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Straylight
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Posted: 2 October 2008 03:40 pm |
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Yeah! I think it's real interesting too. I love studying quantum physics--that movie What the Bleed Do We Know got me really interested in it. Sometimes I have to have multiple iterations of the information in order to get it because it's out there and it's sorta complicated, but I love it!
Thanks for your compliment too, by the way.
I am always careful about what I say in a diary, I say things that aren't too private. I am an open person anyway, so it really doesn't matter. But really, most people are not going to be looking to see what I'm doing, but before I post something, I am mindful about what I am saying. There's ways to get around just about anything though, a different way to say the same thing. Besides, don't you know that if you DO say something online, you can ALWAYS just blame an ex or a jealous dude and say that your account got haXored and somebody was posting as you. lol, at least that's what everyone says when they get caught.
But yeah, I feel you, I wouldn't post something like really mean about somebody I was friends with or one of my consorts or anything like that, and I wouldn't post anything I did that I could get in big trouble for, you know?
Thanks for your compliment about my appearance, too, I appreciate it!
Cuddle parties are fun the one I went to had very strict rules though. Although anybody could go as far as they wanted with anyone (up to and including sexual intercourse), there was a lot of rules about asking. Any time there was physical contact you had to ask
is it okay if i do this
is it okay if i do that
and there were some OTHER aspects of that cuddle party that were interesting, but you'd have to PM me for those, if you're at all interested....
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This morning I got on the scale and YES! Even with my munchies last night, I still dropped another .35 pounfd of fat yesterday, bringin my fat loss total to 1.36 pounds of fat lost in seven days. WOO HOO!!!!
AND I have a date tonight (after a very, very VERY long day of work) and two parties I am going to this weekend, so I am ready to look as kickass as possible. I am going shopping for a new outfit tomorrow. I am thinking of going to Strings By Judith. They have some really awesome stuff there, and it's in Orange County, so parking there is much funner than parking in LA.
http://www.stringsbyjudith.com/products.html
check out their stuff, way cute and sexy and interesting...
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Straylight
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Posted: 2 October 2008 04:03 pm |
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I am liking that black monroe dress, the blue triangle tri top, and that long open front dress. Those crazy pants looks interesting too, but not sure what I would wear up top...
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 2 October 2008 08:36 pm |
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Holy #%@&!...there is no way that I could pull off any of those outfits. I say more power to you if you gots it flaunts it!
I was a "sexy" witch last year. My outfit wasn't nearly as sexy as those!
Have fun on your date
GREAAAAAAAAAAT job with the weight loss. Kickin #%@&! and takin names!
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 06:06 am |
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#%@&! it, I just wrote a bunch of stuff and then tried to post a pic that was too big and then all my writing was gone. FRACK!
Anyway, I have been with one of my consorts over at his spot for the past 2 days and I have been real good with my food and exercise--he follows the same plan I do, so it's easy with him. He also has a pool so I got to do an awesome swim workout that I am still feeling!
I left my #%@&! scale at work at the Redlands office, so I won't be able to know my progress until next Friday. That will be interesting to know how much fat I lose in 8 days though. I am sure it will be a real nice surprise.
Woo hoo! My consort also burned me a CD called "only for the headstrong" which is a complilation of 1990s rave music that I absolutely love. i have been bumping it all day. So beautiful! I love that style of music more than anything. I started going to raves a little bit later than this stuff came out, I started going in 1997 and I like stuff mostly from 1992 - 1994, but man, it's great. And it's cute to think about my consort being in the 8th grade. he was a really, really cute teenager. He's a cute man but when he was like 17 DAYAM!!!! sometimes I think about his 17-year-old self when I am having intimate relations with his 29-year-old self. !!!! awwww yeah!
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 06:10 am |
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and tomorrow is my free day with food, I am so excited to have made it through a whole other cycle. WOO HOO!!!!!!!
Also went to the farmer's market today and picked up some great food items--carrots, strawberries, grapes, nectarines, and some pita chips. That was nice to get out there. Crowded though--sheesh! Parking was as big of a bitch there as it is at Trader joe's on freaking sunday afternoon.
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 06:40 am |
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oh and i forgot to mention
i went to one of my foster homes and the foster parents' granddaughter was there. She's five. She told me she liked my hair, which was very cool! It's great to get compliments from little kids because you know they have NO filters yet so they just blurt out whatever they are thinking!
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zenobia
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Posted: 5 October 2008 08:28 am |
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i wrote a reply and evidently it did not want to be sent. hhh.. i'd try to sum it up, but i don't know if that's possible.
so the short story, string theory  (a lot of the post i lost was on that sort of thing- quantum physics...)... next, being open around here- i'm both- depends on the mood, the atmosphere, and how i'm feeling at that particular moment...., and that site... well, i'm partial to donning plaid, short skirts, anything that ties up the side, and boots. man, you should dig these boots i own, i bet you would die. and these jeans- tie up the side number.... and don't even get me started on things that reall show the legs. i've gott 'em up to my neck.... lol- i've always been all legs, though. 
so there are a few things i dig on that site.
oh, and you spoke of fruit... you dig apples (symbolicaly, they're neat, if nothing else  ) try to get some honeycrisps. you wil die. they are amazing.
oh, and define "rave music" from the 90s. just out of my music lovin curious self...
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 5 October 2008 02:16 pm |
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your foster homes that you grew up in? I am a little confused. Were you adopted later? Can you clarify that for me? Maybe I"m just a little on the dumb side?
I need some more music. I've been scared to download limewire and put it on my new computer. I don't want to pay 1 dollar for every song on my new ipod so I Just listen to the saaaaaame thing OVER and OVER and OVER again. I bet my workouts would improve with better music!
So you bring your scale with you to work? I need to talk to the #%@&! people at my gym about if they ordered those calipers yet. When I was 187 I was at 32 % bodyfat. I am so curious what it says now! The calipers are much more accurate. Do you have a gym?
Your sweetie....er consort is trying to lose weight also? THat is too cute! It is much easier if they try with you! My fiance could have a weight problem if he allowed himself. He has a huge sweet tooth. He eats less sweets since dating me. His dad was diabetic so he really needs to watch how he eats.
Sounds like you had a good time! You have enough fun for all of us!
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 09:43 pm |
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those clothes sound cute, zenobia, nice. I bet you look nice in them too, especially if you are real leggy. nice!
Rave music from the early 1990s is like Acen, Messiah, Utah Saints, Power Pill. I am learning more as I am getting more and more into it, but those are some big players. Acen was probably one of the biggest, he had a video on MTV for Trip to the Moon (a really, really REALLY good song). I think one of the dudes from Utah Saints went on to be in Orbital...
and check out this picture... 1999, so it's a little later than the music that I REALLY like is from but it's really freakin entertaining to go look at:
http://www.candykids.net/pictures/ck99/
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check out the dude in the back too, he looks like he's really feelin it!
Tamale:
No, I am a social worker and I work with kids in foster care. I am currently in charge of 3 homes (7 kids). So I was at one of those homes.
I brought the scale to work because I wanted to have everyone be able to test their body fat (I work with all chicks, so they are all interested in it). I don't go the gym, I don't like the gym. I just work out at home using a jumprope and some weights.
My consort actually doesn't need to lose any more weight, he is now just trying to get a sculpted body, so he's doing a lot of strength training. Yes, it does make it much easier when we hang out that he does the exact same thing I do. A lot of times hanging out with dudes is what makes us chicks fat, because they take us out to eat and then we get faded and drunk and before you know it, we're fat as frack and all #%@&! off. So it's great he is eating healthy like me, I mean really, we are on the exact same plan, so it's awesome.
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 09:45 pm |
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#%@&!, it doesn't go to the exact picture in that link.
You have to actually click on the Oz party on 1.16 and then click on the bottom row, 3rd from the left (chick with blue hair and white earmuffs standing with a dude).
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 09:53 pm |
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oh AND even though I can't measure my body fat because the fracking bodyfat scale got left at the Redlands office, I WAS able to weigh myself on the scale at the Hollywood office this morning, and I weigh 151.5 pounds, which means I have lost 1.5 pounds since Thursday morning, but I don't know how much of it was fat and how much of it was water, but it was weight lost, so that's good. I know that at least some of it was fat, so...
and I measured my waist and hips this morning too
Waist is down to 31 inches, which is a total of 1.5 inches lost in about eleven days
and my hips are down to 42 inches, which is .5 inches lost in eleven days
so tha's cool, that's 2 inches lost in eleven days. Pretty good!
I got a weird text from my brother at like 1:24am that I didn't discover until I checked my phone in the morning. It said
"I gave on Russ and I under stan now and I don't blame you and I love you always."
I don't know what that means, but I know my poor brother has had a lot of problems with drugs and alcohol over the years, and Russ is our cousin who is basically the same way. I texted him back that I didn't understand his text, please explain it, but I haven't heard back from him. I hope he is sleeping it off somewhere...I worry about him a lot, he's always doing stupid #%@&! that could get himself killed AND he's also tried to kill himself a few times, so I think I want to call him and just see what's up.
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 09:56 pm |
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#%@&! he's not picking up his phone. I left a message. I hope I can speak to him soon. My parents are away on vacation and I want them to come home to something nice and mellow, not a bunch of drama you know? (my brother still lives with them, even though he's almost 28).
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 5 October 2008 10:02 pm |
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Can you go to your brother's (parent's) house?
Thats heavy stuff....dealing with suicide. You def. have to be careful with that. My friend out here just lost her brother last year because of that. I would go check on him if you could. Most likely he IS sleeping things off, but it is a shame that he is involved in drugs and alcohol. I broke up with my ex because of that (the one that oinked at me)...he used to be into drugs before we met but was off of all that stuff for a while. For some reason he started doing cocaine. I did break up with him because of it but tried to help him clean up. It was a really hard thing to go through...because you really can't help someone that is into all that stuff unless they WANT to be helped.
On a lighter note...great job on the weight loss! What weight are you aiming for?
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 10:26 pm |
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well, i am still going to wait and see if he calls me--he most likely is sleeping it off, and, although I know it's morbid, if he's dead, there's not much I can do about it now. I already talked to my aunt this morning, and she told me she would call once she talked to her son (Russ, the dude that was mentioned in my brother's text) and tell me what she finds out from him. We are all sort of used to behavior like this from my brother, usually he will wake up around 4 in the afternoon after he's had a night of it.
And on a lighter note--I don't have a particular weight I am going for, I just have a particular look I am going for. I am imagining that probably somewhere in the 130s is where I want to be, but i really don't know. I do want my abs to be defined, and in order for them to show, I think chicks have to be below 19% body fat.
and on a really funny note, I was just outside reading and this older man, like probably in his 70s walked by and so I said hi and he smiled and, in a really heavily accented voice, from Eastern Europe sounded like, he said
"You are a very good woman, very nice," and then he made a gesture that is SORT of like blowing a kiss, but you actually say "muah", like when someone is talking about a food that's really good, sort of like an italian or French gesture, bring the closed fingers up to the mouth and then say muah and move the hand away, opening the fingers, like "c'est magnifique!". Does that make sense
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 5 October 2008 10:28 pm |
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| Oh my!! I love old men....they say the darnest things!
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Straylight
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Posted: 5 October 2008 10:32 pm |
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i know and they can totally get away with whatever because they've earned the right to say whatever they want!
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Straylight
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Posted: 6 October 2008 04:21 pm |
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Whew, I ate like a b.tch yesterday, but it was SO worth it! Nachos, ice cream, pita chips, toffee candy. YUM! I also had some strawberries and a carrot to sort of get some nutrition in there, lol!
I also saw my friend that I haven't seen in two years. He's been in love with me, like completely way in love with me since he met me like 13 years ago. I have never had any feelings for him that way EVER, like not one little bit. I didn't talk to him for two years because he basically got mad that I wouldn't date him or throw him any sort of bone and then he cut me out of his life, which was fine, he was a good friend of mine, but I totally understood--there is no way I could be "pals" with some dude I was totally in love with, when there was absolutely no return of the feelings in any way. BUT ANYWAY--he came over and it was sorta funny, he talked SO MUCH about how he was over me and how I wasn't even necessarily that pretty or had that great of a body, and I was just some chick so he was SO over me and he didn't even think of me sexually anymore, and he doesn't even think about my butt or my boobs anymore, like not at ALL, like not one bit, and he went on and on and on about it, which was fine, I know it was cathartic for him, but at the same time I was thinking, for someone who doesn't think about my boobs or my butt, you sure talk about them more any other dude I know!
And then, conveniently, he got "sick" all of a sudden and asked to spend the night because he felt too sick to drive. I didn't care, I said fine sleep on the couch, but I was like
oh man, you are SO SMOOTH! that's not TOTALLY apparent. that's a good one, too sick to drive home. And then of course this morning, he was totally fine, right. And he had to tell me was so over me again, that he didn't even think about me at all when he was falling asleep.
hahaha
boys are so fracking funny!
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Straylight
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Posted: 7 October 2008 12:43 am |
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wow, just finished a workout and i need a shower! But it feels good for it to be over. I think my neighbor liked to watch me jump rope. He made it pretty obvious. Once again, I say, men are really funny. I am sure if I was a dude, I would love to watch a woman jump rope, bouncy bouncy you know?
lol!
anyway---work was good today, I got a lot accomplish and put out a big, fat fire. I should be getting a home certified in Burbank this week, so I am excited. This will be the first LA home certified in quite a while--I think the last home I certified was in January and what they wanted was so narrow, we ended up not being able to place in that home, they only wanted a White baby girl that was a few days old and up for adoption. That doesn't really happen that much in public adoptions, those kinds of cases are more private adoption agency things. But this home I am certifying this week will take a female of any age and a male up to age 12 or so (she has a 20-year-old daughter that lives in the home and an older teenage boy in that home is a bad idea).
Woo hoo!
AND
check this out--
I went to the dentist this morning and the hygienest kept complimenting me on my teeth, telling me they looked great and I took really good care of them. She said she hardly had to clean them at all, they were already really clean. THEN she said they looked so good that I didn't even need to have the dentist check for cavities. I had no idea you could skip the dental check--wow! It's like a Secret Society of Tooth Greatness or something. It's like cops getting to run red lights. It's great! Now I can't wait for my next visit. Maybe I will get to skip the cleaning altogether! They should let me pick something out of prize box for the kids, then I could give something to one of my kiddos. Or keep it if I found something really cool...
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 7 October 2008 02:07 am |
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Girl...you are around so many men! I don't see men anymore and I definitely don't get any male attention! All of the people in my classes at school are women (well the prof are men...but they don't count). My neighbors that i seel regularly are women....I go to a women's only gym....I wonder if I have an issue with men or something!
Yea...I don't think your male friend is over you. Pulease. Boys are SILLY!
Speaking of boys being silly....I get the feeling that my fiance is not too fond of me losing weight. I don't know if he just doesn't care or what is going on with that. It is very weird. My ex would gush on and on about how great I was looking when I would lose weight.(the one that was obsessed with me losing weight and would oink at me). So I guess I am expecting some sort of reaction like that...but I don't get that from this guy. He seems to be worried I will lose too much weight.
I have a theory. I think he is slightly insecure being out there in Iraq and thinks that I will lose weight and leave him.
Yea.........and we see all the attention that I get from men! Silly silly boys
Did you ever find out what was going on with your brother?
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Straylight
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Posted: 7 October 2008 02:19 am |
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I had an ex that got really upset when I lost weight. He was sure that I would cheat on him or leave him once I was thinner. When I did lose weight, he wasn't happy for me, instead he got more jealous and accusatory. I don't think your fiancee is this bad, but I think the same principle is at work, I think a lot of people worry that if their woman (or man) loses weight, they will suddenly be not good enough for them, and they will be on the hunt for someone new for their new and improved selves. Especially if they notice that the partner is getting noticeably more sexy or getting much more attention, any insecurity they have about themselves will blow up bigger and bigger until they are playing out all sorts of horrible fantasies in their minds. I think if you just reassure your fiancee that he is the only one for you he will start supporting you more in losing weight. Isn't he due home soon?
And as for my brother, I finally got ahold of him this morning, which was a big relief to me, I had been really worried that he had offed himself. I honestly think that people should have that right, to decide when they want to die, BUT I worry so much about my parents, especially my mother. If he were to kill himself or overdose or die in a drug-or-alcohol related accident, my parents would be absolutely devastated (as most parents would be!) So, I was very happy to hear from him. I asked him to explain his strange text, and he just said he was mad at our cousin for something he didn't disclose and he didn't elaborate. So, whatever. I am just glad he's still alive. I called my aunt and told her and she was happy too, because she had been really worried. My parents didn't know anything about anything, they are on vacation in hawaii and I certainly didn't want them to worry on their holiday. But all is well, at least for now, so I was REALLY happy this morning to get that reply text from him.
Thank you for asking about him! I appreciate it.
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 7 October 2008 02:32 am |
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No wonder you have such a quirky sense of humor. It is a good way for you to deal with the stuff with your brother, finding out the stuff about your biological mom, and I'm sure you see some crazy stuff with your job.
I wouldn't mind seeing the world through your eyes! I can see how some people wind up being SUPER intense...like can't even joke around. You don't seem to be that way. Thats a good thing!
I feel like sometimes people are too serious about things. I mean don't get me wrong..I can have deep thoughts about things, but I try not to dwell on it too much...it'll just make me sad and mopey! I would rather laugh and giggle! I love silliness!
As for the fiance...yup he is due home this Sunday. I think the worse part about him being gone is not so much him actually being gone (although that sucks royally), but it is hearing his voice...he sounds so tired, so mentally and physically drained. I miss my man's "happy" voice. He doesn't sound like that anymore. It worries me a little but I know it is because of the 12 hour days and the exhaustion and heat getting to him. I can't wait to see him to make sure that he IS alright, that he is not going insane and that he can still laugh and be silly with me. I can take pretty much anything you dish out to me....I just couldn't take his personality changing. It is what I fell in love with.
Enough of all that mushy stuff. We should stick with the bouncy bouncy jump ropes. SPeaking of that I think I would be uncomfortable jumping rope in front of men. I don't even like running in front of men. They are not very subtle about staring at my chest. That is probably why I work out at a women's only gym. No worries about that!
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Posted: 7 October 2008 02:40 am |
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Straylight, you are doing great!!! 
You are so beautiful right now!!!
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Posted: 7 October 2008 04:33 am |
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Glad to hear you got ahold of your brother! I have major mixed feelings about suicide too. I definitely agree that it should be a person's choice... but it's such a sad thing. First of all the peopel that love you hurt over it not only because you're dead, but because they know you were suffering so much that you'd rather die... second of all it can be such a selfish thing, especially if there are people that are dependent on you (like children). My dad tried to kill himself a few years ago, and although he didn't die it was by far the most difficult thing I've ever had to go through.
Just wanted to say I'm so sorry about your brother. Even though he has been unsuccessful, I know how much it hurts to see someone you love suffer that much  . I though the text meant he was giving up on drugs! If "Russ" does a lot of drugs on stuff, then giving up on him might have meant he was giving up on that world? I don't know, just hoping for the best .
And congrats on the inches lost!!! I never measure myself, I just judge by how my clothes fit (especially my jeans when they're just out of the dryer).
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Posted: 8 October 2008 02:19 am |
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Argh! My stupid scale is still at work, so I can't measure my bodyfat OR my weight first thing in the morning unless I make a special trip to the office butt-#%@&! early which I dont want to do during the week. But anyway, I know I had a decent calorie deficit yesterday, so I was happy about that. Woo hoo! I also saw my friend D. yesterday, and he said he is starting on a new nutrition program too, inspired by what I have told him. He hasn't had any white carbs for like 7 days now, and he says he is feeling great, but he does miss beer. (He is a beer conessoir, or however you spell it). It was fun to see him. (He is just a friend though, not a consort, not really). His body is pretty hefty, all his beer-drinking made him go from being real petite to being built like a lumberjack. When I first met him, he wore pants smaller than mine, now he's big. I don't know if he wants to be really small again, but I know he'd like to have a nicer body than he has now.
My brother also decided he wants to look for his birthparents too, which is really cool. He has never really talked about them before, or how he feels about being adopted. But obviously it means something to him because he is now wanting to find out. Maybe it will be able to help him out if he can find some information, feel like he is not so lost, I don't know. He has been really sad a lot of his life, and I don't really know why. My parents were always so good to him and me, they treated us with so much love and adoration--I don't know why he feels so bad about himself. It's weird--he's really good-looking too, all of my friends that meet him always want to hook up with him, but he only goes out with really trashy, abusive women, like the kind who give themselves bruises and then call the police and say he did it, or women that break his windows or smash his tires--whenever he meets a chick who's nice and likes him, he never likes her, he only likes women who treat him like #%@&!. Once, a long time ago, when he was really drunk, he told me that he was in love with ME, which I guess isn't all THAT crazy--I mean we aren't related and we used to be very close, so he probably felt like I was one of the only females that knew him well and treated him good, etc. I told him at the time that he was just talking crazy and he was my brother and so forth, but he kept insisting. I tried to talk to him about it later the next morning once he had slept it off and was sober, but he was not open to talking about it at all and asked me never to bring it up again.
I also found an ad once on craigslist that he had posted saying he was looking for a date with a tranny (transexual). I also tried bringing this up to him, thinking maybe he was bi or gay and this was perhaps an underlying cause of a lot of his sense of self-hatred. I told him that if he was gay or bi or into trannies or whatever that we would all accept him, even Dad would (after probably being really mad for a few weeks). But he instantly denied every putting up that ad, even though there were pictures of him, his face and his total naked body on the ad. So, I don't know... he's a complicated man.
Luckily he has been talking to me more and more, really ever since I told him about my birth mom he has opened up to me a lot.
I don't know what he meant by that strange text in the middle of the night. I don't know what it is that he now understands and doesn't blame me for. I would like to think that he had some sort of revelation and will stop drinking and using--sometimes epiphanies come in flashes like that, and you do change your life from that moment forward, that would be really nice, and I know it would mean a lot to my parents to have him be clean and sober and most of all happy.
I talked to my Mom today in Hawaii and she asked me point-blank if I thought my brother was still drinking and using and I told her yes I thought so, and then she got all upset. But there is no reason she should be surprised--she knows he drinks and uses, I think she just tries to con herself into thinking that every time he does is the last time, it's always some rationalization with her, whenever she catches him drunk or high, he always has some excuse-- oh it was my friend's birthday, oh it was the last day before my new job, oh it was so-and-so-'s graudation, oh my friend from out of town was visiting, and my mom keeps trying to fool herself into thinking that all of his constant drinking and using are isolated incidents. It sucks--they gave him $2600 to buy a new truck but made him promise he would stay clean. Of course he told them he would stay clean, but he definitely hasn't stayed clean, and they give him no consequences for it. I think they should take away his truck since he did not live up to his end of the bargain and used their money and then broke his promise, but my parents don't want to hear any more advice from me. They refuse to put any limits or boundaries on him, and I have told them this is really dumb and counterproductive, but they come up with reasons why they can't set any limits with him. Mostly my mom is afraid he will hate her and cut her off if she doesn't kiss his #%@&! and cater to him. I don't know what my Dad thinks, but he too continues to be totally permissive with my brother.
Sara, I am sorry to hear about your father. I can't imagine how I would feel if my father tried to kill himself. I am really close to both of my parents. My friend's father used to always threaten to kill himself whenever he didn't get his way, real manipulative. It was hard for my friend to grow up like that. He said sometimes he wished his dad would just do it instead of threaten to do it all the time, then everyone could stop worrying.
Its crazy sometimes!
Tamale: I am sure it is hard for your man being over in Iraq. It is difficult for us to really fathom what his days and nights are like over there. Don't be surprised if he is a little down or takes a while to adjust to being off-duty. They have to do and see some really heavy stuff over there and it's not always easy just to switch back to civilian life. Don't take it personally if he seems a little distant or withdrawn when he gets back, and don't make him feel pressured to be happy or be his "old self" Just let him be however he is and show him your love and support.
On another, happier note, I have a date tonight AND tomorrow night. Woo hoo! I am going to check out a new hookah lounge by my house tomorrow night with one of my consorts and then another one of my consorts is coming by in a bit to just kick it and probably drink some wine and play Silent Hill.
I have been real good on my calories and have been eating a lot of the fruit I bought at the farmer's market this past weekend. I also went to Whole Foods yesterday and stocked up on a bunch of nice, healthy, yummy, interesting food. It feels really good to shop at stores like Trader Joe's and Whole Foods and the farmer's market, it feels like your're in on some big secret. It's great!
My legs are sore from yesterday's workout. I love it!
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That's terrible about your friends dad! I don't know what to say about it other than I can't even fathem having to go through that all the time!!!
Also, I can understand if your brother is in love with you, you seem like a very understanding and forgiving person (to any kind of "issues" a person can have) which is extremely admirable. Yeah, it's not exactly ideal to have your brother fall in love with you, but human emotions and desires span much further than what we are willing to talk about or admit, so atleast he said something.
This might sound stupid, but what's a consort? Is it like a boyfriend? Haha, I know I've heard the word before I when I was younger and would play the Sims there was a guy in the Sim neighborhood named Consort Capp... so I should know...
I'm really glad you're on this site, I never used to talk about anything but dieting!
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| Oh, also, it might be good that you don't have your scale cause since you've been behaving yourself, you'll probably see a nice big drop when you finally get back on it.
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Oh trust me, I am looking forward to seeing a big, significant change in the scale when I weigh in on Friday morning. This is the longest I have ever gone without weighing myself when I am trying to lose weight. (Of course when i am a fatass and not trying to lose weight, I never weigh myself).
A consort is like a suitor, a man you are seeing. I like it because it sounds fancy.
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| Ok, haha, that's what I thought. And it does sound fancy! I'm gonna start calling Jason my consort. He'll have no idea what it means .
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I got it from a Neal Stephenson book when he talks about Asherah being the consort of Enki (I think those were both Sumerian gods, as I recall...)
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yea it can also mean "husband" so you can even call your hubby that.
Sounds like your brother has A LOT of unresolved issues, as well as problems with communication. He sounds a little like my ex. He grew up doing a lot of drugs and hard core drinking. I think he used to own a meth lab actually. He also never really talked about things...or he would tell me stuff in emails or texts. It was very difficult for him to tell me things face to face.
Yay for sore legs!!!!
Keep us updated about how much the scale has moved!!!
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TWO MORE DAYS and then I will have my #%@&! scale back and can do a weigh-in. Sheesh! That would be so awesome if I dropped like five pounds or something, but I doubt it--I mean maybe five pounds total, but not five pounds of fat. Plus, this is Day 19 of my cycle today, so I know that means my uterus is filling up with all its nutritious gunk.
I just finished my breakfast of an egg with cheese and tapatio and just drank my green tea, so probably in about fifteen minutes I am going to go to my office and do a stairs workout before anyone gets there. (I live a mile from the office, so it's perfect for going in there, using the stairs and then coming home! And nobody knows that I did it! It's awesome!)
And for anyone that is a bit confused--I live in Hollywood, and my main office that I go to 4 days a week is in Hollywood (that's the one that is 1 mile away). But once a week, I have to report to our sister office in Redlands (which is about 1.25 hours East of Hollywood). And it was in the #%@&! Redlands office that I left my scale at.
Woo hoo! My Ipod appears to be done synching, let me check it... oh YES! It is done! I am off to do my 18-minute Stair Workout. I'll post when I get back. WOO HOO!
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Whew! Finished with that--now I am good until Friday or Saturday, thank God! But it did feel good to do the stairs, I can really feel it in my quads and it's great. And incidentally, I am starting to get some definition in my quads, the lower part around the knee, I can see the corner edge of the muscle, I am happy. And it's a good thing no one was around to see my jumproping because the girls popped right out, but I just kept going, because I was totally alone, so who cares. But I seriously need to invest in a sports bra. D-cup tittays and jumproping without a sports bra is just not a good mix! And my hands are occupied so it's not like I can even hold them steady. I got a Target card for my birthday, I'll just pop over and pick up a cute sports bra there.
But #%@&! it feels good to be done with that workout!
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Girl..D cups need a better bra than target. You need to check out sports authority OR academy (if you have that out there). I wear a 34 H bra...so needless to say I MUST wear a good sports bra. I usually buy the 34 DD's sports bras and wear a second less supportive bra over it. I have max coverage...nothing pops out at all. I've always had these big boobs. I keep hoping they go down with weight loss, but I just keep getting smaller in the band size and not necessarily the cup size. I plan on using my fiance's benefits to get breast reduction when he is home. I would like to finish losing this weight first though.
Stairs ARE awesome...we have a set of stairs at the park that I jog at. I usually run up them two at a time and do 3 or 4 sets of those then continue on my lil merry way.
You need to post your eats for a day so I can get an idea of how you eat. Do you eat more protein? I am not sure what that plan entails. I may have to check out the book.
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34 H! DAYAM! I didn't even know there WAS an H. Woman you could feed an army with those things! Is your Mom and Grandma like that too or what? Wow! Sheesh! I bet those babies get you a lot of attention when you go out. Holy moly! Okay, well I will check out Sports Authority and Academy. Mammary tissue doesn't change when you lose weight, unless you are starving yourself. If you have big tittays you just have a lot of mammary tissue. I mean, like everything else, they can get a layer of fat around them, but the cores don't change.
And last night, my consort came over and I was drinking wine and we played Silent Hill and I told him
please make sure you save the game
he was like I know I know okay okay
and then he doesn't save the game
and then we get killed. 70 minutes of play for nothing. I always save my game a LOT, like a lot, but a lot of dudes I know don't bother. It's weird. It pisses me off. I should have paid more attention to the game and less attention to the wine and saved the game myself! Oh well...!!!!!!! If that's my biggest problem, I have a #%@&! good life, you know?
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I think when it comes to guys it is almost better to just do it yourself.
I miss my wine, but it increases my appetite. I will be drinking wine at my wedding though. Also,I think we are going to go out on the town a night or two when we are on our little getaway. We aren't going very far, just Dallas. We are saving the "real" honeymoon for when he is done with Iraq.
Yes my mom has huge boobs. She is also very overweight so they are bigger because of that. She has a lot of back problems. My grandma also had big boobs. Several women in my family have had breast reduction.
You know what for my size, I hide my chest very well. Most people have no idea how big i am... people usually don't understand why I complain about having a big chest size. They think I am a C or D cup. I don't wear tight shirts and the bras that are made for my size don't really allow cleavage to be seen. I remember the first time my ex saw me naked ( a loooong time ago) he said "holy s.h.i.t. where have you been hiding those) HA!
I would MUCH rather be a D cup. I think that is the sexiest size...you can really work those !
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Posted: 8 October 2008 06:15 pm |
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LOL your diary is so fun to read. 
I hate it, too, when you are typing a big post on a message board, and then you click something, and all your hard work is g
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Posted: 8 October 2008 11:43 pm |
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Straylight wrote: 34 H! DAYAM! I didn't even know there WAS an H. Woman you could feed an army with those things! Is your Mom and Grandma like that too or what? Wow! Sheesh! I bet those babies get you a lot of attention when you go out. Holy moly! Okay, well I will check out Sports Authority and Academy. Mammary tissue doesn't change when you lose weight, unless you are starving yourself. If you have big tittays you just have a lot of mammary tissue. I mean, like everything else, they can get a layer of fat around them, but the cores don't change.
I totally agree about mammary tissue not changing. I've been losing weight and my tots have grown! WTF?!? My D's now give me a double boob! And that's how I know one of my friends isn't eatting enough because her boobs are shrinking as quickly, if not more, than the rest of her body. They used to be like a full size bigger than mine and now they're about a full size smaller. I feel bad for her .
But I also think being too overweight can make your boobs larger too, it can also change the shape of them... I mean think about guys, they get boobs when they gain weight.
Wannabe- I have a friend that wears and H too! She also wants a reduction, but I guess the doctors she saw won't do it until she gets down to 140 lbs! Which would be tiny for her (she's 220 now).... I think she would look anorexic!
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yeah, I knew a chick Holly who had DDs, but she hid them really well so people were always surprised when they actually saw them. But Hs---man! I seriously don't know how you could hide those, but I guess you know the secret. I wonder what like Dolly Parton is--she's the biggest-breasted woman I can think of. I am actually going to look it up right now...
haha!!!
http://www.usrbingeek.com/a/000810.php
it's a list of celebrity cup-sizes! Looks like Dolly is only a 40DD. God#%@&! I can't even imagine what Hs look like! That's it, I am doing a google image search...eh, okay, it's not really as big as I thought, although it IS pretty big!
I went to the hookah lounge after work tonight to meet up with one of my consorts. It was really fun, and the shisha was awesome! Melon flavored, one of my favorites for sure! And it's so much better than going to a bar because then you aren't messed up to drive home or have to worry about your blood alcohol level. Very cool Middle-Eastern ambient type music in there too, I really dug it! Nice little Wednesday night outing!
As for what I ate today, I had the following:
-one fried egg (using butter to fry it) with some cheddar cheese
-a few almonds and a few grapes
-a whey protein shake
-a few cocoa almonds
-a bowl of organic lentil soup
-an organic nectarine
-a small piece of an apple
-a bit more cheddar cheese
-a bowl of chicken with vegetables and teriyaki sauce.
About 1300 - 1400 calories.
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Dolly was a 40 DD...how is that possible??! Her waist is so small and she seems so petite. That is why her boobs look so huge. Thats how big mine were when I was my heaviest. The band is what does most of the support of your bra. I have another bra that is 32 I. blah! I would love to be a 34 D or even a DD or 32 DD, that would be fine with me. My cousin is a 32 DD she had breast reduction. It looks great! She doesn't look as big as she is because the band size is so tiny. I can't believe dolly is a 40!! the bigger the band the bigger your chest looks. I have another friend that is a size 38 DD and wow she looks as big as dolly.
Leann ryhmes is a 34 D. She has nice boobs!
Thanks for posting your eats. That equals 1300 calories?!?! That looks less to me!! It looks like you barely eat all day!
Stucksara: how tall is your friend?
I wouldn't mind being 140. I wonder what the doctors would tell me about breast reduction.
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tamale, are you kidding--it looks like I don't eat all day? Look at all those items, that looks like a lot to ME, and trust me it is about 1300 calories because I am way careful to make sure I get in at least 1200. And I have used fitday so much, I pretty much know the calories in just about everything offhand, although sometimes I have to look. And I eat VERY frequently, I eat way more than 6 times a day. I am always snacking on bits of food. I think they call that grazing. (of course they'd call it something a cow does right? SHEEEESH). But anyway, that's what I do, I usually have some of food or my protein shake nearby, always sipping or nibbling, so I feel like I eat a #%@&! lot.
Yeah, Dolly DOES have a small waist, she is such a tiny woman, and continues to be, even at her age. She must either have good genetics or take good care of herself or both. And speaking of chicks who look AWESOME for their ages--i saw a picture of Tina Turner the other day, that b.tch has got to be in her 60s, right, and she could pass for like 35! And her body is like WOW!!!! so fit! Almost like Jack LaLane (or however you spell it) style. i want to check Tina's cup size, after I post this I will check that list.
I have been doing more research on modifying my car's engine in order to get better gas mileage. I want to read up on it before I do it. There's a device called an Electrolyzer you can buy and have someone install that can improve your mileage, up to even 300%. It works by splitting water molecules into HHO, which is different than water vaopr, it's called Brown's Gas, but anyway. I am REALLY interested in it because not only does it improve your mileage but it reduces emissions, and I am always wanting to do green things and plus I had a big dream about alternative energy last week (I think it was last week, it was recently anyway) and when I woke up I really felt strongly about it. And this may ruffle some feathers, but I will say it anyway, I think that if we weren't dependent on foriegn oil, September 11th would never have happened, and in the dream I remember saying that exact thing and then I had another dream like REALLY recently, in the last few days, where I was talking to somebody and I said something like
for every mile we can travel using less oil, think of it as one less person dead on September 11th. (I might not be saying it exactly right because it was dream-talk, but hopefully you kind of get the picture).
Anyway, if you are interested in learning more about it, check out water4gas.com.
I don't remember my dreams from last night, and I specifically asked for a dream that would guide me and bring me knowledge and power, but so far I can't remember it, but maybe it will still come to me or maybe it went somewhere in my subconscious and it's working without my conscious mind knowing about it...
This is also my third day of doing my colon cleanse, using the ACOG that people have talked about on here. It seems to be working pretty well, except my bowels have woken me up between 5 and 6 for the past two mornings. I am waiting for something amazing to come out, like something you see on those websites, or I have heard about stuff that looks like black tire rubber come out and that's what I would really like to see. So far, I haven't seen anything really unusual. I actually give poo reports in the Diet Pill Supplements Forum. I haven't taken any pictures yet but we'll see, lol!
I actually drove to the Hollywood office early this morning to weigh myself because I was really curious. Now mind you, the scale there only measures total weight, not body fat or anything, but that scale said I weighed 153.75. So, I am REALLY curious as to what the body fat percentage is because that total weight is up from Sunday morning, wherein I weighed 151.5 according to that scale. I am hoping that extra weight is
1) uterine contents (because it is Day 20 of my cycle, and I know my uterus is getting pretty full),
2) water (because i did have some food from Tokyo Grill yesterday at the mall which I sure was high sodium and probably made me retain water plus I always retain more water close to my period) \
and/or 3) muscle mass, because I have been doing strength training at least three times a week).
My inches haven't changed, so...
#%@&! I will be so happy to have my body fat scale back today. Sheesh! You have no idea!
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Posted: 9 October 2008 04:23 pm |
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| Darn! Tina Turner's cup size is not on there.
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My mom did a colon cleanse and I just happened to be visiting the week when all the really nasty stuff was comin out. I know what you're thinking, and yeah, she showed me. And yeah, it was disgusting! It did look like rubbery wet tire... all black and strongly bonded to itself, but thin. One day it looked more sea-weedy (that was earlier in the week). She said on another day she actually saw worms, but i didn't see any. I started doing one a while ago that I really liked cause it made me feel better, but the entire time I was so terrified of seeing something gross! I never actually did, I don't know if it's just because I'm young and didn't have much to clean, or if I just didn't do it long enough. Keep us posted on yours though! I wanna try one again.
wannabe- my friend is like 5'8-5'9. so that would put her well within the healthy range.
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I don't know, unless you have eaten all unprocessed, organic food your whole life, you probably have a lot to clean out--you're like 21 or 22 or something, right? Dude, you have 20 years of sh.it to clean out. Thats less than 40 years of sh.it, but it's still a lot of sh.it! lol! I am excited for gross stuff to come out--I can't wait! So far, nothing really that gross, and certainly no worms or visible buggy bugs.
My freaking computer crashed the other morning, but I seem to have repaired a lot of it myself, which makes me REALLY happy. Having a computer guru father is awesome, and I guess I was able to access some memory banks I didn't know I had as far as how to run repairs. I know what the problem is--my CPU fan is broken, and I think the system is overheating--I KNOW the system is overheating. I am installing a new CPU fan on Sunday, going to see my father again because I dont have the tools to install the stupid fan and I want to see my parents again anyway to show them the pictures of my birth mother and aunt. Plus they've been in Hawaii and they bought me gifts so I want to go get those and plus just see them and show them some love.
Well, I got my scale back today, and I have lost another .26 pounds of fat in the last week. (My actual total weight went down by about .90 pounds, but only .26 of it was fat. I am sure the rest of it was water.)
So that is awesome! I am so pleased! That means that I have lost a grand total of 1.92 pounds of fat since I started this on 9/25/08. That is great! That's like about half of the fat that the average liposuction surgery takes out. And I didn't have to pay thousands of dollars for it either! WOO HOO!!!! AND that is also with having a total cheat day where I eat whatever I want and only working out 3 times a week. That is definitely sustainable! I would be more than happy to lose about a pound of fat a week, because that means that by the solstice, I will have lost pver 10 pounds of pure fat. (And just so that all of you know, 10 pounds of fat is absolutely the maximum amount of fat that any lipo surgeron will extract out of you, most surgeons pull out about 4 -5 pounds on average).
Because TRUST me, I have looked into liposuction as a way to get the last few pounds off and recontour the body, and it costs around $5K for a localized area, and probably something like $8K to get that maximum ten pounds from all over done.
I actually even had a liposuction consult APPOINTMENT that I got lost on the way to and then that very evening, THAT VERY EVENING, one of my consorts (that I definitely did NOT tell about the consult) just happened to ask me if I had ever read that e-book he had sent me (The Truth About Abs), and I told him I hadn't and he re-sent it, and I was inspired. So the way I look at it, I have seriously done about $2 grand worth of work to my body already. And I think that's really cool! (Every pound of fat that you lose is about a grand--think about THAT!)
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And let's see, yesterday I ate:
-a slice of turkey loaf from Whole Foods
-some macadamia nuts
-some beet chips
-some sesame crunch candy
-peanut butter and honey (this is my new favorite thing! SO GOOD! And 365 makes some excellent organic peanut butter, it was so good I had to re-read the ingredients to make sure it didn't have any of those food hallucinogens in there that usually makes processed food taste so good. Remember that 365. Excellent organic peanut butter)
-some more macadamia nuts
-some dark cocoa almonds
-some cheddar cheese
And I went for a 10-minute walk with some coworkers and it felt great!
Oh, and I just want to say this, because it was really touching and moving at yesterday. I actually got real choked up thinking about it this morning, it was just so beautiful. I have a kid on my caseload whose mother used to be a tweaker, like a big time tweaker, and about 4 years ago, while she was a tweaker, she and her son got into an argument and her son (who was about 11 at the time) just basically verbally let her have it and told her he was sick of her drugs and sick of her and sick of taking care of her and sick of all the dudes coming and going and he just told her he was done with it and done with her. So she of course, at the time, being a stupid tweaker and all caught up in her addiction, kicked him out of the house and sent him to go live with his father (whom she hadn't been romantically involved with for some time).
So, this poor kid goes to live with his father, who at the time had a job and had stable housing and so forth. But, of course, the Dad and Mom did not get along at all, so the Dad denied the Mom access to the son and then somewhere along the way in the last four years, the Dad lost his job and lost his housing and started drinking heavily and got involved in fraud and theft and all this type of stuff and basically just became a transient, like vagabond-type of dude and wandered around in the desert with his son for like four years. And so, this poor son, you know, hasn't been in school in four years, his Dad is teaching him all this criminal stuff to make money, and the Dad is now a full-blown alcoholic and really violent and scarey and crazy and for the past about four years, the Mom hasn't been able to see her son or contact her son, which is largely her fault for kicking him out in the first place because speed was more important than him at the time BUT...
She reports that she got clean about 3 years ago and moved out of state because she needed to get out of SoCal and away from all her drugs friends and drug dudes and whatever, and so she had been living out of state, not being to able to see her son, wanting to reunite with him once she stopped tweaking because she missed him and loved him but had no way of finding him or getting ahold of him.
So anyway, it happens a few months back that the father of this kid (young man, now), gets drunk one night in a motel room and starts in with his son yelling and being a jerk and the son yells back and tells him to shut up and the Dad grabs a knife and attempts to stab the son, so the son runs out and doesn't look back and just runs and runs and is spotted by a chopper and then they get the story as to what happened and so then he gets taken into County protective custody and gets placed in a foster home.
Now, the mom, who hasn't known what's going on for the last four years gets a notice, because the County is able to locate her by using their due diligence search databases and whatnot and finds out that her son is in a foster home and his father tried to kill him, and so she immediately comes to back to California and says that she wants him to be with her and she feels really awful that all this happened, but she is glad that she knows where he is now and she has visits with him (that I supervise) once a week. So, that's the back history, which I am telling you in order to tell you THIS:
She visits him every week and is so happy to be seeing him (and trust me, I work with a lot of REALLY FLAKEY biological parents that do not visit regularly or show up late or show up high or drunk or whatever, so I have a lot of respect for biological parents who come to their visits and are appropriate and loving, etc.) And anyway, this last week she takes a bus to the visit and she gets confused and the bus drops her off like 2.5 miles from our office. So, she calls the office and she's asking how to get there, and so we're all helping her giving her directions, and she walks 2.5 miles in 45 minutes in 98 degree heat, and she shows up at the door beet red, sweating bullets, breathing heavy, and she's like "I'm not late, am I? I get to see him right?" And mind you, this chick is out of shape, overweight, in her 40s and probably hasn't exercised like that since high school. I was so touched by her determination and for her intense love for her son, that she wanted to see him so bad that she went through all that to make sure she was not late and got her full hour with him.
I have been in this business for about 7 years, and I have never seen a biological parent with that amount of dedication and devotion to their children. I don't think her son fully appreciated what she had done (because kids rarely do), but I definitely did. It was truly beautiful, and I felt so happy and lucky to have a job where I get to see things like this. Now, I get to see some really ugly things too, but I also get to see very beautiful things, and this was definitely one of them.
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Posted: 10 October 2008 05:42 pm |
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Thanks for the post. Very nice.
Also wanted to say that I was inspired by your ideas on visualizing positive things. I've tried it a couple of times the past few days, and it's very helpful.
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Straylight
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Posted: 11 October 2008 02:09 am |
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Glad you liked it--I REALLY like to do visualization, it's awesome! Especially when you really feel like you're there!
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Straylight
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Posted: 12 October 2008 01:04 am |
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oh yes! On the scale this morning, I have lost another .07 pounds of fat! Altogether my total weight has dropped 5.60 pounds and I have lost 1.99 pounds of fat in the last 16 days. So, that means I must have lost about 3.61 pounds of water during this time. I want to research water weight loss, as it is something I have never really understood but heard a lot about.
Yesterday i ate:
-a fried egg with cheddar cheese and tapatio (fried with butter)
-a whey protein drink
-some macadamia nuts
-some steamed vegetables (broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots), chicken breast and cheddar cheese
-peanut butter and honey (oh YES!)
-some more cheese
-a few more macadamia nuts
Today, I haven't been so hungry, and I need to make sure I get in another 600 calories before the day ends...
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WannabeLoser
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Posted: 12 October 2008 01:44 am |
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Straylight
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Posted: 12 October 2008 02:46 am |
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Ahhh, YES I just made some more steamed vegetables with a LOT of cheese and some butter and some tapatio. Now I just need 200 more calories. So I can probably have some nuts later and I will be good!
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Straylight
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Posted: 12 October 2008 03:57 am |
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oooh man, I just made a new dish for my last meal of the day
before i take my DELICIOUS colon clease pills lol (actually they don't taste like anything)
but the dish is cheddar cheese melted over crushed macadamia nuts (cheese is organic from whole foods).
man oh man is it GOOD!!!! WOW!!!! This could be one of my new favorites. Right up there with peanut butter and honey.
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