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slimwish
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 Posted: 20 March 2008 11:31 pm
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 I'm not new here, but I just made a new account. You can call me slimwish.

Height: 5"0 - 5"1
Weight: 119lbs
Goal weight: Atleast 110lbs
Age: 14

A couple months ago I tried to lose some weight, starting at 120lbs, I lost 4 lbs, but just this week I gained 3lbs back! I have no idea why, junk food? So I'm trying to lose some more weight...

Sometimes I think that it's impossible for me to be slim. Can it be impossible? Or is everyone able to be slim? What about genetics?

 
**edit**
I think I weight myself wrong, I'm 117lbs so I did lose some pounds I guess..

Last edited on 21 March 2008 03:14 pm by slimwish

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 Posted: 20 March 2008 11:57 pm
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More about me:

-I'm tired all the time, no energy

-I might be depressed

-I love food

-I despise exercising, too tiring

-I eat four meals a day

-I live in a place where the majority of the people are slim and/or fit.

-I believe I have a friend who is anorexic

-My parents cook a lot of meat

-I fall into temptation very easily

-I'm very unmotivated in general

-I'm pretty sure I have anxiety problems


-I don't know if my eating habits are good or not

-I'm very unactive, I'm always sitting.


I hope that helped you to know more about me!

Last edited on 21 March 2008 12:05 am by slimwish

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 Posted: 21 March 2008 12:25 am
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I'm trying to think of what to eat for dinner right now.

Any suggestions?

Here are some foods in my house right now:

-lettuce

-a tomatoe

-cucumber

-bagels (230 calories I think)

-pepperoni sticks (100 calorie)

-Shredded cheese

-Puffy white rice

-Eggs

 -Frozen shrimp

What healthy thing can I make?

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 Posted: 21 March 2008 01:57 am
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This is what I had for dinner:

3 large boiled crab legs- 400 calories (guessing)

Little bit of soup- 100 calories (guessing again)

4 california rolls- probably 200 calories

So my dinner was probably about 700 calories!! :sad: It's weird.. I feel like I don't have to eat more, but at the same time I feel hunger?? :confused:

I've already had about 1000 calories earlier in the day, so that makes 1700 calories in total.

Though it's 8:40pm, I'm probably gonna eat more later today cause I sleep very late and I'll be hungry again.


Ahhh! I don't get it, I eat so much. :sad: I'm not even active or anything.

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 Posted: 21 March 2008 03:57 am
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hiya slimwish!

i just wanted to make a suggestion.  you said that you are tired all of the time and/or lack energy... you know, though it may sound contradictory, exercizing actually increases your energy levels.  also, what do you eat in a typical day?  what you are eating can effect your energy as well.  if you eat a lot of empty carbs and fats, it can shoot your energy up for a short time, but leave you hanging later.  just a thought.

and, you must be at least somewhat motivated- you did start up a diary!  so you have your goals set, do you have a time line?  sometimes that can help to motivate a person. 

do you have friends that you could do physical activities with?  play sports, go biking, do something active.. walking, anything?  even if it is just to get your mind off of food and to avoid temptations, this could help you out a lot.  any hobbies that you could persue?

do you eat because you are hungry or because the food is there and so are you?  you said you are 14- i would imagine you still have some growing to do, so i wouldn't be too worried about it.  as long as you are feeding your body with healthy stuff and going on junk food binges.  it sounds like you have a pretty decent diet from what you have posted so far.  your folks keep he house socked with veggies, and this is great.  it's nice to see that there isn't a bunch of chips and cookies (or at least, you didn't mention them) lying around the house.  if you could find somway to get some physical activity into your day, you would probably feel a lot better in general.  and it really doesn't even have to be work!  it can be fun, i promise!

keep us posted and if you need any help or want feedback, don't heistate to ask!!

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 Posted: 21 March 2008 06:36 am
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I feel guilty.. I just ate another crab leg and I wasn't even hungry. It was just lying there randomly in a bowl on the kitchen table, and it was gonna go to waste if I didn't eat it. So I ate it. :chewing:

My usual routine:

Breakfast: --- varies a lot. Yesterday I had rice with this boiled egg stuff (not hard boiled eggs, but boiled).

Lunch: --- Usually just a sandwhich with two slices of ham, or a bagel with some veggie light cream cheese stuff and water

Linner (lunch/dinner)--- What ever is left over from breakfast, or frozen heat up stuff

Dinner: -- varies a lot. Probably rice and meat, fish, and home made soup.

Snacks: Sometimes three squares of chocolate, or cookies that my friends don't wanna eat.. They offer it to me and I take it. :chewing:

I usually don't have cookies at my house, so it's really hard to say no. But I did buy some cookies this week.

I don't really know my time line, hopefully by the time september starts.

I have tried to do physical activities with my friends before, but they were never up to it, and let me down.

I do have hobbies, but it just involves sitting.

I think I eat just cause the food is there and so am I. I have the most random cravings. They just hit me at random times. One minute I'd be craving chocolate, then cookies, jam, then ice cream.

A lot of people say that I'll probably grow some more, but I'm really starting to believe I've stopped growing. I'm the same height as a year or so ago, and my parents are short too. But I'm still a few inches shorter then them, like maybe 3.

I did get some physical activity today, though I should've probably gotten more. I wanted to jog 5 miles but ended up only jogging 800m. :dizzy: I get tired and out of breath so quick!

I've just started this goal, but I already feel like I failed! It feels kinda hopeless. I absolutely love the taste of food, and I always have.. I just love eating! :apple::pizza:


Cross off the 1700 calories, I probably consumed atleast 2000 calories today! :sad:

Last edited on 21 March 2008 06:38 am by slimwish

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 Posted: 21 March 2008 03:07 pm
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Stupid apple pie, I didn't even want it. I don't even like apple pie that much.

I couldn't turn it down though cause I don't want to annoy my mom.

:sad:

Breakfast:

2% milk--130
Light veggie cream cheese --25
Nice slice of apple pie-- 277!!! :nono:
Half a cinnamon raison bagel--115

Total: 547



Exercise:
 Walking at 3mph -- 35
 Jogging/running at 7mph-- 51

Total: 86

I'm suprised I got any exercise!


Oh, and I'm actually 117lbs, so that means I've lost 3lbs since a few months ago. I don't feel any better though, I've been way less active. I don't look any better either.. Have I just lost muscle?

Last edited on 21 March 2008 03:12 pm by slimwish

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 Posted: 22 March 2008 10:47 pm
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   Ok, yesterday we went out and I pigged out at dinner... soo I consumed a lot of calories yesterday. :nono:


   Today I've consumed just about 500 calories though, and it's 6:37pm.

The 500 came from a pita thing (100 cal.) with ketchup (30cal?), a small bit of cheese (100cal?), and pepperoni (100cal). And I had some chocolatey snacks (70cal.) And two pieces of candy. (50cal. each?)

 It's so weird, somedays I just pig out, and then on few random days I dont eat that much. I still have to have dinner though.

   I think it depends on my mood. I've just been badly hurt by my friend so I feel depressed and lost my appetite. I don't feel like exercising either.

I'll update later.


**edit**

I had a huge dinner like always.
I had a bowl of rice, and had like 5 strips of bacon.
Had some salad with this weird spicy dressing. It was soy sauce mixed with some spices.

I had some snacks and half a cup of milk.

Rice: Around 300 cal. I think.
Bacon: 210 cal.  (16g of fat! :pig:)
Salad: 50 cal.
Snacks: 170 cal.
Milk: 70 cal.

Dinner total: 800 cal. :dizzy:

*edit*

I also brushed my teeth after dinner when I started craving more junk. I almost gave in, but I forced myself to brush my teeth so the craving would lessen. It worked!

Day total: 1300 cal.




I want to do some weights, but I don't know where my 5 pound weights went!

What else can I do instead of weights?


*edit*

AHH! I'm craving junk right now!!! What should I do?? I really feel like giving in right now. :chewing:

I kinda feel hungry too. :yum:
I think my mouth is getting watery.
Ahh!

Last edited on 23 March 2008 03:39 am by slimwish

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 03:49 am
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  Craving.. junk..
AHH!
I want to give in. :pig:
Any suggestions? Before it's too late.
:chewing:

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 03:55 am
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See if any of these ideas help.

http://www.caloriesperhour.com/forums/view_topic.php?id=4451&forum_id=19

 

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 04:18 am
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Thanks :smile:

Right now I'm eating a huge bowl of lettuce (30 cal?), chopped tomato (35cal?), and corn (60cal.). And flavoured water (5 cal. probably)

That's weird.. The junk I was craving had less calories. :confused:

Oh well, this probably has less fat and sugar. :smile:

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 05:05 am
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Does anyone know the answers to the questions in my first post?


Also, I have big thighs and calves. I hate them!! It seems all my fat goes go into my legs and butt. :sad:

Does anyone know easy ways to burn fat in your calves quickly? I remember in gym class, everyone would wear shorts, and they all had slim legs!! I was jealous. I had the 3rd or 4th biggest calves.

Are there any good exercises specifically to burn fat in your calves and not make them bulky?

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 03:03 pm
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I don't know about specific exercises for fat burning, I have read that you cannot really control where you add/lose fat.  HOWEVER you certainly can target certain areas for toning.  Try posting your question in the exercise forum.

Also I am going to PM you a website I use to track my calories every day.  It makes it easier to estimate calories in what you eat.  Congrats on choosing healthy vegetables.

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 06:55 pm
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 Breakfast:

2 pita things (200cal.)
Ketchup (15 cal.)
Little bit of Cheese (60cal.)
Pepperoni (100cal.)

Snack:
Strawberry chocolate covered busicuits (70cal.)

Tea with honey ( 100 cal?)
Toffee candy (50cal.)

Dinner:
Fish, rice, tofu.
Also a potato covered with cheese and pepperoni and stuff so it was like a potato pizza thing. :chewing:
Also a plum and two dried date things.

I overate. I was doing so well until dinner came.

All that was probably around 1000 cal. :shock: I kept eating even though I became full. :nono:


Total today (so far): 1595 cal.

*edit*
I ate wayyyyyyy too much, and kept eating.
New total: 2100+ :nono:

Last edited on 24 March 2008 06:54 pm by slimwish

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 09:11 pm
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sorry, there is really no way to spot reduce.  the best thing to do is cardio.  that is how you lose fat.  if your legs are already muscular, don't put a lot of focus on doing calf exercizes, it could just make them bulkier (this happens to me, so i avoid calf work).  it might be the last place to come off, but it will have to get off eventually.  and maybe you are just genetically designed to have calves of a certain size. your legs may also change shape as you continue to grow.

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 Posted: 23 March 2008 09:18 pm
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Noooooooo!

I don't want to be genetically designed to have these ugly big calves and thighs!!! :shock: :dizzy: It just makes me look fatter since I'm really short. I doubt I'm going to grow anymore either. :confused:

Any exercise suggestions?



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 Posted: 23 March 2008 09:51 pm
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like i said, cardio is your best option.  you really can't spot reduce.  it just doesn't work that way.  sorry.  do you like any cardio activity?  i know you said you ahte exercizing, but sometimes ya just gotta do what ya gotta do if you want to see results.  it's best to find something that you enjoy doing, so you will actually do it.  i like using aerobic dvds (turbo jam, tae bo, the firm.  see if they have any dvds at your public library...do you ahve access to a gym?  you could do startionary bike, elliptical, whatever... or if they offer classes, you could go for somthing like that.  you could even just start by going for walks.  if you are always sedentary, this will have a pretty decent impact).  and yes, you still may grow a few inches.  girls usually stop around 16 or so.  i grew a few inches between 14-16.

 

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 Posted: 24 March 2008 01:02 am
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 I was really interested in turbo jam at one point, but I went to this site where a bunch of people said they were scammed by beach body. :shock: There were all these stories about being scammed so that totally scared me off.

   I really hope I grow some more..
   The last time I grew was like atleast a year ago, maybe two. Haven't grown a millimeter since. I measure myself often, in hopes of having grown, but it never happens! (I measured today too).


 Swimming is okay, but I don't have enough time to go to the pool a few times a week. Plus I don't like going anywhere by myself, and my friends probably won't want to be dragged along all the time. Maybe in the summer a friend and I could do some kinda swimming schedule, but not now.

   Is beach body safe to order from? I've tried before, but for some reason the credit card wouldn't work.. Though the day before, my dad ordered something online with it. And after too. It just doesn't work for beach body. I've heard of so many scam stories about beach body that I'm not sure if I should try again.

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 Posted: 24 March 2008 03:11 am
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i had the same feelings of trepidation, but i ended up ordering and everything went smoothly... and it helped me get back into working out at one point.  i ordered a whole set (included 5 workouts on 1 dvd- learn & burn, 20 minute, turbo sculpt, cardio party, and ab jam).  it also included punch, kick and jam (and hand weights).  absolutely fabulous and i have nothing but good things to say about it.  ordered again from them later and again, everything was fine.

many people on this board have ordered and from what i have heard, no one experienced probles (xcept they didn't get to them fast enough!:grin:).  i think it's totally worth it.  everything is secure.  do it online (i hear if you do it on the phone, they really push you to order more stuff.  you just have to click "no" online!).

youmight reawlly enjoy it!  many of us do!  the music is great and it's really motivational.  you might get addicted to it (read scoobees journal if you want to know about how cool the series is).  if you decide to order, get the starter one with the learn and burn, etc... it will teach you the moves which is pretty helpful.

let us know what you decide to do!

also, it doesn't hurt to ask your friends!  sure they might not want to go every day, but once a week or so can be a great way to get your body to do something different.  tell them it will burn a million calories, if they are concerend about their body's as well (ok, not really a million, but it is a lot more than you would think!)

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 Posted: 24 March 2008 03:29 am
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Hi slimwish!

I just wanted to tell you you are not alone on feeling depressed sometimes. I guess porbably everyone feels depressed sometimes..

Sometimes i just want to ley down, and cry, and never get back up. I feel like I will never be smart enough, thin enough, pretty enough, rich enough, in good enough shape, be loved, have enough friends...I'm so afraid of failing, and of being alone...is that how you feel?

I saw a post where another member said they were jumping rope and there calves were thinning out? So, you might could try that.

I hope you're ahving a good day!

CG:music:

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 Posted: 24 March 2008 06:47 pm
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 Thanks for all the advice and stuff! :grin:

I'm interested in Turbo Jam again!!
Is Turbo Jam safe though? Like for your body... Is it too hard on the knees or back or something? I don't think I have good knees.

Yes, I think I have a fear of failing. I'm a perfectionist. :confused:
I'm pretty sure it's partially genetic too, cause my mom is also probably depressed.

   Is jump rope bad for your knees?

*edit*
I think I have bad knees. They were not always bad though. I think it happened a few months ago when I did this standing long jump thing and landed funny. :sad: Are they ruined forever? :crying:


Today:
omelette (made with 2 eggs)- 180cal.
rice-  400 cal.
2 pita bread things with ketchup, cheese, and pepperoni again - 400cal.
milk- 130 cal.
Cooked fish stuff- 150 cal?

Total so far today: 1260 cal!!! That was just breakfast and lunch. I wanted to stick to like 1500 cal, but that means my dinner would be only 240 cal! :confused:

*edit*

Okay, I totally blew that.
I had cookies and milk: 290cal.

Total so far today: 1550cal!


I'll try the sandwich for dinner.. But I don't have any sandwich bread.
I do have hotdog buns though.
Hmmm.

*edit*

I went out for dinner with my friends to this chicken wings place.. I had 9 chicken wings!!

That'd be about 800 calories. :nono:

*edit*

++more junk (200cal.)

Day total: 2550 calories!! :nono:

Last edited on 25 March 2008 04:02 am by slimwish

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You could have a great dinner for 240 calories! Or at least close. Oatmeal and apple or banana...sandwich...soup...

CG:music:

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 Posted: 26 March 2008 12:18 am
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 I went over 2000 calories again today!! I just stopped counting, but I know it's past 2000. :nono:


It's like the more I try to be healthy, the easier I fall into temptation!

Ew I feel like such a pig. :pig:

I'm still waiting for more answers to the questions in my older posts, so if you have an answer please tell me :tongue:

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as far as the knees go, you might want to consider going to the dr.  it would be best for someone to have a look at them.  it's too hard for any of us to say.  then base your idea of jumping rope off of that.  it's pretty high impact... i'm not sure.

some poeple have mentioned problems with thier knees with TJ.  i hurt my knee once doing it, my lower back a bit, too.  that's why you have to be sure you are doing the moves properly and moving your legs and feet the right way so you don't pull something funny.  yeah, talk to your doc when you go in for your knees about what sorts of activities you can and cannot do based on thier evaluation.  and do it now (i am assuing your folks have insurance for you.  don't wait a few years when you'll have to pay out of your own pocket!  i learned that one the hard way!)

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 Posted: 27 March 2008 06:40 am
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Hmm, once you damage your knees, do they not heal by themselves? :shock:
I really don't want to hurt myself while doing Turbo Jam.

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 Posted: 29 March 2008 02:40 pm
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 I feel guilty...
I ate soo many chips yesterday! Probably like half of those big bags!
(I went over to a friends).

And when I refuse to drink pop, they keep saying I don't need to diet or whatever. :dizzy:

I feel like such a :pig:!!!

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Hi Slimwish-

I can't answer your questions really, but I do have a couple of suggestions - learned the hard way.

I think going to the dr. and telling him/her that you are working on a healthy lifestyle is a good idea. Disscuss with him/her what scares you (your knees for example, being tired, depressed etc.). Have a physical including being checked for anemia or other reasons (such as diet) that may be why you are tired. That way you know where you are starting at. Talk to the dr. about healthy food choices for yourself as well as excersise - not everyone is the same.

Check out some of your food choices, VERY generally -sugary things, as well as many breads and  pastas  turn into sugar as they are digested can make you feel tired about a 1/2 hour after you eat them.

I am 5'2" . At 16, I thought I was fat- and in comparison to my friends I was more solid. Looking at the photos I hated to be in, I now see someone who was muscular, shaped differently from the beanpoles I hung around with, but not fat. that isn't what I saw then! I think if I had really seen myself, instead of seeing myself compared to others, I would have made better choices.

It's a hard thing to do, but try to stop comparing yourself to other people. Work on improving yourself today only. Then tomorrow when it arrives is the new today. Please stop beating yourself up for not reaching your goals immediately! NO ONE who has excelled in any area was perfect the first time out! Even now, people who we admire for their accomplishments fall short of their goals. But they keep at it. It may help to plan out what you will eat for the day, including snack choices. What are your options when you are craving something? Maybe if you have a plan before hand it will help. what if you have a goal of a 5 mile run, but start with what you can do today (800m), walk for another 1/2 mile, turn around, and walk or jog back. then add a little every few days or week. See how something like that goes.

What matters is that you can say, ok this is where I can improve, an you keep on going! the differece between succeeding and failinig is getting up after falling down. (just like a kid learning to walk - how many times do they fall, giggle or cry, and then get up and try again? You did it!)


Ask yourself - what did I do right today? What do I need more practice at? Practice makes better- if we are perfect no one would want to hang around with us!

I am a perfectionist, and that kept me from trying todo ANYTHING because I was afraid of looking stupid, being made fun of or just doing things wrong. But what would have happened if those things didn't happen?

You mentioned that you think one of your friends may be anorexic. Why do you think that? Is that something that you'd like to share more about?

Ask your friends to join you - so they say no. What if one or two say yes?  What if they would like to, but they think no one would be interested, so they don't say anything either? You're not going anyway right now, so what have you got to lose?

You're on the right track by working on your goals. Give yourself credit for caring and doing something about it. Talk to yourself the way you would talk to one of your friends if you are trying to give them encouragement to keep at something that is important to them. Become a friend to yourself.

Also know that what you write, helps the people who read it as well. We all find out we aren't alone with our worries and successes. It's nice to share even with people we don't know - sometimes it makes things easier.

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 Posted: 30 March 2008 04:55 am
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 Thanks for the post b fatnomore. :smile:

I would see the doctor, but my parents won't take me there! They always think I'm overreacting or something, and I know I do sometimes, but still.. I think there are things wrong with me. F
or example, I'm really moody, sensitive, irritable.. I get depressed, and mad really easily.. I seem to worry about everything.. I always feel so drained of energy.. I'm always so unmotivated.. I get stressed over things most people wouldn't get stressed over.. I procrastinate a ton (procrastinating right now!).. I'm like always twitching!!!! It's soo annoying.. geez the back of my shoulder just twitched. :dizzy: My mom is iron deficient... But she told me that I already got checked for it, and I wasn't.
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Gah! I hate it, my mom thinks everything will just get better on its own.. I hate feeling anxious, I hate feeling depressed!! Does she want me to suffer?!?! Gah! I'm pretty sure she has depression too.. She says if you get diagnosed with all that stuff, then it'll be a disadvantage when applying for jobs and stuff. :sad: I think that's why she doesn't want the doctor to diagnose me or her. What if she's right though? Depression & anxiety making you look bad and stuff.. I want to get better though.. And I really want my mom to get better too. It just makes life really hard, and she thinks she's the only one in the world who's depressed, and she's always feeling sorry for herself.. (She said those stuff herself, so I'm not just assuming).. It just really pisses me off sometimes, I'm depressed too, but I'm not so self-centered like her!! Sometimes I think I understand her, but she doesn't understand me.. She's always yelling at me for not helping her out, and I would, but I just can't. I want to help, like cleaning the house, but I'm just so tired all the time!! Maybe if she let us both get help, then I'd be able to help her. She's basically stopping me from helping her, and expecting me to still help her! It's kinda hard to explain the situation.. I could go on and on complaining about my mom, but I'll stop here.. for now. ;)

..
I eat a lot of grain foods- rice, bread, and pasta!

I think planning what to eat for the day will help. =) I'll try that out!


I thought one of my friends were anorexic cause; she had dropped a lot of weight, became very pale, concave stomache, fainted, likes to give others food, became very self concious, moody, doesn't think there's anything wrong with her, looks awkward while eating, headaches, dizziness, ect. ect. But... I'm not friends with her anymore.. So yeah... Not a good friend.. (And never was longgg before she became like that).

I think I might start exercising with a friend over the summer. Like swimming..

Thanks for all the help b fatnomore!
Writing this stuff did make me feel a bit better. :smile:




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 Posted: 30 March 2008 02:56 pm
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         I weighed myself this morning and I was 119lbs!!
I went up by 2 pounds!
Irony... I've gained weight since I started this "diet". :nono:
 I've been eating more food, and junk... I don't know why! Maybe it's cause I'm afraid I'll never be able to eat those foods in those quantities again, so I just splurge..


I'm going to plan out my meals beforehand this time:

*edit*

Breakfast:
-Oatmeal with milk and raisons.. I don't know what else I can make with oatmeal, and this is kinda bland and tastes kinda gross. :confused: Any alternatives?
-Rice with this weird curry stuff
 
Total: 500 cal.

Snack:
none


Lunch:
-1 Whole wheat pita with hummus
-1 Whole wheat pita with a pepperoni stick
Total: 400cal.

Snack:
A big carrot with hummus

Total: 100cal.

Dinner:

Oatmeal with something

*edit*
I actually didn't have the oatmeal...
My mom made a big dinner, and I kinda splurged...

Total: 600 cal.

Snack:
Carrot with hummus.
2 Girl Guide cookies

Total: 260cal.


Total: 1860cal.


Let's hope I don't eat anymore for today!!
If I get all my homework done, I'm going to try to burn 160 calories off. Though that would be really hard I think..

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I'm glad you're thinking of ways to make what you want happen, even if it does mean waiting a bit! Maybe there'll be an opportunity before that - you never know.

I was going to just read my emails, any responses I got and pop off to run much needed errands. However, something you wrote made me feel I needed to write you before I'm off and running. Actually a couple of things.

Try to give yourself and your folks permission to be confused with your changing body, mind, moods. People (parents are people - most of the time LOL) like to be able to define what is happening to the people they love. So when a 14 yr old is growing form the kid to a young lady, it's weird on many levels, and a bit threatening too. What is too much attention, what is not enough. Everyone who talks to them has at least one opinion, and may have more than one opinion depending on the time of day. What I'm getting at is they are probably a bit insecure over all this too. How many 14 year olds have they practiced on before you, to get it right?
It's safer to say, oh she'll grow out of it, I did....

It sounds to me as if they care about you, but don't want you to worry about things that are a normal part of growing up. It may be "normal" but it sure feels weird to you! And you're trying to live with it.

On the doctor front, perhaps you can mention
(use your own words) that you understand that you may be coming across as a drama queen. But how you are feeling scares you at times. You know that you are probably fine, but since you want to change to a healthier lifestyle to help how you feel and to prevent falling into bad habits, it would be nice to go to the doctor to make sure you are doing the right things, and not just following a fad that could hurt you. Sometmes it's good to talk to people who aren't in the middle of your life to see it objectively.

Perhaps you can write down what you want to say, so that if you feel like you can't talk about it without it coming out wrong, or they won't hear what you mean, you can hand them your letter. let them know that you know they care about you, and that you care about them. None of us ever gets tired of hearing that.

Sorry - I've gotta run!


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Thanks for all the advice b fatnomore! :smile:

 I don't feel like giving up as much anymore. :tongue:

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Oh dear slimwish,

I'm sorry you feel depressed so much of the time. You are so mature to realize that you aren't the only person who feels like that, but I know that a lot times it doesn't help to know you aren't alone. I hope you can get a chance to talk to your mom.

So, looks like we are about to be buddies! See you in our buddy thread!

CG:music:

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    Whoo hoo!
I now got a diet buddy! :tongue:

And I think it's making me more motivated. :smile:

Today...

Breakfast:
Oatmeal with water and some milk- 110cal.

Lunch:

Whole wheat pita (100cal.), carrot (30cal.), 2 tablespoons of hummus (70 cal.), crystal light stuff (10 cal.)
Total= 210 cal.

Snack:

Gum= 7cal.

"Linner":
Oatmeal, with water & milk, raisons= 180cal.
Rice + tofu+ this fish stuff= 260cal.

Girl guide cookie= 70cal.

Total= 510 cal.

Dinner:

Kinda like linner..
I had a bit of everything..
Some oatmeal, some tofu, some fish stuff, some fish stuff fried in egg, some rice, and this little piece of red bean cake thing..

Dinner total= 550cal. (Guessing)


Total for today: 1387 cal!



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   Breakfast:

NOTHING. :confused:
I woke up too late, so I didn't have time.

Total: 0.


Lunch.

1 pita (100cal.)
A carrot with hummus (100 cal.)

-2 pieces of gum (15 cal?)

Total cal.: 215cal.

Linner.
-oatmeal (150cal.)
-some tofu (30cal.)
-a quarter of an avocado (55cal.)
-this red bean doughy sweet cake stuff, the size of a timbit (80cal??)

Total cal. : 315cal.


Dinner.
-oatmeal (150cal.)
-some mackeral (150cal?)
-doughy food I don't know the name of (200cal?)

-cookie (70cal.)

Total cal: 570cal.


Total calories for day (so far):

1100 cal!






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Way to go on the calorie count yesterday Slimwish!  Make it two in a row!!

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Thanks! :tongue:

I'm finding it slightly easier to control my temptations now! And when I do give in, I only have a small amount.

I don't know exactly why though.. Hmm..

:lightbulb:

  I think before, I was totally hopeless and thought that I would never improve, so I wouldn't try that hard. I think I'm getting more hopeful now, and maybe that's why I'm trying harder not to pig out.

Oatmeal has helped too, I think. It's really filling (or it's all in my head cause I heard it's supposed to be filling). But either way, I'm starting to really like it! Before I found it gross, and the way it moved around when it was heated up. XD I just find that amusing now. :grin:

 I'm also having smaller portions now, and trying not to eat until I actually feel hungry.

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I know this is a little belated, but I read your post about oatmeal being bland.  Check out the Food forums... I believe there is a whole topic devoted to Oatmeal.

Spices (cinnamon, nutmeg) and a bit of brown sugar go a long way.  Diced up apples.  I even like to swirl a bit of yogurt in mine - adds a cool & creamy contrast to hot & hearty oatmeal.  YUM!

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 Thanks, I'm going to try it with some cinnamon to see how that tastes. :smile:




Todayyyy:

Breakfast:

-cheerios
-milk
-clemintine

total: 300 cal.



Lunch:

Bagel with cream cheese, some fries (friends shared)

Total: 380cal.


Snack:

-Doughnut
-peanuts

Total:
430 cal!! :nono:

Linner:
Ham & eggs & buttered bread & orange juice

Total: 440cal.

Dinner:
Rice, mackeral, tofu, 1 chicken wing, a third of a pizza, salad.

Total: 540cal?


Dessert:
Brother's early bday cake! I have no idea of how many calories it has... 300?

Total for day: 2390cal!

I always tend to pig out when I'm at a friend's house. :pig:


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Breakfast:

Oatmeal with milk: 170cal.


Lunch:

Bagel with cream cheese, a few fries, carrots with hummus, also a packet of gummy candy:

640cal.  I really shouldn't have eaten so much candy. :nono:


Dinner:
LOTS of tuna salad
Bday cake
2 hard boiled eggs, 2 whites, and half yolk.

Total: 570cal.

I also walked for about an hour and a half to trying to raise money for cancer with a friend instead of having my "linner".

Wow that deducts 200 calories! :shock:


1380 calories- 200calories= 1180calories.. so far..

 
I'm probably gonna eat more in like 3 hours or so. Cause I stay up late.

  *edit*
I also had some greasy looking soup, some california rolls, and this sticky rice cake stuff....

That probably makes it 1700 calories.
Not too bad I guess.. I stayed under 2000.




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slimwish wrote:

1380 calories- 200calories= 1180calories.. so far..

 
I'm probably gonna eat more in like 3 hours or so. Cause I stay up late.




I love having grape tomatoes for this purpose.  You can eat as many as you want really , they are fun they pop in your mouth and they are a little sweet.  Other things I do to fill the void are to have pico de gallo salsa and mound it on Tostitos Scoops, or have a 100-calorie mini-bags of microwave popcorn.  You don't have to blow it you are doing well today!  Good luck!

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Hey Slimwish!

I haven't been keeping up with everyone the way I want (not enough hours in the day) But I wanted to say hi and also GREAT JOB!!!

I'm afraid I've got to try to grab some sleep!

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Thanks for all the support everyone! :smile:


I feel so guilty right now...

So today, we went to a buffet and I completely pigged out. :pig:

I ate like 2 platefuls of mountains of food!! Plus another plateful of fatty desserts. I don't even want to know how many calories I consumed today! 3000+?! It sure felt like A LOT. Ribs, crabs, fried rice, cake, tuna salad, corn salad, bunch of different california rolls, fried chicken, fried shrimp, plain shrimp, potatoe salad, creme brulee, crispy honey covered things, a brownie, sugar puffs, mussels, etc. etc.!!!!

Oh man, I feel so stuffed right now!
I think I was close to exploding.
:dizzy:

How do you deal with buffets? How can you not resist overstuffing?! AHHHH! I can never ever go to buffets without over eating. :nono: I feels like such a waste since it's all you can eat...

I really want turbo jam right now so I won't feel as guilty cause I'm burning some too.
How intense is turbo jam anyways? What if it's too intense for me?

I did go for a hour and a half walk yesterday though.

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Just remember you haven't blown it all because of one day!

You're walking - wow 1 1/2 hours - that's really something! And then you came back here.

With buffets lately what I try to do if I can't avoid them is to ...  Drink some water(sometimes I even have a glass before I go out), walk around the buffet and see what I really want that I won't have anywhere else and I plan my attack!

Then I take a plate of food, taking small bits of things to try, If I like it I'll come back later for it. I try to take at least a couple of healthy choices. I eat that, wait a few minutes, have a little more water. Then I walk around the buffet again to see what is still there that I must have! Many times I've been disappointed by something I had my hopes on. So what I do now is take 1/2 or 1/4 of something and tell myself that if it lives up to my imagination I'll go back for a larger piece. Sometimes the little piece is enough to satisfy because I did't keep saying I shouldn't. When I tell myself "I shouldn't... ", it makes what I want so much more important to me that I will binge on it, and then realise I didn't even enjoy it very much after all that.

I also don't keep eating things that are just ok when there's a lot more to try out. If I didn't take a large portion of it I'm not wasting it anyway, and why should I use up calories if I don't enjoy it?

Keep treating yourself well!

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Ah, Slimwish.  AYCE buffets would be really tricky - after all, most people go there to eat all they want!  Wouldn't it be cool if someone had an AYCE healthy buffet full of green salad and hummus and lowfat yogurt and fruits and every veggies under the sun.  You could go there and eat all you want and never get bored - or put on weight - cause when you eat all the healthy things its actually hard some times to eat ENOUGH calories.

I just amused myself because I realized we have a perfect example on CPH of what a healthy AYCE buffet would look like - Nir's refrigerator.  Have you ever looked at Nir's diary and all those lovely photos he has included?  Personally I would find it impossible to reach his extremes of veg consumption but he does inspire!

Anyway - can you make a short term commitment to yourself, how about avoiding AYCE buffets between now and the end of June?  Would be good to get that temptation out of your life.  :apple:

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Mol Definitely hit the nail on the head with that!:grin:

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