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b fatnomore
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Posted: 30 March 2008 02:03 am |
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Hi Beth,
I've just been reading your thread. Wow! You are so dedicated to getting healthy and are doing great!
I totally relate to the afternooon cravings you wrote about earlier. It's something I'm working on too.
You are doing so much. Your love and support for your Hubby is wonderful!
Keep up the great work. And you are a beautiful person, your body just has to catch up!
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Beth
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Posted: 30 March 2008 12:51 pm |
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179.8 due to my Chinese cooking
MM, J is a sly one. I found a fast food french fries sack in the outside trash where I throw the junk mail. He's sneaky. He's still going to rehab and grumbling he could be doing it at home...Right...
Bfat-thanks for stopping by. I gotta go and read your diary. You may be another twin sister! That's ok - we'll all just march to our little glory together!
Yesterday was ok. I cooked fried rice and probably got too much sodium. At least my bounces are below 180. Back still aches. I guess I'll still go to the Dr. Hubby says rehab is a series of shocks not exercises and his shocks didn't do any good. I don't know if I want to go and get shocked.
The highlight of my weekend has been to get back into a favorite white blouse. I haven't been able to wear it in about two years and it fits again. Wonderful. Marvelous. My feet are getting smaller and cute again. I've been researching how to decorate flip flops. I love the things. Got a pair of clear ones (like clear jellies) with rhinestones the other day. I think they are cute. I want to do a pair with ribbon trim and a monogram button. There's nothing like a cute pair of flip flops and bright red toenails. In the south we are into fru fru big time. Fru fru and big hair!
Life is good and the best is yet to come.
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Beth
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Posted: 31 March 2008 03:28 am |
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Boy what a day! It started as my yearly search for the water faucet in front. I know there is one out there somewhere. I remember seeing it! We bought the house from my dad before he died and didn't get to ask him some very important quesitons before he left us. Like where is that water faucet out front. Every year I go out there and dig around and poke around and I haven't found it in 6 years. Geez. I feel like holding a little seance to ask him if he'd point me in the right direction for that faucet. I swear it's out there somewhere!
What I did unearth underneath piles of leaves was a huge circular daylilly bed. I am amazed. They haven't bloomed yet. I'm quite sure they are daylillies. The azaleas have bloomed and they are beautiful. I cut limbs and straggly looking little trees and took two truckloads to the ravine. Now I am hurting. I just start having so much fun playing in the yard and I don't stop. I've finally taken this place as my own. Up until this year, it was just a temporary thing. Now that we've decided to stay, I'm discovering the personality of the house and of the land. I suppose I am on an adventure of sorts.
MM, it was about 79 degrees here today. Spring is here and I'm afraid it will suddenly be gone in about two weeks. Our winter was so warm, we didn't even light the wood burning heater. We hardly even wore coats. I can't imagine it being 40 degrees where you live. Seems so far away...
Went to church and to Wendy's after church. Got my heart right for a moment or two and then went and sinned at the Wendy's. Southwestern Salad. Maybe all that yard work will help.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 1 April 2008 03:33 am |
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Hey, at least it was a salad. You could have had a cheeseburger.
I love to hear about you settling into the house and making it your own. We will have been in our house 10 years as of 5/1 and I still haven't changed some things that I really should. Sometimes I like the traces of the people who used to live here. Not spririts or anything like that, but interesting reminders. For example, there was a plumber who owned the house at one point. In the garage he has these wooden storage cubbies labelled "tin straps" and 3/8" and its just so unique. There are also 2 photos hanging in the basement of Yosemite park with the geysers going off...someone liked that enough to hang it up, and its not bothering ME any. I really do like those things for some reason, I also like talking to the older neighbors and hearing about people who used to live in the neighborhood. Makes me feel more connected somehow.
Anyway that was longer than I meant to post but enjoy getting to be one with your house and land and make it your own. I hope you find your faucet!
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b fatnomore
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Posted: 1 April 2008 04:20 am |
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Hi Beth!
Great stuff. I feel like I'm eaves dropping if I don't at least say hi!!
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Beth
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Posted: 2 April 2008 01:44 am |
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178.8 +/-
I don't believe it. Mother nature has stopped by for a visit. Geez...I thought I was through with this stuff. Hubby told me Sunday it was PMS Sunday and I told him he was nuts. Anyway, I don't feel too great. I wonder if I am throwing back the clock so far as to be "fertile" again. Not what I want to accomplish. The good news is maybe I don't have Alzheimer's. I kept forgetting everything the past few days. Things like the names of foods. Friday night I called Joe by my ex husband's name. I covered that one up really quickly so hopefully no one noticed but me. Maybe it was those dormant hormones springing back into action.  I have also really been craving chocolate. The grand-kids lied and said they'd found all their eggs we'd hidden on Easter. I worked in the yard and kept finding eggs with M&M's in them. Boy were they good! Did I share with Joe? No! 
I made Dr. F's anti cancer soup. I did truly mess up every inch of my kitchen. It made a HUGE pot of soup. You need a whole day to make it, juice the carrots, blend it, cool it, etc. I ate too much, saved some, and put eight 16 oz. containers in the freezer. I like it ok, except I added salt and allspice. The calories get on up there due to the high carrot content and the cup of ground cashews. Maybe next time I won't add the cashews. That should cut back on the calories. This soup contains everything to make going to the office a living nightmare-onions, collards,zucchini,15 kinds of beans, carrot juice. I don't see how Old Dr. F eats this stuff every day and then tends to patients. Maybe you get used to the gastric nightmare over time. I've got to read the book to see what he suggests you do about having onion breath and dealing with the public.
I ate two bowls of the soup and couldn't stay full. I guess I need some protein every day going ahead. I lost it and ate 3 Quaker granola bars @ 100 calories each. I should have eaten some meat instead. Oh well. I think I went over my calories by about 100 today. Will do better tomorrow. Maybe I'll be able to think clearly again soon.
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Theresa
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Posted: 2 April 2008 07:45 am |
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You are doing so well with the weight loss, I should really take alesson from you!  
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Hisgal
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Posted: 2 April 2008 02:51 pm |
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Beth wrote:
You know MM's hubby is having his surgery tomorrow. We need to remember them in our prayers!
Beth, yeah I remembered  I started praying earlier in the week already, intensified the prayers a bit yesterday, and have been continuing this morning  May they both walk in His Son-shine!
Don't ya just gotta love  those hormones??? I've sure had my fill of them! I just about took off my hubby's head on Saturday He walked in the house, right after I'd swept the kitchen floor, and deposited piles of dirt on the floor and the rugs I'd just shook out! You'd think he'd just murdered the Pastor..........I flayed him up and down! Over a little dirt! I knew then what was coming in a day or so. Of course, when I grabbed that peppermint pattie (choc.) and the cashews (salt) I knew for sure! I keep telling my hubs that I know God is male, if He's any gender......or he'd give some of these wonderful symptoms to the men!
I know what you mean about trying to find words! I started about 3 years ago, and it worried me alot. I asked my Dr. about it at a check-up.........he asked if I knew that I was forgetting things, or did someone else tell me I was...........being I knew it alright, he said not to worry, that wasn't Alzheimer's! But the older ladies in the office all chuckle at me, whenever I'm searching for a common word..........because they've all gone through it with menopause.
Sure wish there was a magic pill to get our hubs to eat their veggies and  fruit! Mine does OK with salads (romaine-raw veggies) but cooked veggies are still a struggle. I've really cut him back on meat, so he's starting to eat more veggies to fill up. But, like I posted elsewhere........when he had the choice on Sunday, he took a skewer of ALL MEAT! The rest of his plate had a small scoop of a green salad, then he filled up on the rice side dish and dessert (although he took the angel food cake and fresh berries instead of the almond pound cake and rasp sauce). He's making baby steps in the right direction I'd like him to make huge strides..........but I better not push my luck 
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b fatnomore
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Posted: 3 April 2008 12:43 am |
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I don't think I'm done with my "personal summers" or power surges as my husband calls them - but I could live without that lost brain feeling! :>)
My moods still get intense at times too and my husband is smart enough to lay low or say "yes dear".
I suppose as my Dad says about stressful things "this to shall pass".
Have a great night!
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Beth
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Posted: 3 April 2008 02:27 pm |
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176.8 - right at -20lbs
I am amazed at how much better I look and feel after -20 lbs. It makes it easier to keep going with my program. Actually the program is becoming a habit - I guess it has become a lifestyle change. I can fit in my clothes again. I thought my new couch was too small, but guess what! Beth was too large. Now I can lay down on my couch and not hang off the edge. I've thrown out the CPAP, so I sleep soooo much better. Life is just better. Hubby is getting better, too. I am in charge of meals, so he is also losing weight. He's starting to see the difference in his waistline, so he is getting motivated, too. We are going to look at a new in-home gym Friday. Yes, our lives are changing.
I am reading Eat to Live. I keep falling asleep when I get still to read, but tonight I hope to get to the part about the plan vs the benefits of the plan. My diet has been horrific my entire life until recently. It's a miracle I haven't had cancer or heart disease already. I am genetically in line for diabetes. I guess I've got some good genes from my 89 year old grandmother who just keeps going and going like the Energizer Bunny. She is getting ready to drive herself to Jackson from Austin, TX. She gets around, works in the yard, etc. I really can't keep up with her. She is an inspiration.
I made Dr. F's anti-cancer soup earlier in the week and I've been eating it at lunch. I don't know what's happened, but something has happened and I'm losing weight again. I know I've had a time of the month and that might account for some change. I am really intrigued by the ETL philosophy and plan to learn more and apply what I've learned. If I can life a happy life to a ripe old age and be active, I'll be happy to eat more fruits and veggies to get there.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 3 April 2008 03:40 pm |
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Beth, I am really so happy to read your thread and see all the benefits you are feeling from your 20-lb loss. Congratulations!!   It is so motivating when you feel better and your clothes fit - and no more CPAP machine. And so glad to read that Joe s is coming along too!
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Beth
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Posted: 7 April 2008 03:08 pm |
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173-175? Scale keeps changing
It has been an interesting few days. We were in a store Friday and a tornado hit and sucked out the skylights. We left as soon as they would let us out and drove quickly home to check on the puppies. Everything was ok, debris and junk, but ok. Then the power went out. We've spent the last 3 days in our camper running the generators. I'm surely glad we purchased them after Katrina. I had said I wanted to secure "pod" to live in if it became necessary. Katrina taught me well. We can even travel with our little pod if we need to escape. We'll be ok through most anything if the water stays on and nothing demolishes the trailer. It was still stressful thinking the power would come on at any minute as we were dragging more and more out into the trailer. We finally got our power back around 1 am this morning. How nice!
Joe made some hideous food choices-Krystal burgers and french fries (poison.) I ate several french fries and some rice crispy treats and realized I was stress eating and quit. I did stress eat some, but it was brown rice instead of M&M's. I also kept eating my anti-cancer soup, fruit and veggies. That is quite a switch from the old me. In the past, I would have bought a triple chocolate cake and eaten it all with one hand while stuffing M&M's with the other. I've seen a break-through in my behavior. I guess the life-style changes have become habits. Watching Joe start on the Krystals and realizing I was eating french fries made me realize just how much we stress eat (medicate with food.)
The good news is we purchased a really nice weight machine with cables. I had one in an earlier life and loved it. Lost it in the divorce. Sears is supposed to deliver it today and we have to put it together. That should be interesting. Joe can read directions and I am totally inept at reading directions. We always fight like two children when we start doing this stuff because he starts barking commands and I get P.O.'d and bark back. Maybe we'll be sweet this time...
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 8 April 2008 12:40 am |
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Wow Beth, just getting caught up on diaries here and I see 173-175!! Hooyaa girl you go!! You are doing so well. And now a weight machine...who would have guessed 3 months ago? You rock, keep it up!
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b fatnomore
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Posted: 8 April 2008 01:59 am |
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Hi Beth -
Keep going with the new habits! Good luck with the machine! ''
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Beth
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Posted: 9 April 2008 12:41 am |
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174.8 today
Here's proof that healthy habits work and Dr. Fuhrman's ETL concepts work. I had blood work done last week. My doctor is really happy with my numbers. I start physical therapy for my back on Friday. Hopefully I will be able to get on a steady exercise program and my slightly elevated blood pressure and the triglycerides will come on down and the HDL will go up a little more. My highest weight was 206 in May of 07. Today I weigh appx. 175. Goal is 120. I will be at around 140 and extremely pleased for my birthday in September. I should be at 120 and downright arrogant by next January! Who says 55 is old!!!! I am turning back the clock one day at a time.
Sept. 21, 07 April 1, 08
Triglycerides 190 165 Need less than 150
Cholesterol 198 158
LDL 117 79
HDL 43 46 Optimum is 60+
Liver SGPT High Normal
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b fatnomore
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Posted: 9 April 2008 01:12 am |
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WAY TO GO!!!!!!!
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Theresa
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Posted: 9 April 2008 08:44 am |
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You turn that clock back! Soon the 30 year old will be jealous of that body
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 9 April 2008 05:03 pm |
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| Oh Beth, I am so excited to see those results. You must feel SO GOOD about yourself. I sure hope the PT helps your back and sets you up to continue accomplishing all your goals without all the pain!
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Beth
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Posted: 9 April 2008 09:17 pm |
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Thanks so much Bfat, Theresa, and MM.
I haven't been a very nice wife today. I got aggrivated at hubby for not mail ordering his prescriptions. I paid two $35 copays at the pharmacy. That was for only two scripts. Two of too many scripts for too many preventable health issues. Two scripts that are dangerious in their own right.
I am amazed at what I'm learning from Eat to Live regarding aging, heart disease prevention and cancer prevention. I think the fellow may be right about prevention. Using myself as my guinea pig, I'm watching myself antiage before my very eyes. It's not my imagination. My blood numbers are better, too. I guess I'm just frustrated my hubby doesn't share my enthusiasm. I don't want to lose him. Oh well, gotta let it go. Each person is responsible for his or her own life (or death.) I'm not going to stop my journey.
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Beth
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Posted: 11 April 2008 02:50 pm |
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173.2 BP 121/76
Well, rats. I had this huge, long post and hit the wrong button and it vanished. Anyway, things are good. I guess I organized a lot of things in my head as I was writing the vanishing post.
I do want to note that my blood pressure is dead on normal after I quit the Afrin nose spray. Seems there are a lot of us Afrin addicts out here. I do think my allergies are better and wonder if it could be part of the ETL miracle. I've been addicted to Afrin for a long time and have tried to get off many times, but the congestion wouldn't go away. I've been breathing clearly for about a week now. I'm not going to complain!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 11 April 2008 08:26 pm |
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First, let me just say you are doing incredibly well and when I look back on your journey so far it is really satisfying and inspiring to see the changes you've made - no CPAP, greatly improved bloodwork, and now no Afrin and normal BP. You are doing fabulously Beth!
And about this: Beth wrote:
I haven't been a very nice wife today. I got aggrivated at hubby for not mail ordering his prescriptions. I paid two $35 copays at the pharmacy. That was for only two scripts. Two of too many scripts for too many preventable health issues. Two scripts that are dangerious in their own right.
... I guess I'm just frustrated my hubby doesn't share my enthusiasm. I don't want to lose him. Oh well, gotta let it go. Each person is responsible for his or her own life (or death.) I'm not going to stop my journey.
It's tough to have the energy and commitment for TWO people for sure, and you are right Joe (and L) are both responsible for themselves. I wish they'd grasp that their lifestyle is impacting others beyond themselves. But on the bright side you have remarked on some changes along the way, I hope he's still kept off the weight he did lose. As you know from your own journey, something inside you has to 'click' to make a real change; one has to be ready, it has to be your time. I am hoping that it clicks for the guys before it is too late.
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Beth
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Posted: 12 April 2008 01:34 am |
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Sinned and ate chinese, but not fried chinese.
Today has been a good day. Joe put the weight machine together. I think we'll make good use of it.
I'll do a month of PT for my back. They showed me some stretches to do before and after walking on the treadmill. I did them and the back and legs feel better tonight. Seems my front muscles are loose and my back muscles are tight. Makes for an off balance person. He also said my shoulders were beginning to round. Meaning I'm stooping over like an old lady.
The good news is in a month I should be on the way to being much better. PT man said they could definitely help me. I asked about inversion and they said I could walk in their underwater treadmill. I told them no way was I going to wear a bathing suit to PT or walk in my clothes in the water. We talked and I learned it would be beneficial to my back to get in my pool and just float around on my $1 noodle. Apparently hanging on a noodle is about the same as being on an inversion table. How nice and cheap and low tech!
Somehow the conversation turned to my having no butt. PT man said he'd help me work on my glutes so I'd have some padding on the butt. (It is becoming a problem that I have no butt. Since I've lost weight, I'm beginning to hit the bones when I sit down.) It's genetic. My mother, my grandmother, and I have flat rear ends. If only we could turn our fat stomachs around where the butt belongs, we'd be ok. Boy will they be surprised the next time we meet and I have a nice round butt and a nice flat stomach! It will truly be a miracle.
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Beth
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Posted: 13 April 2008 10:47 am |
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174.8
As MM says, gluttony. I let gluttony take over yesterday. Between chinese Friday night and catfish yesterday, I am up one pound. I'm sure the sodium has been out of sight, not to mention the grease in the fish. No wonder my stomach and throat feel squeemish this morning.
I'll be back on the program today. I don't like how this feels! Gotta have a tums!
The good news is I've stretched and walked two days straight. Today I'll study the weight machine exercises. It wasn't a good night. Back and legs bothered me all night. I'm so out of shape, it's pitiful. I plan to persevere and get back in shape. It really is true that you either use it or lose it. Right now I'm in pain trying to find it. We also had to move all the plants in the garage last night, so I guess I aggrivated something picking up heavy plants. I can't believe it was in the low 30's last night. It's also supposed to be cold tonight.
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Beth
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Posted: 14 April 2008 01:48 pm |
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174.8
I want to take note of what eating the wrong foods and eating out does for me. I have lost a week of effort in my weight loss program due to my gluttony. Well, not so much gluttony as eating the wrong things. It really is necessary for me to eat at home to stay on track. I'm not ready for chinese and fried catfish. Actually, I'll never be ready. I am a short person and I can't eat many calories and not gain weight. That is just the way it is.
I'm going to the health food store today to search for some protein powder and for some Kira St. John's Wort. I've been really depressed since Saturday. I think it's hormones. I thought I was past all that. My mother thinks the weight may have stifled my cycles and now that I've lost some weight they may be coming back. How nice. I guess I'll have "the Curse" until I'm 90. I've been dealing with this since I was 10.
The good news is I've been able to walk for three days in a row and I worked my upper body on the weight machine yesterday. Feels good to be heading off the flabbies. My back and legs have ached a lot, but they do anyway. Maybe today at PT I'll learn more about lower body exercises for my condition. They told me last week I might stir up some aches at first, so I guess I'll just try to work through it. I wonder if I'll ever sleep all night again. I'm sure part of that is from sleeping in shifts waiting for Joe to get home from work. Now that he's on days again, maybe things will level out.
I am happy that hubby and I are looking kind of pitiful in our "hanging" clothes these days. Hubby's little jeans look like they may just fall off at any moment. I love it! His glucose numbers are looking really good this week. He got off the night shift, so we're trying to rearrange our lives again. I'm trying to have dinner ready around 5:00 when I go nuts from hunger. He came right in yesterday and did his walking on the treadmill. I've spent a lot of time trying to tell him how much I love him and how I want him to be with me until I take my last breath. I think he's finally realized he can affect his health now that he is seeing some positive changes. He's even eating oatmeal for breakfast every morning. We didn't really feel like we could afford the weight machine right now, but my thinking was that money would just be a drop in the bucket compared to a hospital visit. Our copay on the heart cath was almost double the weight machine cost. I think it really is true that you use it or lose it.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 April 2008 01:44 am |
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Darn hormones! Blech. I hope your blues go away fast. I was thrilled to read about J's accomplishments too Beth. Thanks for posting. I hope he doesn't mind.
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Beth
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Posted: 15 April 2008 12:44 pm |
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173.6
Thanks, MM. The blues are better. If I can only stop when they hit and realize it's only temporary. There is usually a sunny day around the corner.
Went to PT again yesterday. Those folks worked my butt off. Forget easing me into a weight program gently. The didn't coddle me, so I guess I don't have to coddle me. I am promised they will get me well on my way to being in shape in a month. The worst thing was my elbow joints aching from one machine. I told my "coach" I had lost 30 pounds and had another 50 to go. He said he couldn't see how I could stand to lose 50 lbs. and asked where would it come from, my hair? I have long, thick, black big hair. I just laughed at him and told him he was trying to butter me up since he was torturing me. I am sore today and was achy last night. I'll be glad when the aches are gone, if they are ever gone.
Joe had been emailing a friend for about a month and the emails were returned. He came in last night and said the reason they were returned was the friend had died Sunday. Geez. This man was my age and had his first heart attack when he was in his mid thirties. By the time he was forty, he was disabled and had hip surgery and walked with a cane. Like Joe said, he never saw him do anything healthy, not with his diet, not with his exercise, not with his life, period. His wife died about ten years ago and it's almost as if he's been on a suicide mission ever since she died. Well, even before she died. They were both very overweight, sedentary, and ate very rich, fattening food all the time. The reason I know is his wife used to make all these rich desserts and bring them to my dad. He loved it. I always felt a little guilty I didn't make all those desserts and rich foods for everyone. Ironically, I am lucky enough to still be here and all three of them are gone. I am certainly not here because of my own healthy living up to this point. From here on out, I am committed to healthy living in hopes it will make living long and enjoyable. I've always felt like life itself was like rolling the dice. In my old age I'm learning you can stack the deck just a little bit! I know I surely do feel better today than I've felt in years and years.
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Beth
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Posted: 17 April 2008 01:14 pm |
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174.4
Seems like I am going backwards. I have been hungry and wanting to eat every hour since I started PT. I am thinking I need to have a little protein throughout the day since I am working out now. I was so hungry yesterday that I stopped and got apples (healthy) and a Hershey Bar (poison) on the way home from PT. I grazed all afternoon and finally cooked some chicken on the grill. After I ate a piece of chicken, I was fine until this morning when it was time to eat again. This is why I'm assuming I may need to spread protein throughout the day. I also need to get back to drinking all the water. I stopped doing that last week.
I bought some vanilla protein powder so I can add it to my smoothies when I don't feel like cooking. I am ready to get back on track. I like waking up and weighing and seeing a loss, not a gain. Hopefully this is temporary. I can't see where I've consumed enough calories to actually be gaining. Too, my living schedule has changed since Joe is now working days, which I love. We're eating our main meal at night. Gotta keep my back end moving and have dinner ready early. We didn't eat until around 7:30 last night.
Gotta get a grip!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 17 April 2008 01:39 pm |
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Beth,
Hang in there! You know that the scale fluctuates day to day, so don't get too worried about it. You are probably right about the protein..........it does help to keep you satisfied longer...........so do high fiber foods. If I munch on a small bag of mini carrots at my desk, late in the afternoon, I sometimes still feel full at dinner time.
When I make my smoothies, I add about a cup or so of frozen mixed fruit, in the blender..........it's like a cold, thick malt!  Or freeze some bananas, and add pineapple......there are many good combinations that are very tasty.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 April 2008 08:38 pm |
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Hisgal wrote: Beth,
Hang in there! You know that the scale fluctuates day to day, so don't get too worried about it.
Yeah, exactly. Oh dear Beth don't let yourself get distracted about minor fluctuations, that's the hormones talking. Goodness between Saturday and Monday with all the salt I had weigh ins anywhere from 161.5 to 164, and saw it hit 160.5 today which I know isn't "real". Don't sweat it.
I am totally on board with the protein satisfying your appetite, I just forgot it as my habits are screwed up right now. If I have an egg and a piece of toast for brekkie I last a heck of a lot longer than if I have a half a big bagel with light cream cheese. I've never tried protein powder but it sounds like a great idea - get the protein without the cals or fat. I must say, think I will look into that myself! Please let us know how it works.
ETA: You were asking if I starve to death when I exercise a lot. No, I can't say that I do. But I often work out in the evening. And more likely than not, I am tired when I get home from work. So I will have dinner first with L, digest for an hour at least, then have my workout late. I don't get hungry that way either, I take a shower, read for a while and go to bed.
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Beth
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Posted: 18 April 2008 09:34 pm |
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Thanks, Hisgal and MM. I don't even know what I weigh today. I forgot to weigh. I don't think I'm losing anything this week because I feel puffy.
I tried the protein shake and it did help yesterday. I used frozen strawberries and a banana and the powder and a little water. It made so much, I ate the last of it today. I also put spinach in it. You can't taste it, it is just a little brownish instead of pink. I got 100% Gold Standard Whey, Vanilla Ice Cream Flavor, 2#. That should last the rest of our natural lives.
I was really hurting yesterday, so I didn't walk or work out. Went back to PT today and everything is ok. I'm a lot more flexible since I've been stretching. It is only 4:30 and I started grazing at 3:00 today and ate all my leftover calories for the day. How brilliant of me. That'll teach me to hang around in the kitchen. Oh well, it's raining a lot here today. I just went up and walked for 30 minutes. I don't guess I'll eat any more today. Maybe this little slump will go away soon.
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Beth
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Posted: 19 April 2008 11:46 am |
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173.something
Went to my 12 step meeting last night and really should have stayed home. Joe and I got there and set up the meeting and started eating their chocolate candy right away. I was too tired to go and after I'd eaten all that candy, I realized I went to that meeting because I knew I could get some Hershey's Milk Chocolate. It was total self deception. Am I not one manipulative woman? I think I ate about 6 or 7 of those little mini bars. I don't do sugar particularly well and I get like a mean kid. On the way home I was fussing at Joe about him wanting a hamburger or pizza and he said, "Oh no, you ate sugar. Will you please go to sleep as soon as we get home?" We both laughed and I did go to sleep when I got home. It is funny, but it is also sad. I am a chocoholic, sugaraholic, and breadaholic. I will stay away from the stuff this week. I am just thinking as I write, thank the Lord I'm not an alcoholic, too. I'll try to be even more compassionate in dealing with the "alkies" in my life when I can't even pass up a Hershey Bar.
I guess if I ever get over the wild munchies from exercising I'll be ok. Protein may help, but it was not the cure yesterday. I don't know the answer, maybe self restraint. Maybe my bod will take care of it in time. Geezie weezie.
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Nir
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Posted: 20 April 2008 01:31 pm |
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Beth wrote: Went to my 12 step meeting last night .. I realized I went to that meeting because I knew I could get some Hershey's Milk Chocolate.
I'm just back from a Sunday morning AA meeting. When I add a splash of milk to my decaff coffee I have to stare at chocolate digestive biscuits and an assortment of small form-factor candy bars (the ones that are roughly 20g and 100 calories each). Not long ago I would have taken one to weigh and eat, but right now I'm in a different place. At least the treats are mostly left in the kitchen. How would they feel if I brought vodka along?
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Theresa
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Posted: 21 April 2008 09:42 am |
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Beth wrote: "Oh no, you ate sugar. Will you please go to sleep as soon as we get home?" We both laughed and I did go to sleep when I got home. It is funny, but it is also sad. I am a chocoholic, sugaraholic, and breadaholic.
I know exactly how you feel. Now that you mention it I also have realised that I get moody with those things, although it also could be because we are mad at ourselves for eating them. 
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Beth
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Posted: 21 April 2008 12:08 pm |
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143.something and going nowhere for two weeks
Theresa, I have a definite reaction to sugar and to yeast and it is not good. I just need to stay away from these things if I can. Sometimes I'm able to just say no and then sometimes I cave. It frustrates me. I know I am addicted.
Nir, things got worse. Seems like everywhere I went I was bombarded with poor food choices. At church, they'd had Men's Breakfast and left all this fattening leftover food out to share-eggs, sausage, sweet rolls, biscuits, you name it. Our church men are not jocks. Most of them are either full-blown heart patients or heart patients in-process. Denial is so alive and well.
I managed to avoid the church food and went to Sam's Wholesale and sampled too much of their frozen food delights. Finally left Sam's and went to the health food store to get seeds to sprout and ended up buying a loaf of "healthy" bread. Right... Ate 1/4 of the bread going down the road and got home and ground it up in the garbage disposer to get rid of it. I don't know the moral of this story. How about I don't want to participate and I can't figure out how to stop. Maybe I should consider taking food with me everywhere I go so when I get hungry I won't be tempted. Maybe I should just stay at home.
One positive note, I did make my anti-cancer soup. It is a pain to make but worth it. I need a bigger pot to hold all those veggies. Also, if you are reading this, the top of the blender is not really sealed. Hot food will shoot right out the top and burn you. I learned yesterday to either let the stuff cool and then grind or put a cloth over the top to avoid getting burned.
Live and learn. Live and learn.
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Nir
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Posted: 21 April 2008 01:40 pm |
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With time I get better at ignoring foods which are always on offer everwhere. I take my own foods with me if I expect I'll get hungry (for example when I went to college, or when I travel to my London hospital appointments).
I'm not as adventurous in the kitchen so wouldn't burn myself with soup any time soon (but I do easier things like smoothies)
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Beth
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Posted: 22 April 2008 02:25 pm |
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174.4
Will try to get off the chocolate I've been eating and back into my regular program. I just need to eat at home and take my own food with me if I'm going to be gone at a mealtime or even if I think I might get hungry. Sounds like a good plan in my head.
I don't know if it's the hormones or what, but I got all depressed and anxious again yesterday and finally decided to give myself permission to stop dealing with depression and anxiety.  I went to see my sweet doctor and assured him I wasn't hearing "the voices" or anything and got put on an antidepressant and something for a little while for anxiety until the antidepressant kicks in. I told him I wanted generic whatever and something not shown to cause weight gain, so we agreed on Wellbutrin. I slept like a baby last night for the first time in forever. Joe said Sissy barked all night. I never heard her bark. I do remember my pug getting up next to my head one time and I just put a pillow on her and used her for an additional pillow. I didn't want to take pills, but heck , if that's what it takes, ok. I'll just do it through prayer and medication vs prayer and meditation. (We do what we have to do.)
I read something yesterday about eating the same thing every day for lunch to make one meal of the day a thoughtless/guiltless/no stress meal. I'm going to try that. My profile says I need more veggies so it will be Dr. F's anti-cancer soup and salad. I guess I'll stick with oatmeal for breakfast, too. That's two stressless meals.
I seem to be well on the way with the exercise plan. They didn't coddle me at PT, just threw me out there to work my butt off. I guess I won't fall apart if something aches a little bit. Won't be long until I can get into the pool and not freeze to death. Hubby says I sure do look like I'm losing a lot of weight. I guess it's inches from the exercise because the scales haven't budged.
I read an interesting article while waiting on the doctor. There's this 75 year old man in Malibu, Mr. Wiseman, who is a health nut and workout nut. He's friends with lots of the stars, etc., and some of the braver ones gather in one wing of his house to work out. This guy doesn't like to be around old people because he says they're boring. His wife or girlfriend is 52. Anyway, John McEnroe is one of his workout buds. These guys do ultra strenuous workouts that make normal folks vomit projectile style. Then they go out and do things like mountain bike ride. The old guy won't even take water on his bike rides because he says it weighs him down by 2 lbs. McEnroe said he'll look over and see white foam coming out the corners of Wiseman's mouth while they're riding. He said it would make some folks queasy to see it, but that he'd gotten used to it. I thought this was a wonderful, hilarious article. This old coot is living large and the youngsters can barely keep up with him! We can all do that if we make the effort.
I shall persevere.
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Beth
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Posted: 23 April 2008 03:02 am |
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It is the end of the day and parts of it got frustrating. I had this wonderful massage this morning and felt all relaxed and at peace with the world. Then I went to the bank ATM for some $ and it ate my money! I had this intense session with the bank and had to file a claim to get my money back and it took too long. I am switching banks since they are so downsized they can't read the transactions in the ATM Some other company handles their ATM's. I was hacked, hacked, hacked. They have their little policy you can't get reimbursed for 5-7 days. I have my little policy I don't deal with idiots unless I have not other choice. I couldn't get home to eat before the next place I had to be. The moral again, Beth, is to always take a banana or something to eat whenever I leave home.
I finally went to a nearby Kroger and looked at EVERYTHING for something to eat. The deli food looked lethal, the produce couldn't be washed, the bananas were green, Yikes! I saw a display of cookies to sample and ate one and stopped in my tracks. I don't need cookies. Finally got some walnuts and banana chips and sat in the truck and ate them before the next leg of the journey.
I got home and was pooped. I didn't want to walk on that treadmill. The little devil in my head was saying, "It will be ok to miss just this one time." I got in my bed and said to myself, you are going to walk. So I did it. I just did it. One step in front of the other and it was done.
I did ok today considering all that happened. Only singed a couple of ears that needed it. I must be more of a girl scout in the future. Throw a banana in that purse! I already take water everywhere I go and it keeps me off the cokes. I will add a banana and a box of raisins!
Maybe I am learning some discipline. If I ran the world, things would certainly be more efficient. Since no one has asked for my help, I'll just continue to try to chill and repeat the Serenity Prayer more often.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 23 April 2008 12:06 pm |
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Beth,
Sorry to hear you had a frustrating day yesterday.................but I think you handled it very well! You could have walked out of the grocery store with lethal food.......and you didn't.
I know what you mean, though, about carrying food with you. I too, always have my water bottle with me............I feel naked without it! We need to be prepared........it's my secret to success. If I'm not prepared, I often fail 
Sorry to hear you are struggling with depression When I had those problems last winter, I couldn't believe how bad it was to actually go through it! So far, that one dose remedy from my chiro/homeopathist has done the trick. Let's hope it continues.......I don't ever want to feel like that again!
You know, we all hit times when we struggle.........I've certainly done that often enough. But, you are doing the right thing in fighting through it. Sometimes, I get out a book that's helped me along the way and re-read it. I'm on about my 5th time through "Eat to Live".........just reading about what I'm doing to my body by feeding it the wrong thing, is usually enough to get me back on track. This last time, I should have pulled it out sooner! Oh well, live and learn!
I'm always so glad that God gives us a new day to start over each and every morning!
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Beth
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Posted: 23 April 2008 01:33 pm |
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Thanks, Hisgal. I'm already feeling better. I've been struggling with anxiety and depression all my life, but especially since about last October. It even put a damper on my vacation. I just finally decided it wasn't going to just go away on its own.
There is a history of depression in my family and I saw what it did to my grandmother's quality of life. Since I've decided to live well, and we do have some choices about depression today, I decided to do something about it. I had tried going natural, but it just didn't work. I was growing very weary of that gloom and doom aching in the pit of my stomach. I am enjoying sleeping again. I don't think living like that is what life should be all about. We all have some bad times to endure, but we should also enjoy the good times. That is what I'm trying to do, enjoy the good times to the fullest!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 23 April 2008 04:00 pm |
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Beth,
So glad you are already feeling some better! I watched my MIL struggle with depression, so at least I recognized the symptoms when it hit me! Otherwise, I might have thought I was going crazy It's wicked stuff...........good thing there are treatments out there, huh? I wonder what the pioneer women did?
So, what do you think of Dr. F's anti-cancer soup? I never did try |
