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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 9 August 2005 03:37 am |
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I don't know whether it was waking up one morning and realizing that I was fat, or a gradual day to day realization of it. I know that I have been over weight for a long time, and even as I type this I feel like lying to myself and saying it hasn't always been like this. But it has. I was never hugely fat, but for some reason I always found myself to be the target of ridicule. When I think back it seems funny because I was never unpopular either. I always had a lot of friends, but still managed to get teased.
I lived with my dad most of my life, and I was pudgy, he used to always try and get me to eat healthy, but I would still sneak to the candy store and buy food. It has seemed to always rule me. He tried telling me he'd give me $5.00 for every pound I lost to motivate me, but I never really cared. It still kept me from going overboard though. I was riding horses every day staying in shape for competition. So I was pretty fit, but still fat. Then I decided to move to my Mom's and I think it went downhill from there.
When I moved to my Mom's I was 15 years old, a size 9.. and Im guessing about 160lbs. It only got worse from there, I remember a time when I was 192lbs and barely squeezing into a size 13. That was at my worse point. I went through a lot of ups and downs with my weight. Mostly staying somewhere between 180-190lbs. I didn't really care what I looked like, I wore baggy clothes and started to hide inside myself. Most of my friends were online because they didn't see me, and I could take pictures of just my face and feel alright about myself.
Then I started working at the SPCA and biking to work everyday and was down to my lowest weight I could remember since I moved to my Mom's at 176lbs. I felt good and had more energy. Then the compassion fatigue of having to euthanize the animals and other sad attributes of that job caught up to me and I became depressed and went back up to 190lbs.
A year went by and I stayed that way. Then just this past July one of the ladies from my church started losing lots of weight with the bernstein diet, so I tried it for myself and within the first week and a half - 2 weeks I lost ten pounds. I felt great. I had started out the diet at 184.5lbs [with me being 5'4 I was very pudgy] and went down to 174.5lbs. I have managed to maintaine that weight through all of the weddings and barbeques since then and am now ready to start again but I thought joining this site would help to make it easier for me to realize Im not alone.
I have a guy who's asked to be my boyfriend now but I want to improve myself before I let myself be with someone else. I am going to keep this diary to track what I do. I also want to use it to keep me motivated to get up every morning and spend time with my horses. I have been neglecting them because of laziness and lack of motivation. So here I go. WISH ME LUCK! <3
Love Skye.
Oh and I bought a bikini that I want to look good in by Oct 22, for when I goto Arizona for my Aunt's wedding. I will attach the pic of me now. It looks really yucky now, but you gotta start somewhere I guess.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 9 August 2005 04:24 am |
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Current Stats
Age: 19
Height: 5'4
Weight: 174.5 lbs
Long Term Goals
 Lose 39.5 lbs and be at 135 lbs by Oct 22, 2005.
Look good in my bikini.
Have my horse ready for showing 'A' circuit next year.
Short Term Goal #1
Start: August 8, 2005
End: August 15, 2005
Lose: 4 lbs
How:
Ride every morning.
Bike ride for 30 minutes every night.
Eat properly.
Drink lots of water.
Do 5-10 minutes of ab workout every morning.
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collegestudent
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Posted: 9 August 2005 05:19 pm |
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I'm the same height as you and when I started my diet, a similar weight. Now I'm about 165. As far as your goal, losing 39 lbs by Oct 22nd isn't advisable. That is a ton of weight to lose, and if you lose it that fast your skin will get saggy/nasty and it just won't be a pretty situation. A much more reasonable goal is probably to weigh about 155 lbs by that point in time (19 lbs in 10 weeks is a lot, but doable). You'll be surprised at how much better you look with each 10 lbs you lose. I think that ultimately for our height 135 is a perfect goal weight, but for this goal you should be shooting somewhere around Valentine's day (just to give you a landmark).
What does the bernstein diet entail? I am not familiar with it.
Good luck.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 9 August 2005 08:54 pm |
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Thank you for the advice. I'm still going to continue with what I'm doing because I don't see anything unhealthy about what Im doing. If I don't lose exactly what I want to lose then I will be fine. I'm not goig to any extremes to lose weight, the bernstein diet is mostly monitoring the amounts you eat and finding supplements to snack foods... like triscuits instead of chips. A normal day would look like this... infact this is today's menu.
Breakfast = 3 egg whites with mushrooms, onions and fatfree cheese slice omelette with 3 slices of tomato[1 protein, 1/2 veg serving]
Snack = Apple & a piece of melba toast [1 fruit, 1 bread]
Lunch = Salad with a tbsp of raspberry vinegrette and an orange [1 veg, 1 fruit]
Snack = 1 cup fat free jello
Dinner = Chicken and Steamed Cauliflower [1 protein, 1/2 Veg]
Snack = A few triscuits
And I don't feel deprived at all. I tend to cheat a little though from time to time and it doesn't seem to affect my weightloss or how I feel. I also drink tons of water, but I've always been a big water drinker. Thank you for your concern, and I plan to start working out to keep my skin from doing any crazy saggy things, and eating my proteins everyday are important in keeping everything tight too.
I woke up late today because of junk that happened last night and kept me from getting to bed til 4 am. But I'm about to go out and feed my horse and ride him, then do some stuff around here, and everything else should go according to plan. I haven't jumped on the scale yet, but I like to weigh myself every morning, I'll update that later. I can do it!!
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klunger
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Posted: 9 August 2005 10:26 pm |
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| Hi there. When I started out to lose weight around mid June, I weighed 184 lbs at 5ft 4 in. Now I weigh 165 lbs. I'm also shooting for 135. To be honest, it hasn't been that hard. This website is so motivating and informative that it will seem easy. I count calories and I use an Excel spreadsheet to total up my intake/output each day to monitor my behavior. I try to work out 5-6 days a week, and exercise is getting so easy now! I mean, I still feel really fat, but that is motivating me to keep going. I just wanted to let you know that you're not the only one!! I never thought I'd get fat- but then again I didn't realize there were 120 calories in a tablespoon of olive oil! No wonder I was fatty boombalatty! Keep up the hard work!!!:)
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tatu_me
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Posted: 10 August 2005 03:13 am |
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Just wanted to comment on how intersting it is that a few of us are 5'4" and each at a different weight and each feel differently about what weight we feel good at.
I am currently around 190, my highest ever weight was 207 (after my pregnancy about 4 years ago) and my lowest known adult weight was 169, about 3 years ago. At 169 I felt #%@&! good about myself. I carried myself better and was able to shop in the Jr.s section. My goal weight is 150 in general. At 169 I fit into a size 12/14 and I liked that! I am interested in seeing what I would feel like buying a size 10 pair of jeans though I do have to admit.
Good luck to ya'll!
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 10 August 2005 05:23 pm |
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reply to klunger
It's awesome to know there's someone out there with the same general goals as me and going through the same kind of thing. Maybe you have MSN or something and we can talk more and help inspire eachother? Cuz I know I could definately use all the help I can get. It's really hard with everyone else around me eating things that I love but would like to not eat. Like Kraft Dinner! haha. Anyways if you do have MSN I'd definately love to talk to more people! And anyone else who'd like someone to talk to I'm here aswell. My messenger contacts are...
MSN = ************
Yahoo = im_c0oler_than_r0n [I don't use this very often].
AIM = i d0nt pl4y f4ir
reply to tatu_me
Yeah it is weird how different people with the same heights feel differently in their bodies and some are more content with a certain weight than others. But then again they may also hold their weight differently and so the weight will look different on them. But it's all the same in the long run I guess, we all have a goal that we want to get to, and we can do it! I'm here for support if you ever need it, I always love to make new friends!
Nice to hear from you guys. Any input or inspiration is definately greatly appreciated. <3
<3 SkyeLast edited on 16 August 2005 08:56 pm by oo_la_skye
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 10 August 2005 05:42 pm |
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Well it's a new day. Yesterday was hectic. I don't think I really ate all that much but I definately wasn't able to follow through with the plans for yesterday.
Right after I got offline yesterday my Gramma called and wanted me to come shopping with her. So what kinda girl turns down shopping? ;P NOT ME! We stopped by my Mom's house where I had 2 sandwiches... I could have settled for only one... bad me. Then Gramma bought a twix bar for me... BAD ME AGAIN. Anyways we went shopping and at first I felt really fat and yucky, but then we went looking at dresses for my cousin's wedding, and I felt really good in there, I was in a smaller dress size then the last time I was shopping for dresses which was nice and they looked really good on me. I ended up getting this cute light purple dress, maybe I'll take a picture and post it later.
So we got home around 8, and I felt bad because Shaun [boyfriend to be.. hah.. he asked me out but I havent said yes yet] was waiting for me for awhile. Then I had Cauliflower and a little bit of Kraft Dinner for supper, cuz it was already made and I was lazy =(
Then I went out and brushed and fed my horse, who was a complete nutcase. And spent the rest of the night cuddled on the couch with Shaun. So yeah, yesterday didn't go as I would have liked it but it's just another day, and today will just have to be better than yesterday ;]
Oh and on the scale yesterday I was 174.0 lbs. But I'm sure that was just a water fluxuation or something. But whatever, every little bit makes me feel better. I'm sure I'm back up to normal again though. Oh well. I'll weigh myself before I shower. Hopefully I get to write in here more today, it really is helping me feel good to go for the day.
Love Skye
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klunger
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Posted: 10 August 2005 06:33 pm |
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| I took off my email address since you already added me! I don't want it here for spam spies to find! Last edited on 10 August 2005 10:17 pm by klunger
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 10 August 2005 10:13 pm |
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Yay! I added you! <3
Well it's 12:10 I have yet to eat cuz I've been busy cleaning all morning. I went out and spent a little time with my horse and am going to go back out later when his food is ready [it has to absorb water] and brush him and spend some time with him. I'm about to go tackle the dishes, but I just weighed myself and I'm 173.5lbs. Which is a pound less than I was 2 days ago. YAY. Yeah I know that it probably isn't healthy or whatever, but it's exciting none the elss, and it really isn't like I've done anything different than usual... I've just been drinking A LOT of water. But today will be different. Today I'm getting back on top of things. So anyways I'm off to go finish cleaning and other junk. OH and Garage Clothing called me for a second interview. 50% off clothes YAY! That's if I get the job, which would really rock. K well toodles. <3 Skye.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 11 August 2005 02:57 am |
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I spent the rest of the day cleaning and drinking water. I steamed a bunch of cauliflower to freeze cuz I eat so much of it and cut up my chicken into portions. I'm about to go clean some more cuz Im bored. Oh and I ate well all day, cept for a handfull of potatoe chips, which Im not too worried about. More later I guess!
<3 Skye.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 11 August 2005 08:53 pm |
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Im going to my Gramma's til Saturday! Update when I get back. <3 Should be good cuz the lady she lives with is on the same diet as me. ;D
<3 Skye.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 15 August 2005 08:02 pm |
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Well alright, 'should be good cuz the lady gramma lives with is on the same diet as me' turned out to be not so good cuz we were so busy. But oh well. I'm strating fresh from this point forward, NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW.
My Daddy called this morning which was nice, but he flew immediately to Arizona cuz my Grampa is very sick, so that wasn't nice news. But I told him and Gramma about my diet and they were very proud of me. So I can do it.
Today I am 174.0 lbs. I am going to conquer this little gap in my weightloss. It's raining but I'm still going to go for a bike ride. I think I'll do 6 kms this morning, and tonight I'll do my ab workout video.
Yay! So I'm off to go bike riding. Toodles.
<3 Skye.
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 16 August 2005 08:55 pm |
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Yesterday went well! I did have a small peice of 2 different cake cuz both of my lil sisters decided to make cakes yesterday and I couldn't just try one and not there others. But other than that I ate well and everything is peachy. Did a good ab workout yesterday.
-Skye
Current Weight = 173.5 lbs
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oo_la_skye
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Posted: 18 August 2005 08:46 pm |
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Well I did super good the last 2 days... no licorice when gramma offered, took less food more salad... and I didn't once feel hungry. (well except for at like 12 last night... but i just drank a glass of water and went to bed. Im going to my friend Caitlin's today, this should be a challenge.
Love Skye
Current Weight = 172.0 lbs
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Krystin
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Posted: 24 August 2005 05:42 pm |
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| I haven't seen a post for awhile and was hoping you are doing well. Best wishes, Krystin
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