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MidgeH
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Posted: 18 July 2008 11:36 pm |
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238.5 for 2 days. That's OK, i seem to be back to a regular amount of loss, which I guess is good (Last week was kinda fun though.) The food is going fine, I'm still not eating enough though.
Not doing so well with the sloth. I seem to have fallen back into the same pattern I had with my eating where I would just think about what i would do and image the results without actually doing anything. I wonder how it will take for me to get to the same point where I can't take it anymore and just do it.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 19 July 2008 03:38 am |
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Hiya Midge,
I am so lazy today that i am not even bothering to imagine that perhaps I might be doing something because I am doing absolutely nothing useful. Join me tomorrow in having a better day. Tell you what. I am giving you a once in a lifetime chance here. For every mile you walk, I will walk 2. So if you do 2, I have to do 4. If you do 3, I have to do 6. You could really have fun torturing me. What do you think?
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MidgeH
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Posted: 19 July 2008 06:19 pm |
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Oh, Mol thanks for the support!  I will be doing my best to take you up on it!
Today still at 238.5. I need some NSVs - so here they are.
NSV1: When I write my weight down I keep accidentally writing 268 or 258. That's because I was 250+ for so long that writing a lower number is still a shock.
NSV2: I've been out socially more in the last 3 weeks then in the last 3 months. I've gotten much more comfortable with the idea of being out with my friends and not being an embarrassment to them.
NSV3: I can feel every bump on my hipbones, and when lying down my ribs are actually defined. Kinda gross, but cool at the same time.
Sloth, sloth, sloth, what am I going to do with you. My physical laziness is affecting more than my weight, my living space is suffering. maybe that's where I should start, instead of (or in addition to) commiting to moving for my body commit to moving for the well being of the rest of my life. So many things to repair and throw out and organize. Let's start there. First goal - my kitchen. There is so much stuff in every nook and cranny I have to move things around just to be able to cut up a carrot.
Sloth life goal 1. Make my kitchen a place that any healthy cooker would love.
Sloth exercise goal 1: buy a stationary bike.
That's enough for 1 weekend. I'll be back to tell you how it goes.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 19 July 2008 08:17 pm |
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MidgeH wrote: Oh, Mol thanks for the support! I will be doing my best to take you up on it!
That was meant to be a one-time (one day) offer. I went out and did 5 miles already just to be ahead of you. Anyway if today didn't work out, we can pick another Saturday when I know I will have free time. It was incentive to me to keep going anyway!
Oh and congrats on the NSV's, they are just as important! I am glad you are getting out more socially, good for you!!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 19 July 2008 08:57 pm |
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Did you do 5m at one time?! Lordy.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 19 July 2008 10:22 pm |
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MidgeH wrote: Did you do 5m at one time?! Lordy.
Honestly, if I can do it, anyone can Midge. I could barely waddle when I got started 7 months ago and 1 flight of stairs had me huffing and puffing. It's really amazing once you get going, what you can achieve, its just getting started that is the trick.
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heidiv
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Posted: 19 July 2008 10:38 pm |
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MM,
I hear ya! Once you get going you can do anything.
Midge...cool goals with the whole keeping the house clean thing....makes me inspired...I need to do some laundry. 
Goood for you!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 21 July 2008 01:54 am |
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Day 4 of 238.5. At least I'm not bouncing.
Last night I went out to dinner with my best friend and his husband. The husband, "A", I call my guru. He's one of those people who is so spiritually and mentally together (not to mention physically - he does power yoga at least an hour a day and has 3% body fat at the age of 47) that you can't help but go to him for guidance with whatever concerns you. I love him so much. My best friend, "T", is the undying love of my life. I am an incredibly intense person, but being around T immediately soothes me. These are my 2 favorite people on the planet.
Anyway, so I was speaking to A about working out and my mental block about it and also practical stuff like the dizzyness and nausea when I strength train. In his usual way he just simply said "power through it". He doesn't judge me, doesn't tell me I'm doing anything wrong. He just does not accept excuses. Self awareness, self acceptance and accountability.
Here is what happened today. I took one of my new blood pressure meds. Now, I don't really need blood pressure meds, it's one of those precautionary things the cardiologist has me on to keep everything lower than normal (as with everything I have to be lower than acceptable, all to keep the stress on my heart low.). About 2 hours after I took it I had a reaction. My vision was screwy, it was like everything was overexposed. Dizzy, spots. Blood pressure too low.
I had some lunch, took it easy for a little while, read some.
Then I got up and did 35 mins of Turbo Jam.
I will call the doctor tomorrow about it and I did not exercise during the symptoms - but no excuses and I "powered through it".
It's a baby step, but I'm sitting here having my post work out high and it's very possible I may do this again tomorrow. One day at a time.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 21 July 2008 03:46 am |
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HI Midge! Baby steps............one day at a time! You can do it.......I KNOW you can!
Let us know what the Dr. said, and if you are feeling alright tomorrow.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 21 July 2008 04:00 am |
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A 'post-workout high'. Hurray!! That's mah girl. You beat me today, I only got in a mile walking the dogs. Bummer.
Hopefully the dizziness is a temporary side effect and will go away quickly.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 21 July 2008 04:26 pm |
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Then I got up and did 35 mins of Turbo Jam.
Nice job Midge! I sooo miss my Turbo Jam!!! I hope you were able to talk to the doc!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 22 July 2008 12:25 am |
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Day 5 - 238.5 lbs.
I forgot my food today so I had to hope I could get some things at the cafeteria at work - everything looked awful, especialy the fruit! So I made the best choices I could.
Breakfast: toast and promise (180)
Snack: I bought a 2oz bag of peanuts and ate 1/2 in the am and 1/2 in the pm (330 cals)
Lunch: Salad (lettuce, red onion, tomatoes, mushrooms - 50 cals. Red wine vinegar - 20 cals. Turkey - 140 cals. total 210 cals)
Dinner: 6 oz chicken, peas (400 cals. I added a few cals because it was a pre-cooked breast and who knows what they put on it. I removed the skin.)
Total 1120.
Turbo Jam - 35 mins. I am soaked. Yuck.
The doctor was unfazed. I'm stopping the med until I see him again.
Hope everyone had a good Monday.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 22 July 2008 01:23 am |
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MidgeH wrote: Turbo Jam - 35 mins. I am soaked. Yuck.
Hurray!!!! Soaked is awesome! You go Midge!
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mchen01
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Posted: 22 July 2008 05:17 pm |
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| Hey Midge! Great job on the exercise! Keep it up. Go Midge Go!!!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 23 July 2008 12:29 am |
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Weight today 237.5. Weird how nothing.. nothing... nothing...plop.
Did the 45min Turbo Jam. I have to admit I dragggged the last 10 minutes, but I kept moving so it counts.
Food went fine - 1095 for the day.
I was thinking about food a little today, not in an obsessive way, but a few days ago Beckster (I think) asked what foods you wouldn't give up and I could only think of one. What I realized later was that the reason I could only think of one - chocolate - is because I really have looked at this as a life change so nothing is off limits. (well, except trans fat and coconut - but that's my cardiologist) It's all about the portion sizes and cooking methods for me. This is a good thing, no? It means I really have taken a realistic approach this time. I'm calling that a NSV.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 23 July 2008 01:14 am |
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MidgeH wrote: Weight today 237.5. Weird how nothing.. nothing... nothing...plop.
Did the 45min Turbo Jam. I have to admit I dragggged the last 10 minutes, but I kept moving so it counts.
Food went fine - 1095 for the day.
I was thinking about food a little today, not in an obsessive way, but a few days ago Beckster (I think) asked what foods you wouldn't give up and I could only think of one. What I realized later was that the reason I could only think of one - chocolate - is because I really have looked at this as a life change so nothing is off limits. (well, except trans fat and coconut - but that's my cardiologist) It's all about the portion sizes and cooking methods for me. This is a good thing, no? It means I really have taken a realistic approach this time. I'm calling that a NSV.
Awwwwl right Midge! It is fun and motivating to read your daily diary entries. I am so glad you are getting in your workouts. And I totally agree about the NSV. If we deny things, we feel deprived. If we manage and moderate, we can successfully enjoy almost everything. You've got the winning formula and the right attitude.
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 23 July 2008 02:16 am |
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Yes, totally! Telling yourself "I'll never eat that again" could very well be the beginning of a possible rebellion.
My mother has diabetes (and it is REALLY hard on her - I do not want to get it). She has been to doctors that have told her she'll never be able to eat this or that again. However, it was her latest doctor, I believe, that told her that wasn't realistic, just to limit them considerably.
Ah, and coconut, the eternal debate. Some people consider it the devil's fruit, and some say it's a miracle food, that research suggests the saturated fat in coconut does not have the same effect on your body as other saturated fat. Which to believe...
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MidgeH
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Posted: 23 July 2008 02:21 am |
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| The coconut thing is kinda weird. According to my doctor the problem is really coconut milk. It's in all kinds of things. I treat it like HFC. He advised that I avoid it all together though because it apparently does nothing good for your cholesterol. Its the only "forbidden food" I have, so I guess I got off easy.
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 23 July 2008 02:24 am |
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Yeah, if I recall correctly, Bugles are made with coconut oil. They're pretty tasty.
By the way, way to go on the challenge, Midge! You are kickin' butt and takin' names later. 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 23 July 2008 11:14 pm |
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Day 2 of 237.5. I know I'm losing and doing the right things, but the pace is killing me.
I spent part of the afternoon angry. Angry that I had to exercise. I was so worked up that I left work a little early to come home and get it over with. 45 mins turbo jam. I am beat. 4 days in a row of this and I'm tired. I know I have to get over the hump and that in a week or two I'll not be so exhausted, but lordy.
Food Ok, after dinner I'll be at about 1050.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 24 July 2008 02:27 am |
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| Midge it's tough to go from nearly-no exercise to 45 mins of Turbo Jam. I do find that if I alternate days of walking then jogging, the jogging is more productive. Maybe you should consider alternating TJ with walking days? Anyway, so glad you are exercising!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 24 July 2008 04:14 am |
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I'm sure you're right, Mol. I simply can't seem to face the idea of walking - I hate it just that much.
I probably shouldn't really bother thinking about it when I'm feeling this bitchy though. Everything is making me mad today. I just read a post that disagreed with something I wrote much earlier and it #%@&! me off, which is just stupid. Of me, I mean. I like reading everyone's opinions. No matter how wrong they are. (HAR!) And I spent 1/2 the day being unreasonably upset that I even have to exercise. Again, very stupid. And self indulgent. I don't know what's wrong with me today.
I'm trying to find some parallels between my food re-birth and the pathological hatred of routine exercise. It seems to be different but it is pathological - you should have heard my internal dialogue when I was about to start exercising today. Sometimes my emotional intensity disturbs even me.
So what is it? Too many flashbacks to years of being picked last for the team and an ingrained belief that I will always be a fat klutz? Fear that my heart will explode while I'm doing it and since I live alone no one will even know? Thinking that I've never had any results with exercise before so why should now be any different? A truly mental issue where I need to make sure I keep myself cloaked in a layer of fat so the boogieman doesn't get me? Simply self hatred turning into self-fulfilling prophecy?
Aaarrrrgh!!  << utters string of curses I'm not sure the filter would catch>>
Jeeze, I'm a downer today. If you read this post I apologize.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 24 July 2008 04:29 am |
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Not that it helps you out any, but I can definitely relate to the feelings of anger at having to exercise. It makes me feel ridiculous when it happens, but most of my anger is usually directed at my stupidity for letting myself get THIS overweight...and anger at brownies too of course - it's all their fault. But I TRY to balance this feeling out with the gratefulness that I CAN exercise. I remember reading a story (can't remember what book of course) about someone who was complaining about having to exercise and his friend in a wheelchair really set him straight. I try to remember this as I'm cussing under my breath.
It would be great if you could find another activity to rotate with TJ. At least something you don't hate too much. Even at my TJ peak, I still tried to not do it every day. I would either switch to a different kind of cardio dvd, or do the bike, weights, walk, etc. My objective was just to prevent boredom.
I like reading everyone's opinions. No matter how wrong they are. OMG - that had me laughing! But you're not alone - I've been ticked off by a couple posts here and there over the last 2 years. Now it's the diet pills section that I have to stay out of...the things I want to say....ugh. 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 26 July 2008 02:36 am |
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Weighed in at 237 today. I don't expect it to hold though, I was so hungry today! I ate my toast and both servings of fruit I had allotted to me by 8:30 this morning. Then veggie soup and a salad for lunch, then a Qdoba naked taco salad for dinner! At least i got plenty of veggies today - 1130 cals. Which I guess is actually a good thing (for me anyway)
In other news, my snit is over. I did not exercise (or blog!) yesterday because I did not get home from work until after 9pm. Today I skipped the TJ and just did an upper workout. Using my friend A's advice I did upright flies instead of on the stability ball. His theory was that my thighs may have been elevated above my heart, causing my dizzyness and nausea. I made it through 3 circuits before feeling a little icky, which is much better.
I'm trying to make my firece loathing for exercise actually be my motivator. Screw you exercise! That's my new motto. (It worked for the food - "Screw you jackass ex BF" was the motto then.) My goal this weekend (the first quiet weekend I've had in months) is to do a little "bootcamp". I figure even I can concentrate on helping my metabolism for 2 days. I'll let you know how it goes.
Hope everyone had a good Friday!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 27 July 2008 02:48 am |
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Weight stuck at 237. Only 760 cals today - I'll have a big snack. (ETA - make that 880, I just had a cookie.)
45 mins of TJ today. Below my bootcamp goals, but it means I've exceeded my week goal of 180 mins of cardio (I did 205) so yea me!
Lets set some goals for next week:
1. 250 mins of cardio over the week. That's 6 days of about 40 mins a day. I can do that.
2. Be dilligent with my braces. I want these #%@&! things off! But I haven't been wearing my elastics like I should. Yes, at 38 years old I have to run around all day with rubberbands in my mouth. Sexy!
I haven't actually talked too much about my braces here, which is odd since I'm obsessed with them in the non-virtual world. To be honest it was probably the first concrete step I took to become the person I want to be. It's cosmetic, yes, but I stopped mentally bemoaning the fact that I physically hated something about myself and did something about it.
I have big plans for when they come off - besides eating popcorn again and flossing (weird - I never thought I would missing being able to floss like a normal person) - because I'm going to try - this is kinda embarrassing - on-line dating. My two closest girlfriends are all over it. We're going to have a party that will involve blender drinks and photographs (we should probably do the photographs first ) and then posting me. to be honest, I've never thought badly of the whole on-line dating thing, but now it's a much more socially acceptable thing to do so I'm more comfortable trying it.
They are almost there - only a month or two to go before they are done for good. I can do a lot with myself to prepare in 2 months! Not the least of which is to completely accept the fact that I am worthy of someone's attention.
Hope everyone had a great saturday!
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Beckster
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Posted: 27 July 2008 03:37 am |
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MidgeH wrote: To be honest it was probably the first concrete step I took to become the person I want to be. It's cosmetic, yes, but I stopped mentally bemoaning the fact that I physically hated something about myself and did something about it.
That's awesome Midge, and I think that taking care of one thing that you were dissatisfied with probably gave you the boost to start on the path you're on now. I've been doing sort of the same thing over the past year. In November, I finally went to a specialist in Seattle to deal with a mild voice disorder that's been holding me back. Funny thing is, the treatment didn't work very well but just acknowledging it and being willing to work on it has made a tremendous difference. So I hope good things for your teeth!
By the way, I know at least three happy couples who met online.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 27 July 2008 03:49 am |
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Thanks for visiting my diary, Becks!
I know quite a few couples too - I think that's what made me really consider it seriously. Now I'm just anxious to get started.
One thing about this new life of mine - I hate having to pace myself, I want to go for it now! (hey - I think I'll call that an NSV!)
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 27 July 2008 06:39 pm |
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Your party sounds like a fun idea, getting together with your girlfriends to launch you into the online dating world! Awesome idea. You have so much to offer. I hope you meet someone who is worthy of you.
I was thinking of you again this morning as I set off in the forest preserve hoping for a nice long workout. I hope that as you start really feeling how much easier everything is when you are fit, that your 'hate' for exercise will change into something much more positive. You are doing an impressive amount of TJ, that seems much more cardio intense than the running I am doing.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 27 July 2008 10:39 pm |
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525 cals so far today, but it's only the middle. Dinner will add 350 and I have a snack planned so total for today will be 1050.
Weigh in today was 236.
Another 45 mins of TJ. I know it sounds like I'm doing the same thing over and over, but I have lots of these dvds so I'm switching up the routines. Plus I'm still at the learning stage. I can't tell you how many times my feet get tangled up and I'm just like "hey wait, how did you do that" at the TV. Coordinated I am not. Anyway, boredom is definately not the issue with this exercise for me. I have had to learn to pace myself, and not be so hard on myself if I cannot do everything quite as fast as the video becasue if I don't 20 mins in I can barely lift my arms. Today was better, still sweaty and I didn't feel like I was going to drop until the last 5 min.
Today's internal topic - children.
I picked up my niece, her friend and her daughter (my great-niece obviously, but I don't use that phrase ) at the airport. K is 3. I have 12 nieces and nephews, but it had been 18 years between girls and when the first ones were born I was just a kid myself (13). I loved them, but I really wasn't all that interested. But now when K acts happy to see me and is laying on my shoulder I just melt. She is adorable and funny and sassy and sweet and it just slays me.
At my age I guess I really should have it figured out whether I want kids or not, and most of the time I think I know the answer (NO) but then I spend time around her and I start to doubt whether its no because I have no illusions about how hard it is to raise children and I have no idea if I would be any good at it anyway or if it's just because no one has ever wanted to have children with me.
I guess I have some concerns that I will wait too late and wake up in 10 years when it's too late and realize I never went for something I wanted. Of course I could also wake up in 10 years and realize my life isn't what I wanted it to be because I did some precipitous. <sigh> I don't know the answer to this one.
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Beth
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Posted: 28 July 2008 01:35 am |
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Hey Midge! I just wanted to pop in and say  .
I get bummed out because I am short and fat and I will have to exercise and eat right for the rest of my life or I will blow back up. I used to think everyone else had it so easy with the weight thing and then I started watching people. What I have learned is there are very few people who don't EARN being thin and fit. Exercising isn't easy and it takes time. I feel so much better when I do what I need to do to keep me healthy. We can do this!!!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 28 July 2008 02:53 am |
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I know I'm being chatty today - but it's my diary and I can do what I want .
Interesting phone call with my mom tonight that brought up an old memory. Almost 20 years ago my uncle, and my mother's best friend, died of a heart attack (he was in his mid 50's - it runs in my family) it was sudden and he was beloved so it was an awful time. (Only time I ever saw my dad cry.)
After the wake we were leaving, I was 18, and his fiance stopped me on the parking lot just to say "J always thought you were so beautiful." She had barely been able to talk all day. J saying something like that was no small thing, this was a man who had dated Lauren Hutton way back when. I remember that it haunted me for days.
Tonight it's making me think about what my "spot" was supposed to be in the family. My oldest sister was the free spirit, my brother the genius, my middle sister the responsible one and me, the baby, was supposed to be the pretty one.
Now, I'm not a fan of pigeon holing people and I certainly would have wanted to be more than that, but it's got me wondering what he saw and how I could capture that. There are times, when I look in the mirror and for just a brief instant in the right lighting and at the right angle, I see the physical being I think I was meant to be. And (not to sound narcissistic) that person is, well, beautiful.
I guess I'm not sure where I'm going with this. I guess it's just the realization that the physical manifestation of how I want to feel about myself on the interior is possible. I wonder if this is just my minds way of telling me that by working as I am, as I want to work, on healing myself & on realizing everything I am emotionally and intellectually capable of will free the physical.
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Beth
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Posted: 28 July 2008 01:33 pm |
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I have come to think of my body as my house. I'd never hesitate to fix my refrigerator or my lawn mower, car, etc. Seems sometimes I feel guilty for spending money/time/etc. on me. We come here with one "house" and we have to take care of it. If we could buy new bods, I might think about it. However, since all we have so far is healthy eating, exercise, pharmaceuticals and cosmetic surgery, I guess I'll have to take care of what I've got.
I probably would order longer legs, straighter hair, and less belly fat if I could. Until then, I can straighten my hair and work on the belly naturally. The longer legs just aren't going to happen!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 28 July 2008 11:44 pm |
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Weight today 235.5. Cals 1100.
No exercise today - my stomach is on the fritz. I needed a rest day anyway, I guess (good news - I feel guilty about it!)
Good weight, but I can already feel water for TTOTM sneaking up on me.
Warning: TMI approaching!
Since I started this this will be my first normal cycle (because of the weight loss? Maybe.) so I have no idea what to expect. How screwy I was in June I think led to my faux bad weight loss month - I don't want to go through that again, but you can't control mother nature!
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heidiv
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Posted: 29 July 2008 01:50 am |
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MidgeH wrote: Weight today 235.5. Cals 1100.
Great job, your weight keeps going down!! I should look into that turbo jam...I'm enjoying my biking, but I need other options. Especially when winter hits.
Well, TTYL
Heidi
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 29 July 2008 02:09 am |
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Beth, I love your analogy of the house. It is so true.
Midge, hey gal, you are definitely on the road to realization of your beauty here on all levels. 
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heidiv
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Posted: 29 July 2008 03:09 am |
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Midge -regarding the healthy guacomole...
I got the recipe off of this site actually...in the recipes forum.
1 ripe avacado, peeled & mashed
1/4 cup to 1/3 cup low fat cottage cheese
1/4 cup to 1/3 cup salsa
A few green onions, chopped fine
Garlic salt to taste (or very finely chopped garlic)
I put it all in a food processor and it was excellent. Next time I think I'll add a little lime juice or maybe try Fat Free Sour Cream...you know play around with it a little. It's great with chips...baked preferably.
<3
Heidi
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Beth
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Posted: 29 July 2008 01:59 pm |
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This guacamole recipe looks good. I never considered putting cottage cheese in guacamole. It would extend it, too.
Thanks, Heidi!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 29 July 2008 04:32 pm |
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Well, somehow I weighed in today at 234.
I really need to stop trying to predict what my weight will do as obviously I have no idea what I'm talking about.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 29 July 2008 10:40 pm |
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45 mins of TJ. There is a distinct possibility, I'm not saying I'm cured or anything, that I'm actually enjoying it. Well. That's something new to ponder.
I need to send out a big thank you to everyone who posts on this board. I've been surfing around reading everything people write about exercise and the fact that I have obviously been such a schmuck about the whole thing is helping to propel me. So thank you for being so open, it really does help people!
Now I just need to harness these feelings and use them to keep me moving. I was a tiger with the whole food thing so I know I can do it with this too - GRRRRRR!
Speaking of food - I am having some serious cravings! My current obsession is fried chicken - my second favorite food. (first is chocolate - duh.) Since my way to become healthy has been to change my relationship with food - meaning nothing is off limits - I can certainly work this in. I think I'll talk my mom into making me some of hers. I simply can't duplicate it.
I'm also craving chocolate so I bought some weight watcher chocolate mousse bars. Yes, processed food, but only 60 cals each so the one box isn't going to kill me.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 30 July 2008 12:32 am |
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I am so GLAD you ENJOYED your TURBO JAM. Awesome!!!! This will only accelerate your weight loss and you will be feeling so much better. It wasn't that far into my regimen where I was sitting on the couch one day and was able to curl up luxuriously, and feel the entire difference in my body. It is so exciting reading your progress. Go girl!!!
I don't have much advice about stopping chocolate cravings, when I want chocoloate I ususally have to eat it - small amount - to get it to stop.
However with what I like to do with chicken is to buy broasted chicken, its been cooked with oregano and garlic and butter on the outside and is very juicy. You remove the skin, but the flavor stays. It is very good.
One last thing I would add, I find that I don't have good workouts if I am not consuming 1250+ cals per day. Less than that and I have noticeably less energy.
Yay Midge 
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MidgeH
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Posted: 31 July 2008 12:44 am |
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Thanks Mol!
Weight today 233.5. Cals: 1150.
45 mins of TJ, that's 135 mins for the week - 1/2 way to my week goal!
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smidge
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Posted: 31 July 2008 03:12 am |
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| oh geez. and wouldn't you know how much i pained over picking out my name? haha. it will be a little confusing around here, huh? i just read through the 1st and last page of your diary [the cliffnotes version] and congratulations! you've made great progress!
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hoofprints
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Posted: 31 July 2008 03:28 am |
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Congrat on the 233. That is awesome. WOOOO hOOOOOO
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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 31 July 2008 11:18 am |
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Yes, Midge, congrats! You are making AWESOME progress. I'm proud of you.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 31 July 2008 12:49 pm |
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Ah, let's not get ahead of ourselves. At 234.5 this morning.  I am going to spend the day assuming it's water and trying not to freak out like I normally do.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 1 August 2008 12:37 am |
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What an awful awful day.
Not to steal a phrase but I have a tormentor at work and today I had had it. i really just lost it, ruined my afternoon and just generally freaked out. Not a good thing to do to the managers pet. I'm surprised I didn't get fired.
That would have been typical me, fired because of PMS. I came home and worked out because that works for others, but i'm still sitting here proccupied and angry - mostly at myself. Yes, I want to leave there, but I have to make it another 6 months. Wait - 5 months. yeah! only 2 months until i can look internally - but that's less predictable.
Ah, well, tomorrow I'll put my tail between my legs and just get on with it. I'm not proud of my behavior, no matter how much I was provoked. I'll apologize and see if I can't better articulate the problem to my boss.
I need some NSVs. Let's see... I moved down a notch on my belt... I'm up to 180 mins of exercise this week ... I've had 2 vegetarian days in a row.
Goal for tomorrow - be aware of my behavior and controll the PMS.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 1 August 2008 03:59 am |
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Goals for August (that's tomorrow - jeeze!)
1. Lose 10 lbs. Little more than 2lb a week but I'm still huge so it should be doable
2. Do 1000 minutes of cardio. That's the whole month so should be OK. (plus I will count that as conquering Sloth!)
3. Braces! Elastics! Enough said!
4. Solidify a career plan. That will set me up for my fall goal of getting my resume, etc together.
5. Go to dermatologist, gyno, internist. Oh, joy, but it needs to be done.
6. Begin tackling the next sin - wrath. more on that later.
I think it's meaningful that I don't feel like I need to do anything with food. I suppose eat more should be one - but I simply can't wrap my 'fat since the age of 8' mind around that one!
Happy August everyone!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 1 August 2008 06:36 am |
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Now it is my turn to say 'get out of my head'. Am I sure I am not reading my own diary? Wow. I am sorry you had such a bad day at work. TGIF!!
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Beth
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Posted: 1 August 2008 12:49 pm |
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I think wrath is good! After the wrath, I usually figure out what was "really going on" with me and do something constructive for myself. Seems like you do, too!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 1 August 2008 11:24 pm |
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Weight 234 today. I guess I'm going to go through the bouncies (is that a word?) every 20 lbs.
At work today she apologized! I feel like such an #%@&!. I apologized too, so now we're best friends - until next week anyway. It makes my weekend a lot sunnier though.
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