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desperategirl
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Posted: 15 September 2008 10:41 pm |
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hi to everyone on here. i guess i would start by saying:
dear diary...or maybe that's too twee.
well, I guess i'll start by telling the truth. everything in my life is going well, i have a relationship with a great guy, a nice house, and a career in the entertainment industry, that's going really well. i find that i can apply myself to anything, work really hard, and do well. well, not everything. for some reason, i can't control my eating. i guess i can't really tell my boyf, because it's embarrassing - he's naturally very still, and finds it so easy to eat healthily. i mean, he will buy a bar of chocolate, then not eat it, because HE FORGOT he bought it. if i buy it, it'll taunt and distract me, until i eat it. for about a year, i had binges, then made myself sick. i managed to stop doing that, but for a while, it was an obsession, planning what i'd eat, where i'd eat, how i could eat as much as possible without anyone knowing. my first thought in the morning is what i can eat.
i'm not really overweight - a bit over the top end of what i should be for my height, but i'm a barrel - i'm 5'6" and the widest part of my stomach is 40".
i try to diet, but never last a day. i have read other diaries, and i'm inspired, so, with baby steps and accountability to you guys, here's hoping i can do it this time. i am so impressed by people who have lost loads and loads. i have 20 pounds to lose, and can't even lose one.
sorry for moaning, i will be more cheery next time!
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Posted: 15 September 2008 10:47 pm |
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| Hi desperategirl! Welcome to the forums. Don't worry about moaning a little, I'm pretty sure most of my diary is moaning as well...anyway. Good luck on your weight loss goals, I hope they go well for you...oh, and just out of curiousity, what do you do in the entertainment business?
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desperategirl
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Posted: 15 September 2008 10:49 pm |
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| thanks for your swift reply! i direct theatre. i'll hop over to your diary and swot up now...
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trimB
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Posted: 15 September 2008 11:13 pm |
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Baby steps! I'm a big fan myself.
If you write what your next baby step will be, we promise to keep you accountable!
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dsalmon
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Posted: 16 September 2008 01:06 am |
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desperategirl wrote: thanks for your swift reply! i direct theatre. i'll hop over to your diary and swot up now...
That's great. I'm a singer, but I've done quite a bit of theatre as well (though never directing, I'm not sure I could handle that!). It's nice to have you on the forums though...I look forward to seeing your progress!
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AlexAtaLoss
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Posted: 16 September 2008 01:14 am |
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| haha, i just laughed my butt off at your comment about your boyfriend buying a chocolate bar and forgetting about it. i can relate to that so much. i had the exact same experience yesterday when i was cleaning out the cupholders of my boyfriends car and found that he had taken only two sips of his hot chocolate and left the rest ... mine was gone before we were out of the parking lot ...
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desperategirl
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Posted: 16 September 2008 06:34 pm |
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wow! it's really nice to get all those replies so quickly.
so...my baby steps.
i realised that i had slipped into a bad habbit of drinking a lot of full fat coke, lattes and hot chocolates. my boyfriend works in a cafe, so its really easy to sit there chatting, getting all these unhealthy drinks for free. if i had a latte or hot choc, followed by a few glasses of full fat coke/lemonade, i was easily packing away 1000 calories in an evening. that's before i had an enormous free meal. also, the drinks are on top of a lot of food. SO, my point is that i am giving up all the drinks. if i really want pop, then i have a diet squash or diet coke. when i drink coffee, i just drink americano with milk, instead of latte. cutting out a few thousand cals a week!
my next baby step is to only eat when i'm hungry, instead of eating just for something to do. i know people are meant to have triggers - i.e. boredom, sadness that make them eat, but i just love to eat!
thanks again for the replies,
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desperategirl
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Posted: 18 September 2008 12:14 pm |
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so...another day that went well. i ate nearly 2000 calories, but i have pmt, and am STARVING all the time! also, kept chocolate related cravings down to one cup of semi-skimmed hot choc. this is progress for me! usually, during PMT week, i'd easily pack away 3000 - 4000 calories. although i do really feel like i'm craving certain foods, i also kind of enjoy using it as an excuse to be a greedy bugger. i was also told by the doctor that you generally use an extra 100-200 cals a day in the week before your period - that's why i feel so ravenous, so i felt that anywhere around 2000 cals a day this week is good news. i am trying more to think about losing this twenty pounds very very slowly, so that instead of dieting, then putting it back on, i gradually adjust to what my body needs, and find my natural weight. also, in theory, backing this up with exercise, but only been doing walking. i hate jogging, and, as a freelancer, don't want to commit to the gym, so am trying to think of alternate exercise. maybe dance? or team sports?
desperate girl
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desperategirl
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Posted: 18 September 2008 10:03 pm |
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another policy...
do you find that when you're dieting, sometimes you get so hungry, or get such a craving that you just eat something you weren't meant to, then you think that because you've eaten that, you may as well eat anything, and eat thousands and thousands of calories. just keep eating, even if you don't really want to, because you've messed up, so you may as well?
my new baby step is that if i do sucuumb to a craving (i.e. choc related pmt craving) i can eat as long as i don't go over 2000 calories. sure, i won't lose any weight, but i won't put any on.
i'd eaten about 1500, but then NEEDED some choc (resisted for two days) i ate two cake bars (120 cals each) and that seems to have done the trick. my cal count is higher, i may even have another, but it's still a deficit.
before i would have devoured the whole box of cakes, plus chocolate and crisps.
maybe i'm learning moderation? slow and steady wins the race.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 18 September 2008 10:12 pm |
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My thing about cravings is that I don't ignore them. I want chocolate I have chocolate, but I make a production out of it. Get in the car, drive to the "fancy" mall, get 3 pieces of my favorite chocolates at $29/lb (I usually spend about $5) And enjoy enjoy enjoy. I figure it is WAY worse to mow my way through 3 boxes of ding dongs because I wanted chocolate then to splurge on my very, very satisfying - und usually around 300 cal - splurge. So maybe figure out how you want to satisfy a craving and have that in the back of your mind the next time the need hits.
The other thing I do is I eat every 2-3 hours specifically so I don't get too hungry. Now, personally I think a few MINOR hunger pangs - especially when close to meal time - aren't necessarily a bad thing, but you shouldn't get too hungry. However, if you are eating at a deficit every once in a while you just can't help it - you spend the day hungry. Again, I say plan ahead, know the few things you can eat that will fill you up without detracting from your day. A big bowl of cereal instead of chips maybe?
Last edited on 18 September 2008 10:14 pm by MidgeH
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desperategirl
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Posted: 18 September 2008 11:07 pm |
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hiya,
thanks for your post!
i agree about making a big deal of indulging cravings. i really really wanted the cake bars, but instead of ripping straight in, like i'd normally do, i made a cup of decaf coffee, sat down with my coffee, got a plate and enjoyed eating two bars (about 240 cals) and felt satisfied. normally i'd scarf the box.
i also wondered though - if you give into cravings less, will you lose a taste for the delicious contraband?
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MidgeH
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Posted: 19 September 2008 12:56 am |
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i also wondered though - if you give into cravings less, will you lose a taste for the delicious contraband? For me it's yes and no. For 5 months now I've been eating mostly whole foods and - knock on wood - have not binged even 1 day (and extra tablespoon of peanut butter here and there is as off track as I've gotten). I have found that I crave healthy foods more often then bad and am no longer interested in having the biggest plate of food possible in front of me. However, when I have a little bit of foods I have to severly restrict (I have not outlawed anything) it's like manna from heaven!
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desperategirl
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Posted: 22 September 2008 06:49 pm |
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Just had a weekend fraught with potential food pitfalls - my period (which generally maked me eat like anything) and visiting cousins, which meant meals out every day.
I am pleased to report that I did not go over 2000 calories at all, and manged to stay at my target of 1600 cals most days. i thought, it's ok if i don't make any great progress over these days, as long as i don't go backwards.
i will weigh in tomorrow, but take it with a pinch of salt, due to my hormonal situation.
Also...anyone heard of the day off diet? it's when you diet for six days, but then have a day where you indulge. obviously you can't go crazy. apparently it helps to boost your metabolism to eat more on one day. it also helps control any cravings - just know that you can have that food on your day off, if you still want it by then. psychologically, it's great!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 22 September 2008 07:07 pm |
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Also...anyone heard of the day off diet? Yes - a lot of people here on the boards do this with great success (I'm too much of a control freak but I do have a "free" meal usually once a week.) It helps keep your metabolism going as well as gives you a chance to statisfy cravings.
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Posted: 22 September 2008 07:32 pm |
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I do think that you can lose a craving for something.
Soda, was mine. I would drink soda all day. I started to limit it. I would have three a day. One in the morning, one at lunch and one in the evening.
As time went on, I only had one in the morning. Then started not even finishing that one.
It just got to be to sweet that I couldn't drink it.
So, that is why I think you can lose a craving. But, to be honest, I have never lost the craving for chocolate. So, I do things like freezing it, so I can't scarf on it as fast or I have something that is lowfat like lowfat chocolate pudding- things like that.....
Good Luck deperategirl....you'll get there...
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desperategirl
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Posted: 22 September 2008 09:06 pm |
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thanks for all your replies!
the soda craving...i'm finding it pretty easy to cut out the full fat versions, and trying to replace some of the diet ones with fizzy water.
i've heard so many varying things about diet drinks...that they are worse than full sugar ones etc. Anyone any definitive answers??!!!?
Thanks for the encouragement. The food thing is going well. I decided i'd rather lose 1/2 pound a week and keep losing than quit some ridiculous diet because i'm starving!
the nexy baby step...i've got my sports shoe, i've got a park accross the road and a training plan. tomorrow i do some exercise. i stopped playing team sports a couple of months ago because it was really hard to fit in, and really expensive, but i've got some ideas for solo exercise, so wish me luck...
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Posted: 22 September 2008 09:23 pm |
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I don't know the facts on diet stuff, but have heard that it is bad for you.
I didn't drink any soda for a year or more, then I started the diet stuff. I couldn't drink it at first, cause I thought it tasted like #%@&!.
Now, I think it's better than nothing so I drink the diet stuff now.
Exercise is important, so go for it.
The food thing is better going at it slow. The more you lose the better you will get about it.
good luck
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desperategirl
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Posted: 23 September 2008 12:40 pm |
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WEIGH IN DAY
I started out last week at 161. Weighed in today at 157.
That's a 4 pound weightloss. I have been sensible, not gone under 1600 cals a day - I think cutting out a lot of the fizzy stuff has got rid of the bloat. While I've still eaten some junk (within calorie limits) on the whole, I've been eating cleaner, so that's probably banished water retention.
I know slow and steady is the way forward, so while this week has been good, I expect to settle into a 1 or 2 pound week loss each week following this.
First mini goal - to be under 154 (that's under 11 stone) in the next three weeks.
Just gotta work out today!
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cportwine
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Posted: 23 September 2008 02:40 pm |
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That's Great!!!
Keep up the good work... 
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Posted: 24 September 2008 04:07 pm |
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desperategirl,
love your writing...I can almost hear you talking! :) Great tone of voice you use...you must be British or something? Anyway, Good luck with it all!
heidi
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desperategirl
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Posted: 25 September 2008 12:06 pm |
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Thanks guys!
Yes heidi, I am indeed British. Thanks for your comments.
What's the news? Well, thankfully my period seems to be past the worse (I love how the anonimity of being online frees you up to actually indulge in moaning at TOM!). I'm really interested in knowing if other people get the ravenous hunger - not just for chocolate/sweet things, but generally just a much MUCH larger appetite?
I was really hungry, and anting something sweet desperately. I went to the supermarket, and actually had a full size chocolate cheesecake in my hand. Then I thought it through rationally - I had enough calories to really enjoy something smaller, and still have ateeny deficit. I ended up buying some individual puddings, which were 340 calories each, but so delicious and sweet, that once I'd eaten one, I felt satiated. It seems almost easy, when you're rational about it...
I have decided to keep quite a high calorie count - around 1650. I am not bothered about how long it takes to lose the 17 pounds I have left. I just don't want to crash diet, lose the weight, mess up my metabolism, then put it all back on. In any case, through trial and error, I have learnt that really low cal diets don't really work for me, and that low carb diets don't work for me. Also, I know that a lot of people advocate eating little and often, just wondering if anyone else finds it more helpful to eat bigger portions - say three meals a day, maybe one small snack rather than five or six mini-meals? I find that larger meals keeps the hunger at bay much better.
Well, that's all for now.
Thanks again for everyone's comments!
DG
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trimB
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Posted: 26 September 2008 12:24 am |
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desperategirl wrote: I'm really interested in knowing if other people get the ravenous hunger - not just for chocolate/sweet things, but generally just a much MUCH larger appetite?
YES YES and YES! I think I read somewhere that your period causes your body to burn about 100 extra calories. So that's about one banana. So why do I want to eat a banana slathered with peanut butter, two pieces of cinnamon toast, a piece of pizza, and a cookie???? Seriously though, I feel close to insatiable for about 2 days in the beginning of my period. Anybody found any trick or tip to get past this??
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desperategirl
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Posted: 29 September 2008 10:32 pm |
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WEIGH IN DAY
Weighed in this morning at...154! That means a 3 pound weight loss this week, and a 7 pound weight loss since I started 2 weeks ago.
I read someone else's diary, and they did a cool thing of summing up the week, highs, lows and what they'll take with them. i shall too proceed with that:
This week was good because I managed to beat period cravings. In the past, I would have decided that the day was ruined, so i may as well eat whatever i could lay my hands on, then start the next day. this week, if i really felt i needed more calories due to TOM related hunger/cravings, i ate more, but didn't go above 2000 calories. no deficit, but no extra either.
The weight loss has been good, but fast. this week, i anticipate that i will go on to lose a bit less, and probably (hopefully!) maintain a steady loss of 1 or 2 pounds from now on.
I suppose the negatives would be that while i stayed within my alloted calories, i ate quite a bit of junk.
i am following the day off diet - while some particularly virulent TOM days added calories, i still have one alloted day where i can eat what i want. the problem is that i know the calorie content of pretty much everything, and tot it up in my head. also, i wandered round the supermarket today, trying to find stuff for next weeks lard busting efforts, but also for my delicious meal tonight, and nothing really appealed. i almost felt like i was forcing myself to eat some pizza or something. ended up eating chips at lunch then had some cheese cake for my dinner. half of which is still sitting next to me. didn't fancy a big meal. i wanted to rack up the calories though, as i heard that this revs the metabolism. on the whole, TOM aside (sorry, i'm not obsessed, just keep mentioning it cause it blights my eating habits) i think that watching my food intake has helped lower my appetite.
for next week, i want to concentrate on eating cleaner. little to no processed food. stay off refined carbs, and cut way down on sugar (except natural sugar in fruit) and increase my fibre intake. because of where most of my fat is situated - my stomach - i've been reading a book called "fat around the middle." It's useful, as it talks bout how stress causes you to release hormones which encourage fat to be stored on your stomach. i find the food advice fairly restrictive though, and therefore am taking tips from the book, but not following the plan as a whole.
on the advice of the book, i have already cut out caffeine (caffeine, a stimulant causes spikes in blood sugar - the resultant insulin surge causes the release of cortisol which encourages belly fat according to the book) and try to eat as soon as possible after i get up (again, this is said to help blood sugar levels to stabilize).
My next mini goal is that by mid november, I am below 147 pounds. That's six weeks to lose seven pounds.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:11 am |
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desperategirl wrote:
i realised that i had slipped into a bad habbit of drinking a lot of full fat coke, lattes and hot chocolates. my boyfriend works in a cafe, so its really easy to sit there chatting, getting all these unhealthy drinks for free. if i had a latte or hot choc, followed by a few glasses of full fat coke/lemonade, i was easily packing away 1000 calories in an evening. that's before i had an enormous free meal. also, the drinks are on top of a lot of food. SO, my point is that i am giving up all the drinks. if i really want pop, then i have a diet squash or diet coke. when i drink coffee, i just drink americano with milk, instead of latte. cutting out a few thousand cals a week!
I remember being told once, and I never forgot it, that you should never drink your calories as they have a way of sneaking up on you. So when I drink (unless I am drinking to get a little buzz by drinking alcohol), I only drink tea or water.
Sometimes I will get a naked juice drink or something if I need to have something while I am driving, but other than that, I don't dtink my calories.
You will probably notice a big difference just from cutting out your liquid calories.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:15 am |
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desperategirl wrote: i was also told by the doctor that you generally use an extra 100-200 cals a day in the week before your period - also, in theory, backing this up with exercise, but only been doing walking. i hate jogging, and, as a freelancer, don't want to commit to the gym, so am trying to think of alternate exercise. maybe dance? or team sports?
I didn't know that about the body burning more calories before the blood comes. I wonder what it's doing? That's cool though!
I hate the gym too, like I really hate it. Dancing is a great form of exercise and so is team sports. I have a little routine at home that I do that is really quick--15 minutes or so of body-weight strength training exercises (squats, lunges, mountain climbers/mountain jumpers, pelvic lifts, etc.) Jumping rope also is VERY TIRING and burns a lot of calories in a short amount of time.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:20 am |
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desperategirl wrote: do you find that when you're dieting, sometimes you get so hungry, or get such a craving that you just eat something you weren't meant to, then you think that because you've eaten that, you may as well eat anything, and eat thousands and thousands of calories. just keep eating, even if you don't really want to, because you've messed up, so you may as well?
YES! I so do this. I have eaten so much that my stomach was really in PAIN after I gave into a craving because I thought oh well I already effed up so let's REALLY eff up. I think it might even be a subconscious way of punishing yourself, like okay you messed up now we're going to gorge and you're going to go on a big binge and wake up feeling like a big bloated pig tomorrow because you deserve NOTHING since you gave into that craving, you deserve to feel like a piece of dirt, so you will watch all your efforts be destroyed because you deserve misery for DARING to give into that craving.
So, I think your policy is a good one.
I have noticed though that if I am getting all my nutrients and eating really healthy, unprocessed foods, I don't have any cravings.
My understanding is that processed foods have actual addictive chemicals in them and so the more you eat, the more you want. Also, it is my understanding that if you are not getting the right nutrients, you will develop cravings, no matter how many calories you have consumed. Your body will make you crave something to eat because it's lacking something, even if you've been completely liberal with calories.
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Posted: 30 September 2008 03:25 am |
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That's quite a bit of weight that you lost, you should be proud of yourself!
And YES
I get major premenstrual hunger too. I don't know what's up with that! I am actually excited for it this month to see if anything changes once I have been eating healthy for the whole rest of the month. As far as getting past the premenstrual hunger, the best I can say is to have plenty of fruit and vegetables on hand so you can fill up and not pack on a lot of extra calories.
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Posted: 1 October 2008 05:50 pm |
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So...out of all my aims for yesterday, i didn't really do all that well.
Well, first of all, and on the positive side, i had a deficit of a few hundred calories. also, i stuck to grilled chicken and salad for dinner- i am reading a book - fat around the middle - which i find too restrictive to properly follow, but am following a lot of its advice, and slowly progressing towards follwing it completely, rather than making a massive change, which i know i won't be able to stick to - and one of its suggestions is to not eat carbs with your evening meal. i will have chicken and salad again tonight (delicious!) having had brown rice with my meal at lunch.
eaten so far...
breakfast - sustain cereal with semi-skimmed milk 200
lunch - stirfry with quorn chicken and brown rice 450
snacks - small tub cream cheese (17g) 2 cups decaff coffee 150
I will have a small snack of tuna fish, brown rice and olives before I go to work, then have grilled chicken breast and salad (400) and a decaff coffee later on.
Aiming for around 1600 - 1700 cals total for the day.
The cereal I bought - naively thinking it was quite healthy, actually tastes really sweet - so i will have it all tthis week, but buy something without refined sugar next week. i shall, at some point, try to get back into porridge, but i find it a bit of a faff.
anyone know anything about agarve syrup? is it low GI, generally better than sugar?
thanks for listening DG
edited to add:
ate a snack of tuns fish (100) a few olives (30) and a tiny bit of rice (literally two mouthfuls! 50). That leaves calories at 980, with a 400 cal meal to go. I'll have a couple of hundred calories to splash out on something else. Last edited on 1 October 2008 06:04 pm by desperategirl
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DG, sounds like you're headed in the right direction. For cereal, try Kashi's Cinnamon Harvest...it's really good and only has four ingredients. I'm not a huge organic guy, but some of Kashi's stuff tastes really good and has no processed stuff in it...just a thought.
Proudly serving, TC
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Thanks TC! I will look for that cereal next week.
Nearly came undone yesterday. It was one of those days where i felt hungry all day. I was planning to have grilled chicken and salad, but was so hungry, i didn't think i'd manage. when i got to work, there were some biscuits, and i ate one (about 100) and somehow, that helped the hunger pangs a bit. Because I'd written on here that i was going to have chicken, i didn't want to deviate from that, even though there were loads of more filling, tastier much less healthy options available.
i decided that i didn't want to have to come to my diary and have to write that i'd not stuck to my plans, so i had the chicken, and it sated my hunger somewhat. i was really happy to have stuck to my planned intake despite strong cravings for more food.
In exercise news, i have been saying for the last two weeks that i will start excercising, and have done nothiing about it, so i think that i am going to book a course of ten power plate lessons, and supplement that with walking, tennis and swimming.
bye for now!
Desperate Girl
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Posted: 2 October 2008 07:49 pm |
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Great job with sticking to your plan! You have way more self control than me... usually when I write something in my diary it's a death warrant to that meal plan 
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Food log so far for the day:
Breakfast - sustain cerreal and decaff coffee - 230
Lunch - Pret a Manger Hummus sandwich - 500
Snack - Protein bar and 1/2 coffee (forgot to order decaff!) - 350
So far, that's 1080. For dinner, which I'll hav quite soon, I have two quorn chicken fillets (93) one courgette (40) green beans (25) which I will griddle and garnish with a bit of olive oil and parmesan (100). That's a decent meal, tasty, not too many carbs (I love carbs, but am trying to see if not eating them in the evening will make a difference. A few plans suggest this, but i don't know if that's just to cut calories). That will take me upto approx 1350. I'll decide what to do with my leftover calories later.
My aims are to write down what I'm eating - especially to keep a note of my fibre intake, which is probably a bit low, and to cut down on sugar. I bought a couple of protein bars today that have 32g protein and only 1g sugar. They are obviously full of rubbish, but they are tasty, useful if i'm on the run, as they are like a chocolate bar, but keep me ful for a least a couple of hours for only 270 cals.
Been naughty and jumped on the scales. No change on last week's weigh in (154) but was really hoping to lose 2 pounds this week. I will settle for 1 though, then get off my #%@&! and excercise if i really want to make a difference!
DG
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I will settle for 1 though, then get off my #%@&! and excercise if i really want to make a difference!
Just get out there and walk...nothing superfast or anything like that...just start walking. Shoot for 30 minutes...even at a casual pace, you'll burn about 150 calories and start toning your legs. Plus it's easy on the body...if you have energy left, do some crunches and knee pushups. That little change will make a difference and not burn you out at the beginning...
Proudly serving, TC
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So...scale registered 1 pound weightloss (after being stuck all week) but official weigh in isn't until Monday, so I won't count it until then. Ended up being around 1000 calories yesterday. Had the usual cereal for breakfast - I had already decided I was going to try a low carb lunch and dinner to see what happened on the scales, but boy, was that a rubbish idea! I had a protein lunch, then, when I was at work an hour or two later, I felt dreadful - light headed and sick . I bought two chocolate bars - but ended up only eating half of one. Then, someone gave me some cake. I hadn't eaten any dinner, so I ate about half the cake. Was fine for the rest of the night. Felt a bit hungry going to bed, but preferred not to eat. I decided that today is going to be quite a high calorie day - 1600/1700 calories, or my body will go into starvation mode. Had quite a few very low cal days - not really intention, but I always find it really hard to use up the last of my calorie allownace, as if once it's gone, i really can't eat anything. But i have to move away from the idea of deprivation, and really get in the swing of just eating more healthily, at a reasonable deficit.
This morning, I had the cereal and decaff coffee (230), then for lunch, I had an AMAZING sandwich. I had a wholewheat tortilla wrap (200) and filled it with load of crunchy iceberg lettuce (10) and chicken quorn fillets sauteed with red onions (150). I topped that off with about 15g grated cheese (70) (I find that if you grate your cheese, a tiny bit goes really far). It was massive and tasted BEAUTIFUL!!! Followed that with another decaff (20). Must check how much milk I put into coffee - I always assume it's around 30 cals, but I think I only use around 30ml of semi skimmed, so may be less?
That leaves me at just under 700 for the day. Later, if necessary, I will have a protein bar (270) which has 30g of protein, and only 1g of sugar. For dinner, not sure. Options limited as I'm out to either cold salad with grilled chicken or some kind of sandwich in white bread. I may take a wholewheat tortilla out, and discreetly try and swap the breads around!
Also...I will probably only lose 1 pound this week - however, that's 1 pound in the right direction - also, I'm not doing anything that would merit a bigger loss - yes, I am being careful with my diet, but that's it. However, I have been paid now, so on Monday, I will book a set of ten power plate classes (which I've heard amazing things about) and try and get 2 walking and 1 tennis session in during the week aswell!
Thanks...
DG
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Posted: 5 October 2008 06:40 pm |
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Ended up around 1500 yesterday. Weight still a pound down yesterday, but will wait til tomorrow - official weigh in day to properly post it.
Today so far had a protein bar and decaff coffee for breakfast (300) not ideal, but quick and filling. I than had a veggie sausage, toast, beans, mushrooms and tomatoes with another decaff (550). I'm having another decaff now, so that takes me upto 900.
For dinner, I may have another one of those quorn fillet sarnies, or quorn fillet with veggies. Will keep a calorie count under 1500.
I'm following the day off diet - tomorrow is my day off, and I am excited! There has been a chocolate bar in our fridge for a few days - I have been telling myself I just have to wait til monday, then i can have it. I am also planning on having a small starbucks hazelnut hot choc. Mmmmm. REally missing fancy drinks! Not missing the caloris though. That's all I've decided so far, but I'm sue other delicious things will crop up!
fingers crossed for tomorrow's weigh in!
DG
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Posted: 6 October 2008 07:30 pm |
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WEIGH IN DAY:
Weighed in today at 154. NO WEIGHT LOSS THIS WEEK. ARGHHHHHH!!!
This week, calorie count has been at it's lowest, so next I will raise that slightly - I was usually quite a lot under 1600, so I will keep it higher this week.
Also...as a NSV, a pair of trouers that were unwearable last week are a fair bit looser this week. I will weigh myself in a couple of days, and see if I'm down - there's really no reason not to have lost a pound this week. Surely it's just water weight or something. Can't have hit a plateau only three weeks in?
Today was my day off - haven't counted calories but had a hot chocolate from starbucks, a ham and cheese baguette and crisps. Started eating a chocolate bar, but didn't really enjoy it that much, so didn't eat it all. Also, I generally LOVE soda, but have stayed off it, cause of all the sugar. Had one today, and didn't even drink half of it - found it sickly sweet. I am going to eat white toast with butter for dinner - and really enjoy it! Will get back into the groove tomorrow.
Hopefully the scales will shift soon...
DG
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Posted: 7 October 2008 03:31 pm |
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Mmmmmm. Loved day off yesterday. Was quite hard to get back into the swing of things today though.
Was feeling ill, and slept until midday. Then decided to have two scrambled eggs with onion, mushroom, a bit of cheese, some toast and a cup of coffee for lunch. Hopefully that will last all day, as I am working tonight, and probably won't feel hungry til then. Should have a snack this afternoon though.
Even with all my day off eating yesterday, the needle hovered just under 154 today. I really want to get under 11 stone!
I will weigh in again tomorrow - I know, should only weigh weekly, but I find it more useful daily - even if the scale doesn't move down, it's reassuring to see it stay at the same weight. I feel like my body is catching upto the scale, and i really hope to have a loss next monday.
Being rubbish about exercise, but will try and book powerplate today. I'm so lazy. Going to read some other diaries for motivation...
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Posted: 8 October 2008 05:18 pm |
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Weighed in at 154 again today 
Yesterday was a low calorie day. Large breakfast/lunch of scrambled eggs on toast with a cup of decaff (500). I had a bowl of cereal for a snack (200) and small chicken breast (130) with lettuce, olives and dressing (70) and feta cheese (100) for dinner. Ended up at around 1000 - I always add on a few incase I miscalculated, so was around 1100.
This plateau so early on when I'm always having a deficit is enough to drive someone to CHOCOLATE. It's now half way through the week - I really want a loss - probably the best I can hope for is 1 pound - for my weigh in on Monday.
In the meantime, I will try and keep cals around 1600 (don't want to slow metabolism) and eat a lot more fibre, and drink a lot more water. Probably not even been having one litre a day recently.
Today has not been the best food day - cereal and cup of decaff for breakfast - 230. Fried potato sandwich for lunch (400) and another one for a snack (400). At least my fibre for today is quite good, even if my calorie count is already 1030! Tonight I will probably have the grilled chicken salad again, maybe have a whole wheat tortilla with it if I'm hungry.
Still not booked power plate classes  Promise I will really really do it tomorrow.
Desperate Girl
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Posted: 8 October 2008 11:21 pm |
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Sorry the scale isn't budging  . I know how frustrating it is. But, some times it sticks for a while and then suddenly it drops like 3 pounds! So, I'll be hoping for you!
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Posted: 9 October 2008 05:43 am |
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DG, looks like your food choices are pretty good, getting in some protien at each meal, but I think you hit a good point...you need a lot more water than you're taking in. Less than 32oz is no good. I really think that's one of the things that has helped me...over here in the desert, I drink close to four litres (1 Gal) a day!
Don't know if you can get it, but I mix mine with Crystal Light (no sugar flavoring) to make drinking that much tolerable...that's the only way to go!
Hang in there...like Sara said, you'll probably drop two or three here shortly. Just keep on eating small meals, drinking that water and walking (if you can't get to that exercise class)!
Keep on truckin'. Proudly serving, TC
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Posted: 9 October 2008 11:36 am |
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Thanks TC and Sara!
Yesterday, ended up going way over my calorie limit - I guess it was frustration because the scale stuck or something. I ended up eating some cookies. By the time my dinner arrived though, I was still full from cookies, so I didn't eat all that much of it. I ended the day at around 1900 - which isn't good, but it's still a deficit, and still isn't a crazy blowout, like I might have had in the old days.
So...TC, you are definitely right. Today I will drink 2 litres of water, stick to 1300 cals, and make sure I get enough protein - yesterday was way too carb heavy.
On the good side...now, when I get full, I find it easy to stop, and, infact don't' really want to keep eating, whereas before, I would keep going and going and going...
Scale still at 154 this morning, but not really surprising considering yesterday's fiasco!
Oh, and right after I finish writing this, I'll book my exercise classes...and I'll be walking (pretty fast) for about 4 hours today - as part of a job I'm doing.
Cheers,
DG
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Posted: 9 October 2008 11:20 pm |
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My calories today:
Breakfast: cereal and cup of decaff 250 calories
Lunch: hummous and aubergine sandwich 400 calories
Snack: protein bar and cup of decaff 300 calories
Dinner: two tacos with quorn mince, decaff 350 calories
Total: 1300
I wanted a lower day today, as the scale has been stuck for over a week and a half.
I did up my water - I had three litres today, and also walked for two hours. I still didn't book my powerplate classes I don't know why I am being so rubbish about finally booking them!
If I don't have a loss by tomorrow, i may well fall face first into a vat of chocolate.
DG
(slow and steady - but this is getting ridiculous!)
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Posted: 10 October 2008 11:24 am |
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WEIGH IN THIS MORNING:
152! Finally!
Finally droppped the 2 pounds that's been HAUNTING me for nearly two weeks! Not sure what the hold up was, or why it dropped, but I'm not complaining. I only had 1300 calories yesterday, but will probably have more today. I will also be having three litres of water again.
I bought some benefibre yesterday - a power which is high in fibre (9 cals and 3g of fibre per serving). It's probably not as good as eating all high fibre foods, but it definitely helped to improve my fibre intake yesterday.
So far today I've had:
cereal and decaff 250 cals
I will later have tacos for lunch (won't have cheese, so only about 250), not sure about snack and dinner - on a trip this weekend visiting family, so I will try and keep healthy, but won't be able to plan all my meals.
Cheers,
DG
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Posted: 13 October 2008 07:03 pm |
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WEIGH IN DAY: 151 lb!!!!
Yay! 10 pounds down! I did initially set myself a weight loss goal of 21 pounds, but I now don't feel that I will be happy to lose just another 11pounds, so I am going to modify my target weight to 136 pounds. It's only 4 pounds, but I'm hoping that should be closer to the look I want. I shall remodify when I'm closer, and have a better idea of how it'll look if necessary.
Unfortunately, today is my day off, and I have had: hot chocolate, cheese and ham baguette, two packets of crisps, a small bag of fizzy cola bottles, some leftover roast potatoes with a bit of grated chedder - possibly already at 2000. I will probably be back upto 152, 153 tomorrow. Maybe I shouldn't weigh myself tomorrow.
Visited some family this weekend. Had to go out and buy formal wear. The other girls were tiny - three sizes smaller than me. It was the most demoralising situation. especially as the saleswoman made a couple of nasty comments. But we didn't buy clothes there so ha!
In other news, I decided that I need to start making an effort on the rest of my appearance so I can look and feel better. I got a great haircut and got my eyebrows threaded. They were starting to take over my face. I feel much braver facing the world now!
I did an hour of walking today. I may look at buying some weights, as well as powerplate and walking.
In bad news, my trousers I thought were looser, really still feel tight. The scale is going down, but I can't see or feel any difference. My stomach is sooooo big - I am going to re-read a book I bought called the abs diet, and follow some exercise and diet tips.
My aim for this week, is to eat clean, unprocessed food (apart from protein bars) have a good fibre intake, try and eat some fish, keep a low sugar intake, walk at least an hour three times, and go to powerplate twice.
Off to read some of your diaries for motivation!
DG
p.s. Today was my week four weigh in. That's the longest I've followed a weight loss regime without giving it up. There were so many times over the weekend when it would have been so easy to give up: there were so many temptations, so much delicious food thrown my way, all of which, I managed to resist. I think that's because of cph. I don't want to come here, and say I've failed. Also, i see what others are doing and have done, and I believe that it's possible. You guys are my motivation, and my inspiration.
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Today was my "day off" and I've been a total . Calorie count is about 2500. To maintain, I need 2100, so that's a surplus. I'm really annoyed with myself. I kind of felt myself mindlessly eating, but kept going. I think that's what's most annoying - I thought I was breaking these habits.
It has also raised some questions: For anyone else doing the day-off diet, how do you deal with the day off? Count calories upto maintenance level? Ignore calories? Have a surplus? Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!! This morning scale said 151, now it's back upto 154!!!! By tomorrow morning, hopefully it will be down to 153, 152, then over the next couple of days, I will get tit back down. I'm beginning to wonder if I need structured "treats" or a planned meal rather than just a day of disorganized over eating? Also, I hate the day after my day off - it feels really boring like I'm trapped eating rubbish food again.
Why is this so complicated?
I'm so jealous of those who just eat and enjoy their food, and don't think about it other than that!
DG
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Posted: 14 October 2008 09:31 pm |
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Today has been enlightening. All day I've been hating having to put so much time and organization into what I'm eating. At the supermarket, I was checking practically every piece of nutritional information, planning what would go together, instead of just buying food normally - trying to sneak a protein element into meals. Then...I found a set of digital scales that measured body fat. I thought that would be great because I'm finding it difficult to always read my scales, and these ones should be super accurate, right? Also, I'm interested to know my body fat.
Well, as they say, ignorance is bliss. Turns out my scales weigh light - I will post my actual weight up tomorrow morning, but at the moment it is 158 - yesterday morning's weigh in on my old scales was 151. In a way, it makes sense, because generally, when I get towards 150, I feel smaller, and I haven't felt that way this time. My body fat...35.2%. That's high. Pretty bad. My body is around 55 pounds of pure fat. Gross.
I feel so disheartened - I've been finding it hard today anyway, then to be faced with those stats...well, it was a slap in the face. But you know what? I've got myself here, and I will get out. There is no rush, and I think I'll do better if I don't put too much pressure on myself. I will really have to get serious with the exercise. Starting with a power plate class on Thursday. Also, I will play an hour of tennis tomorrow. I will try and fit an hour of something in everyday. I will buy an exercise DVD if I can't do anything else. Also, I bought a no added sugar muesli for breakfast (200 cals plus milk per serving). That should be a good start to the day. I will eat more pulses and fish, and continue to cut down on processed foods. Instead of a cheat day, I will have a cheat meal. I will eat 1500 calories everyday. Never under. I will continue to drink three litres of water a day. I will do interval training - a short cardio kickbox routine or running. I will buy weights.
As I said, I'll post my weight up tomorrow. It will probably be about 157. My aim is to get to 154 by Monday 27th October, and be down at least .2% body fat.
My long term goals are to be 25% bf and 136 lbs.
Thank you and goodnight.
DG
p.s. so far intake 1100. It's so hard not to snap and binge, but I will control myself!
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Posted: 15 October 2008 10:56 pm |
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Hello!
I am trying to be more positive today. I weighed in at 157.8 this morning. (I will just use my new scales now) and 34.9% bf. At least my bf is under 35% today!
Food diary for today so far:
no sugar added muesli w/ soya milk & cup of decaff 250
salami sandwich on brown bread 270
small soya latte w/ half shot syrup (according to website) 100
chicken sandwich on brown bread w/ diet soda 300
apple 50
homemade vegetarian chilli w/aduki beans 215
chilli, garlic & lemon courgettes (w/ 2 tsps olive oil) 100
apple 50
Total 1335
I calculate that I'm way over the recommended 25g of fibre today. I've been really careful eating enough fibre recently, but it doesn't seem like it's...enough (sorry tmi!). Also, I've had quite a bit of chilli - I've heard that it boosts the metabolism! The courgettes is a Jamie Oliver recipe - I just modified the recipe to leave out the butter and cut down on the olive oil. It's still delicious, with only a couple of teaspoons oil. Also, the chilli is my own recipe - for 215 cals, you get a huge portion. Using the quorn mince cuts out a lot of cals. Also, I put loads of veg in, which bulks it out, and makes it taste amazing. The base is red onions, carrots, garlic and celery. I also later add mushrooms. I use aduki beans instead of kidney beans, as I prefer the smaller size, and they are supposed to be amazingly healthy.
There's a Jamie Oliver recipe called "pukkola" which is a muesli - he puts it in the fridge with milk and a grated apple overnight. I'm going to do that with my no added sugar muesli and soya milk. I will also cut down on coffee - even though it's deacff, it still has loads of chemicals in it. I have some dandelion coffee, so I will try that with soya milk.
Tomorrow I start power plate!
For tonight I need another snack and to drink another litre of water.
When weigh in on Monday, I'd like to be around 157 - definitely no higher.
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Posted: 16 October 2008 03:05 pm |
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Hey...
Just did power plate and it's AWESOME!
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Posted: 16 October 2008 03:28 pm |
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I am sorry that the newer scale gave you a not-so-great surprise, but oh well, at least you know you've been losing weight, you know?
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Posted: 16 October 2008 05:13 pm |
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cheers for that straylight. that's what i've been reminding myself.
I feel like I'm really getting my use out of this forum- everytime I want to eat something out of any reason other than hunger, I turn to the diary. It feels like I don't have tonnes to lose - before now, my highest weight was nearly 200 pounds, which kinda came off to about 160, and I yo-yo between 145-168. This time, I want to really change though. Not just be at a lower weight because I'm staving myself, knowing it can only last as long as I can resist all the foods I love. This time, i'm fine taking it slower, because I don't want to go upto 200 again. I want to find a weight I'm happy at, and live normally to maintain it.
My life is really changing at the moment. I love my job working in theatre and tv, but i realised i could further my career if i did an m.a. I got onto a specialised course which is really competitive, and i just found out today that they are awarding me a big maintenance grant. that's great, but i don't get the grant til after the fees have to be paid, and the fees are a lot. i got a bit saved up, i will try and get a loan (might be quite hard in the current financial climate). It's weird, because of the industry i work in, i am a freelancer, sp i go from manic to doing nothing. my last project - a play in a great theatre that i directed and produced was a success, we made money, and i got great reviews. but now i'm scraping around for any #%@&! job because i need to earn FAST and don't have time to carefully put projects together. It's sort of great, because it's like when i was doing my b.a, but it's also a pain. so, now i am working all kinds of rubbish jobs (that i kind of enjoy) in promotions and behind the bar my boyf manages. just until i go back to school. it's weird - everyone starting the course is in the same position, coming from quite high flying jobs, looking for part time bar work etc while they study.
Sorry for the ramble though. that has nothing to do with weightloss.
So...I'm into week five of my journey - next monday will be my fifth weigh in. Current weight 157.4. Start weight 168. Goal Weight: 136. 10.6lb lost, 21.4lb to go. I'd really like to be down to that weight and maintaining properly by April next year. I think that's very doable.
Loved power plate today! It's expensive, but I want to find the money to keep doing it!
Food so far:
No added sugar muesli w/soya milk & grated apple 350
hot water w/lemon
salami sandwich 275
1/2 portion chilli 110
protein bar & cup of tea 280
Total so far 1015
sorry for the loooooong and boring post (sometimes writing it makes it seem better in your head, no?)
Thanks,
DG
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I like to read long posts, especially when people are talking about their lives. I mean, a diary is about your day-to-day life and hopefully we all do more than just sit around thinking about weight issues, you know! Plus, it's interesting and you get to know people. I think that's really fantastic that you got that grant, and I am sure you will figure out a way to get the fees paid. I know that financial times are generally tough, but it doesn't mean they will be tough for you individually. I have had lots of luck with money lately even though the economy had been in the toilet. Sometimes I even wonder if they use this fear stuff for social control.... well now they aren't scared of Bin Laden anymore, we had better come up with something else to make them feel afraid and powerless... oh I KNOW! Let's tell them that they will be poor and have no money! That will keep them quiet for a while. The government loves a frightened populace!
And big companies love scared employees who are willing to take paycuts and have increases to their workloads without any extra compensation, because then they can say
"oh well, you want to keep your job, don't you? after all, you probably won't be able to get another one if you lose this one"
they can all kiss my curvy butt!
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