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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 12 October 2007 11:12 pm |
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Forgot to mention something that was irritating me yesterday. I had a long chat with the afternoon trainer at the gym and told him that I wasn't really sure what my final weight goal should be. Yes, my "mini goal" is to weigh <200 by the time my 30th (eeek!) comes around - the party is 1 December, so I don't have a lot of time, but I'm down to needing to lose 5 pounds to reach that goal.
So...I've started looking out to where I "should" be..what is a reasonable goal for a girl who doesn't know what anything under 140 pounds looks like on her? I've never been thin. And I'm nearing 30, so weighing 115 just isn't going to happen. We got to talking about BMI (I'm currently hovering around 37) and he asked if I have a target BMI. I said I wanted to be below 24%. He looked at me like I said I wanted to look like one of the Olsens and then started trying to persuade me that I should be happy if I can just get it under 30%.
But no, I will not go through the sweat and tears of losing this much weight and still be "medically overweight." I refuse. I'm doing this for the long haul. This isn't a diet. And I've already come to terms (sorta) with the fact that I will always have to exercise and maintain control of my little food gremlins. So yeah, I'm sticking to my guns on the BMI issue...but I still have no idea what that means in terms of concrete results on the scale.
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Nir
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Posted: 13 October 2007 12:02 am |
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Calculating BMI
Calculating Body Composition
BMI and body fat % have a B in them (in both cases it stands for 'body') but they are not the same thing
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suenos
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Posted: 13 October 2007 01:01 am |
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I'm a little confused by the 30% BMI part too...but at any rate please don't let what he said discourage you in the least from going after what you want...it's your body and believe me - you have a lot of control over where you "end up" in terms of weight, body composition and to a degree even shape. There is no reason in the world, with attention to diet and balanced exercise (weights/cardio) why you can't get your body fat% (if that's what we're talking about) into the low twenties - and at that point who cares whether the scale says 115 or 135 because at that bf% you will be cute and tiny and shapely and firm.
Just a thought. My ex bf is a trainer at my gym. For months on end (we weren't bf/gf at the time) we butted heads...among other things I insisted on weighing myself every morning and he insisted that I not. Only much, much later (like almost a year after the weight was lost) did he tell me that much of his early advice, which I took to be more negative than encouraging) was based on his experiences with dozens and dozens of clients who became easily discouraged/frustrated and gave up on weight loss altogether when the scale wasn't moving as fast as they thought it should. His misguided advice (only weigh every six weeks) was based on his wanting me to succeed. Maybe something like that is going on in your trainers mind....possibly he's had experience with clients giving up easily and he's just trying to keep you motivated by working toward a short term, easier to achieve goal.
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Ohm
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Posted: 13 October 2007 11:52 am |
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Here's just a tiny suggestion, ifgnore it if you don't think it's a good idea:
You could go along with his idea until you rech his goal and then re-assess the situation. If you feel his goal is too high, suck it an dsee. Onc eyou get there, there is nothing on earth to stop you saying "OK, well I am here, and I prefer to keep going and lose some more weight/fat". If you have reached the goal he has set and are not happy with your body composition then he can hardly argue - you never know, you may even find that you are happy at that level, but you might still feel the way you feel now - in which case you just carry on for a bit longer, until you do feel happy.
It is definitely your body - you can do anything you like with it. So long as you are not hurting anyone, including your self, I can't see what problem anyone could have with that.
B
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 13 October 2007 07:53 pm |
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suenos wrote: I'm a little confused by the 30% BMI part too...but at any rate please don't let what he said discourage you in the least from going after what you want...it's your body and believe me - you have a lot of control over where you "end up" in terms of weight, body composition and to a degree even shape. There is no reason in the world, with attention to diet and balanced exercise (weights/cardio) why you can't get your body fat% (if that's what we're talking about) into the low twenties - and at that point who cares whether the scale says 115 or 135 because at that bf% you will be cute and tiny and shapely and firm.
Just a thought. My ex bf is a trainer at my gym. For months on end (we weren't bf/gf at the time) we butted heads...among other things I insisted on weighing myself every morning and he insisted that I not. Only much, much later (like almost a year after the weight was lost) did he tell me that much of his early advice, which I took to be more negative than encouraging) was based on his experiences with dozens and dozens of clients who became easily discouraged/frustrated and gave up on weight loss altogether when the scale wasn't moving as fast as they thought it should. His misguided advice (only weigh every six weeks) was based on his wanting me to succeed. Maybe something like that is going on in your trainers mind....possibly he's had experience with clients giving up easily and he's just trying to keep you motivated by working toward a short term, easier to achieve goal.
My mistake was in adding percentages after the numbers for BMI. I do know there is a difference between body fat and BMI and we were discussing BMI. So, I want to be under 24 and he thinks I should "just be happy" if I can get it under 30. And I don't accept that. But maybe you're right about the motivation thing. I would think that if I've stuck it out this long (since March) that I'm not going to just give up, I mean I could see if you're talking about only a month or two into a new lifestyle but this has become just habit now or simply "the way I am" so I don't know what he's thinking.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 13 October 2007 07:59 pm |
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The game was amazing! Rangers won 3-1!!! LET'S GO RANGERS! I didn't even indulge in giant cups of chips or cotton candy or Crunch-N-Munch. I'm a bit hoarse today, but it's well worth it. Oh yes, and my XXL Rangers t-shirt is wayyyyy too big. My dad was talking about buying a Jagr or Shanahan jersey and I told him he should put it off until I get to a maintenance level for my weight. So, we'll see.
This is like a Perfect Fall DayTM and I don't even feel like getting out and enjoying it. I don't know why I'm in such a funk. I had a great weight loss for the week. I'm mostly done with my homework (just 3 more assignments due by tomorrow night). I'm ready for tomorrow's race. So, I dunno. I just feel blah...
Saturday, 10/13/07
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal (150); 1 small banana (90); 1/2 TBsp agave sweetener (30) - which it ended up not needing anyway
Lunch: 1 slice NY-style pizza (272)
Dinner: 1 serving lime chicken* (228); 1/2 cup white rice (115); 1/2 cup black beans (90)
Water: 24 oz.
Decided I had to at least step outside the door. I strapped on my roller skates, which actually roll now (at my heaviest, they wouldn't roll. I'm not kidding) and discovered that wow, I've lost my sense of balance. I wobbled around for a few minutes (didn't want to try my hand at being on the street yet) and then came back in with a big ol' grin.
Now I've got (american) college football on in the background while I finish up assignment 2 of 3.
*Lime chicken...so, omg, that was yummy. First I sauteed 1/4th of a finely chopped onion in 1 TBsp light butter. Once they were transparent, I threw in one pound of ground chicken. I added 2 TBsp Thai sesame lime sauce (found in the grocery store) and sprinkled on some basil. It just needs to cook through and then it's ready to serve. Serves 4, cal = 228.Last edited on 14 October 2007 03:38 pm by abnormalapathy
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Ohm
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Posted: 13 October 2007 07:59 pm |
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I'm right behind you - if you want to be healthy, a BMI of 30 is still, technically, obese. But maybe he doesn't know how determined and focussed you are. Lots of overweight people choose to simply reduce the risk to an level where itis manageable, and aren't too fussed about reachinga particular goal. But he clearly doesn't know you like (I feel) I know you. I read your diary every time you post, and you are one determined and intelligent lady - with some fairly strong views.
If you want to get to a BMI of 22, or even 18, then I for one am absolutely persuaded that you can do it. You've come this far, you can go the rest of the way, with the rest of us cheering behind you.
I guess your gym instructor doesn't realise how determined you are. But then, you will still have to travel through a BMI of 30, so you will get to see what that feels like, and you can just tell him "I'm not happy here" and keep on going (if you want to).
Go girl!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 13 October 2007 08:01 pm |
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Thanks, Ohm. I needed that encouragement today. 
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Ohm
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Posted: 13 October 2007 08:04 pm |
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Chin up, Abby, assignments don't last forever. You are going great guns.
And me? Well I aim to please!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 14 October 2007 03:49 pm |
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RACE DAY! I have to leave in about a half hour and I'm nervous as h&((.
Sunday, 10/14/07
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal (150); 1 TBsp peanut butter (90)
Brunch: 3 strawberrry and banana pancakes (595)
Snack: 1 sugar free cupcake (115)
Dinner: 1 cup chicken, roasted (231); 1 medium boiled potato (144); 1 flatbread (220)
Dessert: 1 small red velvet cupcake (250)
Water: 16 oz.; 24 oz. tea (140)
Exercise: Walk/jog - 3.1 miles, 48:02 (348)
Well, I finished in 48:02 so I was well under the 60 minute mark I wanted to beat. I would have ideally liked to finish in 45:00 or less, but as my bf was quick to point out, this was my very first race and I did stellar if I consider that this time last year I wouldn't have been able to even walk half the distance I jogged and walked today.
I am totally wrecked right now. My right foot is really sore. I've iced it, then took a long, hot shower, popped some liquid Aleve and am just waiting it out. In the meantime, I've got a breast of veal defrosting in the fridge. Other than cooking dinner tonight, I've got zero plans.
Last edited on 15 October 2007 03:10 am by abnormalapathy
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suenos
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Posted: 14 October 2007 03:52 pm |
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| Good luck and kick butt
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voodoodoll
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Posted: 14 October 2007 03:54 pm |
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| hey apathy, i bet you are so nervous but i am sure you will do well! just think how far you have come to get to the point that you are actually capable of running 5km. good luck and let us know how you get on. think of the long journey it has taken to get to the start line, now the finish line doesnt look so far away does it?
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 14 October 2007 05:52 pm |
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Run, run, fast as you can! Go girl go! We're all behind you!
Let us know how you do, Speedy!
DG
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 15 October 2007 04:43 pm |
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I ended up not cooking last night afterall. I wasn't in the mood to stand over the oven. So, we went to a local Greek place. My dinner was ehhhh....nothing to write home about. I was in one foul mood yesterday and I have no idea why. I was feeling pretty blah and not for any good reason, either. I ended up just going to bed around 10 PM. I would have liked to spend more time with my bf, but I was just dragging him down, so I felt it was better if I just slept it off.
I'm in a weird mood again today, too. I'm definitely "happier" than over the weekend and yet still not quite feeling like "myself." I have something to do every night after work this week which means that the limited time I have to do homework has to be well-spent. Of course I'm not feeling terribly motivated (as usual).
Monday, 10/15/07
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal (150); 1 small banana (90)
Snack: 1 medium apple (72)
Lunch: 1 flatbread (220); tzaziki sauce (40); 3 oz lamb kebab (160); lettuce/tomato (15)
Dinner: 3 oz veal breast (226); 1 medium artichoke (60); dipping sauce (147); 2 slices low carb 7 grain bread (120); 1/2 cup white rice (115)
Water: 23 oz.
Dinner is in the CrockPot which means I'll have a (hopefully) divine breast of veal tonight when I get home. I steamed two artichokes last night because I knew I wouldn't feel like dealing with it later. Then, on Theresa's journal, I got put in the mood for a sweet potato, so I'm going to pick one up at the grocery store on my way home tonight and get it going before my dr appt this way everything is done when I'm "home for good."
All of my muscles are aching today. I'm still hobbling, but it's less to do with my feet and more to do with everything else - glutes, thighs, calves - and being in 3-inch heels isn't helping matters, either. Oh, the things I do for vanity. Speaking of which, I made an appt with my friend/hairdresser for 1 Nov. to get my mop chopped and highlighted. He wants me to go blonde and I'm fearing it a bit. I'm Italian (the Southern kind) and we have no business being blonde. So we'll see who wins in the end.
Forgot to mention that last night at dinner, my bf went through my wallet and discovered my old ID from the Recreation Center (from Feb 2007). He looked at me and exclaimed, "You've lost so much weight! When was this photo taken?" I thought I'd thrown it away. When we got home, I whipped out my new ID (taken about 2 weeks ago) and we compared the difference.
I think part of the reason I've been so gloomy is because I've spent quite a bit of time lately beating myself up for how fat I let myself get. Rather than focusing on how far I've come and on the things I've accomplished and how wonderful my life is right now...I'm worried about whether I'll be able to keep this up, if I'll be one of the many who gain it back, if I'll always have to obsess about calories, if it will always take me longer to examine a menu than to eat the food that's served.
Or maybe I'm freaked out about having not one, but two, dentists appointments this week when I despise dentists in the first place. Or how I have to come up with brilliant ways to market this script that got turned down by another production company for a client (but foremost a friend) - when all I really want to do is ask the producers what's in their Kool-Aid. Or how we're only just at the halfway point for the semester and I'm already losing interest, even though my classes this term are really interesting and I like all of my professors.
I don't know. Today is just a whiny Monday, I suppose.
Last edited on 16 October 2007 04:30 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 16 October 2007 04:37 pm |
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Had a good long chat and one of those cries that leaves you with a pounding headache long after the tears have run dry. And while I still don't feel 100%, I certainly feel hella better than I have for the last few days. Now I need to get my "obvious annoyance" by every little thing in check so that I don't ruin today too.
Now the pain from the run has moved to my inner thighs. My feet are starting to feel better, but my glutes still hurt. I'm stiff every time I get up from my desk, but I seem to be okay once I get going.
I only got a 72% on my CIS exam last night which I'm not entirely pleased about, but is understandable considering I don't even have the textbook thanks to idiots in my building who like to take the packages that UPS leaves in the lobby. Welcome to Zoo York. I seriously can't figure out what kind of party they're having with two classes worth of textbooks and about three pounds of El Torito cornbread mix my cousin sent me. Oh well.
I'm supposed to meet up with my friend/client tonight and brainstorm on marketing this script. I hate this part. I'm about desperate enough to counter the Naked Cowboy in Times Square and squander my pennies until we can afford to shoot this thing ourselves. In any case, it will be good to see him and he always cheers me up. Plus, he's going to help me pick a costume for the Halloween parade (which means I'll probably be a drag queen or something).
Tuesday, 10/16/07
Breakfast: 1/2 cup oatmeal (150); 1 small banana (90)
Snack: 1 medium apple (72)
Lunch: 10 oz chicken soup (80); 6-inch Subway sub with turkey breast, american cheese, mustard, lettuce, tomatos, black olives (345)
Dinner: 2 slices bread (172); 1 eggplant rollatini, not fried or battered (170); 12 mini cheese ravioli (360)
Dessert: 5 bites frozen yogurt; 5 bites cake batter ice cream (140)
Water: 23 oz.
Ha, CodeMonkey's lunches are rubbing off on me. In reality, I needed to go to the post office and my options were pretty limited. Let's see...there was pizza or fried chicken or mozarella sticks or Subway. So...Subway it was. I have NO idea what dinner will be tonight since Mima and I will just pick a place along the way that's quiet enough to catch up.
Last edited on 17 October 2007 03:08 pm by abnormalapathy
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voodoodoll
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Posted: 16 October 2007 06:46 pm |
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hey apathy. i totally know what you mean about sometimes getting gloomy when you wonder whether you are going to be in this spiral of weight loss/gain forever. i still cant believe i got to 281lbs, i still cant believe i am 154lbs, i think ill still be beating myself up when i get to 140lbs! but hey, we are both doing so well now and thats the main thing!
p.s i cant believe your college books get stolen from your building. thats awful! 
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suenos
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Posted: 16 October 2007 07:20 pm |
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voodoodoll wrote: but hey, we are both doing so well now and thats the main thing!
what voodoodoll said
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 17 October 2007 03:15 pm |
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I am back to my "normal" self today, just as I anticipated! I think my bf feels a little badly that he couldn't fully lift my mood, but a few hours with Mima did the trick. Oh well, it's not personal. He liked my game plan so we're going to do another round of queries (since it's been a long time since he's done any). We're giving ourselves til the end of the year to do the research, he's taking a marketing workshop next month and then we'll send them out in early January. This is good.
I didn't like ANY of the costumes in Ricky's last night, so I decided to either be a pin up girl or a freudian slip. It will probably depend on the weather (and how my self confidence is that day). Standing along the parade route in a slip? Eeeeee...we'll see.
I should also mention that I saw like 10 people walking around with cups of what looked like ice cream by a place called pinkberry last night. So I tracked it down and decided to try it out. $5.25 later I had frozen yogurt with raspberries and almonds that still had that bitter/sour yogurt taste. Into the trash it went, and I was sad.
I was rushed this morning so I didn't grab any fruit and didn't make my own oatmeal. I picked up one of those Quaker Oatmeal Express cups and I am kinda mad that I just didn't get up 15 minutes earlier today. 19g of sugar? Are you freakin' kidding me?
It's going to be a long day. I've got two committee meetings - one for work, one for school. Then I have yet another dr. appointment. Tomorrow is the first dentist appointment and I already want to cry.
Wednesday, 10/17/07
Breakfast: Quaker Oatmeal Express (200)
Lunch: eggplant parm panini (520)
Snack: 1 cup strawberries (54)
Dinner: 1 ground turkey empanada (350); 1 brocolli whole wheat empanada (175)
Water: 34 oz.
Last edited on 18 October 2007 03:54 am by abnormalapathy
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 18 October 2007 01:04 am |
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I am back to my "normal" self today, just as I anticipated!
YEAH!
Fredian slip. I love it. I hope you post a picture for us to see!
DG
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 18 October 2007 04:15 am |
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Dr. appt went well. I got the ok to do what I wanted to do (i.e. skip the TOM altogether) and was assured that it would be okay. This makes me wicked happy. The hormones are definitely helping, so I'm going to stay on them.
Afterwards, I went to Macy's for some shop therapy. I've been looking for a true red lipstick. After sitting at the Chanel counter for over half an hour I realized that I simply do not have the lips to pull off such a bold move. Oh well, maybe one of my success treats to myself will be some collagen. Hey, I don't need to go all Angelina, but I do need some help. Anyway...so I settled on a lipgloss only to find that they were sold out. Then I moved on to skincare. And I spent an ungodly amount on a cleaner, toner and moisturizer. Like, seriously ungodly. Like as much as I spend in groceries each month. Eeeesh. But I'm getting a free facial out of the deal, so...I suppose it was worth it.
Anyway, while I was sitting there waiting for the girl to ring me up, the sales manager came over and complimented my boots (lovely knee high, black, 3-inch heels and they kill me every step of the way). I thanked her (hard for me to accept compliments, but I managed) and she mentioned that she can't wear boots. I asked her why and she said, "My calves are too big. I can't get into any boots, not even ankle boots."
"That's a shame,"I said. "I used to have that problem too."
"What did you do?"
"I lost almost 40 pounds." Now, I didn't say it to be mean. I said it because it's true. I used to have A LOT of trouble finding boots, but the weight loss has helped.
"I'm trying, but it's not easy."
"I hear ya." And I really was trying to not be condescending, but rather to sympathize that yes, I do understand the struggle.
At any rate, the compliment was great and had me floating around the city on a natural high. I met my bf for dinner and he said, "You've been up to something, I can tell." So I gave in and showed him the purchases and told him about the boot conversation and I'm sure he thinks I'm a bit mad, but this is the first splurge I've made on myself and I deserve it.
So there.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 18 October 2007 03:48 pm |
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Scale didn't budge again, even though according to my tracking, I should have lost 2 pounds. I'm not going to let it get to me because I know that aside from not exercising this week, I did everything else right.
Thursday, 10/18/07
Breakfast: Quaker Oatmeal Express-Baked Apple (200); 1 cup mandarin oranges (154)
Lunch: 3 oz chicken breast, grilled (87); fat free honey dijon (60); 1 oz feta cheese (75); carrots, spinach, corn, cucumbers, black olives in salad (117); 1 vegetable spring roll with 2 TBsp duck sauce (125)
Dinner: 1 pint wonton soup (100); 10 mini chicken steamed dumplings (450)
Snack: 1 medium banana (105)
Snack: 1 Kellogg's bar (90)
Snack: Fluff-a-nutter sandwich on ww (270)
Water: 58 oz.
Fiber: 21.5g (6g from supplements)
Exercise: Walk - 1.3 miles, 20 minutes (147)
Some goals for the coming weeks:
-Drink at least 48 oz of water per day (really need to get better about that)
-Get at least 20g of fiber per day (up to 6g from supplements)
-Slow down when I eat so that each meal takes at least 20 min.
They put off the potential root canal until my Saturday appointment. But if tonight was any indication, I think I'll survive. Hey, this guy is actually pretty good. It's just his hygienist that needs to go back to kindergarten and learn some people skills.
Last edited on 19 October 2007 03:00 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 19 October 2007 03:07 pm |
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I don't know what got into me last night, but I ended the day around 1,800 calories. Not so great. It's still under my "maintenance level" but won't leave me a big ol' deficit at the end of the day either.
Tonight we're swimming!!! I don't know what the heck I did with my goggles, so I hope I can swim for at least a half hour. Sometimes the chlorine bothers my eyes without them. After swimming, we're going to see an off-off Bway show. It's one I've already seen, but I love it, so I'm dragging my friend to see it with me. :)
Friday, 10/19/07
Breakfast: Oatmeal Express (200); 1 cup strawberries (54)
Lunch: minestrone soup - bowl (200); 5 jumbo vegetable ravioli (380); 2 small slices italian bread (80); 1 almond biscotti (110)
Dinner: Bison burger (207); 1 hamburger roll (140); 1 medium baked potato (161); 2 pats butter (70)
Dessert: Cold Stone Creamery - Cheesecake Fantasy - Like It size (480)
Water: 40 oz.
Fiber: 24.3g (6g from supplements)
Exercise: Swimming, freestyle 35 min (378)
I'm #%@&! at myself right now.
Last edited on 20 October 2007 06:25 am by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 21 October 2007 12:06 am |
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Dentist was okay. I didn't need a root canal after all, so that's incredibly good news. My mom came in today from Jersey so went to pick up the favors for the party (they look fantastic!) and then she took my bf and I out to lunch. We had Thai food and fortunately my bf was willing to split an entree with me. Afterwards, we went to the grocery store, the Chinese grocery store and the fruit/vegetable store. Now I'm armed to the teeth with a mix of stuff so I don't have to resort to cafeteria food next week.
Oh, I learned that folks in the UK call "sharon fruit" we call "persimmons." I didn't buy any though. Maybe on the next trip. Also discovered that Weight Watchers whole grain bread is 90 calories for 2 slices. Needless to say, I'll be switching to that rather than my current bread which is 120 calories for the same serving size (and has less fiber too).
Saturday, 10/20/07
Breakfast: 2 slices whole wheat bread (120); 1 TBsp peanut butter (90)
Lunch: 1/2 cup jasmine rice (100); 1/2 order mango chicken (about 1.5 cups) (323)
Snack: 1 oz. live active mozarella cheese (80)
Dinner: 1/2 6-inch tomato quiche (150); 2 cups mixed greens, cucumbers, tomatos with citrus vinaigrette (50)
Dessert: 1 slice (1/6) peach blueberry pie (328)
Water: 16 oz.
Fiber: 11 g
The bf brought home a tomato quiche, so I think that along with a mixed green salad will be dinner tonight. Of course, he also brought home a peach blueberry pie from the farmer's market too. I think he finally got the message that if he's going to do that, he should buy an individual pie so that I don't have the temptation lying around the house. At least, I hope he got that message. I've got 6 weeks til my party and insist on losing at least another 5 pounds.
Last edited on 21 October 2007 05:00 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 22 October 2007 03:29 am |
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Long day...was nice to see my bf's mom and abuelita. I don't see them often enough. I made a batch of pumpkin ginger muffins from a recipe I received in the latest newsletter (I think from here) and they were delicious. I ended up having to make two batches - one to bring and one to keep - and my bf is making short work of the second batch. I also managed to cut the calories down further by eliminating the low-fat buttermilk (replace with Rice Dream) and using egg beaters instead of real eggs.
Sunday, 10/21/07
Breakfast: 2 egg beaters (70); 2 slices weight watchers whole wheat bread (90); 1 TBsp light butter (50); 2 slices turkey bacon (50)
Lunch: 3 oz sauteed chicken (90); 1 cup moro (250)
Snack: 4 mini pumpkin muffins (240)
Dinner: chicken breast, roasted (230); 1/2 cup peas (62); 1/2 mashed sweet potato (90)
Dessert: 1 slice peach/blueberry pie (328)
Water: 24 oz.
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Theresa
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Posted: 22 October 2007 11:05 am |
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| Hi Abby you are doing great and I am glad to see you are feeling a bit better again. I have just being reading your diary again and I see that you did a 5km race. I'm in awe. The last time I did a 5 km race I was about 50lbs less than I am now and I walked and ran. Just think of how well you will do at your goal weight, verrrry impressive. Keep it up girl!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 22 October 2007 03:57 pm |
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I don't know if this is a cold, allergies, or the beginnings of some icky sinus thing, but whatever it is SUCKS. I really can't complain though because it's the first "whatever" all year. I've sat back watching everyone else around me pass bugs around the office and I haven't caught one...so I figure I'm overdue. I will say, though, my immune system kicked into high gear when I started eating right and exercising back in March.
Monday, 10/22/07
Snack: 2 mini pumpkin muffins (127)
Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal (150); 2 packets sugar (32)
Snack: 1 medium apple (72); 1 small banana (90)
Lunch: vegetable soup (140); 1 cup mixed fruit (55)
Dinner: chicken breast, roasted (230); 1/2 cup peas (62); 1/2 mashed sweet potato (90)
Snack: 2 mini pumpkin muffins (127)
Dessert: 1 slice peach blueberry pie (328)
Supplement: 1 Emergen-C packet (25)
Water: 40 oz.
Fiber: 19.5 g
I must really be sick because I'm not even hungry. I'm eating because it's "time" to eat and because if I don't, I know that I'll end up famished at the absolute worst time. Fortunately what was supposed to be vegetarian chili (but which is more like a vegetable soup - there is no protein in this thing at all!) is a bit spicy and is helping to open up my sinuses so I can breathe a bit. Also, I'm already up to 40 oz of water for the day so I'm sure that's helping to flush my system.
Last edited on 23 October 2007 03:02 am by abnormalapathy
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Theresa
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Posted: 22 October 2007 04:09 pm |
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Hi Abby
Don't you want to post the pumkin muffin recipe in my diary for me please. It sounds so yummy! Thank you I will appreciate it very much if you can.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 22 October 2007 06:10 pm |
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Pumpkin Ginger Muffins
1 cup all-purpose flour
1 large egg
1/2 cup canned pumpkin
1/2 cup light brown sugar
1/4 cup (1/2 stick) butter
1/3 cup low-fat buttermilk
1 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon ginger
1/4 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 teaspoon nutmeg
1/4 teaspoon crystallized ginger (if desired)
Cream the butter, add in the light brown sugar and beat well. Add the egg and the pumpkin and continue to beat until well blended. In a separate bowl, combine all dry ingredients (baking soda, baking powder, spices, flour). Add half of the dry mixture and beat until incorporated. Add the buttermilk and then the other half of the dry mixture. Beat until well blended.
Spray muffin pans with Pam or line with paper baking cups. Fill each muffin tin halfway. If using full size muffin pans, bake 25 minutes at 350 degrees or until toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean. If using mini muffin pans, bake at 350 degrees for 15-20 minutes or until toothpick comes out clean.
If using the crystallized ginger, add a sprinkle to the top of each muffin.
Calories - 127 each (fullsize- without crystallized ginger); 138 each (fullsize with it)
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Theresa
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Posted: 23 October 2007 09:14 am |
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| Thanks so much Abby. I will definately be trying it!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 23 October 2007 03:34 pm |
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Still not feeling 100% but definitely better than yesterday. I've been relentless with the Sudafed and am trying to drink as much water as I can. Even though I'm not fully recovered, I'm going swimming tonight. Eff it. I need the workout.
Tuesday, 10/23/07u
Snack: 1 medium cucumber, peeled (24)
Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal (150); 1/4 cup pumpkin (70)
Snacks: 1 medium apple (72); 2 small bananas (180)
Lunch: 1/2 chicken and black bean wrap (200); 1 cup orzo (159); 1 mini pecan pie - 1" diameter (109)
Pre-workout meal: 2 slices Weight Watchers whole grain bread (90); 1 TBsp peanut butter (98)
Dinner: chicken breast (230); 1/2 cup peas (62); 1/2 cup mashed sweet potato (125)
Snack: 3 fudge stripe cookies (160); 2 pumpkin muffins (127); 1/2 slice pie (164)
Water: 34 oz.
Fiber: 29.4 <---Woohoo!
Last edited on 24 October 2007 05:07 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 24 October 2007 12:06 pm |
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| I'm sure it would be even yummier!!! You might want to add an extra egg or some more milk to it though so it won't be as dry though.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 24 October 2007 05:15 pm |
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Well for some reason I was feeling depressed last night and ended up on some ridiculous eating binge in front of the tv. Haven't had that happen in a while, but this is only a minor setback, not the end of the world. I also couldn't go swimming because we didn't check the schedule and the pool was being used for a class, so that sucked. I'm just hoping that with all of this that at the very LEAST I don't see a gain for the week. I'm certainly not expecting a loss with the way I've been eating this week. 
I had a frustrating morning, too. I thought I had a suit all picked out for my meeting today and then when I put it on, I remembered that I'd never had it hemmed so it was too long. So then I was scrambling for something else to wear and well, nothing fits! In a good way, of course. All of my pants are way too big, as are my suits and jackets. I have a board meeting today, so it only complicates things. Fortunately I'm going shopping for some new things this weekend. Apparently it's long overdue.
Wednesday, 10/24/07
Snack: 2 mini pumpkin muffins (127/0)
Breakfast: 1 instant oatmeal - cinnamon (170/4); 1/4 cup pumpkin (70/5.6)
Snack: 1 medium tangerine (37/1.9)
Lunch: 1/2 thai chicken salad wrap (240/2); 2 cups green salad with balsamic vinaigrette (40/2); 3 mini chocolate chip cookies (210)
Dinner: 1 hard shell black bean taco (160/3); 1 hard shell chicken taco (185/2)
Water: 20 oz
Fiber: 20.5
Last edited on 24 October 2007 06:40 pm by abnormalapathy
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voodoodoll
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Posted: 24 October 2007 07:25 pm |
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| oooh, i have to try your pumpkin ginger muffins! i got a pumpkin to carve for halloween and it seems a shame to waste the insides. do you think it will work ok with fresh pumpkin instead of canned?
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 25 October 2007 12:37 pm |
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Much to my surprise (and probably only because I convinced myself I'd have a gain this week), I've lost 2.5 pounds, bringing me down to 202. I'm ecstatic! Now more than ever it seems like I really will reach my goal of being out of the 200s before I turn 30 in a few weeks. So, that's 38.2 pounds in 30 weeks.
Over the weekend I pitched the idea of a new tattoo to my bf. He's never drawn any of the ones I have - most are from books, except the one that I designed. Anyway, I asked him to draw one for me that I can look forward to getting once I reach my goal weight. It would be a piece on my upper arm and extend up to my shoulder. Last night, he revealed his inital sketch and I really like the concept. I gave him the theme "Hellfire" and he drew a torch but rather than a handle, it had the hilt of a sword. Anyone who knows me really well knows this actually speaks volumes about me, and the way he drew it looked feminine - from certain angles and without all of the detailing it looked a little like a curvy sprite with hair of flames. I can't wait!
Thursday, 10/25/07
Breakfast: 1 instant oatmeal - cinnamon (170/4); 1/4 cup pumpkin (70/5.6)
Snack: 1/2 medium apple (36/1.7)
Snack: 1 medium banana (109/3.1)
Snack: Breyers Smart Yogurt (170/1)
Lunch: 1 kaiser roll (147/1.3); turkey burger patty (150); 2 sesame breadsticks (55/1)
Snack: 1/2 ounce pretzels (50)
Event: ~5 canapes, 1 duck confit crepe (6" diameter), 1 apple walnut crepe - (~250)
Dinner: 1 potato empanada (260/2)
Water: 45 oz
Fiber: 19.6
I've been doing a lot better about stretching out my meals so that I'm not eating them so quickly. Though I haven't had as much water as I know I need, I've been doing a lot better on increasing the fiber. My newfound favorite - oatmeal with pumpkin helps a lot in this department...it's over 9g of fiber alone.
Last edited on 26 October 2007 01:56 am by abnormalapathy
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Theresa
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Posted: 25 October 2007 12:54 pm |
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| Well done Abby! At the rate you are going you will be well under the 200's by the time you turn 30. On your birthday you must set your next weight goal for yourself and you will know that you can achieve it because of achieving your first goal. Be very proud of yourself! 38 pounds is one heck of an amount to get rid of and a brilliant achievement. You go girl!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 26 October 2007 01:10 pm |
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First, thanks for all of the encouragement! It helps a lot!
Yesterday was one of "those days." I ended up going to bed around 11 and just felt completely drained. This will be a busy weekend - tonight I'm going swimming. I'm scheduled for a facial at Macy's tomorrow afternoon and on Sunday we're going to New Jersey to go shopping with my mother. Interesting, indeed.
Friday, 10/26/07
Breakfast: 1 packet instant oatmeal - cinammon (170/4); 1/8th cup pumpkin (45/2.8)
Snack: 1 cucumber, with peel (45/1.5)
Snack: 1 medium banana (105/3.1)
Lunch: 1 chicken roll (~400); 1 slice anniversary cake (~380)
Pre-workout meal: 2 slices Weight Watchers whole grain bread (90/5); 1 Tbsp PB (90/1)
Dinner: 2 red bean buns (246/2); 2 pork and cabbage buns (276/1)
Water: 34 oz.
Fiber: 21.4 g
Exercise: 30 min swimming - 24 laps (321)
Last edited on 26 October 2007 11:49 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 27 October 2007 03:26 pm |
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Saturday, 10/27/07
Breakfast: banana flap stacks - 3 Aunt Jemima pancakes (210/2); 1 medium banana (105/3.1); 1 TBsp Aunt Jemima syrup (13)
Lunch: 2 red bean buns (246/2); 2 pork and cabbage buns (276/1)
Dinner: 1 cup white rice (205/0.6); 1 chicken leg (189); 4 oz Arizona fruit juice (50)
Snack: 1 red bean bun (123/1); 1 pork bun (138/0.5)
Water: 35.5 oz.
Fiber: 16.2g (6g supplements)
Well, it's not the breakfast of champions or anything, but I bought frozen pancakes last weekend and have been holding off on having any of them so I can use them as a "treat." It was nice to not have oatmeal again, but I know I'll be hungrier sooner than normal too. But man, that was good.
"The boys" (i.e. my bf's friends) are coming over today so I've got to get busy straightening up. My bf is a huge help - he cleaned up most of the living room before I even rolled out of bed. I guess I didn't realize how overtired I was. I haven't been to bed before midnight any night this week. But I'm done with all of my homework (which none of it was due before Sunday night anyway) so I can relax this weekend.
Shopping tomorrow, and I can't wait! Wow, I didn't realize how badly I needed some new things until our Board meeting this week.
Awwww, I got to spend some time with my bf's friend's son (he's 3 mo old). He's so cute!!! And I got the whole "baby" thing out of my system for a while.
Last edited on 28 October 2007 12:05 pm by abnormalapathy
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 28 October 2007 12:10 pm |
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Well, it finally feels/sounds/looks like fall out there. It almost feels like it happened overnight too. I've got about a half hour to make/eat breakfast and get dolled up. One of the things I hate about living here is that having a car is impractical. It will take me about 2 hours to get to my mother's house by train, but it would be less than 45 minutes by car.
Sunday, 10/28/07
Breakfast: 2 egg beaters (70); 2 slices WW whole wheat bread (90/5); 1 TBsp light butter (50)
Lunch: Fridays - Dragonfire Chicken with brown rice and brocolli (500/6.1); 1 slice angel food cake with chocolate mousse (199/0.6)
Dinner - Bertolli - Rigatoni and Sausage (510/3)
Snack: 4 red bean bun (492/4); 1 pork bun (138/0.5)
Water: 17 oz.
Fiber: 19.2g
I didn't drink enough water today and my meals weren't as frequent, so by the end of the night I was "starving" and ended up killing my day by eating all of these Chinese buns I had laying around the house.
Last edited on 29 October 2007 12:06 pm by abnormalapathy
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Theresa
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Posted: 29 October 2007 07:06 am |
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Hi Abby
I am just mentioning to you that I made the pumpkin muffins yesterday and they were absolutely delicious. I used wholemeal flour and a cup of fresh boiled pumpkin mashed, and a quarter cup low fat milk because I couldn't get buttermilk here. It still ended up being absolutely yummy. My son who has a great sweet tooth ate about 5 and insisted I pack some in with his school lunch today. This is what we had for supper last night. I only made 12 so they will be finished today. This will definately be made again and soon. Mine work out to about 130 calories per muffin because I made them a bit bigger.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 29 October 2007 12:11 pm |
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Theresa wrote: Hi Abby
I am just mentioning to you that I made the pumpkin muffins yesterday and they were absolutely delicious. I used wholemeal flour and a cup of fresh boiled pumpkin mashed, and a quarter cup low fat milk because I couldn't get buttermilk here. It still ended up being absolutely yummy. My son who has a great sweet tooth ate about 5 and insisted I pack some in with his school lunch today. This is what we had for supper last night. I only made 12 so they will be finished today. This will definately be made again and soon. Mine work out to about 130 calories per muffin because I made them a bit bigger.
That's great! I'm so glad you enjoyed them!
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 29 October 2007 12:37 pm |
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Shopping was an incredibly frustrating experience yesterday. We began in Kohl's and I found this really cute corduroy jacket with a bit of stretch that looked great except that as the sizes get smaller, the lengths on things tend to shrink too. Now, I'm an apple shape and I carry A LOT of my weight in my tummy, so the last thing I need or want is a jacket that's cropped to my natural waist. It's a shame too, cause it was only $32 and we had a 15% off coupon. Now I'm thinking I should have just bought it anyway. Ugh.
In Kohl's we also came across this beautiful bracelet that was on sale for $65 from $200. But I refused it, even as a gift from my mother, because there were diamonds inlaid in it. I have strong ethical concerns about the entire jewelry industry and diamonds are top on the list of stones I will not wear. The saleswoman must've thought I was an absolute nutcase when she told me they were indeed real diamonds and I said "no thanks". My mother explained how I felt about it and the woman revealed that she is originally from Senegal, and that I'm the first American she's ever seen NOT purchase diamonds for these reasons. It was a very strange start to our afternoon, I'll tell you that much.
We ended up at Burlington and I struggled to find things. I'm very particular about dressy pants - they can't have side pockets, must have stretch and be bootcut. So, I didn't find ANY. I didn't find any fall or winter dresses or skirts that I liked either, and jeans were a total disaster. I won't wear jeans that have rhinestones or no pockets on the back or pockets on the back that are really small in comparison to the rest of the jeans. I know I sound neurotic, but I see what other people can't see when they leave the house and I will not be that girl. So I wound up with a few new shirts and my mom bought me one new fall and one new winter coat.
The fall coat is a 14/16 and fits great! The winter coat is wool and is a 16 and looks amazing on. Wow! I was so excited in the store that I started jumping up and down throughout the whole aisle. Other customers probably thought I looked crazy, but my mom was like "I'm so proud of you!" I have no idea what my bf was thinking - he was probably trying to disassociate from us - though when he was waiting for me to come out of the restaurant from lunch he left me a voicemail that said, "Hey, I just had lunch with this hot chick and her mom. Hahaha." That felt really nice.
So yeah, being in this weird at-the-lower-end-of-the-plus-size-scale state is hard. I can't wait to move out of it altogether. I bought something with horizontal stripes for the first time ever in my adult life - and it actually looks wicked cute, not at all like I thought I would have liked in the first place.
Monday, 10/29/07
Breakfast: 1 Quaker oatmeal - baked apple (200/4); 1 cup strawberries (49/3)
Snack: 1 gala apple (74/1.5)
Lunch: chicken soup (75/1); 1/2 turkey wrap (160/1); 1 slice carrot cake (440/1)
Dinner: 1 cup spaetzle (510/3.4); 2 slices sauerbraten (220)
Dessert: 1 King Kone (250)
Water: 40 oz.
Fiber: 14.9g
Last edited on 30 October 2007 10:18 am by abnormalapathy
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suenos
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Posted: 29 October 2007 04:14 pm |
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| Ohhh, I hate Kohls (I don't know why but I tend to find most of their clothes ugly, but they always have these great sales that keep luring me back anyway) but I love Burlington - so go figure! I'm a super picky clothes shopper too - it can take me hours to find the "right" pair of dressy slacks - pocket placement, cut, lining and hemline are crucial (Ha, maybe that's why nobody will go shopping with me) I'm in major "saving $$$" mode right now and slightly bummed about the season changing without indulging in my usual fall shopping....But I feel like I got my shopping "fix" from reading your post. Reading your description was the next best thing to getting to do it myself.
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 30 October 2007 10:25 am |
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| I pigged out last night at dinner. My bf left work early (like 4 hours earl |
