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miss katz
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Posted: 14 April 2007 07:40 am |
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Well I think my calculations may have been a little off yesterday-I'll double check later.
Today  I ate all the calories I exercised. I walked for 3 hours.
bk:croissant 330/18f/6p/1fiber
bk2- cuponoodle 300/13f/6p/2f
ln: croissant 330/18f/6p/1fiber
dn: pizza  450/18f/12p/2f (estimate)
juicewater 5 (yummy)
dn2-4 cereal bars 520/12f/8p/4fiber (too lazy to prepare something else)
total before exercise subtraction 1935
walked 3 hours burned -600 
total: 1335 (65 saved) /79f/38p/10fiber
I was just doing what I felt like doing. Not enough protein or fiber and too much fat.
Calories okay.
I'm hungry. I don't know if I can keep this 1300 calorie thing up. I hear an apple calling me.
1335 plus 200 for apple 
total: 1535 (nothing saved and I owe an extra 200) ...maybe I can just forgive myself and go back to 1400? Maybe not.  Those extra calories I ate this week add up to almost a pound that I will not be losing this month, meaning I will lose maybe 1.5-2lbs instead of 2.5-3lbs. this month if I just go ahead and eat 1400 and not pay back any of that haagen daz cake and other junkfood.  I will be thinking about this to see what I'll do...
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miss katz
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Posted: 15 April 2007 09:56 am |
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Today I didn't do so well, but okay, I don't want to beat myself up too much, but I have to be aware of changes to make. I have to stop with these croissants=low nutritional value/high fat. I'm just getting tired of the foods I've been eating. ex: oatmeal,tuna...
Bk-cuponoodle 300/13f/1fiber/7p
Ln-oreos 270/11f/2fiber/3p
mini icecream bar 90/6f/0fiber/1 protein "
onion and garlic chips 150/10f/1fiber/2p "
vitamin water (trying it out for the first time, the bottle says 50 calories and after I buy it and begin drinking it I notice it says 2.5 servings, that means I drank 125 calories.)
total for Ln-635/27f/3fiber/6p
Dn-croissant 310/20f/1 fiber/4p
pez 70
total: 1315/60f/5fiber/17p
I'm just going to give up on the last pound I missed and not try to make up for it, I mean I will try to eat 1300 calories until May, but if I eat up to 1400 I won't worry too much. I'm going to eat whatever I exercise. 
1.5-2lbs. of weightloss this month is better than NOTHING
edit: stayed up, got hungry and ate chefboyaredee 200/8f/2fi/8p
fruit cup 200
2 snack packs of mac and cheese (I won't be buying these anymore) 460/12p
Total: 2175/-
Last edited on 16 April 2007 08:33 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 17 April 2007 11:26 am |
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I just ordered the taebo dvd series. I really only wanted one of the advanced dvds, but they don't sell that separate and besides I got a deal. Just $7 from Amazon. With shipping it's about $15, anyhow I paid $75 for the tape series of Get Ripped Taebo a few years ago. My favorite tape messed up from overuse. I plan to workout alot, but I know I'm going to need rest. I'm really interested in exercising for health too, not just muscle tone. I want to sweat, release toxins, improve my circulation, joints?, and fitness level. I remember I use to be sore doing taebo, but I did it everyday, sometimes twice a day. I didn't know then what I know now, which is without rest I would be destroying my muscles instead of bulding them. So I plan to do taebo every other day. Sometimes I think that's harder than everyday, but I will learn to pace myself.
I find Taebo very addicting. Yesterday I ate:
mac and cheese 460/12p (I'm trying to finish these, I'm no longer buying them because I noticed they have msg and that gives me headaches)(chefboyardee also has msg.)
mac and cheese 460/12p
pez 70
Soulfood (mix of alot of things) est. 1000 (split into two meals)
flavored water 5
Total-1920
walked for two hours-400
Total -1525
Not the greatest deficit, but better than nothing. Better than yesterday :)
Last edited on 17 April 2007 11:37 am by miss katz
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 17 April 2007 03:42 pm |
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Hi Miss Katz.. I did the Soul Food thing on Sunday too! hee hee hard to calculate uh? Nice to meet you, I'm SmallerMe we'll getting smaller :o)
I only wanted to eat 1300 because I owe for that cake, which by the way I've already payed 200 of the 1200 calories I "borrowed" for that haagen daz cake 
Oh you are so funny! How do you keep track of your calorie check book, so cute! I enjoy reading your diary
Just wanted to swing by and introduce myself and wish you a good and successful day
~SmallerMe 
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Frankie
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Posted: 17 April 2007 07:51 pm |
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Hi Miss Katz,
If your system is working for you, please just ignore me...but it sounds difficult to always be overdrawn, as it were. Then you always have to be shorting yourself. Maybe it would be easier to start each day with a clean slate, and also to plan meals and snacks out carefully in advance so that you stay within your allowance for the day. Maybe it would be easier, too, to have a slightly larger allowance?
I know everyone is different, and maybe this is working great for you. I just know that for me, to always "owe" for something I ate in the past would not put me in the right mindset to make better choices in the future...instead, I would probably always be saying, "well, to #%@&! with it!" and going overboard.
I have tried a zillion different ways to lose weight. I am still trying to determine what's the best method for me. But always think that if I give something a good shot and it doesn't work, it's time for me to try something else that might work better.
Wishing you success!
Frankie
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miss katz
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Posted: 18 April 2007 04:03 pm |
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Thanks SmallerMe. I write down everything I eat. I've been doing it for about a year and a half so I've gotten good
Thanks Frankie. My system works for me for the most part, but it really sucks having to owe something in order to reach my monthly goals. I decided to let this one go, but lately I've been eating more. I'm going to be doing taebo soon so that should let me have a slightly higher allowance-400 calories extra every other day, which is how I plan to exercise. Usually with the way I diet I Must have a plan and stick to it or else I am in diet danger. I didn't have a set plan for the last few days which is why I consumed too many calories and not enough protein. But I let myself have fun now and then with food, I don't believe in total deprivation. I have to be accountable though and balancing my "calorie checkbook" helps me the most. I have done that before, but paying back 1200 calories is maybe too much, I always set my goals too high and then fall short, but even if I fall short I'd still do pretty good because I set the goals higher to begin with.
I'm am so obsessed with getting my numbers right because it can take me up to year to lose 25lbs. I don't want to be dieting this way next year. I want to eat .
Yesterday I had:
mac and cheese 460/12p (won't be eating these chemicals anymore-or as often)
chemical msg=headache
pez 35 (won't be eating these chemicals anymore-or as often)
toxic additives
mac and cheese 460/12
plain hershey bar 230/3p (no chemicals except for artificial flavoring???)
hamburger 410
piece of chicken and corn 200
pez 105 (all out of pez)
mac and cheese 230/6p (all out of mac and cheese)
total-2100 est. (350 calories over maintenance and no exercise)
Didn't have an exact plan and stayed up again, I eat when I'm hungry even if it will go over my calorie limit. I need a plan to reduce hunger which is of course eating healthier filling foods at the right times. I hope I get back to my 1400 calories a day goal.
Thanks for reading everyone. One of these days I will reach my goal and weigh 125lbs. and still eat   (okay maybe not much cake and icecream)
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Nir
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Posted: 19 April 2007 12:34 am |
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miss katz wrote: plain hershey bar 230/3p (no chemicals except for artificial flavoring???)
From a health point of view, I guess what is letting it down is the amount of refined sugar that has been added: empty calories, no nutrients?
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miss katz
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Posted: 19 April 2007 02:29 am |
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I know hersheys has empty calories, but it tastes sooo good. 22 sugars. I'm not ready to give it up yet, but I can always switch to the sugar free version of hershey's too A bag of sugar free hersheys is $2 and it has a laxative effect and other chemicals... A bar of hersheys is 60cents and 22 sugars, if I don't eat much of other sugars I think I'll be fine. I use sugar substitutes in my oatmeal.
Today I had -
oatmeal with soymilk 240/12p
1.5 slices of pepperoni pizza (I wonder what kind of oil they used) 820
(trans fats?)
sardines 20 grams of protein for 140 calories 5f
olives 25/2f
walked 1 hour -200 burned -finally got my taebo dvds today
total so far-1025....plan to have oatmeal later....
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zenobia
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Posted: 19 April 2007 03:11 am |
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oooh! you will have to tell us how the taebo vids are. i have been dying to get a new one or two, but i want to make sure they are tough enough, and leave me sore the next day...! i have the fat blasting cardio, if you have ever tried that one. if you get the chance, i highly recomend it.
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miss katz
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Posted: 19 April 2007 01:37 pm |
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zenobia I have done taebo before. They are good. It's the get-ripped series. The instructional is easy and helps you to throw punches and kicks without pulling a muscle. The 1/2 hour basic is hard and if you have never done it and are not very fit you will sweat buckets. The first time I did the half-hour basic I sweat so much, then over time as I got fit I didn't sweat too much. I did taebo years ago, but I kept all the flexibility I gained from it. I can still kick high. The advanced will kill you. It is so hard right from the beginning with no stopping. You will be sore doing it and there is a hard squat he does in it where you have to hold it and it burns. It's super fast and fun. When I did taebo before I had buns of steel, but I was always sore because I may have overdone it. Anyhow I like it because there are no floor exercises in basic 1 and advanced 1. Everything is done standing. He is easy to follow, you might get tired of the music after 3 months, I did and started putting my own music to it. I heard an advanced 1 hour workout burns 800 calories. For me I'm just going to say it burns 400, I sometimes didn't finish it. Does the fat blasting cardio one have floor exercises? I just ordered the series on amazon. I haven't tried the dvd yet, but plan to do it this morning. I will let you know if it works fine, then maybe you can order it too. It was just about $12 with shipping included.
edit: I did the dvd, it looks good, but I didn't see that squat I mentioned in advanced cd 1, maybe it was in cd 2 and I confused the two. I did the whole thing, it was moderate-hard, but I felt good, not sore...yet. Plus I get to eat an extra 400 calories zenobia if you don't mind floor exercises another good dvd is carmen electras striptease disk 2, it mostly focuses on strengthening exercises on the floor, that will leave you sore, but it's still a great workout and one of my favorite in the series. I like to feel strong.
I've had so far oatmeal with soymilk
now I'll be having tuna with mayo and crackers
and later pepperoni pizza (I'm going to ask what oil they use this time)
maybe two because I also plan to walk an hour today which will be an extra 200 calories burned. And then some octopus. I hope it doesn't make me sick.
Last edited on 19 April 2007 04:53 pm by miss katz
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 20 April 2007 05:50 am |
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Hey Miss Katz wanna have some fun while losing weight? Then come on over to the Challenge board and make some money!! ...sort of hee hee
~SmallerMe
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miss katz
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Posted: 20 April 2007 12:05 pm |
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Okay I'll go check out the challenges. Turns out the pizza didn't have extra oil added. The oil was from the cheese and pepperoni so much oil. I think pepperoni may have msg. ....anyhow I was a bit under my calories yesterday compared to my activity.
oatmealw/soymilk 240/12
tunaw/crackers 360/35p
mint 50
lolipop 75
mushroom pizza 575 est.
1/2 of slice pepperoni pizza and a little bit more 325 est.
I got a headache because I was dehydrated, but then I drank the water I missed in the day.
burned 400 in taebo
burned 150 walking
total before exercise 1625
total after exercise 1075 (I won't be trying to make these up after overeating last week)
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 20 April 2007 03:01 pm |
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Oh I had yesterday too, I think I still need to work it off today lol .. Hey thanks for checking out the challenge I think it will be fun and help to keep us focus lol
i just love all the challenges
We'll just popped in to wish you a good day,
~SmallerMe
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miss katz
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Posted: 21 April 2007 05:51 pm |
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I'm trying to find out if Popeyes uses trans fats and if they will stop using them. Anyone know or read something about it? Are the chemicals in yogurt safe to eat? I mean the flavored kind, not the plain.
Yesterday I had octopus 260/16f/20p
oatmeal w/soymilk 240/12p
grapes 2cups 120
tuna w/crackers and mayo 360/35p/10f (noticed mayo has some bad chemicals...)
gum 30 mint 50 mintball 75 est.
oatmeal w/soymilk mixed with skim milk 240/12p
walked 1/2 hour burned 100 calories
total 1275/44p?
today is taebo day.
edit:
today I did taebo-advanced, I wanted to stop in the middle, but kept going and near the end I did it at a slower pace than the dvd. I sweat alot, but didn't mind the workout, I'm glad I'm finally exercising at this intensity. I got to eat 400 extra calories, plus I walked for an hour and a half slow-moderate pace so I get to eat another 200 calories. I may have burned more than this, especially in taebo. I hope my metabolism doesn't slow down if I actually do burn much more and don't eat enough. I'm going to look up what taebo burns just in case.
Today I had popeyes thigh and biscuit and two ketchup 660/-
2 cups grapes 120
2 oranges 120
slice of extra cheese pizza 550
2 oreos 100
2 cups of grapes 120 (I have to be careful with this, it's so filling it can make me feel sick)
I plan to have an orange and some oatmeal later to total 310 calories
total will be-1980
minus exercise (600 calories) is 1380
Last edited on 22 April 2007 04:24 am by miss katz
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 22 April 2007 03:56 pm |
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Katz I have heard only good things about yogurt I eat Dannons Lite n Fit 40 calories 4oz.. I gotta admit though I only look at the calorie labels Popeyes I never liked too greasy for me if you're talking chicken.. I do love their red beans and rice though
Did you try googling it and seeing if they had their nutrients listed? I try to find what I'm gonna eat ahead of time and most fast food joints are pretty good about having items listed.
~SmallerMe
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miss katz
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Posted: 22 April 2007 07:15 pm |
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Hi, thanks smaller me. wow a 40 calorie yogurt. Mine are usually 90-100 calories, but I don't go past that. I looked up popeyes and trans fat and they are going to remove the trans fat. I don't know if they did already or when and where they are going to. I just noticed some strange ingredients in yogurt and wondered if any of the preservatives or added ingredients/chemicals/flavoring pose a risk. I found the nutrition information on their site as far as calories, fat, protein, carbs, but nothing else and nothing about the oils used. I'm going to assume that they do use trans fats. 
edit: instead of oatmeal and an orange last night, I had 2.5oz steak and 2 spoons of buttered spinach (I wasn't too hungry, but needed to up my calories) my total for the day after exercise was 1400-1500 I think, I ate some of the fat from the steak, that's why.
Today so far, I had an orange, oatmeal w/skim milk and two olives
I might want to stop using artificial sweetners for health reasons. Is sugar healthier? because it has less chemicals, anyone have information on this? or point me to a site with the info if they know it.
today is a non-taebo day. I read that doing taebo too much can hurt your muscles and cause other problems. I haven't had problems in the past, but I will take my chances and try to do it correctly and at my own pace. I might walk some.
edit: today I had
orange 60
oatmeal w/skim milk 250/12p
2 olives 25
popeyes thigh and biscuit 660 (w/2 ketchup)/26p
mintball 50
orange 60
4 olives 50
walked 15 minutes burned 40
oatmeal w/skim milk 250/12p
total-1365/50p
Last edited on 23 April 2007 03:04 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 23 April 2007 05:49 pm |
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Guess what? I weighed myself on a scale that works, mine seems to be broken? anyhow, before I ate, early and the scale says 142lbs, and I was wearing jeans and a tee, so it's more like 140lbs. without water weight I assume...so I wondered did I lose extra weight because I lost muscle, or too quickly? I'm eating enough and moderate on protein, so...I was think maybe I was eating less than I estimated, that's possible. My estimates I'd say are 90% accurate though plus I read labels carefully. This is the lowest weight I've been in my adult life. Today is a taebo day, plus I walked for 45 minutes and plan to walk more. Don't know what I'll be eating to make-up all my exercise calories, but I have a small basic plan. With my exercise and burning more calories there is no excuse for me to skimp on protein. I was about 147lbs. on that same scale about 3-4 weeks ago. I may have eaten when I weighed myself then.... anyhow that's 7lbs. or at least 4-5lbs. My oatmeal spilled all over the microwave so I only ate half. I don't know why it over heated-I put it two minutes as usual-is this a sign?
Yippie 140lbs.-142lbs. 15-17lbs. to go.
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zenobia
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Posted: 23 April 2007 06:11 pm |
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that is so cool taht you have hit your lowest point! it sounds like you are losing at a healthy rate, 1-2 lbs per week. ti's especailly indicative if your clothes feel like they are getting loose. it almost better to measure your loss by inches rather than lbs. the scale can be deciving- it doesn' tell you if it's muscle or fat loss (lol- i need to follow my own advice). anyhow, keep up what yoj are doing. sounds like it working well for you!
and thanks for letting me know about the taebo. now i just have to go out and find them!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 23 April 2007 06:52 pm |
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Congrats on the weight loss, Miss Katz Like Zen says, that's a good rate.....you should be OK on it being fat loss.
About the oatmeal..........I notice that if the water I use is less than really cold, it cooks the oatmeal faster and I get it boiled all over the microwave too.
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 23 April 2007 09:12 pm |
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Congrat's Miss Katz 7lbs!! So happy happy for you! Hey I just had oatmeal for lunch I notice if I use a smaller bowl it may spill over so now I use big mug. I'm addicted to the instant strawberry oatmeal
~SmallerMe
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miss katz
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Posted: 24 April 2007 04:52 am |
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Thank you guys. I'm happy. I have been losing inches. I was 34" in my waist and now I'm 31.5-32". My pants fall, but I thought it was because I had stretched them out. Taebo was hard. I did the advanced #2 and the squat from #%@&! was there, but it wasn't that bad. I thought I pulled something in my inner thigh. I am going to watch my kicks better and try to have better form. Near the end I slowed down and went at my pace mostly. I feel good and stronger. Plus I did alot of walking today.
That makes sense Hisgal. I put the oatmeal in the microwave and the power had gone out and I didn't notice. I went to turn it on and then put the oatmeal 2 minutes. Maybe the milk had gotten warmer and that's why it spilled. My bowl was big enough. SmallerMe I have tried the strawberry oatmeal. I use to be addicted to it a long time ago. Then I got sick of oatmeal from eating so much so I quit for awhile-like a year and now I went back to it and like it alot. I've been eating plain with cinnamon added and brown sugar and maple. The brown sugar maple one doesn't need much added sugar, but I add a sugar substitute and it's very sweet. The plain I add about 2 sugar substitutes.
Today I had
I ate alot
1/2 oatmeal 125/6.5p
orange 60
tuna w/crackers (no mayo, but was still good) 270/35p
slice of regular pizza 450/15p?est.
2 thighs from popeyes and a biscuit 1080/50p
onion and garlic chips 150/2p
taebo-burned 400
walked 2.5 hours normal-moderate pace burned 375
total before exercise subtraction: 2135/108.5p
total after exercise "-1360/-
Thought I was going to go over but didn't. Maybe I'll have 4 olives to bring my total to 1410...
oops forgot to add 5 calories for a diet soda I drank
1365-1415
Last edited on 24 April 2007 05:05 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 25 April 2007 06:57 am |
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Today I did okay, but low on protein. I had plenty of water and didn't forget my multivitamin this time-I think I forgot yesterday.
4 olives 50
biscuit 240/2p?
oatmeal w/3/4 milk 230/11p?
chinese food-shrimp w/broccolli, garlic sauce and white rice 600/6p?
(I didn't finish it and felt sick-I wonder if it's the garlic or the oil?)
2 servings of honey roasted peanuts 340/12p (I actually counted 38 pieces per serving )
2 cups of white grapes 120
walked 1 hour burned 200
total before exercise-1580
after exercise subtraction-1380/31p
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miss katz
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Posted: 26 April 2007 06:03 am |
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today was a taebo day. It was so hard, but I paced myself and finished it.
I had-
oatmeal w/skim milk 250/13p
orange 60
barbecue chicken 400/15p?
buttered squash 300
mcChicken sandwich 370/15p
2 ketchup 20
donut stix 380/3p
2 servings of honey roasted peanuts 340/12p
orange 60
2 olives 25
total-2205/58p
-exercise taebo -400 burned
walking 3 hours slow-mod pace burned -400
total after exercise 1405-
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miss katz
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Posted: 27 April 2007 04:53 am |
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so I read they heat the eggs in mayo before making it so I can probably eat it with no worry
I had peanuts but they have a laxative effect-no more peanuts for me
peanuts 2 servings 340/12p
oatmeal 250/13p
orange 60
2 olives 25
bit of italian bread 50
hershey bar 230/3p
2 fried chicken drumsticks w/ketchup 930/30p est.
cup of rice with corn 350
liver 4oz 500/25p est.
homemade fries in olive oil with ketchup 960
walked 2.5hrs. burned 500
total before exercise 3695
total after exercise 3195
I'll exercise whatever I overate next week
I have to burn 1795 calories, so I'll just eat 1400 calories for next week even though I exercise...this oughtta give my metabolism a jolt
Last edited on 27 April 2007 05:06 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 28 April 2007 06:49 am |
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Well today I binged in a big way and didn't do taebo -I stopped 15 minutes into it. I felt tired and sore and just lazy. I wanted to eat Hope I get back on plan soon
I had-
oatmeal 300
icecream 260
lasanga 2600 est. (throughtout the day of course  )
chicken 600 est.
rice 200
walked 2 hours burned 300
15 minutes of taebo burned 50
total before exercise 3960
total after exercise 3610
over maintenance by 1910
over RMR by 2210
I could possibly have been burning more calories than I estimated for taebo
maybe that contributed to my desire to eat
so the total for my 2 day binge is 3405 which is almost 1 pound.
Hope I get some strength to do taebo tommorrow 
Last edited on 28 April 2007 06:52 am by miss katz
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Nir
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Posted: 29 April 2007 01:54 am |
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miss katz wrote: today I binged in a big way
Hope I get back on plan soon
the total for my 2 day binge is 3405 which is almost 1 pound.
Any idea what is driving you to binge at the moment?
Is anything in particular the matter?
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miss katz
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Posted: 29 April 2007 07:44 am |
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I don't know what was driving me to binge, It wasn't hunger, just desire Maybe I underestimate the calories I burn with exercise and overestimate the calories I eat sometimes. I thought maybe my body needed more calories and that is why I had such a desire to eat. Could I possibly be burning more than 400 calories with 1 hour of taebo-yes, I don't know how many so I underestimate. I weighed myself today after I ate all my meals. 144lbs. and I had jeans on so it's more like 142lbs. and that's when I'm full. A couple of days ago I weighed myself without eating and was 142lbs. with jeans, so it was more like 140lbs. I don't think I gained much. I just have to be aware and be very careful instead of eating mindlessly which is kind of what I did. I gave myself permission to binge maybe because I haven't had fries and greasy food in so long, in large amounts. It was fun eating without stressing. But I was very depressed this morning and I didn't know why. I just felt tired everywhere, but I'm better now. I'm not going to give myself permission to binge. It wasn't that I was out of control, I just made a choice to continue eating, I didn't think it would do much harm. Maybe I worry now because I have to in order to continue with my diet. I have to let it go......
Today I had
oatmeal w.skim milk 250/13p
hershey bar 230/3p
Mcchicken Sandwich 400/15p? (2 ketchup)
2 slices of pizza 900/30p?
total-1780/61p
I didn't do Taebo-didn't feel like it
I walked for 1.5 hours slow-moderate burned 150 est.
total after exercise 1630
Sometimes I worry that I don't measure up to my plan but it doesn't make sense because I imposed this on myself. I chose to diet and have a plan and I shouldn't worry if I change it sometimes, it is my body and I should do things at my own pace instead of competing with an ideal (perfection). I don't expect perfection and I'm doing good anyhow, but I know worrying might come natural or as a warning and that's fine. I get it. I'm not going to binge and I'm going to get back on track because I want to lose weight. 
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miss katz
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Posted: 30 April 2007 07:50 am |
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today I did taebo and felt good and energetic. I also did a little walking, not too much.
I had
sardines 140/20p
oatmeal w/skim milk 250/13p
banana 130
grill cheese sandwich 220/12p
chocolate cherry bell 65
2 cups grapes 120
potato w/ketchup 230
bit of lamb and rice 150/2p?est
2 eggs and crackers 260/14p
hot cocoa w/skim milk 170/10p?
sardines 140/20p (has calcium 60% and vitamin C)
taebo burned 400+
walking burned 100-
total before exercise-1875/91p
total after exercise-1375
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miss katz
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Posted: 1 May 2007 10:43 am |
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Today I did okay. I wanted a hershey bar but I didn't have it. I ended up bingeing on bananas decided I'll have a hershey bar once a week. And all other junkfoods once a month each
I had-
oatmeal 250/13p
grill cheese sandwich 220/12p
5 medium bananas 600
hot cocoa 170/9p
11.5 olives 140
2 eggs with 10 crackers 260/14p
walked an hour+ burned about 200+
total before exercise=1640/48p
total after exercise-1440
Had a headache and wanted sugar
Last edited on 1 May 2007 10:49 am by miss katz
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miss katz
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Posted: 2 May 2007 07:50 am |
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today I ate
grill cheese 220/12p
oatmeal w/milk 250/13p
grill cheese 220/12p
grill cheese 220/12p
hot cocoa w/milk 170/9p
grill cheese 220/12p
cuttlefish 260/16p
tuna w/crackers 270/35p
did taebo advanced 1 hour burned 400
(did a slower pace middle-end)
total before exercise-1830/121p
total after exercise 1430
TOM is killing me
I exercised without eating first and without drinking first so maybe that is why I felt sluggish and tired easily. I normally drink and eat about 2 hours before I workout.
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miss katz
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Posted: 3 May 2007 07:41 am |
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Today I overate. I figured I'll subtract it from my taebo calories tomorrow, but I ended up eating more. It's hard resisting fast food and chocolate, today I gave in to a icecream cone which was so good
chicken cabob 300 est/12p
banana 130
steak fat bit 75
banana 130
icecream cone with sprinkles 400est/5p
entemanns cookies 280/2p
banana 130
banana 130
grill cheese 220/12p
hot cocoa 170/9p
hot cocoa 170/9p
walked slow 1 hour burned 100 calories est.
total before exercise-2135/49p
total after exercise 2035
over by 635, over maintenance by 335
Not that bad 
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miss katz
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Posted: 5 May 2007 12:02 pm |
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Yesterday I ate (felt ) That sort of sad that is very bad
oatmeal 250/12p
hot cocoa 170/9p
icecream 90/1p
oreos 150/1p
mcchicken 370/15p
cheeseburger 300/15p
hershey bar 230/3p
pizza 450/15p
chicken leg 190/10p
ketchup 35
burned 100 walking
burned 300+ taebo (only did like 75% and then stopped) may switch to basic
total before exercise 2230/81p
total after exercise 1830 est
Today I had
pizza 900/30p
icecream 400/3p
banana 125
orange 55
nuggets and fries 800 est./20p
walked 4 hours burned 600
total before exercise 2280/53p est.
total after exercise 1680 est
Gotta get back on track
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miss katz
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Posted: 6 May 2007 08:12 am |
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today I had
oatmeal 250/12p
pizza 450/15
popeyes thigh 390/23
biscuit 230/3
ketchup 45 est.
hershey bar 230/3p
4 olives 50
egg 70/6p
crackers 60/1p
walked 3 hours burned 400 est.
total before exercise 1775/56p
total after exercise 1375
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miss katz
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Posted: 7 May 2007 07:20 am |
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weighed myself before eating, but had jeans and a belt and forgot to take my keys out of my pocket-143.7lbs. A pound up from the 142.- from before. Hopefully that's just a water fluctuation. I didn't taebo today. But I did walk. At New York and Company I fit a size 8 pants! and a medium button down top, of course in other stores like Conway, I barely fit a Large in a Jean Jacket. Anyhow, I'm mostly a Large on top and I thought a size 10 in pants, maybe in jeans. Today I had:
pizza of course 450/15p est. (so much for 1x a month, forgettaboutit)
icecream 400/2p est. (from the truck )
banana-large 175 est.
hershey bar 230/3p
chicken leg roasted 200/12p est.
broccolli 30 est.
walked 1.5 hours burned around 250
total before exercise-1485
total after exercise-1235 (will have oatmeal before bed(250)=1485) 44p
gotta get to 125 or flat tummy, whichever comes first
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miss katz
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Posted: 9 May 2007 06:02 am |
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ate like a slob yesterday, I felt so depressed I wanted to drink, but decided to binge instead , this was after about 1500 cals. in my regular day. I know I need help and will try to get some. I have been feeling depressed like every other day, maybe three days so far. I woke up with the worse vertigo, I was so nauseous. Don't know if that is linked to depression. when I ate I felt so sick and it reminded me of the times I use to binge in highschool-so depressing. except the reflection in the glass window at the chinese place looked like a completely different person.
so I had eaten
oatmeal 250/12p
hershey bar 230/3p
mints 20
halls sugar free (have laryngitis) 100 est
kfc thigh 370/18p
leg 160/12p
biscuit 220/4p
coleslaw 180/1p
and mac and cheese 180/8p-yum
walked burned 250 est.
binge:
icecream 260/3p
fries 600
ketchup 80
doritos 130/2p
cheesedoodles 150/1p
cupcakes 320/3p
total after exercise about 3000 calories total , -p
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miss katz
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Posted: 10 May 2007 12:02 am |
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yesterday I ate-
4oz liver 400 est
egg and sausage in tortilla wrap 300 est
hershey bar 230
dsoda 5
mozzarella stick 80
sf halls 100
oatmeal-no milk 160
total 1375
I was trying to eat as little as possible which wasn't hard because I wasn't hungry.
I was still full from the day before.
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miss katz
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Posted: 11 May 2007 03:42 am |
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Yesterday I binged about 4000 calories. I'm afraid to gain what I worked so hard to lose. I stopped doing taebo for a few days now. I didn't walk much. I'm probably at 145lbs. now. Today I've been doing okay, hope I feel like exercising later.
Yesterday I had-
2 eggs 140/12p
2 slices bread 80/3p
small banana 120
ham and cheese hero 1000/30p est. (w/mayo)
small icecream 90/1p
hershey bar 230/3p
diet soda 5
rice, chicken, beef, beans 2500/60p est. (ate 3 separate times)
honey lemon hot water with sugar substitute 70 est.
total-4235/109p est.
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Nir
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Posted: 11 May 2007 11:06 am |
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| interesting choice of foods to binge on
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miss katz
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Posted: 12 May 2007 06:44 am |
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Nir, maybe interesting if you aren't hispanic, it was food from a Dominican restaurant and their food seems to have crack in it-it's so good. It's the seasoning. I wanted the hero the night before, but the store was closed so I gave myself permission to eat it the day after-didn't think I'd end up bingeing later. I could have gotten ham and cheese on a roll, but I wanted alot to fill me. I keep on bingeing-
today I did, I haven't calculated how much yet. It's always at night, I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness and just want to escape into food. I think about and plan what I will eat for about 5 minutes. Then go eat it. I'll eat until I'm full or stuffed. Usually I'll eat my favorite foods, but if there is something else around I'll eat it too. I'll binge on anything as long as it has enough salt or sugar, have you seen my recent banana binges. I've been eating icecream and hershey and pizza alot. I shouldn't have had the icecream cone I had today, I didn't want it that much and bought it out of habit. I was trying to bring back the feeling I had before, but it didn't work. Icecream is my weakness sometimes. 400 calories wasted.
What do I do to stop? I remember reading posts about this topic and answering them, but now my mind is blank. I'm going to assume I need to figure out what is bothering me right now. I kept making excuses that maybe it was because I was sick or had some lack of chemicals in my brain and was just medicating myself against my depression. Now it's becoming a habit. I looked at the activity calculator and noticed that taebo burns double or more of what I thought it did. Maybe that's why I lost more weight than I thought. I also think I overestimate the foods I eat alot. I do it as a safety net, but more out of habit and fear that I'm underestimating like most people do. Maybe I should go blog next time I feel one of these night binges coming on. It almost appears as if I want to gain weight. The me that gives me permission to binge is weak, lonely, desperate to get rid of this anxiety I get. I get it when I feel isolated, alone, lonely or when things don't go right-this doesn't make sense. I like being alone and usually approach bad situations rationally and lightly. I'm a serious person, but I believe in self- forgiveness. Right now I feel sad for forgiving myself. But I have to let go of my mistakes. That's what I did the last few binges, but then I continue to eat. I let myself eat and just fill this feeling I don't understand-yet. It feels so dark, hidden-I don't know why, but I recognize the feeling that tells me "I can't control this sadness, but I can escape it by eating."
I know I have to stop confusing forgiveness with permission to binge. I have to be honest with myself. I just don't want to deprive myself for fear of making things worse. It's hard to deny that hungry child in me. I can try drinking more water, especially before meals. I normally drink 2 liters to 2.5 liters a day. Maybe I can double it? I don't want to overwork my kidneys.
Anyway, I'm not going to hope anymore. I'm either going to do it or I'm going to continue as I am and gain 5-10lbs. before I start dieting again to lose that extra weight. When I was 200lbs. my goal weight was 140lbs. That's not good enough anymore. I have this hopeless feeling. It's not about weightloss or body image at all.
I feel like I'm in an emotional crisis that only surfaces at night, when I'm alone, after I counted my calories for the day. Knowing I can't eat anymore for the rest of the night makes me desperate to eat. Not normally, just recently. Maybe I'm escaping my disappointment in other areas of my life. I think that is what it is. I can't accept my fate or whatever I think it might be.
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miss katz
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Posted: 12 May 2007 01:33 pm |
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I lost track of my eating, yesterday I think I ate
honey lemon hot water 70 est
oatmeal 160
tuna with crackers 360
rice/beans/beef 450
ham and cheese sandwich 215, 430 (twice) est
honey lemon hot water 70 est
burned 150 walking est
total was 1505?
today I ate
honey lemon hotwater 70 est
pizza 450 est
icecream cone 400 est
sugar free halls 100 est
rice and beans 250 est
fried chicken leg and thigh 900 est
orange 60
orange 55
hershey bar 230
strawberry shortcake 240
pastry 400 est
icecream bar 190
2 chunks of salami 100 est
walked 1 hour plus burned 250 est
total 3195 est
Last edited on 12 May 2007 01:44 pm by miss katz
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SmallerMe
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Posted: 12 May 2007 03:40 pm |
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Hi there Miss Katz I stumbled into your diary this morning and I sat here thinking what could I say to ease some of the pain I feel from the thoughts you have written... and one scripture came to mind and it is this...
There is no fear in love; but perfect love cast's out all fear
1 John 4:18
"Perfect LOVE cast's out all fear" There is a place for the heart, mind and body to find rest, this scripture should reflects love as a noun as in God is Love and His perfect love cast's out all fear, Fear births depression, hopelessness and doubt.
Maybe I just dropped by to tell you.... when I was in my early 20's I thought all was hopeless, I was pregnant again and alone again... I remember being in a dark room of my apt crouched on the floor with great tears in my eyes I heard myself say aloud "I was born to be unhappy" those words were lies, because I was born to come to know that there is a Perfect Love and one day I would find Him, Jesus Christand everything in my life would change!
Fear is torment, binges are torment and it has its roots grounded in fear, thus anxiety, depression, hopelessness. Miss Katz there is a Hope greater so much greater than what you could ever hope for. See obesity and eating disorders doesn't begin with food choices and calorie counting, it begins with the HEART first and then the mind. Fix the heart then the thoughts will line up and the battle will be won
God deals with the heart of a man/woman :o) because it is where he is ruled.. When the mouth speaks it is the heart that is talking, the character of a man/woman :o) can be found in the health of his own heart.... Is your heart healthy? ... take care of your heart and everything else will come together including the fear that drives one to binge
When I started my own journey to lose weight God dealt first with my heart, He first awaken my HEART and then my mind and emotions lined up with what my heart believed!
Be blessed
with care, SmallerMe |
