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AzGirly
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Posted: 7 March 2008 09:42 pm |
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 .......Here we go.......
So I came across this website yesterday and I found it to be great and when I seen the journals, I just knew this would be good for me. I hope to be able to come here and write a little something everyday. That way, when I reach my goal, I will see how far I've come and I want to write how I feel right now, so that when I do reach my goal...I can remember what it was like to be very overweight, so that I won't gain the weigth back again as I did last time...So this journal, for me, is more about my emotional journey
So just a recap, my son is now almost four and I still haven't lost the baby weight! I did however loose some weight from Jan06-April06..I went from 211lbs to 186lbs and then gained it all back as quick as I had lost it. 
So I've spent the last year pretty much on a path of self destruction. I have been eating with every emotion I have....I'm happy, I eat...I'm sad, I eat....I'm mad, I eat....I'm nervous, I eat.... I'm such an emotional eater, and I'm not "happy" unless the food is bad! I don't get it! I have pretty much lived off of Panda Express, Burger King, Wendys, and #%@&! for the last year. It's a worse addiction then cigerrattes, I swear it was so much easier to quit smoking then eating right! Right now I probably consume between 3k and 4k of calories a day! IN A DAY! I'm eating enough calories for two or three people!
So now wonder whey I'm back up to 222.8 as of yesterday  That's more then I weighed the day I gave birth to my son. My feelings the last couple of months have been so rocky emotionally. I am now wearing my size 18 clothes very tightly...I mean REALLY tightly. It's been a rollercoaster because one minute I am telling myself to stop being dumb and to just accept myself as I am and to enjoy myself, so I binge on food and I feel good about myself... until I go to get dressed the next day and can barely fit into ANY of my clothes! Then the emotions start all over again....it's almost a daily thing now-days! Not to mention how I feel physically...I have a very sedentary job where I sit at a computer all day, so I don't get much exercise at all. I can go on and on all day about the things that I experience now that I'm heavier: I'm sleepy ALL the time...I have NO energy...I'm anti social...I sweat more now then I did at a lighter weight...my sex drive is NON existent...etc etc etc etc...
This stops...and it stops now...I'm taking my life back...one day at a time. I know it's not going to be easy, but I'm going to have to make a change or I'm not going to live a very fulfilling life. I'm 22 years old and I feel like I'm 40. I just need to keep myself focused and keep telling myself NOT to have the "all or nothing" attitude.
I am worth it, I am beautiful and I am full of life....I will not be dominated by food anymore. To me, food is my addiction and one day I will be able to say that I'm no longer addicted, but until that day comes...I'm giong to have to find the discipline in myself to resist temptation.
I CAN do this....
 Goal for the weekend:
Today is Friday and this weekend my biggest goal is to watch my portions and to stay away from soda completely. I also want to talk at least ONE 30 minute walk sometime over the weekend.
 Weekly Weigh In: 222.8
Last edited on 7 March 2008 09:44 pm by AzGirly
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trimB
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Posted: 8 March 2008 02:58 pm |
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Welcome to the diary forums! I really like your goals for the weekend. It's easier for some people to start with smaller goals that are more easily attainable than to take on giant drastic changes all at once. Keep your goals specific and focused - and you will make progress even if they are baby steps!
Let us know how your weekend goes...
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AzGirly
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Posted: 11 March 2008 03:29 pm |
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So I didn't do too great over the weekend...went to Texas Roadhouse (can we say fat!?) then had to get somethign on the run Sunday night and ended up settling for Panda Express (orange chicken is definatley my downfall)
So as of right now, I'm just gonna brush my shoulders off and get back on track. This is a big test for me because I'm totally the "all or nothing" type of girl....so for me to stop my behavior before in results in more weight gain...is an incredible step for me.
It's crunch time for me. I need to drop some weight fast because I seriously can't fit into any of my clothes. (thank god I can wear a sweater right now...) So for me I'm going to have to be a little more drastic for the next two weeks. After two weeks I will ease up a little bit and start incorporating more ideal eating habits. But for now, I need to get rid of some of this water weight!!
Goal for the week
Reduce total calorie intake to no more then 1,000 per day.
Weekly weigh in: will weigh in next week
Weekly Food Log:
Tuesday 3/11: =1360
1/2 bagel< 150> Lean Cuisine <270> Chinese & Cookies <940>
Wednesday 3/12: =970
Oatmeal <160> Lean Cuisine & Navel Orange <310> Spaghetti<500>
Thursday 3/13: =1557
Oatmeal <160> Lg Banana <121> Lean Cuisine <270> Chicken& Veggies <300> FruitLoops<50> Icecream <250>
Chinese <300>Cookies <106>
Friday 3/14:
Kashi Cereal <250> Cookies <160> Lean Cuisine <270>
Saturday 3/15:
Sunday 3/16:
Last edited on 14 March 2008 04:16 pm by AzGirly
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AzGirly
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Posted: 11 March 2008 04:37 pm |
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Question:
I do have a question for whoever does happen to read my journal...
How long does it usually take for your stomach to shrink? I'm asking because it seems that when I cut my calories down I'm just absolutely starving all the time! I hate that feeling! I've herd that it's very normal when cutting calories to be little more "rumbly" but dang...this is annoying...Even when I eat high fiber foods too...
Any advice or personal experience to share?
Last edited on 13 March 2008 06:08 pm by AzGirly
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Hisgal
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Posted: 11 March 2008 08:23 pm |
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Hi AG! 
I'm going to jump in here and first of all, WELCOME TO THE  FORUMS!
I see some similarities in our stories...........so maybe I can help with something? I have felt addicted to carbs for most of my life! And that seems to be what we eat a lot of when we go to the restaurants you mentioned. And of course, there is so much fat usually in those foods too!
First.........the stomach shrinking question..........I have found that mine goes down when I limit my starchy, processed carbs.......even the whole grain ones! If I stick to whole foods........low fat protein, veggies, fruits, raw nuts etc. even the people in the office comment on how flat my stomach is getting!
The other thing that limiting those starchy carbs does, it to help keep your blood sugar more stable, so you won't get so many cravings, and be tempted to eat the wrong foods! The foods I mentioned above are lean protein and high fiber.........they will fill you up faster and keep you full longer! Also, try eating 5-6 small meals. It seems like you are eating all the time, and hardly have time to get hungry........if you are eating the right foods!
I started my journey at 247, in a size 24.........that were getting tight! I know what you are feeling..........
If you haven't already, read the tutorials and the newsletters.......lots of great info in there!
May your journey be very successful!
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AzGirly
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Posted: 12 March 2008 05:55 pm |
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So lastnight wasn't the best....but I had a feeling that I might not eat a "healthy" dinner, so I prepared myself during the day...which was fine I guess. So I had about 420 cal before dinner and ended up w/ chinese again last night. HOWEVER instead of eating my ENTIRE meal, I only hate half!!! WOOHOO!! Go me!!! I still ate everything that I wanted, but practiced better portion control!! YES!! I also drank four glasses of water (they were smaller glasses)
So I did good until I got home and ate 4 small cookies.  Oh well, I enjoyed them...and I'm trying to practice actually enjoying my food, instead of just shoving food down my throat. 
So I'm guestimating my chinese dinner as 700 calories <which sure beat the 1500-2000 I would have consumed normally) and my cookes are 240 calories....So all in all I ended up with 1360 calories....
It could have been better, but it wasn't too bad... Today will be better if I stick to my plan, I should be at about 930 calories.
Oh, I'm keeping a weekly food log too...I have one started in a post above and will edit updates as I go along...I figure that will make it easier to reference later...
Last edited on 13 March 2008 06:08 pm by AzGirly
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zenobia
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Posted: 13 March 2008 01:29 am |
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hi Azgirly!
welcome to CPH! it's great that you have decided to change your habits and get healthy! you should be proud of that step alone.
you asked for some advice, comments, stories, etc... well, can i just give you a piece of advice? I know you wanted to go through something dramatic to get started on your journy to a healthier life, but can i just say that you wil be doing yourself more good, not only in the long run, but also right this moment, if you just eat a bit more. you had a question about stomach shrinking ( i assume that you mean the idea that our stomach gets smaller so less food fills it up. correct me if i am wrong) though i have heard opposing views on this one, your tummy roaring isn't becasue your tummy isn't shrinking. it's hungry. your body does require a certain amount of cals to function properly, in essence, to survive. i think what you did with cutting your chinese portions was great and exactly the kind of steps you want to be taking. if you eat too little, you are more likely to binge and to give in to cravings for foods that won't help your weightloss. you will feel more satisified, you will be able to make healthy food choices more easily because you won't be ravenous. think about eating 5 or 6 small meals a day. keep each meal to about 300-350 cals. you will be eating every few hours so you don't really get the chance to be super hungry, and you keep your metabolism running so it can burn more.
if you really want to drop water weight as you mentioned above, this might sound counter productive, but drink a lot of water. yes, you will be running to the bathroom a lot at first, but your body will be able let goes of the water that it is holding on to- the water that is causeing the water weight. once your body adjusts to the water intake level and get hydrated, you won't be seeing the bathroom as often, and you actually will weighless because of the water.
just little steps leads to huge success. you sound very ambitious, and this is a great thing, but getting too ahead of yourself makes it really hard to properly start. i really really want to see you succeed ! you have lots of motivation, ambition, great goals, and a positive attitude! i am excited to read about your successes!
i have just offered you some suggestions... you have to find what works best for you. i hope you find it. sometimes it takes a little while, but you can get there. and there are lots of people here cheering you on!!!
Last edited on 13 March 2008 04:25 am by zenobia
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 March 2008 03:04 am |
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Hi there! Welcome!
Getting going with exercising an hour a day is what helped my tummy shrink so quickly, burning fat and toning muscles at the same time. It takes a commitment and its hard work to get going but in my own experience (everyone's different!) it paid off quickly. Other than that, I am managing portions, cutting back on things like mayo, and adding greens and vegs to meals. I almost never feel hungry or deprived.
If you read around on this board, many people express the view that you have to make sure you eat enough food so your metabolism doesn't slow down - I would have to add my vote that it works.
I look forward to reading about your journey and wish you lots of success in reaching your goals. Keep posting, we're here to support you.
Mol
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Theresa
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Posted: 13 March 2008 01:13 pm |
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Welcome Azgirly. I started here at 210 lbs and was eating 1200 calories. I wasn't really losing. The advice given to me was eat 1600 approximately and increase my protein intake and have a maintenance day once a week (2100 calories) I then started losing constantly at 2lbs a week and even 3 lbs one week for a month. I then wnet on holiday and had to come back and get focused again.
My advice therefore is that 1000 calories is way too low and will make you binge when the pangs get too bad. I totally agree with the 4 meals a day at plus minus 400 calories. Or even more I eat 6 times a day at 250 - 300 calories. And try include a little protein in each meal, whether it be low fat cheese, eggs, fish, chicken, nuts etc. Hope you find what works for you, we are all here to help each other along.
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hoofprints
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Posted: 13 March 2008 03:22 pm |
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Welcome AZ girl.....ditto to what these guys say...eat a little ...often and be carefull it's really good food. It's seems wierd to eat more to lose weight, but it works, it's WHAT you eat...think low fat...low cal....
Congrats on all the changes you've made already.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 13 March 2008 04:27 pm |
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Also, think whole foods.............don't get sucked in by those processed foods that advertise "low fat" across the package. They are usually high in sugar!
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AzGirly
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Posted: 13 March 2008 06:21 pm |
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First of all, I had to go back and edit my posts because I thought my text was too big (just incase you wonder why all my journal posts have been edited here) I know...I'm so anal about stupid things! LOL
Second of all, Wow!! Thanks for all the responses!! I appreciate each and every one!! Thank you, Thank you! 
You all are 100% right about eating more. I think that I'm just so hard headed that I've been rebelling against myself....for whatever reason, my brain is programmed to think: eat less and loose more. But in reality I know this is not the way to go about things.....
So with that being said I'm going to start adding in two snacks. One a couple hours after breakfast and one a couple hours after lunch. I'm thinking something small and simple like a small apple or banana or maybe even a cup of cottage cheese or something....nothing big, just something to feed my body until my next meal.
I don't want to loose weight by starving myself...I did that already and it failed. So I need to keep my eyes open and be consious with myself....
It's wierd, but just this short of time I'm noticing that I can breath better already. I know it's not due to weight loss b/c it's too soon....but I think it's because my diaphragm and lungs are able to properly expand. I think that I was stuffing my stomach so full ALL the time, that it wasn't giving my lungs and diaphragm enough room to work properly. Not sure if this is really true, but it sounds pretty logical to me...
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AzGirly
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Posted: 13 March 2008 10:55 pm |
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So I went to the grocery store to get some fruit for my snacks...got some nice apples that looked great and some other things... Well, I had lunch at 1:30pm and it's now 4:00pm and I went to eat my apple, bit into it, and it's all mushy inside! YUCK! I hate mushy apples!!  So needless to say, I'm only getting one of my snack in today...URG! Dinner won't be until 6pm too!!  I'm hungry!! Blah!
Ok, done whining now...
Last edited on 13 March 2008 10:56 pm by AzGirly
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AzGirly
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Posted: 14 March 2008 03:49 pm |
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Lastnight and this morning was just unacceptable.
For dinner I had two small pieces of chicken and veggies (that was good) then had a handful of fruitloop cereal cuz it sounded good. Did great until I ended up going back for some icecream....so I had a cup of icream...and then I had a little leftover chinese food and two cookies.
THEN this morning I had my Kashi cereal (first time trying it and I loved it) and then had three cookies. I really need to get those darn things out of my house. ERRR!!
-BUT- normally this is where I would run with my all-or-nothing attitude and just say forget it. BUT this time I know that this is a long process, one that will never end. I will screw up, but it doesn't matter because all the tiny successes will lead to the large success I'm looking for in the future.
On a positive note, I decided to get on the scale just for the heck of it this morning...I weight 219.2! Although I'm not going to technically count it because it's not my official weigh in day...
Lastnight I was having such bad cravings. It seemed like every fast food commercial was talking directly to me. It was horrible! I would compare my food cravings to that of a cigerratte craving!! It's ridiculous! I completely went crazy with the food last night... Oh well...every day is a new day, there's no point in dwelling today over what happend yesterday. 
Last edited on 14 March 2008 06:55 pm by AzGirly
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GolfBrew
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Posted: 14 March 2008 06:02 pm |
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199.2, wait a minute, I thought you were 222.8 last Friday? 23.6 lbs in a week? Am I missing something?
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AzGirly
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Posted: 14 March 2008 06:53 pm |
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LOL!!! I just caught that, I'm sorry I meant 219.2!!
HAHA...199...not yet!! I'll go back to my previous post and edit that number.
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GolfBrew
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Posted: 14 March 2008 11:20 pm |
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I was going to start to ask you what your secret was! Good luck, keep up the good work and if you ever run into any problems or simply need advice, just ask, there are a lot of great resources on here!
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AzGirly
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Posted: 17 March 2008 04:55 pm |
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So I didn't end up counting calories this weekend...and trust me...I way over indulged!! But we are back to another brand new week and I'm back on track. I'm really thinking that this long term weight lost really has a lot to do with a "give take" type relationship with your body.
I really feel that I could have been more successful this week if I had been a little more self disciplined...but then again, I'm trying to do this in a way that feels normal to me...so I guess in that aspect, it was a successful week...
Not really much else to say there...hope everyone has a good week!!
Weekly Weigh In: 219.6
Starting Weight 222.8/Weekly Loss: 3.2lb/Total Loss: 3.2lb
Last edited on 18 March 2008 09:29 pm by AzGirly
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Posted: 18 March 2008 12:49 am |
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| lOOKS LIKE YOU'RE COMING ALONG JUST FINE. i READ SOMEWHERE THAT IT TAKES 90 DAYS TO DEVELOP A HABIT---JUST STAY IN THERE AND YOU WILL NOT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT.---KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK
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AzGirly
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Posted: 18 March 2008 05:51 pm |
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 I made a great accomplisment yesterday. We decided to go have pizza and wings last night for dinner....
I only ate one slice of regular size pizza and 5 wings!!! That's it!! I munched on the celery that came with the wings and was done!! It was so hard to sit back and say ok, that's enough...but I did it!! I think that's what it's all about....living normally, but living smartly!! I ate what I wanted and stayed in my calorie range for the day!!  WOOHOO!I'm so proud of myself!Seriously, normally I would have packed away 2 or 3 slices of pizza and 6-8 wings easy! Gosh, you don't know how hard it was though..seemed almost un-natural for me.....but I know that the more I practice, the better I'll get!!
So my week is off to a great start! Today is pretty simple...just oatmeal, lean cuisine and pork and veggies for dinner (snacks are just fruit...if I'm hungry) 
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AzGirly
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Posted: 19 March 2008 04:27 pm |
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Nothing new to report today. Today's looks like oatmeal for breakfast, lean cuisine for lunch, and baked BBQ chicken wings and green beans for dinner! Yum! (I plan to only eat two wings and have a generous portion of green beans.) As always, if I'm hungry...snacks will consist of some type of fruit.
In regards to snacks, I'm kind of on the fence about it. If I'm not hungry I just don't feel that I need to stuff something down my throat....so I'm not forcing myself to have snack inbetween meals. I don't know...I've herd both sides of this issue...and I guess this is just the decision that I feel is best for me at this time.
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GolfBrew
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Posted: 19 March 2008 05:10 pm |
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Great job on the food selection!! My advice is to go with what works for you. Personally, I love eating at 6 am, 9 am, 11:30 am, 2:30 pm, 5 pm and 7 pm, with each meal being in the 200-350 calorie range. It works so well because I never get to overeat and I eat so often that I never get ravenously hungry. So, keep doing what you’re doing, but if you ever start to get hunger pangs or cravings, just add another small meal or two to your day and hopefully it helps. Keep up the great work!!
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AzGirly
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Posted: 19 March 2008 07:10 pm |
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P.S. I did also want to add that I'm not as hungry inbetween meals anymore as I was... It might be a fluke, temporary thing...but it's wierd. Maybe my body got used to less food already?
I know that just about a week 1/2 ago I was absolutley STARVING, so I added the snacks and I was fine...but now I'm not hungry like I was...
Hmm...wierd how the body work...
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AzGirly
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Posted: 19 March 2008 10:12 pm |
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(I am a typing machine today...LOL)
Vent Alert:
Why in the HELL-o is the good food always more expensive? I mean, for example, today I went to Subway for lunch (had to get out of the office) and I decided to have a salad instead of sandwich and it ended up costing me six bucks! WTH? Err! There are more examples too...but I can't think of anything right now. Just busted my bubble that it cost more to get a darn salad then if I would have boughten a dumb sandwich. Oh and another thing...why in the heck is all the darn fruit so expensive? ERR!
Ok, done venting.. On a brighter note, I had an awesome salad instead of my lean cuisine. It consisted of lettuce, tomato, red onion, pepperchinis, pickles, olive oil and vinegar! I was amazed..I got soooo much food for only 245 calories..
(Ok done posting for today..promise!)
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AzGirly
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Posted: 21 March 2008 03:43 pm |
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Well let's start with the good things. I did my Friday weigh in and the scale came in at 214.8 but I don't count it until Monday. I'm sure most is water weight, which is expected in the beginning. So I'm making good progress. Yesterday I ended up having oatmeal, a Mexican Chicken Salad and a chicken melt with lemon cucumber on the side. I also had my daily tablespoon of chocolate icecream (I find this helps keep chocolate cravings down for now)
So this morning I was dying for something besides oatmeal and decided to go get a breakfast burrito from Jack in the Box. Uh...I think it was not the best choice, now that's I've read the nutritional information on it. 600 calories and 29 grams of fat!!!!... OMG! But even then, I was still successful because I only had the burrito (even picked out the piece of bacon) and passed on the fried hashbrowns and had water to drink instead of soda...so all in all, I can't beat myself up too much on it. I went there with the intention of only eating half of the burrito, but I was still hungry after eating half...so I finished it.
Just have to keep reminding myself that it's not about "all or nothing" Gotta keep going....right now I feel really bad and I'm beating myself up because I feel like I ruined my entire day because of eating that burrito....This is why my "healthy lifestyle" changes always fail....b/c I feel like the second I slip up and consume too many calories...then that's it...
So I think today I'm going to go take a 30 minute walk during lunch...as well as finish a salad I had split from yesterday's lunch. For dinner I was planning on making spaghetti, but now I'm rethinking it since I overdid my breakfast. I would like to find something with less calories so that I can still stay in my calorie range for today...maybe a salad from Subway? Tonight is movie night so I would rather grab something quick...
Please offer any support so that I will stop kicking myself in the arse for breakfast....uhhhh....like I said, this is why I fail every single flippin time. Please if anyone else is out there reading...HELP
Last edited on 21 March 2008 04:06 pm by AzGirly
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 21 March 2008 03:59 pm |
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Hey there, its just one little slip, just one, you have to take it one day and one meal at a time and get right back on track - don't look back. Take some deep breaths and get a perspective here.
Just be conservative the rest of the day. Salad is good, nice chicken breast, sliced turkey, light and fit yogurt - you don't have to starve just make sure you make nutritious choices. And yes, go for a walk, or get a workout, or just dance around to music for 45 mins. You can burn off mistakes, that's the GREAT thing about exercise.
And hon - if you read our journals too - every one of us has faced the same thing. Take a learning from this to make it a habit to think about the calorie content before you put it in your mouth. That was one of the things I learned in the past 3 months of working on it. I was shocked when I found out the calorie content of the muffins they have for breakfast at work (400-500 cals each!).
Have a better rest of the day, its fine, YOU are in control, you are! 
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zenobia
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Posted: 21 March 2008 04:05 pm |
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we all slip up from time to time. every one of us. the best thing to do is to learn from the mistake and move on. look at it this way- you can either be frustrated about one mornings worth of slipping up, or you can be frustrated about a whole days worth of slipping up. you can still salavage the day by not making it any worse. would you rather work off 600 cals or 6000 cals? (not saying you would eat that much, but you know what i mean). so you made a bad choice for breakfast. so waht? every moment is a new moment and you can just make it better as you go. make healthy choices the reast of the day so you can find comfort and pride in knowing that one little fall doesn't have to equal one big catastrophe. just don't let in snowball through the day. one mistake isn't an excuse to throw it all in. it's just not. if you keep yourself in check all day, you can go to bed at night knowing that you did the best you could and didn't make a situation like that worse. trust me, 600 cals won't completely break you if you don't let it. you are in control! and be proud of yourself that you didn't get the hashbrowns (fried potatoes are so my weakness!!!)!
take care and keep your chin up!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 21 March 2008 04:17 pm |
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AzGirly,
I sympathize with you, my dear I've done similar things to myself many times!
So, here's my suggestion..............if you want a breakfast burrito, make your own! I'm not familiar with the stores down there, but I get these "Flat-Out" wraps at Wal-Mart here in MN. There are several kinds, but I get the whole grain ones (around 90-100 cal-high fiber-low fat). Buy some Egg Beaters, and scramble up a serving or two (60 cal?).......you can also throw in whatever veggies you like, and fry up a bit, before you do the eggs. (I like onions, peppers, mushrooms-or buy the southwestern Egg Beaters-it has the veggies already in it). Put the egg mix in your warm whole grain wrap, sprinkle with a bit of low fat cheese or a slice of 2% cheese (50 cal.) and top with your favorite salsa. Whaaaaa Laaaaaaaa! You now have a breakfast burrito for under 225 calories, with very little fat!
And here's a meal I got when I was on the old version of WL4I..........cook up some 100% whole wheat spaghetti noodles, top with vegetarian spaghetti sauce, and sprinkle with a bit of low fat cheese! Lots less fat without the beef in there!
In order to survive this, you need to learn how to have the things you love, without denying yourself all the time. It's got to be a life style change, not a diet! Have the good substitutions and foods on hand. Don't be caught without them..........then you will be more likely to eat those bad foods. It's also easy to get into a rut, so find new, interesting recipes to try. Keep changing it up!
That being said, there are some things for which there are no substitutes..........or for which they are just not as good. So, change up as many favorite foods as you can, and then allow yourself a little bit of a favorite "bad food" once in a very little while. I tend to do that for the last meal of the day, on a Friday or Saturday night, so I won't be up long enough to get cravings and pig out on something else later! By morning I am ready to "be good" again...........
Hang in there! We are rooting for you
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AzGirly
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Posted: 21 March 2008 04:20 pm |
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Thank you soooooo much for the replies. Just having someone else telling me to keep pusing forward just makes me feel better. It's amazing how this weight loss journey really isn't all about the weight loss as it is getting through the emotions of it all.
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Maggie
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Posted: 21 March 2008 05:08 pm |
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Hi AzGirly
Thanks for stopping by my diary.
The web site is called about.com and then scroll down on the left to health and then under health is a heading walking. You may have to search a little but they have walking programs for beginners, tread mill walking and advanced.
Good luck on your walking and weight loss program.
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AzGirly
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Posted: 24 March 2008 03:16 pm |
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I'm totally not proud of my eating over the weekend...it was rather ridiculous. I didn't even practice my portion control. My weight in on Friday was 214ish and I gained 4 lbs back since then. (but I'm also keeping in mind the water weight issue) Easter weekend was full of food and fun...both of which I fully indulged on. Saturday morning consisted of a breakfast buffet, which was a big no no...but oh well...too late to dwell on it now. Even though I still lost weight this week...I still don't feel that it was successful because of my weekend over eating. This is something I just need to work on. Eventually it will get easier...but for now...we'll just have to take it slow I guess
So officially...
Weekly Weigh In: 218.0
Starting Weight 222.8/Weekly Loss: 1.6lb/Total Loss: 4.8lb
Edited: Went to Panda Express for lunch. Had chow mein and orange chicken with water for lunch.  Don't really know what's wrong with me. I'm being very rebellious with myself for some reason. I am mad at myself for not accepting myself for who I am right now....even at 218lbs...there is nothing wrong with me and I'm not ugly by any means...if I was to stay this weight for the rest of my life, does that mean that I am less then anyone else? Noo..but still....uhh....it's one of those days I guess, dang hormones lol....
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AzGirly
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Posted: 26 March 2008 05:47 pm |
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Nothing new to report, eating terrible. "Healthy" food just doesn't sound good or taste good to me right now AT ALL. I am maintaining my weight so far, so I guess that's good...and even though I'm eating a lot of fast food, I'm trying to pass on the side dishes (ex. if I get a hamburger, I pass on the fries) So whatever, we'll see what happens. I'm just not in the best of moods lately, not sure what's going on. I'm sure it has a lot to do with being sleep deprived. Another thing is it's already getting too warm here to go on walks during my lunch (I pretty much live in the desert!) so I'm getting irritated about that, and no I don't have time to do it before work, I already get up at the crack of dawn...and no I don't have time after work because I get home at 7pm as it is. I'm just sick of my schedule and not being able to spend as much time with my son as I would like to.
Oh well....I just have the blahs right now...so my only goal for right now is to just maintain my weight....
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 27 March 2008 12:22 am |
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Hi AZGirly, just wanted you to know I am checking on you and sending your support.
Are there exercise activities you can do together with your son? That way you get to spend quality time together AND both get good exercise. I don't have kids so I am not sure what works with a 4 year old boy...kicking a soccer ball back and forth?
You sound like you are just so busy and maybe the fast food is more appealing because it takes less energy to plan and purchase. Anyway, deep breath and just take one day at a time.
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Posted: 27 March 2008 12:22 am |
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AzGirly
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Posted: 27 March 2008 03:37 pm |
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Well I'm feeling a little better today. Gonna try to get myself back out of the fast food rut I'm in. This morning I had 1/2 a bagel with reduced fat cream cheese. Then I had my cup of oatmeal a couple hours later. (I had the bagel at like 4:30am) I think for lunch I'm going to do a lean cuisine (I think I still have two here at work) and for dinner I have absolutely no idea. I really need to hit the grocery store b/c my pantry and fridge are looking pretty bare!
My son's birthday is Saturday! So I'm really excited about that! We're having it at a really nice park that has a HUGE playground. I ordered a 6 foot sub sandwich!! That is huge!! But we're having a lot of people attend the party. My son is totally into Thomas the Train right now!! Guess what I found!!!! A cake with Thomas the Train, but guess what this cake does?!?!? It has a track ontop of the cake and the train will set ontop of the cake, on the track, and it will go around the cake!!! I think it's battery powered, but how freakin cool is that!?!? So I'm totally excited about it!!
So anyway, I want to get myself back on track and loose another couple of pounds before I have a petty party for myself again. LOL We'll see what happens.
P.S. Thanks Mollymoo
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AzGirly
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Posted: 31 March 2008 03:41 pm |
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So I haven't really been very successful with this yet. I know I can do it, because I did it before...I just have to work harder at it. I have to admit to myself that I have only been putting forth a half a** effort into weight loss, and I need to step up my game.
I ended up having to buy bigger pants for work. My old pants were a size 16 and were just too darn tight, so I ended up going up to a size 18. My son's birthday party was this past weekend and I actually wanted to have a lot of pictures with me and him together, but I couldn't believe how #%@&! the pictures turned out. I really can't believe how heavy I look in pictures. It's amazing, because I don't think that I'm as big as what shows up in the pictures...I really don't...maybe that's my problem. Maybe I need to look at those pictures more often to really remind myself of what I REALLY look like.
It is so hard to eat right for me right now. It's driving me crazy! My boyfriend and I share an incredible passion for food and we LOVE going to nice resteraunts to eat and we both share a love for desserts as well. But for me, it's sad because I feel like if I don't eat until my stomach is REALLY full, then I'm not happy... This is just something I really really really need to work on with myself to get past and I know that.....
What makes things worse....I work at a preventative healthcare company which specializes in weight loss and fitness education.....so everyone is a perfect image of great health. I'M THE HEAVIEST PERSON HERE! When I lost a lot of weight (went from 209 to 186) everyone's attitude towards me changed and everyone was so much nicer and friendlier to me. But when I started putting the weight back on, I noticed another change in people. They aren't as willing to come and start a conversation and don't really talk to me much anymore....Maybe it's just me. I know everyone has been really busy here, so maybe I'm just reading more into it then what there really is.
So with all that being said, I have now gained back 2lbs of the 4.8 I had lost. I however don't believe this is actually ALL fat gain though....(OK...this might be too much info, so be warned) but I haven't been able to go to the restroom for a couple days...(told you it was too much info) so I'm sure that has contributed so some of the weight gain.
So officially for this week:
Weekly Weigh In: 220.6
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 1 April 2008 03:12 am |
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Hey AZ Girly, if you feel like you haven't been giving it a sincere effort, then OK to acknowledge that and dig in harder. Really think about what you changes you and your boyfriend could make to eat healthier. For example, if you like to go out to eat, then order a salad first, (dressing on the side!) and only eat half of your entree.
Calorie counting has been a big help for me. After 3 months of practice I am getting very good at estimating portion sizes. And truth is, I am typically just as satisfied with a 4 or 5 ounce piece of steak as I would be with an 8 oz. steak. And if you eat veggies you can eat as much as you want, and then have small portion of rice or potato or bread. You definitely don't have to deprive yourself, I have yummy things all the time. But I have very moderated portions.
And cutting down on eating out has made a huge difference. Its very difficult to know what is in restaurant food - period, and chances are there are twice as many calories as you would guess. Can you try eating at home 1-2 more days per week to start? You can get some great quality foods at a cheaper price at a good store....and OMG girl, you have to cut out the desserts except on rare occasions, or just have a little taste; that is just nonsense and foolishness if you are seriously trying to lose. Sorry to be harsh there but maybe you need someone to say that to you.
Hugs  Mol
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zenobia
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Posted: 1 April 2008 01:23 pm |
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hey girly
molly gave you some great advise. she basically said everything i was going to, so i will just add this- drink LOTS of water and EAT SLOOOOOWLY. if you keep refilling your water glass with meals and put your fork down between each bite, you will get that "full" feeling you long for. and it will only take about half as much food. if you go out, see if there is a "lunch sized" portion option, or ask for a box right away and box up half your food before you start.
i know you got it in ya to kick it in to gear! go get 'em, girly!
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Javan
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Posted: 1 April 2008 03:16 pm |
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I just read this post for the first time and felt like I would 'weigh' in with a few words of advice, not that they have not already been said, but sometimes it is good to hear them again. That being said, here is what worked (and is still working) for me:
1. Start with little goals (try and lose 1-2 lbs a week, more will be a great bonus)
2. Read this site and learn about BMR, RMR, etc. Once you do, you will know why the "1000 cal a day" is a very bad thing.
3. Prepare yourself to spend more time and money in the grocery store: Read the labels, my advice on most foods is to look for the highest fiber, highest protein and lowest fat and sodium. And, let's face it, healthy foods are more expensive than #%@&!.
4. Do not buy any food that you can not put into your body and with a clear conscience: Stay away from the ice cream, cookies, chips, processed cheeses, etc.
5. Minimize the times per month that you eat out: This is tough for me, as lately it is 2-3 times a week. You have to just learn to make the healthiest choices from the menu.
6. Eat several times a day: I can not begin to explain how well this worked for me. I noticed that my "main meals" started to become smaller and smaller. How to do it? just take your required daily caloric intake and break it up. But remember to keep your last meal sort of small, so you wake up a bit hungry.
7. Drink lots of water! not the energy water, or gatorade, or any colored water for that fact, stick to real water, the clear stuff! It will help you immensely.
8. Exercise: Some is better than none! If you need to, buy a small pedometer and document your steps each day. Get out and walk. I have to park in a huge lot quite aways from the office, so I treat it as a mini workout and walk it as fast as I can.
9. Begin with the end in mind. Think smaller, lighter, happier. This should be the 1st thing to do, but you have to learn that this is not a short term fix. It is a lifestyle change. everytime you are faced with uncertainty, as "will this hurt or help me?"
10. Document it all. It is an option. Myself? I document everything I eat, every activity I do. It took a bit of time to set it up, but I know at the end of each day how many calories I consumed, how many I burned, and the nutrients I consumed. I try and only eat foods that I can find the nutritional data on .
There are more, always more thoughts on this as it is an ever evolving journey. Good luck, you can do it. Just stick to it!!!
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Posted: 4 April 2008 06:41 pm |
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| How's it been going?? Haven't heard from you in a while, just wanted to check on your page!
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AzGirly
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Posted: 4 April 2008 07:22 pm |
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Thanks so much for checking in GolfBrew!! I've just been "lurking" since the last post. I have been reading journals and stuff, but not really posting much on mine.
Things are going really good so far. I weighed myself this morning and the scale said 215. (5lb loss) I know that seems like a lot of weight loss in a short amount of time...but I'm not worried about it because my official weigh in isn't until Monday and I'm sure there will be some fluctuation between now and then.
I'm having A REALLY REALLY REALLY hard time kicking my food cravings. It's really bad. Like I said, this is worse then when I quit smoking cigerrattes. It's just ridiculous. Like right now, instead of eating my healthy lunch, I'm seriosly craving Panda Express. (my meal there is a good 1,000 calories) It's so hard, this is truly an addiction. I am absolutey emberrased to think that I'm actually ADDICTED to food. It's pathetic and it makes me feel really dumb.
On a good note, I have started to buy lots of fruit! I have tried to get myself to eat a strawberry or two instead of junk when I'm at home and have a craving. I just wish they weren't to tart! It has worked so far which is great.
I have incorporated more salads in to meals, which is so much better for you. For example, I made tacos the other night for dinner. Instead of eating taco shells or tortillas, we just had taco salads which consisted of ground turkey (instead of beef). onion, lettuce, motzarella, and reduced fat sour cream. Tonight I plan on cooking up a sirloin steak and doing the same type of thing with it, except adding in some pico de galla.
Yesterday we took my son to Chucke-Cheese for his birthday and I had some pizza (probably totaled 3 slices..they were small) and then took him to ColdStone Icecream for a special treat after. I got a chocolate dream icream in a waffle cone, but only ate half of it....that was pretty good for me, and I was just as satisfied with only half.
The weekends are very hard for me, so we'll see how I do. Sometimes I feel so out of control on the weekends, I just need to keep taking baby steps and evenutally I'll get where I want to be.
Another update will come on Monday
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AzGirly
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Posted: 7 April 2008 03:25 pm |
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So my weekend went OK I guess. I still overate, and didn't make the best food choices that I could have. I have a feeling that my weekends are going to be my biggest struggle because (1) I have more time with my boyfriend who isn't watching what he eats (2) Weekends have always been deemed 'eat out' days in the past (3) My cravings get stronger on these days and I feel less empowered to overcome them. So with all that being said, Friday night we ended up going to have Mexican food. I got the Carnitas combo and SHARED with my son...and we SHARED the desert (all three of us: BF and I and my son) Saturday I skipped breakfast (didn't have time) and ended up having a salad for lunch from Subway and then we ended up going to a BBQ that night. I munched and snacked all day long inbetween...I just couldn't stop for some reason. Sunday we had a nice breakfast (eggs, bacon, potato, beans) then had a late lunch and went to our favorite BBQ resteraunt and I had a BBQ sandwich and FFs. Then dinner was pancakes and eggs (I made breakfast for dinner, I was in the mood for breakfast food)
So now that I'm looking back I see where I slipped up and where I did good. It's just something that I'm going to have to work on...that's what it really comes down to. I have been keeping track of my calories but stopped over the weekend. I don't know why...perhaps because I didn't want to mess with it.
So here is to a new week! I feel good...I'm down on the scale...not noticing any physical difference yet with the 6lb loss...but I'm sure it's too early to SEE the difference.
So here it is....
Weekly Weigh In: 216.6
Starting Weight 222.8/Weekly Loss: 4b/Total Loss: 6.2lb
Last edited on 7 April 2008 03:27 pm by AzGirly
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zenobia
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Posted: 7 April 2008 04:21 pm |
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hey azgirly!
you know, it truely is about all of the little changes. each little change you make adds up to big change. what's neat about it is that you don't even really realize that you are making such of a big impact because the steps are small. i think you are doing great and you just have to keep doing it. make some small change every week, adding to the changes you have already made, and suddenly you will be living and eating in a while new way without noticing it much. keep it up, girly! you should be proud of what you accomplished so far!
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