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miss katz
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Posted: 24 May 2007 04:11 am |
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Thanks Nir. I'm going to try that. I'll check for whey without soy next time. I got the one I have because it was low-carb and had few calories. My goals-okay.
I'm going to worry less about what I eat.
I'm going to drink whey twice a day.
I think that's all I feel up to right now.
I have been drinking my slimfast optima powder with milk.
Yesterday I ate junkfood-alot of it. I feel weak. But I'll survive.
I just had a small junk food binge yesterday, doritos(3) and strawberry shortcake(2-3).
I didn't record my calories. I'm going to take a break from that today too.
I haven't weighed myself yet. I measured my waist, 32", it was 31" before.
I don't know if I measured after eating or before, I think it was before.
I think worrying less will help me feel better.
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miss katz
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Posted: 28 May 2007 03:00 pm |
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I'm still over eating, but not as much as before. I'm only feeling a little better. I don't know when this will end. I'm just hoping I don't gain too much weight, and if I do gain it I hope I can lose it again and not feel so bad about gaining it. I don't intend on gaining 60lbs. back, especially because I already got rid of most of my big clothes. My pants aren't getting tight yet. I still haven't weighed myself. I've been feeling anxiety that makes me want to keep eating/tasting. It is different from anxiety that I've had before. I'm not sick or nauseous or nervous, I just get the urge to eat-everything! Then I get a little sad because I am so out of control. I choose to eat, but at the same time I feel like I have no choice, I become desperate and use the food to quiet that desperation. I guess time will tell what will happen with my weight.
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zenobia
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Posted: 28 May 2007 09:11 pm |
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hey miss katz  i just wanted to let you know that i know where you are coming from. it's one of those vicious cycles, isn't it? i also wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and i hope you can get through this without being too hard on yourself. i think that is one of the keys to it- don't make yourself feel like #%@&! because of the choices you make. i think it's one of those things where you sort of let it go, try not to be stressed about it, and then things sort of fall into place.
i wish you the best and know that there are many people here that want to see you be happy and are more than willing to listen. don't give up- things will work out.
take care
zen 
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miss katz
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Posted: 30 May 2007 05:11 am |
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Thank you very much Zen. I really appreciate that you (and other readers) listen to me. It helps me to know people read my posts and care and want to help me. I don't talk to anyone about this so I feel good that I can do it here. Yesterday I got back on plan. I didn't binge, I did some walking and today too. I'm getting back to normal finally and my emotions aren't so out of control right now. I am slowly starting by eating less bread and cakes. I didn't have any intense cravings so it wasn't too hard. I just had some diet pepsi and a small chocolate. Also some cherries. I'm trying to at least drink/eat enough protein and get some nutrients that aren't in my multi-vitamin. I just bought one on sale and didn't notice it was missing potassium and phosphorous so I try to eat a bananas, eat brocolli. I am drinking 1-2 slimfast optimas w/skim milk a day so that has those minerals. Whatever I'm eating I try to eat less of it and choose smaller servings or pieces.
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miss katz
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Posted: 1 June 2007 08:07 pm |
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I weighed myself a couple of days ago, I gained 6lbs. so now I'm 146. Not as bad as I thought, but will still take me a couple of months to get back to 140. 
I have been eating alot less and exercising alot more in the past three days. Yesterday I overate a little with little exercise, around 2170 calories. I tried not to eat more than that late at night before bed. I was afraid to go back to eating so much, felt like bingeing. But doing alot better than before and focusing, also feeling better and not like eating the whole world.
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miss katz
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Posted: 3 June 2007 07:25 pm |
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I am still bingeing. I did good for about three days and then started overeating again. At the same time I'm still trying to eat less even when I binge. Trying to at least get the nutrients not in my multi-vitamin. I don't want to stop trying and this journal is part of me trying to become accountable and acknowledge my addiction. I will crave chocolate and instead try to buy a smaller piece rather than a larger piece. I gotta start somewhere. I'm still drinking diet soda instead of regular and that helps to not take in so much calories. I'm going to keep trying because I really don't want to gain anymore weight. Some days I feel strong and some days I feel emotionally vulnerable. I'm not sure how I feel until I get the urge to binge. Sometimes I just want to cry for no specific reason. I just get frustrated. I'll start to cry and then stop. Hardly no tears but I feel like I release some tension in at least trying to cry. I will call that a half cry. It happens when I feel like I'm losing control over my eating. I get frustrated because after all my hard work, I'm ruining my plan. I hope I don't get diabeties. I'm eating alot of sugar.  I get the urge to binge sometimes when I wake up. Actually it's more like a craving for chocolate or something I felt I didn't have enough of the day before. It's like food has become a source of entertainment and stress relief for me. Maybe I'll start doing a puzzle or something. There is a puzzle I have that I haven't started. That should keep me from eating for awhile because once I get into it I don't want to stop. I'm like that with alot of things, not just food and puzzles. That is why I am so scared of drinking alcohol because I know once I start I won't be able to stop. I would rather be obese than an alcoholic. I'm already familiar with being obese. Now I'm not so sure about that comment. Would I rather be an alcoholic? I might get desperate enough, but I hope my logic will never let me become that. Okay, I'm feeling a little better. I use to like to write stories and now I feel like when I try to write, it's too much work in the editing and stuff. And my hands get tired. I feel like my creativity went on a long vacation. I use to be much more creative a long time ago. I hope I get back on track soon. Get bit by the dieting bug, you know, like before when I found my diet mindset.
Last edited on 3 June 2007 07:27 pm by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 11 June 2007 11:35 am |
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Okay, so I'm still overeating, but not as bad as before. I went back to my RMR level for a couple of days and then the third day I overate. Like I didn't want to control it. I feel like I spoil myself, but really, I know I am harming myself. I have strange ideas in my head about eating, maybe even unhealthy ideas. I try to rationalize what I eat and why, but it's hard to see myself objectively. Maybe I should go to OA, because maybe they can tell me if my ideas are just not the best. I usually eat what tastes good. I see food as entertainment so it's hard to eat something I don't enjoy. I mean occasionally that's okay, if I'm busy or something, but not normally. I still try to get my nutrients in. My eating habits aren't completely horrible, but I do need help. I need to work on them and maybe even think about my future health and avoiding problems.
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miss katz
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Posted: 24 June 2007 12:30 pm |
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I have gained 10lbs. eek! I am around 150lbs. now. I am wavering between maintenance and slow gain. I am starting to record my thoughts on food next to my calorie counting. I want to lose weight, but I also want to accept myself at the weight I am now. I'm going to try to write on a more positive note.
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miss katz
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Posted: 3 July 2007 01:45 am |
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I have been doing okay with my eating, dieting off and on. I am between 143-145lbs. now. Thank God. I'm trying to stick to my 1400 calorie plan so I can be 125lbs. by next year or December. I'm so tried of trying to lose weight. It has been almost 2 years already. That's enough :) I'm afraid I have lost some of my taebo muscles, I feel weaker.
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miss katz
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Posted: 13 July 2007 12:14 pm |
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I have been doing so-so. Not in that diet mindset, but almost there. My calories in the past week have been 2375, 1500, 2260, 1400, 1800, 1840, 2690, and today 1540 so far... I felt like I was doing better, but not sure. That averages about 1980 for the 1st 7 days. I think I'm in maintenance. I weighed myself the other day 143ish. It is low compared to what I was before, but I still feel fat. 125, 125, 125, really I just want my two bellies to shrink. I'm not totally depressed over this, but it annoys me. I'm not being strict enough with myself. I haven't been visiting this site too often or really looking up weight related stuff at all. I haven't been doing taebo at all. I wanted to-kind of. I guess I would have to focus on this if I want it that bad. Maybe I don't want it that bad at all, maybe not yet. I would like to get more exercise, that could really help me, I just don't want to go out walking. Especially because I want to avoid the sun. I know I can walk later in the day, but I just don't bring myself to doing it. There is always something more interesting to do. I have been eating some sweets, I'm trying to eat less carbs, but I ate rice today. Pure laziness, I hate preparing stuff so I go for the fast food. I don't like the idea of eating vegetables, but maybe I can learn to enjoy them. I know if I ate just salads and protein I could lose weight, maybe I will start my own diet composed of that. And fruit of course. I have been eating yogurt, so yogurt and milk too for calcium even though brocolli has calcium...I'll see what I can come up with. I have to concentrate. I have been watching Shaqs new weightloss show for kids.
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miss katz
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Posted: 19 July 2007 10:45 am |
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I have been on and off my diet. I think my average calories are around 2000 still. I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow and see what I weigh. I am watching what I eat even though my calories are high. I'm focusing on nutrition even though I still don't think I get enough protein. I have to do this my way at my pace just to have peace of mind and keep my anxiety low. Some days I do good at 1400 calories, some days I maintain at around 1700 calories and some days I go overboard around 2500 calories. I try to walk when I can, but normally I feel unmotivated. I don't know if I will be able to lose weight by next year. I haven't sought help. I just try to deal with my emotions myself. I haven't had any bad anxiety to eat for a couple of weeks now, so I think I'll be fine. I am around 143lbs. now, but I still look and feel fat. I am comfortable with my body, but not always the way it looks. I want to look thinner, smaller, tighter. Maybe someday. Maybe I should focus more on this, I rarely think about it except when I'm comparing myself to other people that look like models.
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miss katz
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Posted: 11 February 2008 05:05 am |
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I haven't been on in awhile. My weightloss journey has been going well. I haven't weighed myself in 3 weeks. Last time I weighed myself I was 136lbs. I believe I lost a couple of pounds after that, but then gained them when I started binge eating during my period. I don't blame my period, but I was careless and gave into the anxiety and sugar cravings. I hope to get back on track. I believe I will reach 125lbs. this year. It has been two years and I can't believe how thin I've gotten. Here are my before and after pics.
So I am back starting again and needing some motivation from this site.
What I ate today:
BK-Low Carb Slimfast 190 calories/20p
Snack-mozzarella string cheese 80
LN-5 buffalo wings with low carb bbq sauce and low calorie blue cheese 350 est.
DN-2 cheese wonton 200, half a bag of large chips 350 est.
total-1170
I feel like I ate something else today but I can't remember. I barely did any exercise-maybe a little walking so I can subtract 50 calories.
1120 then...
right, I forgot that I ate cinnamon toast sticks 5 of them with lite syrup so that's like 400
so my total is 1520, if I eat more tonight I will go past my maintenance calorie level.
So I will just have some water, I'm tired anyway. It's 1:20am and I have to go to bed to get up at 7:30am.
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zenobia
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Posted: 11 February 2008 04:08 pm |
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WOW! smashing! i remember you from way back! my how far you have come! you do look fabulous! can i ask how much you lost? you should so put this in the success stories section! congrats! again, you look great, and even sound happier!!
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Peter
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Posted: 11 February 2008 05:14 pm |
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Welcome back.
Wow, amazing before/after pics. And you're beautiful!
Congrats on becoming a Distinguished Member of our forums, too.
Peter
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abnormalapathy
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Posted: 11 February 2008 06:30 pm |
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From one Brooklyn girl to another, I just want to say that your journal offers so much in the way of motivation, encouragement and brutal honesty about what binging is like and the effects it has. Fortunately I've (mostly) left those binging days behind me, but i read your journal from page one and could identify with 99% of it. Your before and after pics look amazing - they've really helped me get back on the wagon.
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
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miss katz
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Posted: 12 February 2008 01:33 am |
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Hey thanks guys. I'm glad to be back and I'm glad I inspire you. You inspire me too. The RMR calculator has really helped me. I might post in the success section when I reach my goal weight of 125lbs. about 10lbs. to go :) I didn't realize I was a distinguished member. I hope to share more in the forum. I binge a lot less and have learned to dislike that stuffed feeling. I enjoy my food more now and I know that if I exercise I can eat more and still lose weight. I still drink slimfast and people look at me like I'm crazy, then I eat a candy bar too and they think that destroyed the purpose of the slimfast. I drink slimfast so that I can eat the candy bar. So it all works out fine. I hope to get fitter soon and start working out more. I mostly walk right now. I love walking. I am happier now. My experiment worked. People do treat me differently now that I am thinner. They are nicer and smile more. But I also smile more too and I see how it affects them. I have lost probably 100lbs lol, because I lose and regain the same 10lbs now and then. In total I have lost over 60lbs. My measurements were 44DD/38/45, now they are 36D (small D)/30/37. I'm 5'4" 136lbs. on a medium-large frame. And it has taken me about 2 years to lose the weight, slowly about 5lbs. a month on and off.
Today I ate:
BK-lowcarb slimfast 190
snack-string cheese 80
snack-string cheese 80 (having sugar cravings)
snack-raisenets 330
LN-mcdonalds cheeseburger w/2 ketchup 340
parfait with nuts 200
snack-string cheese 80
DN-slice of pizza 300~
total 1615
-300 exercise/walking
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miss katz
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Posted: 13 February 2008 12:58 am |
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Today I did good, but I felt like eating more. My sugar cravings weren't so bad.
BK-lowcarb slimfast 190
snack-mozzarella stick 80
snack-mozzarella stick 80
LN-mcdonalds cheeseburger w/2 ketchup, small fries w/2 ketchup and small parfait w/nuts 820
snack-mozzarella stick 80
DN-slice of pizza 300~ and diet soda 5
total-1555
-300 burned walking
=1255:)
ate mozzarella stick 80
=1335
Last edited on 13 February 2008 02:34 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 14 February 2008 04:28 am |
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So last night I wrecked my diet. I ate another 700 calories, which was fried fish, rice and beans my brother made and octopus salad. So I ate maybe 400 calories over maintenance. I don't remember. Today I also ate more.
BK-high protein Slimfast/mozzarella stick 270
LN-2 slices of pizza a coworker brought us :) 700
snack-2 more mozzarella sticks and candy 240
DN-fried chicken leg with rice and beans and a valentines cookie 800
=about 2000 calories/100 calories over maintenance
-300 walking=1700
Last edited on 14 February 2008 04:30 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 15 February 2008 01:08 am |
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Well I ate a lot today too:) Oh and I forgot to put that I drank a slimfast last night so that was 1900 calories. which is 300 over maintenance. I'm not too worried. I do this sometimes and when I'm ready I'll start losing more weight.
BK-Slimfast 190 (ran out of mozzarella sticks)
SN-croissant 310, baby ruth 280, doritos 130, diet soda 5 (I figured I'd get snacks to eat at work thinking that later I will eat less)
LN-Slimfast 190
DN-2 popeyes thighs w/ketchup 900 and biscuit 240 and diet soda (ds)=5
(they gave me a free thigh but I had planned on getting one, actually originally I planned on pizza, but felt hungry and got a craving for popeyes instead)
total-2250-200 exercise/walking=2050 (450 over maintenance) so with this I've probably gained close to a pound in the last week. If I weigh myself this weekend I'll see, but don't know if I will.
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miss katz
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Posted: 16 February 2008 01:26 am |
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I ate even more last night, but today I did good.
BK-glazed donut 230
snacks-
doritos 130
3 musketeers 260
croissant 310
diet soda 5
LN-cheeseburger and parfait from mcdonalds 540
total-1475-200 exercise/walking=1275 :)
I'm not eating dinner.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 16 February 2008 03:42 am |
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Welcome back, Miss Katz 
WOW! You are looking great! Glad you came back to lose the last 10 lbs with us!
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miss katz
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Posted: 16 February 2008 07:22 pm |
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Thanks Hisgal.
I weighed myself today. 138lbs. I gained 2 pounds in the last month. I'm trying harder now. I'm aiming for 1300 calories today. I did burn about 200 with exercise, if I get hungry I'll eat them.
So far I've just had a slimfast 190. I plan on some buffalo wings later :)
Good thing about gaining two pounds is that I don't feel any difference in my clothing, now if I would gain 5lbs. my clothes won't be as loose. So I'm taking a deep breath and starting to be more careful again. No more letting myself go/spoiling myself.
I also bought some mozzarella sticks and plain yogurts to snack on all week. I want to lose 1-2lbs. within the next two weeks and get back to 136lbs. I'm thinking of having my slimfast for dinner instead of breakfast.
Okay so today I had:
BK-Slimfast 190
LN-Buffalo Wings w/sauce 220 for wings and sauce about 100~
snacks- oreos 270, doritos 130, diet soda 5, blo-pop 75, gum 5
DN-mcdonalds cheeseburger and small fries and 4 ketchup=620
total: 1615-250 of walking=1365:)
Last edited on 17 February 2008 04:35 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 17 February 2008 04:51 pm |
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Today: My aim is 1300.
Slimfast 190
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artistjohn
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Posted: 17 February 2008 05:31 pm |
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Hi you have done a great job and your photos look great.
What about the dietry implications of what your eating for your overall health.
Seems to be a lot of proteins/fats and not a lot of fibre and fruits ands vegetables. Things that are proven to lower your risk of bowel, colon cancer etc
Not having a pop at you. I honestly don't recognise a lot of what your eating. Maybe I am mistaken and it is healthy.
If so I'm sorry!!
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miss katz
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Posted: 18 February 2008 05:12 am |
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First of all, as I have stated before, I don't need any lectures, so I'd rather you not post any. I am a grown woman and very aware of what I eat. Only I decide what I eat, not you, or anybody else, or the doctors that misinform. Got it? If you don't have anything nice to say, I'd rather you not post it on my journal. Thank you. Oh and in case you haven't noticed I am quite the reader and researcher and I am very well informed on exactly what nutrients and fiber (25grams) are needed for women my age and protein requirements (55-100grams) as well, Nutrients found in vegetables and Fruit are in multivitamins or else how could I survive-I don't eat vegetables or fruit much. The proof is in the pudding baby. But you know what no more he said she said, experience is worth something. I choose not to be sheep and that is why my diet has worked for me. I don't deprive myself.
Now back to my journal:
My aim was 1300
BK-Low carb Slimfast 190/20 grams of protein for your information and PLENTY of nutrients found in vegetables, people don't need fiber to #%@&!, just enough water.
(I learned this on the Atkins Diet)
LN-Cheeseburger from Mcdonalds 340 and um another 15 grams of protein!
LN-2 servings of Buffalo wings w/low carb sauce 600 calories and again PLENTY of protein!
diet soda 5
Dinner- Low carb Slimfast-again 20 grams of Protein and PLENTY of nutrients
total=1325 :) and 80 grams of protein-but I am not counting protein now
My bloodtests are normal, my blood sugar normal, cholesterol normal, blood pressure low to normal and weight normal=perfect health plus I take multi vitamins when I don't drink slimfast-
Eat your vegetables if you want, I'll enjoy my greasy burgers and candy
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artistjohn
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Posted: 18 February 2008 09:41 am |
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Sorry didn't realise it was Atkins. Say no more.
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miss katz
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Posted: 19 February 2008 01:36 am |
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Today I had:
BK-slimfast 190
snacks-Doritos 130
Snickers 280
4 mozzarella throughout the day=320
diet soda 5
LN-slimfast 190
DN-pizza 300
ds 5
total-1420-50 exercise=1370 a little above, but okay.
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miss katz
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Posted: 20 February 2008 04:52 am |
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BK-Slimfast 190
snacks-mozzarella-4=320
LN-Cheeseburger, diet soda, and Parfait 545
DN-pizza 300
gum and diet soda 10
total-1365
-50+ exercise
=1315 :)
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miss katz
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Posted: 21 February 2008 12:17 am |
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BK-SF 190
SN-mozzarella (2) 160
SN-Cookies 250
Candy 80
LN-Lamb Gyro 600 est.
DN-SF 190
mozzarella 80
Exercise -300
Total=1250
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miss katz
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Posted: 22 February 2008 03:25 am |
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BK-Raisenets 190
SF 190
mozza 80
candy 40
LN-Lamb Gyro 600 est.
ds-5
SN-mozza 80
DN-pizza 300
ds-5
1490
-300 exercise
=1190
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zenobia
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Posted: 22 February 2008 06:40 am |
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"I'm still over eating, but not as much as before. I'm only feeling a little better. I don't know when this will end. I'm just hoping I don't gain too much weight, and if I do gain it I hope I can lose it again and not feel so bad about gaining it. I don't intend on gaining 60lbs. back, especially because I already got rid of most of my big clothes. My pants aren't getting tight yet. I still haven't weighed myself. I've been feeling anxiety that makes me want to keep eating/tasting. It is different from anxiety that I've had before. I'm not sick or nauseous or nervous, I just get the urge to eat-everything! Then I get a little sad because I am so out of control. I choose to eat, but at the same time I feel like I have no choice, I become desperate and use the food to quiet that desperation. I guess time will tell what will happen with my weight. "
misskatz-
it's so funny that i found this, because it is exactly where i am right now. what's even funnier about it, is that when you posted it way back in may, i posted directly after it. funny how i was brought all the way back to this post. i know you have everything under control now, but i just wanted to let you know that your past words are ringing true to me now (and again!!!) and i was just wondering if you can offer any suggestions. i need to stop my behavior, and it's all about some anxiety to eat/taste everything. yup, i chose, but i feel like i have no choice- i am giving up control on a regular basis and i need to get that control back. thanks. zenobia
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miss katz
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Posted: 23 February 2008 01:29 am |
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Today I had
BK-raisenets 190
SF-190
2 DS-10
LN-burger and fries 1200 est
mint 30
candy 30
DN-pizza 450 (I wasn't going to eat dinner until someone offered me a good pizza and I took it)
so I went over calories total is about 1600-1700 after I subtract 300 from exercise.
which is still around maintenance.
zenobia, I would suggest that you take your feelings seriously and try to figure out what causes the anxiety and whether you figure it out or not, let yourself feel it and forgive yourself if you relieve stress through eating. Decide that for now you will be patient and go easy on yourself and that next week or next month you will get back on the wagon. Trust that you will because you always have.
I think the 'secret' to losing weight is to keep trying. Eventually all that trying will become a habit, routine. Also get your priorities straight, put you and your diet first. Don't just take anything people offer. I know it's hard saying no and sometimes it's hard saying no to yourself. Patience and forgiveness can teach you how to love yourself and respect yourself enough to keep on fighting for what you believe in. If you believe in your diet, in your goals and your progress then don't let the occassional relapse get in your way. Make a deal with yourself, attempt anything to show that you are willing to change, even if it means trying a new exercise tape, buying a different snack. Have plan A, plan B, plan C so that you are not tempted to go off your diet and do not deprive yourself. Figure out your nutrition needs and find a way to fill them that also includes eating what you like, of course in smaller portions, but you will get use to that. And appreciate it more because you have smaller portions.
It's okay to feel some anxiety but then you have to look at what is rational and what isn't. I cannot gain 60lbs. for bingeing for a few days. It's the giving up part that will do that because then months will pass and then I can gain the 60lbs. but I try not to let my bingeing go on for more than a couple of weeks. Even if you lose and gain the same 10lbs. eventually you will have enough practice that it becomes easier to lose it because you have developed better habits. They will stick longer. Oh and express your emotions they are trying to tell you something. It's like they are live beings. Develop a plan that suits you. I found one that works for me as well as the psychology that helps me. It's like self hypnosis.
The psychology that works for me is the numbers game. I count calories in vs. calories out. Counting makes me focus on what I'm eating. Also timing, eating at the same times everyday helps me. I also eat mostly the same all week and then maybe change it up on weekends. You can develop a routine/pattern that you can follow.
What helps motivate me is before and after pictures, fantasizing about my ideals, thinking about how I will be and how great I will feel when I reach my goal. Okay I can probably write forever, this is a lifelong journey. Discovering your power is a lifelong journey.
Last edited on 23 February 2008 01:31 am by miss katz
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zenobia
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Posted: 23 February 2008 03:37 am |
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thanks misskatz. it's funny how i have thought of all of these things and yet i am still where i am. i totally agree with all that you have said. i really like how you said to listen to the emotions because they are trying to tell me something. for some reason, i am finiding it difficult to decode the message. i think the key lies there. also, what you said about saying no. lol- yeah, i have these fears of gianing everything back, but at the same time, i do rationalize that i can't, which sort of throws me into the mindset that's it's ok to over indulge. everything that i got so used to saying "no" to before is getting tougher and tougher to say no to. i remember that it wasn't too long ago that i could let the cravings pass, but now i am giving in. and when i do, it must be in mass quantities- like it's my last meal or something. i think i am just under a lot of stress right now....
anyway, don't mean to ramble in your diary. thanks for your input!
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miss katz
Distinguished Member
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Posted: 23 February 2008 11:31 pm |
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Thinking is one thing. Applying it is another.
You can fight those sugar cravings in a couple of days until you get your blood sugar back to normal. That's what I do. I know that when I can't control it it's because I continue to spike my blood sugar. So I stay away from the high carb stuff. I go eat cheese:)
Today I had:
BK-yogurt 80
slimfast 190
LN-meatball & mozza SW on Italian Bread 700est.
peach yogurt 130
snack-mozzarella 80
ds-5
total-1185
Last edited on 24 February 2008 06:35 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 25 February 2008 12:39 am |
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Bk-gum-2, mint, cheeseburger, small fries, nuggets, ds=850
raisenets 190
1040
Last edited on 25 February 2008 01:08 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 26 February 2008 02:51 am |
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Last night I added a cheese stick and yogurt to complete my calories to 1300-
I haven't had too strong an appetite the last week. Works with my diet at least:)
Today I had-
BK-raisenets 190
oreos 270
ds-5
SF-190
mozza-80
ln-cheeseburger, parfait, nuggets-790
I skipped dinner for now:)
after 300 exercise
about 1225 total
Last edited on 26 February 2008 03:01 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 27 February 2008 03:39 am |
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whopper candy 100
other candy/chips bits 50
slimfast 190
diet soda 5
lamb gyro 600 est.
ds and candy 10
candy 30
2 mozzarella 160
coffee 70
sugar donut 210
ds 5
total 1430-200 exercise=1230
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miss katz
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Posted: 28 February 2008 05:10 am |
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slimfast 190
2 mozza 160
4 dorito chips 40
lamb gyro and ds 605
junior mints candy 200
4 doritos chips 40
sugar donut 210
hot chocolate 230
ds 5
multivitamin
-300+ walking
total-1380-
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miss katz
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Posted: 29 February 2008 01:54 am |
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BK-Slimfast 190
Ds 5
SN-2 mozza 160
snickers almond 230
LN-lamb gyro and ds 605
SN-chocolate 50
candy 60
DN-hotdog with onions 300
sugar donut 210
total-1805
burned 500 exercise/walking
total-1305:)
multi/about 4 water
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miss katz
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Posted: 1 March 2008 04:47 am |
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bk-slimfast 190
ds 5
oreos 270
garlic stick 200
LN-gyro and ds 605
some chips 30
raisenets 190
DN-popeyes thigh and biscuit and ds 705
total-2195
walked off about 600 calories=1695
plus yogurt 80
1775 slightly over maintenance
Last edited on 1 March 2008 04:49 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 2 March 2008 04:55 am |
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bk-slimfast 190
sn-doritos 220
baby ruth 280
ds 5
ln-mcdonalds cheeseburger 340
nuggets 250
parfait 200
dn-chinese shrimpw/broccoli and gs and fries 1100 est
ds-5
total=2590
burned 1000+ calories walking all day
1590 est. around maientenance
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miss katz
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Posted: 4 March 2008 01:41 am |
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Yesterday I binged and felt really sick. I just kept eating the junkfood I bought just because I had bought it. It started with a late night craving for something and then I went crazy buying more junk to eat. I figured I'd be fine, but I wasn't. I went over my maintenance calories by about 500 and today by about 700. I didn't binge today, just made poor meal choices. It was good to eat everything today, but hopefully I get back on my diet tomorrow. I wouldn't want to gain a pound back.
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zenobia
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Posted: 4 March 2008 05:18 am |
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i really wish you the best of luck. don't let it take over you. it's not fun once you start to feel like the wheel has been taken away from your control and all you can do is stare into the semi coming straight at you. i am doing what you are- eating just to eat because it's either there or i bought it.... yeah, ppor choices. if you have any tips on stopping the binging, please let me know. again, my hats off to you for realizing what's happening and that you still have your goals in sight.
take care!
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miss katz
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Posted: 5 March 2008 02:13 am |
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Sorry I'm all out of tips:)
Today I went 200 calories over maintenance. I believe I get anxious when I'm on my period. I'm just taking it easy for now. I will get back on track soon:)
Today I had:
BK-BabyRuth 280
Now and Later 200
DS-5
SN-Slimfast 190
LN-Lamb Gyro-600
DS-5
SN-3 oreos
DN-yodels 420
lays chips 130
DS-5
burned about 150 walking
Total- 1985-150=1835 (200 calories above maintenance)est.
Last edited on 5 March 2008 02:15 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 10 March 2008 02:45 am |
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BK-Nutrement 360
Chips 130
SN- Hershey Bar 190 (shared)
dsoda 5
LN-Shrimp w/brocolli and rice 700est.
water
1300est. walked 200 will drink SF later.
Yesterday stayed on diet 1300 also.
I gave myself permission to binge last week and start my diet again on the weekend. It didn't feel right to feel guilty. I enjoyed my food. :) but I ate candy and my fillings got loose. I'm trying to drink less soda.
Last edited on 10 March 2008 02:52 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 12 March 2008 04:09 am |
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BK-Nutrement 360
sn-croissant 366
ds-5
lc slimfast-190
LN-lamb gyro-600
sn-famous amos cookies 280
DN-slice of pizza 300
total-2100-300 walking=1800, 200 calories over maintenance.
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miss katz
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Posted: 16 March 2008 05:02 am |
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I weighed in at 135lbs. today. Even though I have binged. I was more like yo yoing and made some little improvements like walking more and reducing carbs.
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miss katz
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Posted: 18 March 2008 04:03 am |
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I binged today. But please do not feel sorry for me, I am perfectly happy with myself and do not need any advice, just a place to share my journey so that others can relate. That's all. Had sugar cravings and couldn't resist the diet soda:) Ate lots of cheese. The cheese helped but I snuck in chips and a biscuit and later fries, carbloaded. 10 more pounds to go, maybe more? My belly is fat:) Anyway hope I will do better tomorrow. I got the worse sugar and caffeine withdrawal headaches in the last week. I just had less than usual. I was thinking of doing taebo but my dvd player acts up. It's undependable.
BK-LC Slimfast 190
SN-mozza 80
SN-mozza 80
ds 5
LN-cheeseburger and parfait 540
SN-mozza 80
SN-mozza 80
chips 150
ds 5
DN-2 thighs, biscuit and fries 1440
total-2650
-300 exercise=2350 (750 over maintenance)
Last edited on 18 March 2008 04:06 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 20 March 2008 02:45 am |
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Yesterday I ate:
BK-doritos 130
Hersheys 230
sn-mozza 80
Ln-SF 190
sn-mozza 80
grapes 40
small bit of cake 30
DN-2 mac and cheese bowls 440
sn-mozza 80
mozza 80
after 300 calories burned in exercise=1220
Today-
BK-SF 190
onion rings 80
ds 5
sn-cashews 330
mint 20
mint 30
LN-SF 190
DN-wing 250
biscuit 240
fries 310
ketchup 15
ds 5
exercise burned 250
total=1415
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