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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 1 February 2008 07:24 pm |
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I've been eating like crazy today...all carbs....pasta salad, a panini, two cookies. Ugh. I am not going to beat myself up about it. I'm just going to recognize that I'm stressed, maybe a little depressed, cold and it's okay. Life isn't about my weight anyway, and it's not about what we do once in a while, but what we do every day that determines who and what we are. So...with that said, I'm moving on.
Interestingly, I published our quarterly newsletter today and like an hour after it's been distributed I get an IM from one of my coworkers/friends. I had written an article in this issue and so there was a photo of me in the header for the story, only the only photo I had at work was the one from our staff list, which was taken in December 2006(!!). The IM goes something like this:
Coworker: You need a new picture.
Me: What?
Coworker: On your article. Man, when was that taken?
Me: Back in 2006, why?
Coworker: It's not flattering at all.
So then I get annoyed and I IM a friend of mine who said something similar this morning and it all boils down to this: Most people, esp this one who is a totally oblivious guy, hadn't noticed such a drastic reduction in my weight, but when they see this photo and then see me walking the halls, it's noticeable. And I guess this is true. People remember how they saw you yesterday, if that's when they saw you, not a year ago.
School only just started a week ago and I've already ripped into one of my professors. Her syllabus is illegible and she only provided an htm version that gets cut off when you print it. She doesn't respond to student inquiries directly, but waits til other students attempt to answer the question and then posts something stupid like an "atta boy". Ugh, this isn't what I'm paying for, but I've got to put up with it because this is my final year before I get my frickin' BA. And let's not get into the myriad ways in which my job is wreaking havoc on my stress levels.
Plans for the weekend: get a jump on some homework for next week, clean the house, hang out with my bf's friends (maybe), go to the Brooklyn Museum of Art tomorrow night for a movie and some salsa dancing (I love these free events at the museums), and then SUPERBOWL!!!!!!! In honor of the Patriots, I'm going to talk like a New Englander all day, dropping my r's, and will subject my bf to some chowdah and other cheesey New England kinda things (sans lobster, of course, we're on a budget and I'm allergic anyway) only because he wants the Giants to win. Watch our Rachael Ray, I'm gonna go Reveah on ya.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 2 February 2008 03:09 am |
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abnormalapathy wrote: Most people, esp this one who is a totally oblivious guy, hadn't noticed such a drastic reduction in my weight, but when they see this photo and then see me walking the halls, it's noticeable. And I guess this is true. People remember how they saw you yesterday, if that's when they saw you, not a year ago.
This is true... however...maybe I just feel differently about it but as I lose significant weight I am happy and I want people to forget about how bloated I feel I used to look. You can choose to take it as a (poorly expressed) compliment!!
Have a lovely weekend Abby and watch out where you paahk your caah.
Last edited on 2 February 2008 03:09 am by mollymoo24
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 4 February 2008 12:57 pm |
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Superbowl
Tom Brady is on my s^!& list. I did win $75 in the office football pool, though.
Shopping
So those of you who've read my journal for more than a week know that I've been having some issues with my new smaller size when it comes to shopping for clothes. I finally admitted that having only one pair of jeans that fit me (especially when the bottoms are getting shaggy because everything is too long) is unacceptable. So I headed out to LB to buy a pair of jeans and see if they had any decent shirts on the clearance rack.
First things first, LB jeans never used to fit me correctly. I am pretty much a blocky shape with no big difference between my waist and hips and I have no booty, therefore, jeans that look 'decent' on me are always hard to find. With that said, LB just reinvented how they design jeans so they have three different cuts and they revamped the sizes. Their website said I was a yellow (cut) 6. Nice, so vanity sizing works, huh? I try on the yellow 6, it's too big. I go to a 5, still too big. Finally out of sheer frustration I'm calling for help and some dude in the store was like "Oh no, honey, you are most definitely a 2!" Haha. I could've died. I am so not a 2. And yet, they're pretty tight but I can get into them. Keep in mind this isn't a REAL 2, but it might as well have been.
I also tried on a white tshirt. I do not wear white. Virtually everything in my closet is black. And I still intend to dress that way when I'm thin, but this was a cute tshirt. According to the boy, "it's okay, I'm just not used to seeing you in something other than black." Where is this desire to try new things coming from? I've been so used to my "style" and I love it. I don't want to get rid of it....but at the same time, it's interesting to see that wearing white doesn't still make me look like Shamu. How did that happen?
He didn't see the jeans til we got home. Then I asked him, "Hey, do these make my butt look big?" which is a question I NEVER ask. And he says, "Yeah! But in a really good way." Huh???? That's it. He needs to replace the full length mirror he broke cause I need to check this out for myself.
Weekend
We did go to the museum for "First Night" which was a lot of fun, but neither the boy nor his friend would dance. So, no salsa para mi. :(
Workout
My bf doesn't work out. He doesn't need to. He used to do hard labor, unloading trucks and whatnot many moons ago, so he has these guns that go well with his trim figure. And though he's put on about 20 pounds since we met over three years ago, it's okay because he was far too thin back then. With that said, he's hinted a few times about us doing weight training together. Now, you should know that I have a set of 1 pound weights and a set of 5 pound weights. That's it.
So yesterday I'm like, "Hey, let's do a quick upper body routine together" which we did...but it was so funny cause he was using the 1 pounders and looked like he wanted to DIE! I'm feeling it today, especially around my shoulders, but I was using the heavier weights. He cracks me up.
That is all.
Last edited on 4 February 2008 03:42 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 4 February 2008 01:11 pm |
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4 February 2008 (1868/1369-1869)
Breakfast: 1 Thomas English muffin light mg (100/8); 1 TB PB (90); 1 medium banana (105/3.1)
Snack: 3 oz. grapes (59/0.8); 1/2 c dried chickpeas (134/6.2); 3 oz blueberries (50/2); 1 blood orange (45/2.3)
Lunch: 1 Thomas English muffin light mg (100/8); 4 oz 95% lean ground beef patty (155); spinach salad with carrots, cheese, cukes, light French dressing (80/2)
Dinner: 1/2 entree eggplant rollatini (290/2); 3 ravioli (250/2); 4 oz meatball (155); 6 oz. italian bread (200/1)
Dessert: 1/2 slice cheesecake (160)
Water: 20 oz.
Fiber: 35.1 gLast edited on 5 February 2008 01:45 pm by abnormalapathy
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 4 February 2008 07:54 pm |
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So yesterday I'm like, "Hey, let's do a quick upper body routine together" which we did...but it was so funny cause he was using the 1 pounders and looked like he wanted to DIE! I'm feeling it today, especially around my shoulders, but I was using the heavier weights. He cracks me up.
I love that story!
BTW, I love that dress you wore. I honestly cannot remember the last time I wore a dress....I'm a basic black pants usually worn with a shell and jacket type gal. I bought a pair of jeans from Stein Mart (do you have those in NY?) that were size 16 and I get all kinds of compliments when I wear them. I totally relate to your white blouse story too-- being big chested I tend to wear a lot of black...not wanting to call more attention to the girls. I guess now that we're shrinking we might need to change our mindset, huh? Old habits die hard...with me, at least.
Anyway, you rock! Keep up the great work!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 5 February 2008 02:04 pm |
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First, thanks DG for the compliments on the dress. I get to wear it again for my uncle's 50th birthday party next month and I'm looking forward to it maybe being a little looser. :)
Last night was such a fiasco. I'd been so looking forward to last night because my bf, who normally works til 11 PM had the day off and we had plans to spend the evening together going on a date - dinner and movie. But, my beloved mp3 player finally kicked the bucket yesterday morning, so I told him I had to stop off at B&H to pick up something new. I wanted the same model he has, but they don't make them anymore (boooo!). So instead I bought a 30GB Zune. I love it.
But while we're there, the boy decides he absolutely has to purchase the home theater tv stand right this instant because they only have one in the store and one in the warehouse. So he drops a significant amount of money without worrying about logistics of bringing home a 140-pound box when we do not own a car. Oh, and since we live in Brooklyn and their warehouse is in Brooklyn, we were talked into picking it up onsite.
So, we're standing in the deserted Brooklyn Navy Yard and we keep getting directed to other buildings and then finally I lose my cool and start screaming at the dude to just get us the tv stand, which still takes them another 15 minutes while we're standing in the cold. And when we call the car service the guy gave us, he doesn't have a minivan, and the boy and the driver spend like an hour trying to figure out how to get the box in the trunk enough that they can tie it down so we can go the 7 or so miles back home. So, $40 and a whole headache later, we get home and I vow that even if our #%@&! gets stolen when it's delivered to our apartment building it has GOT to be better than spending 3 hours in the crappiest part of town, carrying $1,200 worth of electronics around in the cold. Did I mention I was sooo hungry?
We didn't have dinner until about 8 PM and by that point, I was so hungry I didn't care what we ate. We split an eggplant rollatini appetizer and a ravioli entree. But I ate like 6 small pieces of bread and still had half a piece of cheesecake, so by the time we got home my sugar crashed and I fell asleep. What a great way to spend date night.
We are so not repeating that this weekend.
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Beth
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Posted: 5 February 2008 02:09 pm |
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| Sweetie, we live and learn, don't we??? The only difference in the men and the boys is the price of their toys!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 5 February 2008 03:23 pm |
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5 February 2008 (2038/1369-1869)
Breakfast: 2 eggs, 1 slice cheese on large Thomas English muffin (370/3); 1 cup mixed fruit (80/2)
Lunch: mixed greens, carrots, cukes, reduced fat Honey Dijon dressing (100/2); 2 slices ww bread (200/3); 1 slice regular American cheese (80)
Snack: 100 cal pack Ritz toasted crackers (100)
Dinner: 1/2 c pinto beans (103/5.5); 1.5 c rice (308/.9); 3 oz chicken breast (141)
Dessert: 4 oz butter cookies (516/1.3); 1 can Pepsi (140)
Water: 48 oz.
Fiber: 17.70 g
Foodwise, today has been frustrating. I forgot that today was Election Day, so I zoomed out of the house like a madwoman at 6:45 AM in the hopes that I could vote and still get to work near my start time (8 AM - which didn't happen, btw). This means I didn't bring any food with me at all. So I'm mad that I'm spending all of this money on stuff in our cafeteria which (a) isn't healthy, (b) doesn't taste good and (c) is pricey. I do drive them crazy down there. Today's drama was they don't know the calories on the beef and bean burritos cause they come in a box and they don't keep the boxes. So, the only other alternative (because a salad just isn't enough for me) was a grilled cheese sandwich on whole wheat. They looked at me like I was crazy when I asked them to take out the extra 2 pieces of cheese (leaving me with 1) and to spray the grill with Pam, not grease it up with lard. Too bad.
And then they had no more fruit. So I'll be starving and digging around people's cubicles in about 30 minutes. This is frustrating, but I refuse to write off the whole day as a loss. Dinner tonight with the boy...I'm hoping for Mexican so I can just have beans and rice. I need to seriously increase my fiber for the day.
Last edited on 6 February 2008 12:26 pm by abnormalapathy
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trimB
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Posted: 5 February 2008 05:36 pm |
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On a positive note, kudos to you for fulfilling your civic duty and voting! 
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 5 February 2008 05:40 pm |
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trimB wrote: On a positive note, kudos to you for fulfilling your civic duty and voting!
Thanks! I'm actually shocked at how many people I spoke to today either (a) didn't know it was election day - including 2 teachers at the high school that is my polling site or (b) said they refused to vote. Maybe this comes from my crazy Republican (i'm so not) grandpa, but I really do believe that if you don't show up when it counts, you don't get to complain about how things go later.
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Theresa
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Posted: 6 February 2008 08:19 am |
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abnormalapathy wrote: but I really do believe that if you don't show up when it counts, you don't get to complain about how things go later.
I really like that one! 
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 6 February 2008 12:32 pm |
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I had a hard session last night, all we talked about was self-image and weight management. There were so many things we touched on last night that I haven't talked about or admitted to anyone. It was so strange to watch the patterns unfold. And given all of that topped up with the rest of the stress I'm under lately, I gave in and went to the bakery. Standing there, trying to decide how I could eat something without going totally overboard (which I did anyway), I opted for something that could at least be weighed. And I bought a decorated cookie for the bf so that I could act like I had some other excuse to go in there. Terrible.
Anyway, I was still below my maintenance calories for the day even with my emotional eating. But given that weigh in day is tomorrow, I'm not sure how the last few days will affect the scale. Interestingly enough, I measured myself last night after two months of not doing so and I'm still losing inches even though I'm gaining and losing the same 3-5 pounds. Not sure what that means.
6 February 2008 (1523/1368-1868)
Breakfast: 1 Thomas muffin light mg (100/8); 1 TB PB (90); 1 medium banana (105/3.1)
Snacks: 4.4 oz blueberries (65/2.7); 1/2 cup dried chickpeas (134/6.2);
Lunch: 1/2 panini-chicken pesto (400/2.5); 1 cup blackberries (62/7.6); 1 cup strawberries (53/3.3)
Dinner: 3.5 oz turkey patty (234); 1 cup baked beans (280/10)
Water: 17 oz.
Fiber: 43.4 g
Last edited on 6 February 2008 11:46 pm by abnormalapathy
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Theresa
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Posted: 6 February 2008 12:56 pm |
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| The good thing is that you were counting calories already in the bakery and you didn't go over the calorie amount you should have. It shows that you are still in control even when having a weak moment. Well done You are probably fluctuating with retaining water a bit but losing fat and that's why your measurements are going down even if the scale is not. Just keep working on it girl and you WILL succeed.
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missfit
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Posted: 7 February 2008 11:49 am |
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I enjoy reading your diary because I'm also on a weight loss journey. I am so impressed on your fiber intake, I bet that's why you keep on losing inches. Keep that up. By the way, I am really struggling the past two weeks with sugar and carbs. Super Bowl, girl scout cookies, etc. I have to toughen up because before you know it, Spring is around the corner and I want to wear sleeveless tops without feeling so self conscious about it. Fight the good fight and have a good day!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 7 February 2008 12:23 pm |
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| I am down another pound this week. Finally, the scale is moving in the right direction. So, I'm currently 197.0.
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personsmom
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Posted: 7 February 2008 12:35 pm |
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WHOO HOOOO (insert applause) Takes your hand and twirls you around. for you!!
Lee
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GolfBrew
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Posted: 7 February 2008 01:15 pm |
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| Nice work!
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artistjohn
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Posted: 7 February 2008 01:16 pm |
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well done
Keep writing and I'll keep reading!!
I'll do a deal, you keep out the bakers and I'll keep out the pub/bar?
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 7 February 2008 02:05 pm |
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Thanks for all of the support, folks. It really helps!!!!
ArtistJohn, okay, we can start that pledge...but not until after Chinese New Year! Celebrations are just underway. :)
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Theresa
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Posted: 8 February 2008 08:19 am |
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Well done Abby! That just means I will have to try even harder as one of my goals is to try and catch up with you. Watch out I'm chasing you! 
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 8 February 2008 12:15 pm |
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Awesome job Abby! Whooo hooo.
Do you hear me panting? I'm right on your tail (205# this morning). You don't want me to catch up, do you? Keep on keeping on and I'm right behind you!
Have a great weekend!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 8 February 2008 03:58 pm |
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Wow, life is just so stressful right now, and I'm eating based on stress not hunger...so I need to get a handle on that. I just spent the last hour on the phone arguing with the IRS and the NYS tax department as well as their third party group that handles collections, which was exactly the nightmare I was hoping to avoid. In short, they double charged me for an old tax bill - even though I was making monthly payments on it(!!!) and now I have to wait 3-4 months to get back the full amount they shouldn't have taken from me to begin with.
In the meantime, I did get some positive news in that I'm getting a fantastic bonus (paid on Monday) and in a convo with my Dad yesterday was told that he wants to give me some money towards our "house fund" after he sells his house. So now of course I'm hoping for a swift sale. :) I just feel totally overwhelmed by all of this. My mother sent me my horoscope for the year which said something about "big financial gains" this year, but I'm hoping it continues all year and isn't some one shot deal.
The boy is getting his mega flatscreen tv he's been drooling over for the last six months. He's picking it up on Monday, so at least that's one thing out of the way. Even I have to admit that it'll free up a lot of space in our apartment and will give me now NO excuse not to workout since I'll have so much more room in which to bounce around. So now that we're down to the wire and actually getting it, I'm kinda excited about it.
I have a work event tomorrow afternoon with one of our community partners and then a birthday dinner celebration for my workout buddy. Tonight I am not swimming, but I'll give the indoor track a shot. Sunday we've got zero plans. I wanted to go to the Chinese New Year parade but he says it's supposed to be in the 30s, and I really don't want to stand out there in that.
In body news, I am apparently somewhere between an LB 2-3 in jeans. I bought two pairs of the 3s and they're a little loose, but the 2s are uncomfortably tight. Ahhh, the life of living between sizes.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 11 February 2008 12:21 pm |
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| Didn't work out on Friday as planned, so I'm going to TRY to get to the gym at lunch. It's not like I have to go very far...just a few floors. Weekend was okay...tapas for my friend's birthday weren't so great and I followed it up with chinese takeout last night for dinner. Mood and self-esteem have been very low these last few days.
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Theresa
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Posted: 11 February 2008 12:35 pm |
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Just hang in there Abby, it will get better. I am also going through a down time and I don't even have any stress other that worrying about losing weight. We must just plod on past all these negative emotions.   
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missfit
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Posted: 11 February 2008 04:36 pm |
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| So sorry to hear you're down; unfortunately, I don't think your alone. I really mind the winter myself, even though it's sunny today, it is so stinking cold! I haven't been weighing myself as often because for some inexplainable reason, I'm 3 pounds heavier the past week. I'm not sure if its actual weight gain or hormones. I'm still exercising on my stationary bike and doing my sit ups and push ups. Eventually, everything falls back into place, Right?
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 11 February 2008 05:30 pm |
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missfit wrote: So sorry to hear you're down; unfortunately, I don't think your alone. I really mind the winter myself, even though it's sunny today, it is so stinking cold! I haven't been weighing myself as often because for some inexplainable reason, I'm 3 pounds heavier the past week. I'm not sure if its actual weight gain or hormones. I'm still exercising on my stationary bike and doing my sit ups and push ups. Eventually, everything falls back into place, Right?
That's what they say...I'll be honest...I've had months where the weight doesn't move much, but the inches do. So keep it up.
I never used to think I had S.A.D. but maybe I do afterall. :( Winter has really been affecting me harshly the last few years.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 11 February 2008 05:37 pm |
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Well, under extreme stress with a friend of mine (the one I'm supposed to be traveling to Europe with in a few months) and I chewed off all of my nails. Some habits die oh so hard.
But, in good news...I finally worked out! And you know what? It felt REALLY good! Of course I forgot all about how ravenous I become after a workout...so though I had lunch only 20 minutes ago I'm thinking about going back down to the cafeteria for part two. Ran out of bananas which are a lifesource for me...waiting for pears and strawberries to ripen, which isn't helping matters. So I didn't pack any food with me today. :(
Also, I hate that it's taking so much more effort to burn the same number of calories. I guess I really will have to find a way to get to the gym for 2 sessions a day since I don't really have one full hour anywhere on most days. I dunno.
11 February 2008 (1989/1369-1869)
Snack: 1 Thomas mg muffin (100/8)
Breakfast: 1 english muffin, 2 eggs, 1 slice cheese (370/2)
Lunch: 1 beef and bean burrito (250/13); 4.8 oz blueberries (78/3.3); 1 granola bar (110)
Snack: 1/4 cup wasabi almonds (170/3.3); 1 mini Crunch bar (80); 1 pack crackers (100/1)
Dinner: 1 cup rice (231); 1 cup chinese boneless spare ribs (~500)
Water: 34 oz.
Fiber: 27.6 g
Exercise: 31 min elliptical (300 cal/2.22 miles)
Last edited on 12 February 2008 05:07 pm by abnormalapathy
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hoofprints
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Posted: 11 February 2008 06:24 pm |
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hey Abby !!!
Glad to see you jump started into gear....you go girl! I missed you while I was away.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 12 February 2008 12:36 pm |
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Grrr, I'm frustrated! Those LB 3's are already starting to do that sliding down the waist thing so I keep having to grab 'em and pull 'em up. And yet, the 2's are still uncomfortably tight. Please don't tell me I just wasted $80 on jeans that really won't fit me in a week cause I won't be a happy camper. I haven't even had a chance to break them in yet.
Settled some things with my workout buddy and all is right with the world again. We'll go to Europe together and maybe I'll come back with a better understanding of why she's fighting so hard to stay here.
The boy brought home the giant TV. It looks hysterical in our living room cause it's huge. This whole thing has been a comedy of errors. He's taking the day off to get it all connected. I have a feeling our Valentine's celebration (scheduled for Sat since he works nights) is going to be spent in front of this tv. LOL Sad thing is, I probably wouldn't mind too much! Speaking of V-Day, I'm using a gift certificate I received to get a mega facial at this fantastic spa in Soho. I can't think of a better way to treat myself and show myself some love.
Packed a lot of fruit with me today and I'm hoping I can stave off the post-workout hungries. Planning to get back on that elliptical at lunch.
Tuesday, 12 February (1968/1369-1869)
Breakfast: 1 Thomas mg muffin (100/8); 1 medium apple (72/3)
Snacks: 3.5 oz. red seedless grapes (69/.3); 5 oz strawberries (45/2.8); 1/2 cup dried chickpeas (134/6.2); 1 SB granola pack (130/6);
Lunch: 1 cup white rice (231); 1/2 cup black beans (114/7.5); 1 cup minestrone soup (127/5.8)
Dinner: 1/2 entree rigatoni ala vodka (583/5.6); 1 piece eggplant rollatini (200/2.5); 3 slices italian bread (163/1)
Water: 34 oz.
Fiber: 48.7 g
Exercise: 30.5 minutes elliptical - crossramp 5/resistance 1 (300 cal /2.12 miles)
Last edited on 13 February 2008 10:32 am by abnormalapathy
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Theresa
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Posted: 12 February 2008 12:53 pm |
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| Hey Abby, try and see if you can go exchange one for a size 2 and then you know that a few more kg's down you will have some decent jeans to slip into.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 12 February 2008 01:27 pm |
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| I started with a pair of 2s which I kept for "motivation." But I still needed jeans that fit, so I bought two pairs of 3s...and all of the tags are off and everything. :( I don't know, I might have to reacquaint myself with ebay!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 13 February 2008 12:53 pm |
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Okay, so I exercised the last two days and both of those days my calories have been above 1900. WTH? Why do I get so ravenous after a workout? Yesterday I had rice and beans, which kept me pretty full most of the afternoon but then I got home and it hit me like all of a sudden that I was just starving! I talked the boy out of us ordering individual entrees and instead we split one and an eggplant rollatini appetizer. Still, not the healthiest of choices. Anyway, I'm nervous about what the scale is going to say this week because despite what my food lists might look like, I really am trying to get back into gear.
In other news, the TV is absolutely insane. Work and school are both giving me agita (heartburn) this week and apparently skipping therapy for a week isn't a good thing for me. Or maybe it's just "this" week. I don't know. It seems I can always find a way for "today" to feel worse than "yesterday" but not nearly as bad as "tomorrow." It's such a negative way of thinking and I'm trying to break that habit as well. It's funny, one of my friends is such a big help to me--always giving nonjudgmental support, ya know - and yesterday she told me she wants to be a life coach. And while I think that's great, and that she'd be perfect for it, I thought "OMG, would that mean I'd have to PAY you?" What is wrong with me lately? I dunno. ;)
Wednesday 13 February (1471/1369-1869)
Breakfast: 4.4 oz blueberries (71/3); 4 oz strawberries (36/2.3); 2 slices WW mg bread (100/4); 1 TB PB (90/1)
Snack: 1/2 cup dried chickpeas (134/6.2); 4 oz carrots (47/3.2); 1 mini Butterfinger bar (80)
Lunch: 1 beef and bean burrito (250/13); 1 TB sour cream (26); 1/2 cup blackberries (31/3.8); 1/2 cup strawberries (24/1.5)
Snack: 2 slices WW mg bread (100/4); 1 TB PB (90/1); 1 TB grape jelly (50)
Dinner: 6 oz. beets (112/5.1); 1/4 cup goat cheese (80)
Dessert: 1 Skinny Cow ice cream (150/3)
Water: 42.5 oz
Fiber: 51.1 g
I don't know what I want for dinner. Maybe I'll make some beets.
Last edited on 14 February 2008 01:05 am by abnormalapathy
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Beth
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Posted: 14 February 2008 02:43 am |
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| AA, if you could find a good alterations person, your jeans could shrink right on down with you. It's just a thought!
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Theresa
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Posted: 14 February 2008 06:56 am |
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Abby you seem to always have great fibre totals daily, I just struggle to get mine to 20g a day. I see you often have a cup of dried chickpeas, do you eat them raw or cook them first.(Can they be consumed raw?) This might seem like a stupid question but I have only ever eaten canned chickpeas and the first time I ever ate them was when I started on this forum 5 months ago. 
To help those ravenous pangs after workout just eat lots of raw veggies and keep them constantly with you, I find it definately helps my snacking lately especially before I cook at night. 
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Nir
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Posted: 14 February 2008 10:58 am |
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Theresa wrote: I see you often have a cup of dried chickpeas, do you eat them raw or cook them first.(Can they be consumed raw?) This might seem like a stupid question
Chick peas should not be eaten raw - they should be soaked overnight and then boiled for a while and then simmered. (alternatively, raw foodists will sprout the chick-peas). Once cooked, they can then be re-dried and made into a crunchy (yet unfortunately high-calorie) crunchy snack. Tinned chick peas are always cooked and therefore safe to eat.
I think the reason you shouldn't eat chick peas raw (uncooked and unsprouted) is due to an enzyme problem?
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 14 February 2008 12:29 pm |
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I'm back up 0.4 pounds, bringing my weight to 197.4. I guess it's understandable given that Monday and Tuesday were high calorie days, but it shouldn't have been enough to cause a gain. Maybe I'm retaining too much water. I know I didn't exercise enough. I'm getting really frustrated because the things that used to work aren't working and I'm not sure what to do. I've tried zig-zagging the calories, allowing myself 1-2 higher calorie (though not near maintenance level) days, and now I'm adding exercise back into the equation and....nada. But, I know I need to show some patience because it always takes my body at least a week to catch up. I hope I'm laughing about this next week.
Last night, I told the boy I made an appointment with a cosmetic surgeon as I have this tiny spider vein on my leg (about the size of a nickel) and I want to have it removed. I also know that this dr. performs a tummy tuck procedure that uses only local anesthesia (reducing healing time and cost), so I'm going to talk to him about that too. It is NOT an option now, but it is definitely something I would consider were I to get to within their range of 30% of your ideal weight. Anyway, the gist is that he told me he's really proud of me and that he honestly didn't believe I'd lose more than ten pounds. Apparently a lot of other people have told him they were determined to go all the way, and then gave up after a few weeks. So he gave me this pep talk about how I've just fallen off the wagon and need to climb back on and rededicate myself to it instead of trying to "fit it in" and I did feel a lot better until I stepped on the scale this morning.
Now, to respond...Beth, I have a great tailor and have gotten a lot of things altered, however, jeans are just too difficult to have taken in/up and they never look right.
Theresa, when I first started tracking my fiber intake, it was pathetic (like 10g a day if I was lucky, and I was chewing fiber tablets every night - the maximum amount). But then I started reading the labels on foods and choosing things that are high in fiber. I found Thomas English muffins that are multigrain and 8g of fiber each, so I try to eat at least one a day. Weight Watchers bread is also somewhere around 4-5g per serving. Oatmeal is high in fiber. But the biggest fiber boost are legumes and I'm finding that I eat WAAAAAY more of them than I ever did. My pantry is stocked with vegetarian baked beans, pinto beans, fat-free refried beans and black beans (I don't like any others) and I eat them almost every day. As for the chickpeas, I love them. I buy them from my fruit store (they have tons of packaged nuts, seeds, trail mixes, etc.). They are cooked and then dried, and I buy them in their final form - without salt. And yes, while they are high calorie compared to other snacks out there (like a piece of fruit), I like them because they are high in fiber and they keep me full. There are days when I pack a LOT of fruit and veggies with me, but what curbs the hunger are those chickpeas. So, I make allotments for them in my calorie intake for the day.
Thursday, 14 February (1756/1369-1869) - Happy Valentine's Day!
Snack: 1 Thomas mg muffin (100/8); 1 TB PB (90/1)
Breakfast: 2 eggs on large english muffin w/1 slice cheese (370/2)
Snack: 1/2 c dried chickpeas (134/6.2); 1 medium blood orange (62/3.1)
Lunch: Indian takeout (~600/2)
Dinner: Mexican takeout (~400/10)
Water: 38 oz.
Fiber: 32.3 g
Last edited on 15 February 2008 01:07 pm by abnormalapathy
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hoofprints
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Posted: 14 February 2008 03:36 pm |
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Happy valentines!!! I can so relate to the being ravenous after my workout. That is when I need to have my protein shake, or I get in a cycle of cravings that last for hours. It must have been awesome that the BF gave you such a huge compliment about your amazing weight loss. That must be so motivating. Those scale gods shall smile on you next week, this week your body may be just ...adjusting. I wish mine would adjust the tummy area to the chest....hmmmm
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missfit
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Posted: 14 February 2008 03:37 pm |
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| I'm also gaining weight, I have lost 10.5 lbs. since October which I now is really slow but that's the way I lose. BUT, I have gained 3 lbs. in the last 3 weeks. I was doing my stationary bike 60 minutes, 5x/week, but I stopped because I realized ( as my son noticed too) that I wasn't sweating and I didn't feel like I was burning calories.Now I'm changing my routine to a thirty minuteroutine / day consisting of floor exercises like sit ups , push ups and squats. I'm hoping this gives me defintion. Also, I'm really going to watch my eats. I know we will get through this. Keep the faith!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 14 February 2008 07:51 pm |
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| Thanks hoof, what shake do you use? Is it prepackaged or do you make it fresh? I'd need something I could carry to work with me. But otherwise that sounds like a great idea.
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hoofprints
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Posted: 15 February 2008 02:34 am |
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It's a quick absorbing protein shake with lots of good muscle building stuff in it. I get it at a bodybuilding supplement shop called Popeyes in Canada. It is only 90 calories a serving and it's a powder you shake up with water. They give you the shaker cup there are all different flavors but I like the lemonade one best.
I put the powders in little plastic containers and have them in my purse, the car, my desk, everywhere...just in case. the airport security guards laugh....but it works for me. If you want let me know and I'll get you brand and more nutritional info. I just think it's yummy and builds more muscle...and we all know muscle burns fat 
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Theresa
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Posted: 15 February 2008 09:32 am |
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| Just hang in there Abby! I believe it's water fluctuations and you just keep counting those calories. Thanks for the advice and info on the fibre. I will just try harder to eat more high fibre foods. I agree with Hoofie on the protein drink. I find it helps keep me from feeling hungry. I drink the whey powder. You will definately get to your weight goal because you have worked so hard and long on getting to where you are that you have it in you to not be a quitter. Sometimes as I have myself noticed it just takes so much darn longer than we want it to and other times it just come so easily and quickly. All these stages we go through....sigh!
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artistjohn
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Posted: 15 February 2008 09:55 am |
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Hi Abno. Keep your chin up gal!!
I relate to everything you talk about. I'm a boy of course, but I retain water as well. On the long runs I do, I drink loads of water and for some reason keep hold of it for days. The day after a run I'm really bloated. I haven't run for a few days now and my stomach has shrunk.
I get SAD as well. I have a light box. So if we hit a few grey days I do half an hour in front of it. I get out in the sun at every opportunity in the winter.
Seeds and nuts. I luv em!!.. But the calories are real high as you say. I weigh mine and for like 100 cals there isn't enought to feed a sparrow.
I read your diary everyday. So keep posotive. Try to think positive. You can with practice change the way you think. SAD is a good one for me.
I used to hate winter but now I accept it and get on with it. If you hear yourself talking to yourself negatively try and change it to a positive. It works with practice.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 15 February 2008 01:06 pm |
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| Thanks for all of the support, folks. Hoofprints, if you could get me the name brand of the shake that would be great. I'm especially interested as you're saying it actually tastes good. Most of the shakes I've tried in the past were terrible! Theresa, thanks. I totally know what you mean about the stages we go through. It just feels like I've been stuck in this one for a while now. By the same token, I haven't been putting in the effort I used to either, so I'm going to step up and take responsibility here. Artistjohn, thank you for your encouragement and your words on the power of keeping it positive. That's something I struggle with as I'm automatically drawn to the negative. But I'm working to change those thought patterns for the better!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 15 February 2008 02:14 pm |
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Went for a facial last night, which was a great experience, but one I will not do again at this spa given how expensive it was. I was, of course, talked into every other add on imagineable and by the end of the night had spent almost $500 (well, less than that when you factor in the gift certificate I had, but still, it was PRICEY). I'm actually thinking of returning the two products I purchased in exchange for a microdermabrasion session, but I don't know. I have two weeks to decide.
Other than that, the evening was uneventful. We had a quick dinner during his break and then I went home and played video games instead of doing homework. Also discovered that it's TTOTM. I don't know why this still takes me by surprise every month.
Plans for the weekend include: a date with the indoor track at the Rec Center (tonight), office chair shopping (tomorrow morning), video games with the guys (tomorrow afternoon), belated V-Day dinner (tomorrow night, haven't picked a place yet even though it's my choice!), cleaning, homework, downloading movies from Vongo...and maybe getting together with a friend on Monday since I neglected to make any plans to be away for the holiday. C'est la vie.
Friday, 15 February (1316/1369-1869)
Snack: 1 Thomas mg muffin (100/8)
Breakfast: egg, ham and cheese burrito (250/2); 1 med apple (72/3)
Lunch: BBQ chicken breast wrap w/coleslaw (~600/2)
Snack: 1/2 cup dried chickpeas (134/6.2); 1 frosted sugar cookie (160)
Water: 34 oz
Fiber: 19.2 g
Last edited on 15 February 2008 07:59 pm by abnormalapathy
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CoachK
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Posted: 15 February 2008 02:50 pm |
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Abby,
Thanks for the posts in my diary. I also posted the slow cooker Jambalya recipe over there for you. It was good. The tread climber was alot of fun but not as easy as it looks. I been watching people on it for the past 5 weeks and it looked so easy. You have to take long strides like you are hiking and try to keep even pressure with both feet. But man what a workout. In 25 minutes yesterday it said I climbed over 1100 vertical feet. Pretty good for me. Keep your head up and stay positive and one thing I keep telling myself when I don't lose or not as much as I think I should is that even when I don't lose the goal is to get healthier. If you are eating better and exercising it will all come off eventually and it is really good for you in the mean time. Have a great day and know we are cheering for you! Coach K
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Beth
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Posted: 15 February 2008 03:21 pm |
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| Ab, I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one with SAD. I just keep trucking and know it won't last forever. I am going to look into a light box. I don't really have any great solutions to offer today -just moral support! Hang in there!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 17 February 2008 02:05 pm |
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Abby, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling with mood right now, you really are not alone and it will get better. This overcast weather is really not good for us. I always say "people are like plants, we need sunshine to grow". When the sun breaks out after a long absence I will naturally stick my face up towards it, shut my eyes and bask in the feeling, like a plant seeking the sun. Hang in there, the winter doldrums won't be around too much longer. A facial is a great idea for a restorative!
Also, if you were serious about TTOTM catching you by surprise each month I would suggest that you start charting your cycles. I started doing this because my cycles were irregular and very subject to stress. I have been doing this for 2 years and while it doesn't STOP the crazy emotion |
