnant. At the end of the pregnany I was up to 211lbs! I have stayed in that range for the rest of my pregnancies. We have completed our family and I am finding that i would like to loose those extra pounds. When I started my weight loss I weighed in at 195lbs. I am now at 185lbs. I have been doing the elliptical 30 min every other day and eating approx. 1500 cals a day. I was doing good up until I hurt my ankle. Not sure how I did it but I think I twisted it somehow during one of my workouts. So now I have to take a break and let it heal enough so I don`t cause anymore damage! Yesterday and today have been very bad days for me. Yesterday, I was doing great all day and then out of nowhere I just had this incredible urge to eat! It was a primal urge! I stuffed my self with cake, then chips and dip, then a bag of pop corn before bed. I woke up and I had gained about 3lbs. 3lbs pounds that I worked so hard to take off! Then today when I woke up I started out good, then at lunch I started eating out of my son`s Holloween candy! I was out of control. Finally regained some dignity and stopped eating. I plan on not eating for the rest of the day in hopes that the calories and fat that I consumed at lunch today evens out if I neglect to eat for the rest of the day!
I find this so incredibly hard! I love food! I love everything there is to love about it! I am just beginning to realize that this is so much more than food that`s going on here! I am jealous of both my sister`s! My oldest sis lost 160lbs, and my younger sister has lost 17 lbs so far. ( incidently she heard wind that i was trying to loose weight and now she jumped on the band wagon only she looses weight very quickly and I don`t. She has the ability to starve her self ...i don`t.) She also doesn`t have a hard time throwing her weight loss in my face every time she gets. I`ve lost 17lbs so far, and I really havn`t been trying. Yeah, well i`ve lost only 10lbs so far and Ive been working my #%@&! off!.
So depressing. This is something I really want to do for my self...for my family, and she is just aweful about it. Grrrrrrrr.
While I was binging on my son`s candy it occurred to me that I need to be writing these feelings down and not eat. I figured if I come to this journal and pour it out on here it might help me vent instead of eating everything in site.
I will try and write everyday! I have alot to say and alot of pent up feeling about food, sister`s, family. ect. I hope to vent out all my frustrations and anger I have towards them so I can deal with and focus on my food cravings as they come!
That`s it for now..................
Weigh in this morning was 184lbs
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emmachantal
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Posted: 6 November 2009 07:50 pm |
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Having another hard day today.
Very hungry!
Breakfast - Special K with 2% milk
- cup of tea
snack - fat free yogurt, cup of tea
Lunch - W/W pita with 2 slices of fat free ham and a slice of fat 2% cheese
snack - 8 mini rice crisps BBQ flavor
Dinner - lean cuisine meal Terriaki Chicken
Goals.....must drink more water!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like eating the whole kitchen ( sink included ) I`m determined and will keep trying! Weigh in will be every Sun morning. I haven`t been able to excersise yet...still waiting for my ankle to heal. I`m thinking by Monday i should be able to get back on the eliptical!I feel lazy not being able to workout. That`s why it`s so important to me to be able to watch what I eat.
See ya tomorrow!
Weigh in today is 183 lbs
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desperategirl
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Posted: 6 November 2009 11:08 pm |
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Hiya!
I started this week at 178, so we're not too far apart.
I know how you feel about the hunger - my hunger pains have eased a little since Monday. I'm hoping that they decrease as I get used to eating smaller portions.
Good luck!
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emmachantal
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Posted: 7 November 2009 12:14 pm |
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| Thanks for your encouragement! So thoughtful of you!
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emmachantal
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Posted: 9 November 2009 07:36 pm |
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well I weighed myself this am and I finally made it to 179.5
That was my goal for the week is to get into the 170`s!
I have been really trying and it is finally paying off!
snack lrg coffe with 2% milk and 2 sweenters
Today i had 2 shredded wheat buscuits with 2%milk and a handful of fresh rasberries.
cup of tea
lunch - ( Mc donald`s) Grilled chicken sandwich with lettuce, tomatoe and foccacia bun ( no mayo sauce ) and a med. diet coke.
snack 3 lrg handfulls of pretzels ( really needed something munchie and salty!)
water for the rest of the day
Goal for the week.....get to 178lbs and to drink more water, and get 2 days of 30 min excersise in.
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Nir
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Posted: 9 November 2009 08:56 pm |
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| Hi Chantal don't forget to use the Reply button (not the New Topic button) when appending to your diary, so I don't have to go around merging topics -- cheers
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emmachantal
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Posted: 10 November 2009 05:29 pm |
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weigh in today was 178lbs!
Feeling pretty good these days, feel like I`m gaining some sort of control over my eating. Evenings still prove to be toughest, but I find if I brew myself a decaf cup of tea and a teaspoon of splenda it seems to help.
I have been trying to down more water and feel that I`m doing a good job at that.
Today I had,
Breakfast - 2 shredded wheat buscuits with fresh rasberries and 1/2 cup of 2% milk
2 cups of tea with splenda and 2% milk
snack - 4 handfulls of low fat pretzels ( shouldn`t have, but i did )
water
Lunch - a big lunch but healthy...Mixed green salad with veggies and rice with 2 tbs of olive oil and garlic, pepper. 1 scrambled egg. ( YUMMY )
water and decaf tea for remainder of day.
really felt like having a cookie today, but didn`t. I will allow myself a cookie on Sun. as a nice treat.
Already reached my goal for the week, do not plan to loose anymore this week, just maintain what I have lost so far.
I find if I consume most of my calories in the early part of the day and slow down with my calorie consumption for the remainder of the day it is the most beneficial.
Note...I find i have a better sleep going to bed without a stomach full of food. Who knew!
Next week my goal will be 177lbs. One pound a week is my ultimate goal.
Walked the kids to the bus stop this am and plan to walk to pick them up. Nice day outside today.
Until tomorrow...................................
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emmachantal
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Posted: 10 November 2009 10:33 pm |
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well...totally fell off the wagon today...I just got so hungry I ate everything that was in sight! " sigh " tomorrow is another day and I will do better...a promise to myself.
Now I`m so full I feel sick! My hubby is gone tonight ( working out of town ) and he is a real motivator. I would never have eaten all that stuff if he were here.
Anywhoo, i feel aweful and i want to puke after binging tonight.
untill tomorrow
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emmachantal
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Posted: 12 November 2009 06:45 pm |
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weigh in this am was 180 lbs
yep, that`s right I gained 2lbs for the stupid binge eating I`ve been doing. Uhgggggg! I went right to town too. I won`t even mention what I ate but I am back on track ( once again ) and still determined to take the weight off!
Breakfast - 2 Shredded wheat buscuits, 2% milk and splenda
two cups of tea with splenda and 2% milk
Lunch - whole wheat english muffin with 2 slices of fat free ham and 1 piece of 2% cheese slice and a fat free yogurt.
Supper - lrg green salad with fat free turkey slices and 2tbls of fat free dressing and a sprinkle of shredded cheddar.
28 oz of water today so far and a decaf tea after supper.
That`s my plan and I`m sticking to it!
walked for 20 min today.
eat to live , not live to eat!
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emmachantal
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Posted: 17 November 2009 07:57 pm |
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weigh in this am was 179.5 lbs
did 4 miles on the eliptical. Leg feels pretty good. Taking it slowly though.
evenings are proving to be very hard still, over the weekend i made it down to 177lbs!!! Gained 2 lbs in one day b/c i ate pretzles last night.
Have been doing very well today!
Ate special K with strawberries and 1 cup of skim milk
coffee
tea
14 multigrain pretzels for a snack
med. veggie salad with 2tbls of fat free ranch dressing and w/w english muffin with 2% slice cheese and 1 piece of fat free turkey with onions. ( yummy )
small piece of cheese and 1/2 a banana for a mid afternoon snack
28 oz of water
caffiene free diet coke
lean cuisine
8oz of water
caffiene free diet coke
goal for the week is to get back down to 177lbs!
I know i can do this!
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