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mollymoo24
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Posted: 5 January 2008 04:16 pm |
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Hi I am new here.
I am a late 30's female, 5'2". I never had a weight problem in my youth. Once I graduated college and got a corporate job, became less active and married a heavier man I've steadily put on weight each year. I never thought my weight gain bothered me much, until I recently flirted with 200 pounds and I began doing some soul searching.
Here's what I found. So many 'reasons' why I eat and 'excuses' why I am "too busy" to exercise. I have to stop it. Yes, my work is very demanding, but I AM IMPORTANT TOO! Yes my husband likes to cook big fattening meals but I AM IMPORTANT TOO! I recognize that I have been wearing blinders and not dealing with the reality, that the 'real me' is a very large, very overweight, unhappy person!!
I quit smoking on Thanksgiving (moderate habit, 4-5 smokes a day all associated with stress at work). I realized that it was time to deal with it and 4 days out of the office was a golden opportunity. I quit and honestly it wasn't really that hard for me. I learned that you just have to manage through the cravings when they come and the other 98% of the time is all reward!!
So the empowerment of quitting smoking coupled with my scale-tipping 200 pound event made me realize that I need to do something about my weight, and that I CAN do it, it is all about determination and having clear goals and a plan.
What's horrifying and amazing at the same time, is that when I make a good workout, I feel GREAT about myself and actually it is very empowering to actually see results, feel good, and see the scale heading in a positive direction. I feel a difference in myself at work and in my personal life. I can't believe I didn't do this sooner, and I hope that with support of family and friends I will keep going!
I am doing this for me and for me only, I never realized what a negative impact my weight was having on my confidence. I hope I have a great success story to tell.
My ultimate long term goal is a healthy weight of 118 pounds. My immediate goal is to lose 10 pounds and weigh 190 and just become familiar with the effort and the feelings and behaviors involved in losing weight. I don't know how long this will take because I've not really tried seriously to lose weight before. I am just going to watch what I eat and make sensible choices, and work in more veggies for snacking. I want to exercise 1 hour per day and at least 30 minutes of that being cardio.
I am still figuring out best time of the day to work out. When I work out after I get home from work and then eat dinner, even a light dinner, I cannot get to sleep. I have to work around a commute window but I will keep trying things.
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trimB
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Posted: 5 January 2008 07:32 pm |
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Congrats on quitting smoking and all of the soul searching that has brought you so far so quickly!
The excuses thing has been very hard for me too. My diary helps me stay accountable... when I have to write down my excuses I realize how lame they sound.
Keep us posted with your progress!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 6 January 2008 01:24 pm |
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So, yesterday was my first day of calorie watching. For the first time, seriously, since college.
I thought I did pretty well. I forgot to include some Dole Pine-Orange-Banana juice I drank for a bug I am trying to fight off. How easy it is to forget something if you don't write it down right away. So I was under 1200 without the juice and at 1320 with the juice.
I walked on the treadmill for 45 mins (2.25 miles), it was a tough session; later we took the dogs for a 20 minute walk so I got up to my 1 hour goal. Later I also played wii bowling and baseball for 30 mins just to keep moving but honestly I didn't have much energy at that point and it was a half-hearted effort.
Writing down what I eat, looking at labels and using the calorie counter on this site is already leading to some new discoveries. For example, I had 6 pieces of whole grain white bread yesterday. (toast for brekkie, turkey sandwich for lunch, and tuna salad sandwich for dinner). I like bread and I get a bit of an acid stomach without it. But I think I need to learn about carbs and see if all this bread could end up holding me back.
I also learned that Ramen noodles have a ton of calories and fat, and the "natural" microwave popcorn is still not healthy even though it has no butter flavor. I was also very surprised to learn that a large apple has 110 calories, which was more than I expected. So I also to learn more about veggies and veggie juices as a possible alternative or at least more variety. I have never been much of a veggie person but I don't think I can get by on fruits, too much sugar I guess. More to learn.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 6 January 2008 01:29 pm |
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It was also reinforced to me yesterday that I may actually be in for a rough ride with my husband over my new healthy eating goals. My husband L is the cook in our household. L is a big man, he's never EVER compromised on ingredients or flavor; he is a foodie and LOVES his food. He works out pretty regularly and that is the primary method he uses to try to lose or maintain weight. The other night he did make a fish and rice dinner with salad and it was really GOOD! But he doesn't like to make fish more often because he ends up hungry too soon. He is also making a side of grilled veggies more often now which is very helpful to both of us.
But yesterday when I tried talking to L about maybe using some lower fat versions of ingredients in his cooking, it was like talking to a wall. We do both believe that things like fake butter or splenda are potentially toxic.
Tonight (Sunday) he is planning a classic family dinner - whole chicken cooked rotisserie style on the grill, with a side of broccolli and spaghetti with romano cheese sprinkled on top. The problem is the broccolli and spaghetti, the sauce is 2 sticks of butter with garlic and a tad of olive oil. The butter is SOOOO much. But he doesn't want to make it with 'fake butter' or change the recipe, and he certainly doesn't want to cook a 2nd batch just for me. This is where the rubber meets the road I think. Because only I can control what goes in my mouth but only HE is controlling what goes into the food that goes on the table. I haven't figured out what to do with this. I am already dreading the thought of eating such an unhealthy dish the 2nd day into my diet. I have to figure out something!!
Last edited on 6 January 2008 01:31 pm by mollymoo24
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 6 January 2008 04:39 pm |
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Ohhhh.....L is eating a bag of Walker's Cheese and Onion Crisps right now....I love Walker Crisps.  OK hon give me that bag, I'll just inhale the vapours. Surprisingly, since I already had breakfast, this smells yummy and its not making me want to eat anything.
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Peter
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Posted: 6 January 2008 08:52 pm |
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Love your sense of humor.
Welcome to the forums,
Peter
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 6 January 2008 09:00 pm |
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L and I took the dogs to a nice walk in the park today. One loop around is a mile. So we doubled the loop for a total of 2 miles and it took about 45 minutes. I still had trouble with my very stiff legs. The first 10 minutes were like lead but the walk is slightly uphill and against the wind and it was a little easier coming back the 2nd half. So I guess my legs really are just trying to get used to all this new activity.
Since I didn't reach an hour doing walking, I did some brisk housecleaning and will do some resistance bands and calisthenics later. As has been pointed out to me, I have to ease into this, but I DO absolutely want to keep moving and just get in the habit of not sitting around on my butt all day not doing anything.
I had a very filling and nicely balanced lunch of a salad, mini carrots, and turkey and cheese sandwich. Breakfast was 2 slices of toast (Sara Lee whole grain white) with honey.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 6 January 2008 11:33 pm |
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That fricken fracken dinner...
Best as I can figure was 715 calories and 30 grams of fat. I HOPE I estimated on the high side. It would be helpful to have a scale for accuracy on estimating weights esp. for luncheon meats etc....Note to self, get scale.
I am at 1404 calories for the day which is about 200 more than my target.
Again however, amazing discoveries. Normally I would have had double the amount of pasta and certainly would have put romano cheese on top. Today I went a little heavier on the meat because I didn't want the buttery pasta. He forgot to leave the brocolli out of the butter for me. Still, I bet the amount I previously had (along with some chicken skin) would have been over 1000 calories and even more fat. So...its a step in the right direction (looking on the bright side here).
Now I just have to hope won't be hungry the rest of the night. My brain thinks I didn't have enough to eat. MUST....RESIST....
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 7 January 2008 07:26 am |
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the real thing...ie butter....is the best thing for you i think...i mean, yes, its high in cals and saturated fats, but at least its not processed trans fats that your body cannot use! I ALWAYS use REAL butter and limit myself.....its only for flavor, not a MEAL!
and the pasta thing....ever try spaghetti squash? its my NEW best friend! Dress it up like real pasta but for WAY less cals and WAY less CARBS!!!!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE to calorie count.....i am so used to doing it that i can automatically guestimate a meal very close to the actual cal count and its almost effortless now. However, by writing it down, youre actually accountable for what youre putting in your mouth and it makes you more concious of what youre doing to yourself!
Good luck!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 8 January 2008 12:49 am |
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A Monday. Back in the office.
Found myself wandering into the cafeteria at work for brekkie and OH! almost screwed up and forgot to THINK about what I was doing!! Old habits!! I was over by the bagels and picking one out when my brain went = WAIT! Are you sure that's what you want? Well I looked for whole wheat but couldn't find any so just had a half of a plain bagel with a half of a portion of lite cream cheese....along with my coffee.
Lunch - wasn't hungry - I only had a lite and fit yogurt.
I had lots of calories left for dinner. Based on what I have read my body isn't going to be particularly happy working out on only 300 calories for far today. So I decided since I got off work late anyway, to eat dinner first, digest, do some stretching and then a shorter workout. Praying it won't keep me up all night, I was up very late last night.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 8 January 2008 01:24 am |
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Hey Molly,
My fiance and I work out each night...we were going to try to switch it to mornings, but its just not feasible, as i would EASILY sleep if i knew it was between a workout and sleep! So this makes it so i have no excuse. It was tough to get used to the first 2 times, but now that we do it....its not bad.....I just finished at 9:30pm and I will jump in the shower, let my hair dry and go to bed! I think the bottom line is whenenver you can best fit it in your schedule so that you will actually do it is the BEST way to go about it, otherwise you will make excuses....your body will get used to the routine you pick!
Good luck!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 10 January 2008 03:10 am |
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I have settled in to working out at night during the week. I will eat dinner right after work if I am tired or hungry, then work out an hour later.
If am up to it, I work out first, then eat, which I know is the better approach on paper. I am assuming over time it will settle into one pattern or the other.
This lack of sleep thing is getting to me but it does help a little to have a shower at night after working out and I can sleep in a little longer in the AM.
I am NOT doing a good job of getting out of the office on time so that I can get home early, work out eat dinner and ultimately get to bed on time. I have to work on this.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 10 January 2008 03:57 am |
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Woo hoo!
OK last night I weighed myself at night after my shower and it was 194. To make sure it wasn't a fluke I weighed myself tonight and I had a workout outfit on and it said 193!
So I am really doing this, down from 200 about 2 weeks ago. Off to a great solid start. I know its a little easier in the beginning but I am over halfway to my first goal!!!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 14 January 2008 02:43 am |
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Wow, I was down to 192 on the 10th, then went out of town for a couple of days. Watched what I ate closely; exercised well, felt good, clothes fitting better and then came back home tonight and got on the scale and it was up to 194.
I know this is just water weight and I had a lot of sodium in some salsa I was eating so that it likely the problem. I know I really didn't put on 2 pounds but I am still a little disappointed as I thought I might actually see my first goal achieved when I stepped on that scale. Well, no worries, I will be there at the end of 1 more week, if I keep up with it. Cmon girl, keep it up, you can do it!!!!!!
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asuwish
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Posted: 14 January 2008 03:07 am |
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| You can do it, Mollymoo! Good for you! I am sure that it's very difficult with such rich food around to still be able to lose weight. Maybe L would consider halfing the amount of butter or sugar or whatever it is. You both might not really notice after a while if you gradually reduce "that" stuff. I look forward to reading more of your continued efforts and successes.
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zenobia
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Posted: 14 January 2008 04:10 am |
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hey molly. that must be really rough being in your situation. what if you cooked everyother day? you (and your husband!) would be surprised at what tastes just as goos as the full fat stuff for half or even less than the normal fat content. yo could tell him you are making something, but just use healthy alternatives. honestly, being sneaky can really work (note the irony!). i comend yo on your efforts in the difficult arena you have. maybe just talking to him about your health (or the health of both of you) might work. especially if you have kids. kep at it doll. the main thing is to not give up. i mean really, there are a lot of different approaches you can take here. it's just pin pointing the right one.
keep up the desire. you really shouldn't have to sacrifice your health and the helath of you family becuase he wants to use full fat everything. you make make a lot of tastey things very helathy if given the chance. you just might have to hide some of the "special ingredients".
keep up the working out. that alone will do wonders.
and yes, YOU ARE IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!! i am happy that you relize this. sometimes, sad as it is, some people just don't get that. you do and that is very significant!!! stick around, you will always have support here. congrats on taking the step towards change!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 14 January 2008 01:50 pm |
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I want to thank everyone who has read my diary and posted encouragement and suggestions. It is amazingly supportive to be able to come here and just be open and talk and share with folks who are facing some of the same issues. 
Zenobia - love your avatar. OMG that is so ME too!
I do have to say that L is being patient and is showing signs of interest in making "some" healthy choices. Like choosing chicken over beef more often and cooking grilled roasted veggies as a side dish frequently. Although I did have to sit and watch him eat a huge double-cheeseburger on Saturday.  I wish that he didn't hate turkey, alas. He is very willing to buy whatever I want at the grocery store but just because I want Miracle Whip Light doesn't mean that HE is going to eat it. A big change for us will be eating home more often so that I know exactly what is in the food I am eating.
At least L is showing signs of being supportive of MY goals and I have a feeling that gradually over time when he realizes that I am still happy with the taste and getting healthier he will follow my example and start migrating towards the more healthy options. He already noticed that my tummy looks smaller (which it does) - last night I had on a t-shirt that has been snug since the day I bought it and it was hanging down loose. I turned him on to baked tostitos scoops over the weekend, instead of full fat, to eat with salsa and he thought they were absolutely fine! (CHEERS). I think while my calorie-counting, is driving him a little nuts, he is interested in spite of his own objections. We'll see where we are a month from now. If I can get him on board it will be great to have my spouse as an ally in the battle.
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 14 January 2008 02:17 pm |
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| Alright, MollyMoo! It seems those baby steps are getting somewhere with your dear hubby. Keep it up, girl. You're doing great!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 January 2008 03:39 am |
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Yay! I really didn't feel like working out tonight but I did it. First I put on my shoes. Then I got up and did 20 minutes of stretching and kicks and walking in place while we finished watching a Sopranos episode. Then when it was over I made myself go get on the treadmill. And I thought about only doing 1/2 hour on the treadmill but when I got to that point, it was 'just a little more' and then 'just a little more' and then I finished the full hour.
I just have to remember the good feeling I get when I achieve my workout - I am not yet to a point where I can work out hard enough to burn off stress and anxiety and sweat. I have a hard time getting my heart rate up but when I jog a bit I can get it up there. However I at least feel good that I wasn't lazy and I didn't turn into a little baby quitter. I am afraid that if I miss just one day it will be the start of the excuses again and I can't let that happen.
I also seem to be "saving" calories a little earlier in the day so that I can enjoy something good for dinner. It's not dramatic so I think I am OK. Like today for example I had oatmeal for brekkie and turkey sandwich for lunch. That way I was able to have a reasonable portion of very yummy ravioli for dinner tonight. As long as I don't do this extremely I hope I am OK.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 15 January 2008 03:42 pm |
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hey, im in the same boat as you...something is better than nothing though, right? It can be so difficult to motivate yourself enough to get the most out of your workout...but the truth is....something IS better than nothing....some days you wont want to do it at all, but if you make yourself do it, youre better for it. It is something you NEED to do for yourself.....its like washing your hair or brushing your teeth....
part of a routine, and sometimes you can pay a little more attention to it than other times, but the mere fact that you get off your booty and get moving in any sort of way deserves some sort of CREDIT/PRAISE !!!! Its awesome that you fought that personal battle to get moving and then to actually push yourself to finish an entire hour! You go GIRL!
I do the same thing with Calories....like when i am going to go out for lunch or dinner, i make good choices and control my portions (ask for a to go container and put half my food in there and have it THE NEXT DAY<---this part is always the hardest, as i want to have it a couple hours later:). Then, for the rest of the day I plan my other calories around it.... it works for me.....i think it is just important to find something that keeps you ACCOUNTABLE for what you stick in your  PIE HOLE
Thats the toughest part for me...i often find myself putting NAUGHTY foods up to my lips and catching myself at the last minute....say for instance...my fiance needs more cals than i do and hes often too low on the cal count when he gets home, so i will make him a calorie packed snack like peanut butter on celery....and i will go ahead and almost take chucks of peanut butter from the knife when i am done and eat it....WOAH! talk about calorie restriction KILLER!!!! Terrible!
Sounds like youre making all the right moves though! Keep it up and good luck to you!!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 15 January 2008 11:40 pm |
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I should be ecstatic that I got on the scale and it says 190 - my first goal. But I guess after putting on/off water weight the last couple of days and also not having much to eat or drink today, I am a little hesitant to celebrate. I was saving up for dinner tonight which I haven't had yet. OK I will make myself a deal. If it still says 190 tomorrow, 2 days in a row, then I'll celebrate. I DO deserve to feel that sense of accomplishment!
Off to have dinner (skirt steak...mmm....must remember - portion control!)
L actually bought fat free sour cream for tacos tonight (MORE CHEERS)!!
Last edited on 16 January 2008 03:07 am by mollymoo24
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 16 January 2008 02:45 am |
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Oh yeah, I am so happy right now.
First, I kept it all under control and enjoyed one of my favorite meals for dinner but with controlled portions and it was yummy and satisfying.
Second, I had a GREAT GREAT workout on the treadmill tonight. The best yet. I generally walk 3 miles and each 1/4 mile is a lap, total 12 laps, with only a little bit of jogging. Tonight I was able to jog complete laps 5, 8 and 1/2 of lap 11. I am getting stronger in my legs and feet and lungs. Awesome. For me I felt like I was 'in the zone'. Got my heart rate up and sweated more. A few months from now I will probably look back on this post and this workout will be so easy its laughable...but for now I am basking in the good feeling.
I never never never want to go back to the horrid fitness level I was at 3 weeks ago. I am making a point of taking the stairs more often at work, and parking further away in the parking lots. I am writing this all down so that I have this to turn to when I have tougher days.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 16 January 2008 03:44 pm |
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great job mollymoo....so did you stay at 190?~?~?~? inquiring minds want to know!!!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 January 2008 01:49 am |
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EL thanks for checking on me. You're so sweet. And Yes I did! 190! My first milestone. Hurray!!! I haven't been this weight since March of 2006. 
And one of the ladies at work today told me that she noticed I was losing weight and she noticed the difference in my face. Double Hurray!
OK done celebrating now...on to the next goal - 179. 11 pounds this time, just so I can crack the 180 barrier. I said in my first post that I was starting out with the goal to become familiar with this process of losing weight. I have some idea now what it is all about but I keep saying to L that I am in the 'honeymoon period' where counting calories and exercising is still a novelty, and its fun because the weight is coming off so fast. I know that the next 11 is not going to come along as quickly as the first 10 did (in 19 days). I am putting that out there right now to remind myself that done in a healthy manner it will likely take at least 4-5 weeks. Today is January 19th, on February 17th I leave for a business and personal trip to FL. I am not going to crash diet to try to hit 179 before I go. But I will be satisfied if I am at 182, that would be another 8 pounds, by my trip Feb 17.
I also found out another gal at work who is a similar amount overweight has started a weight loss program. Perhaps we can keep each other accountable. I've been brave and told people about my weight loss goals because that way I have a fear of failing that motivates me. Twisted, but it works.
Off to the treadmill folks!
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 17 January 2008 04:05 am |
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omg i am so jealous.....10 lbs in 19 days!?!?!?! How did you do that? I work my butt off and eat as best i can and count all the cals...and still....just the usual 1-2 lbs/ week. Good for you btw with the OFFICIAL 190 lbs!!! That is quite an accomplishment~
I am rooting for you to lose that next 11 lbs quickly and safely! YAY MOLLY MOO!!!!!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 January 2008 05:25 am |
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elliptical lover wrote: 10 lbs in 19 days!?!?!?! How did you do that? I work my butt off and eat as best i can and count all the cals...and still....just the usual 1-2 lbs/ week.
We'll its usually easier in the beginning from what I hear. Also being women we have patterns to extra fluid retention; that could have 'helped'. Anyway, I'll take it. I still worked hard. This is just the beginning; the next 11 will show what I am really made of.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 17 January 2008 03:48 pm |
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molly thats awesome! Really, i wish my body would do that...i would be so much happier to see the weight coming off at a faster rate! I HAVE A DEADLINE! my wedding on 06-07-08...it just doesnt seem to be coming off fast enough and i am getting discouraged! Its frustrating really!
I am sure you will push thru those next 11 lbs like NO ONES BUSINESS!
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Posted: 17 January 2008 10:26 pm |
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Congrats Molly Moo-you must be so pleased! I just popped over to your diary while I was eating my lunch (reading slows me down!!) and wow!!! I'm going to go work out now-I want to lose 10 lbs in 19 days! Hehe. Great work though. Here's to the next 11!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 January 2008 12:58 am |
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Molly Tamale
So, L wasn't feeling good today and didn't have a taste for the fish dinner we had planned. So he wants to order Mexican. OK fine I can figure out something healthy. So I pore over the menu and end up ordering the vegetarian tamales, which I have had there before. They are essentially just corn and spices there isn't any discernable oil, grease, cheese, or anything else fattening. They seemed very simple and wholesome, so I thought I made a wise choice.
Then after dinner, I went searching for calorie counts on tamales and they are really bad! Apparently most tamales are made with lard. But if Mrs. L.F.'s are light and flaky and very corn-like and I cannot taste any lard, how much could really be in them? Its so hard with restaurant food. I have found online estimates for meatless tamales ranging from 100 cals to 290 cals. And I had 3 of them! All I can do is believe some of those high end ones have a lot of grease and cheese; Ms. L.F.'s seem wholesome light and beautiful. I sure hope these weren't more than 180 each!! ?? !!
Ah well, I will have to ask the next time we go there what she puts in them so I can made informed decisions. If I get in a good workout tonight it won't really matter all that much and I'll hit my calorie target. Not like I had a big burrito or something.
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daneuhh12
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Posted: 18 January 2008 01:19 am |
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Congrat's on the weight loss so far. Keep up the good work!
--dana--
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hoofprints
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Posted: 18 January 2008 03:15 am |
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Congratulations, you are so dedicated, don't let the scale be the only guideline...some wise ladies here gave me that advise and it was good. Your significant other will come around and notice how great you are doing and perhaps modify his ways....or perhaps join you. Why don't you challenge him to cook a healthy low fat meal once a week for you.... I'm sure he can do it, and he may be inspired to do it more often.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 January 2008 03:30 am |
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Whooyaaa I made those tamales a distant memory. Used the wii to get my butt up and moving - 30 mins of bowling and boxing, a bit of lateral thigh trainer, and then 3 miles on the treadmill. Any possible transgression is forgiven.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 January 2008 03:35 am |
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Thanks Dana, hoofprints, thinkskinny, EL, and DG !!! It means so much to have your encouragement. I love coming here, CPH helps keep me motivated!
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 18 January 2008 03:55 am |
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Just think of what a  HOT MOLLY TAMALE you will be if you dont eat so many tamales and you work your tail off like you have been!!!! WOOHOOO! Work it girl! Dont let one day get you down...chalk it up as a learning experience, and resis that 3rd one next time! YOU CAN DO IT!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 January 2008 04:58 am |
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Baby's got Back
Some final thoughts for the everning as one of the dogs is lying here blowing stinkies at a rate of one every 3 minutes. Gotta find out if L. has been sneaking them some of the leftovers I haven't been eating!
So far the physical changes have been: Belly (not jutting out so far), Thighs (dimished fat lines), Face (just a wee bit of improvement on the double chin) and Boobs (yep, they're shrinking). I hope soon I start to lose some of my big booty. Ugh the nightmare scenario of losing all the weight everywhere else first and having to walk around with this humungous backside. Guess I need to find out if there are specific exercises that will help target that 'problem area'. Since the belly is getting smaller, the butt seems bigger!!
I gotta find where I wrote down my initial measurements They are here somewhere, in a pile of bills I think. I will pay bills over the weekend and hopefully find the stats and be able to measure the changes. Fingers crossed.
I got another blister tonight on my 4th toe right side. No fun having a blister under a blister. I need to look into getting some new shoes this weekend too.
It's time to hit the sack...very glad tomorrow's Friday.
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 18 January 2008 09:46 pm |
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just think j-lo.....she can have a tiny belly and a big ol booty and be envied for it...why not you?!?!?!?! Either way, when you get down to your goal weight, i think its important to remember YOURE A WOMAN, we are supposed to have curves...EMBRACE them!!!!! Nothing sexier!
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Beth
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Posted: 19 January 2008 02:23 am |
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| I am intrigued about your dealing with "L." I have a "J." J likes hamburgers and french fries for every meal. He's also a heart patient and diabetic and swears his numbers are great and everything in hunky dory. Anyway, I buy and prepare the food and J has been eating a good bit of fish this past week. I notice he is getting into my rice cakes, too. I told him yesterday his shirt looked a little looser. I think he's going to come around. Today he told me not to make him a potato, that it wasn't good for his blood sugar. I almost fell out! Don't give up on L. Y'all will work it out.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 19 January 2008 02:18 pm |
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Psyche-Out (or is that Strike Out?)
Ok its Saturday morning, coffee wake-up-time. Also - reality check time.
I did say that it is important for me to get out of the office on time so that I can go home and work out-right? I got a good reminder last night. I was exhausted at the end of the week, yet I stayed at the office working a couple of hours late and still left with many many overflowing issues that I am going to have to work on this weekend. I got home around 8PM completely spent and with a bucketful of worries. Note to self: ***You must improve productivity at work and delegate delegate delegate!!!!! You MUST find ways to do this and become more effective. You CANNOT slip back into the old ways of letting this job consume you. THINK of HOW MUCH BETTER your life has been the past 2 weeks as you PUT YOURSELF FIRST*** Stupid workaholic. I think weaning myself from my job is something I have to deliberately work on as much as losing weight. How closely intertwined the two are for me!!
On the bright side L made a lovely halibut + yellow rice + steamed broccoli dinner for us. I really really appreciated that and he could tell how happy it made me. In the 13 years we have been together he has never made fresh steamed veggies as a side dish!! We actually talked about trying Brussels Sprouts next. Yay L!!!!! (Big smooch!)
But I was just so tired I simply decided to take a night off from exercising and just paid bills and watched some tv. I decided that this would be fine as long as I make sure I work out on Sat and Sun. I was at 1100 cals for the day. 1 night off to rest and rebound. I am OK with this choice but I still wish I hadn't let my job consume the best of me. TSK TSK.
Anyway, I thought I'd just get a good night's sleep and I would feel rested today and kick it back into gear. Alas, I am still tired and feeling it everywhere in my body, muscle aches and fatigue all over. Hope I am not coming down with a bug. I am having coffee now and intend to be on the treadmill within the next hour regardless.
Maybe this entry is dragging on because I am procrastinating. : )
Well between my workout and the cleaning, laundry, and shopping I am planning to do today, I intend to feel very good about my day today. Let's get it started...
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 20 January 2008 12:18 am |
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Policing Pizza 
When L announced he wanted DEEP DISH pizza for dinner tonight I was forlorn, it actually felt like I had the wind knocked out of me. I felt the pang of a strong emotional conflict between pleasing L and meeting my own weight loss goals. I had NO desire (thankfully) for a big cheesy DEEP DISH Gino's East pizza. We reached a compromise and went out to a nearby neighborhood place where I had a good quantity of green salad first (dressing on the side please!). Then the main course was a nice thin crust, with cheese, sauce, couple of veggies (I picked off all the sausage so I might have had a little fat from that) and was able to have a very satisfying portion. I looked up the approximate calorie "spend" for a comparable pizza before I left the house and used that knowledge to judge what I was eating.
The pizza came to 573 and a total of 1490 "IN" for the day which is the highest day yet since I started. But I also knew that I got in a good workout today, along with quite a bit of housecleaning/organizing, and I still have time left to do more tonight. From what I have read on this site I don't think it is hurtful to have a 1300-1500 calorie day once in a while when the majority of my days are coming in around 1100.
I am a little worried that 7PM on a Saturday night is a little bit early to be done eating for the night, since we'll be up later than normal. But I have my carrot sticks at the ready in case of emergency. 
My weight upticked a little bit the past 2 days again it was 190 yesterday and 190.5 today. Could be water retention again I have had a bit more salty foods. Plus I am heading towards that "time"; I am not concerned because I haven't been "bad".
Last edited on 20 January 2008 12:19 am by mollymoo24
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Beth
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Posted: 20 January 2008 01:12 am |
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MM-congratualtions on your self control with the pizza. I'm just not that strong yet. Anything with yeast in it makes me crazy, crazy. I want it all and then I want to eat everyone else's, too. It is a real trigger food for me. I love yeast rolls. I just have to stay out of the places that serve them.
Glad you and "L" are making comprimises for each other. A good marriage is a series of compromises, I've learned. "J' was at home for a while, too. He thought he was a great housekeeper... Maybe at some point "L" will decide to become a great Mediterranean chef, especially since he genuinely seems to enjoy cooking.
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vgreet
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Posted: 20 January 2008 04:41 am |
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| Great job on the self control! Pizza is a real weakness for me. I'm impressed with all you are doing! Keep up the good work!
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elliptical lover
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Posted: 20 January 2008 05:40 am |
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boy i could use a little of your self restraint right now! I envy you!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 20 January 2008 04:23 pm |
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Further than I've Gone in a Long Long Time
Hi everyone, thanks for checking in on me and EL Beth and vgreet for your encouraging words.
I had to come back on and post because I just finished a really great workout (for me) and I am PSYCHED. Today I did 4 miles on the treadmill at 3.0 MPH, 3 miles was my previous best. And I jogged laps 5, 8, 11, and 14 for a whopping total of a full mile jogging at 3.7MPH. Total workout 76 mins. That is the furthest I have gone in recent memory!!
I have to thank DG and EL for being my inspiration. When I looked at their workouts I realized I can and should push myself further.
I am wondering if a higher calorie day yesterday had anything to do with my good workout. You know, maybe it gave me more energy or something. But it was Sunday, I have plenty of time, and at 3 miles I was like - why am I stopping, I am not tired yet? If you are reading this, tell me if you think the extra calories probably helped.
I could honestly cry tears of happiness right now, because I know every step forward in my physical fitness is helping me emotionally. I can do things easier and move easier now. I hope I have the strength to keep up with this and make these changes permanent for a lifetime.
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Beth
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Posted: 20 January 2008 05:16 pm |
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| Go girl (to the theme of "Rocky!") You can do it!!!!!!!!!!!
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vgreet
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Posted: 20 January 2008 10:59 pm |
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| Great job Molly Moo! It's so wonderful that you are feeling emotionally better. It's amazing how so many of us get it to this to just physically feel better when emotional strength can keep up with so much more. Keep up the good work!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 22 January 2008 02:41 am |
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The Cancer Post - Warning - Bad News
Life throws you curve balls sometimes. We found out today that L has prostate cancer. He's 42 years old. I've only been on this site a couple of weeks and things were going well. Life was on a big upswing, I was learning to take control of my own destiny again. (Well I can't control everything, apparently.)
Sorry to come in and say something like this especially being pretty new here but I have to put it out there, it is something I/we have to deal with. Don't know how bad it is just yet, this was just the biopsy results and he gets a CAT scan on Friday. Until we know its bad, we are focused on this not being a terribly big deal; if its early, there will be reason for optimism.
I am in a bit of shock and denial right now (we both are, understandably). Amazingly I could have used this as an excuse to pig out or blow off my exercise tonight but I didn't. Maybe this will make me cling more determinedly to my goals. I don't know. I don't know what is ahead but I will try to stay strong for both of us.
Ummm...if you are still reading this, I was down to 188 today. Some positive news anyway.
Edited to add: I almost forgot! Earlier today before his Dr. appointment L went grocery shopping and VOLUNTARILY purchased turkey italian sausage because I was talking about it. He said it was because I wanted to try it and "he didn't want to be like a big jerk where we can only have what he wants."  . Wednesday's night's the night, I think he's going to hate it but you never know.
Last edited on 22 January 2008 03:22 am by mollymoo24
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vgreet
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Posted: 22 January 2008 03:57 am |
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So sorry Molly Moo! I wish we had a hug icon to share! Good job not going to comfort food. That shows real strength. I'm sure everyone on this site will be behind you to help you keep it up. My prayers are with you.
VG
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Beth
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