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Sassykat
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Posted: 28 March 2008 10:20 pm |
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Just read your post more thoroughly. I'm so sorry you had to hear those horror stories. I don't know why we always have to hear more negative stuff than positive. The devil likes to scare us I guess. Fear and discouragement are his best tools. That probably doesn't help you any though. I'm sorry. I'm sure if I were you and heard all that I'd be real worried too. Darn it! I would definately be there helping you pack if you lived in my town. You take good care of yourself and I'll be praying for you guys.
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Hisgal
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Posted: 1 April 2008 05:01 pm |
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Scoobs,
Just had to pop in for a moment 
I surely hope that none of those horror stories come true for you! I wish I could make it all go away, but I've learned that God works through these bad things that happen in our lives, and brings good out of them. Sometimes you have to look hard to find it, and sometimes you can make pages of lists, of the good things you can see have happened. I pray the latter is true for you!
I know it would take something like this to get me to clean out my house that thoroughly! And it needs it so bad...........I am a procrastinator  , with a capital P I say it's because I've so many other things to do! 
Just look at all you will have accomplished by the time you have to move! More than any of us out here  And I'm sure you will have grown as a person.......you will appreciate things you have, like you never did before! You can use this event to grow closer to your hubs, and cling to each other now, through the bad times..........and then appreciate your relationship even more, when the good times come again. Hang in there, Scoobs, we are here for ya!
Oh, I also wanted to tell you my knee story  I always think of you, when my knees have problems All of a sudden, on Saturday, I had sharp......stick a dagger in my knee-cap..........pains in my right knee. I couldn't walk up or down the stairs without excruciating pain...........also getting up and down out of a chair! 
So, this morning I went to see my chiro (in the icy, snowy, slushy mess we got yesterday and overnight-after getting stuck in my driveway) and she adjusted L3 in my back (just above my waistline) and guess what??? I am running up and down the stairs now...........absolutely pain-free! That woman can't retire until I die!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 1 April 2008 10:17 pm |
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Thanks guys - what would I do without my  friends??  I appreciate you taking the time to check in on me and leave such wonderful, positive words. I'm definitely in need of a little spirit lifting these days!
And boy do I wish you guys lived near - I sure would take you up on the helping to move thing! I'm still a little overwhelmed, but I'm keeping the faith. What's the worst that can happen, right? The worst would be having to make the move before we're ready...ok, I guess we'll deal with that if/when it happens. I just feel for my poor hubs; he's basically working around the clock lately. During the days he's working on cars at his garage, and then working on the new place at night. I'm usually already in bed before he gets in, so communication's not been real great lately - thank goodness for cell phones. And of course when he does get in he's so exhausted that he snores most of the night...which...well, yeah - not much sleep for me. I was a total zombie at work this morning...thank goodness for a wonderful, understanding supervisor.  She knows all about my personal problems...and knows I'm basically going thru the motions on a daily basis.
My food choices remain basically awful. I want to say I don't really care anymore...but if that were really true I wouldn't even be here. Let's just say I wish I cared more often lol. Last month I said my pants were getting tight...gosh, they're downright painful now. My work pants are so tight at the moment that the waistband is giving me a muffin top! I don't know whether to laugh or cry! I haven't had THAT much fat in my abdominal area for a long time. Bless the people that are probably noticing and not saying anything to my face.
I just can't wait till this is all over and the bankruptcy is final and we're moved - and my life can begin again! I am craving happiness and a piece of mind. It's just up the road a bit...bear with me a little longer friends till I get there. I will. I know it.
Scoobs
BTW Hisgal - could you loan me your chiro? Wow! An L3 adjustment fixed your knee pain??? That is nothing short of amazing! She is sooo not allowed to retire!
Last edited on 1 April 2008 10:18 pm by Scoobees
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Hisgal
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Posted: 2 April 2008 05:33 pm |
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Scoobees wrote:
My food choices remain basically awful. I want to say I don't really care anymore...but if that were really true I wouldn't even be here. Let's just say I wish I cared more often lol. Last month I said my pants were getting tight...gosh, they're downright painful now. My work pants are so tight at the moment that the waistband is giving me a muffin top! I don't know whether to laugh or cry! I haven't had THAT much fat in my abdominal area for a long time.
Scoobs, I SO KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! Unfortunately.................
I'm mostly back into my 16's, with just one 14 that still fits, and wondering how I got here! I had the same feeling from Thanksgiving on............I kept coming back here, so I knew that at some level I did care, but it's like I couldn't make myself do anything about it. I finally have come around, I think. Exercise was my problem........or lack of it! I still have pain in my elbow........just lifting a book from the coffee table. But, at least now that most of that last snowstorm has melted, I can go walking again. I've tried to keep that up, at least, when it's close to or above 40 degrees. I think that's helped my attitude!
It would be nice if we didn't have to deal with all this, but you know, life happens. I wish my hubs wasn't still laid off, but he is..........with no idea when he'll go back to work. We just take one day at a time, and deal with it! Same with our eating and exercise.........one day at a time, and try to string together a few good ones, until the other things pass, then we can concentrate on ourselves again.
Hang in there, Scoobs! 
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Sassykat
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Posted: 2 April 2008 06:38 pm |
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And boy do I wish you guys lived near - I sure would take you up on the helping to move thing! I'm still a little overwhelmed, but I'm keeping the faith.
Awesome on keeping the faith! I would be there in a minute to help pack, if I could. Jobs like that are so much more easier with a little company. 
I just can't wait till this is all over and the bankruptcy is final and we're moved - and my life can begin again! I am craving happiness and a piece of mind.
I have felt that way a couple of times, one being last summer when we worked like crazy to refi our home loan to cover some of our credit card debt. I cried and cried for months. It was a combination of problems really and though life hasn't been smooth sailing since then, I have found that peace again. My heart goes out to you through these troubles. I am so sorry you have to go through this. It will get better dear, it will! Believe with all your heart and look for every bit of good in each and every day, to cheer your soul.   Take care Scoobs, you are in our thoughts and prayers!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 3 April 2008 12:15 am |
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Thanks once again Hisgal & Sassy.
Hisgal - Sorry you're going thru the 'pants thing' too. The pants I wear to work are size 8s - and they are almost suffocating me LOL. BUT, my Levis 8s do NOT fit anymore...needless to mention my Levis 6s. Probably stuck around my ankles. However, my other 6s are fine. Whatever.  The point is so moot; I've obviously gained. But now I am really ticked I skipped a size on my way down the scale, the Levi's 10s would be perfect...I still have my 12s but they're a bit saggy.
Sassy - I too hope I will eventually find that peace you mentioned. I am so glad you did! I can sooo relate to the crying thing...and this all began right around Christmas time which really stunk lol. At least the crying part is over; now if the emotional eating would just end!!
Thanks again for brightening my day! 
Well, the last 3 days have been a bit better in the eating department. Heathier choices, lower calorie limits - around maintenance unfortunately, but way better than lately.
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suenos
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Posted: 3 April 2008 02:43 am |
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Hey Scoobs!
So, I've been a terrible diary reader but I just got caught up on you - and wow! - your plate is full and running over!....hat's off to you for having the strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other and to just keep doing what you gotta do. Personally I think there would be a day (a week?) or two in there when I would be tempted to just crawl in bed and wait for it all to get better - yea, like that would work. The horror stories about the big truck pulling up in the blue - I suspect/hope they are exaggerated..but at least you found out you might not have as much time as you originally thought and can plan accordingly. I keep reading in the news lately about how many homes are in foreclosure - seeing what you're dealing with puts a really personal face on what seems to be happening to a heck of a lot of people all over the country. As always you are in my prayers and I do believe that things will work out better than you can imagine now for your family once you are settled in your new home.
Oh, and on the bright side, despite the currently fluctuating pants sizes....since what's going on right now was going to happen whether you had tackled your weight or not - if you think about it, can you imagine how much more difficult this whole physical process would have been for you if you were still at your highest weight and previous state of fitness? You would have had just one more difficulty to add to the burden? Okay, I didn't say that well, but I hope you know what I mean.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 6 April 2008 07:47 pm |
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Thanks Suenos for pointing that out - that's something I've never even considered before. If I were going thru this same thing at 211 pounds, my non-existent fitness level at that time, and already feeling horrible about myself - I don't think I'd be handling anything at all. The straw that broke the camel's back perhaps? It would be even worse...scary bad worse. I may not be handling things real well at this point, but wow I can't even imagine how I would have dealt before.
Still here...still same ole same ole so far. I'm sort of taking this weekend off from all the drudgery (sp?) of cleaning/packing/tossing stuff. I went to the store yesterday and 'treated' myself to a book and dvd and am happily reading away. Very calming to me - I guess I should do that more often. Of course, I am feeling quite guilty about NOT doing what I should be doing. I can't give myself a break either way lol.
At least I'm feeling a bit more in control food-wise the last few days. That's a really good thing! I've upped my calories a bit and feel much better overall...and not having any sort of binge feelings lately. I know the calculators are just a guideline estimate, and I'm staying a couple hundred calories under maintenance for now. I think one of my problems has always been when I get back on track after a 'bad' eating period - I get too enthusiastic and cut way too low too soon. I think I'll hang around this range for a few and see how it goes. Kind of nice not feeling so hungry.
Time to work out! Be back later.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 7 April 2008 11:09 pm |
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Sunday
Exercise: Tae Bo Amped 'Jump Start Cardio' dvd (41 min)
 Calories: 1670
1/2 c egg beaters, 1 slice american cheese, 2 slices whole wheat toast, banana; pumpkin seeds; turkey burger, bag of steamed veggies, 1 c brown rice, 2 dill pickles; Activia yogurt, 1T ground flaxseed, strawberries; 1 serving Cheese Nips; Healthy Choice chicken & rice soup bowl; sf pudding, snack size micro popcorn.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 7 April 2008 11:27 pm |
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Monday
Exercise: 45 min Curves
Calories: 1664
Had a great time at Curves today and Katie gave me a 'travel pass' so I can check out the club closer to my new place.
Spirits still pretty high. Still feeling much better with a more moderate cut in calories, and neglible cravings of any sort. It seems to be working better for me now with an increase in my calories per meal but having less meals per day. For the moment anyway. I am shooting for 3 decent size meals and a couple snacks now, instead of trying to fit 5-6 smaller meals per day. I am feeling fuller longer now and that really has been helping stop a lot of my mindless eating.
And dare I say??? I think my pants were just a hint of a bit less suffocating this morning! Woohoo! Whew, pretty soon I would have had to resort to laying on the bed and prying the zipper up!  At least I am getting rid of some of this water weight gain anyway. That's a relief. Now if I can just start working on this fat gain, too. I know I need to step on the scale. I keep saying I will...and the next day (or two) I eat horrible, and nix that idea totally. I'm not stupid, I have a pretty good guess where I am...but I know I need to just do it. How can you begin again if you don't know where you're starting from?
1 c Kashi Go Lean cereal, 1 hard boiled egg, banana; 3 slices turkey breast on a whole wheat english muffin w/lettuce, tomato and american cheese, apple; 2 - 40 calorie chocolates, pumpkin seeds; Activia yogurt w/1 T ground flaxseed and strawberries; turkey burger, 1 c brown rice, bag of steamed broccoli & red peppers, grape tomatoes, 2 dill pickles; snack size micro popcorn.
 Last edited on 8 April 2008 02:17 am by Scoobees
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 8 April 2008 02:23 am |
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Yo Scoobs! A big shout out to you. Trying to catch up on diaries. I'm so far behind.
DG
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Hisgal
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Posted: 8 April 2008 03:49 pm |
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Scoobs wrote:
I know I need to step on the scale. I keep saying I will...and the next day (or two) I eat horrible, and nix that idea totally. I'm not stupid, I have a pretty good guess where I am...but I know I need to just do it. How can you begin again if you don't know where you're starting from?
GOOD POINT!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 9 April 2008 08:09 pm |
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| Hi Scoobs, its been a little while, I just want to check in with ya and see how things are going. Sounds like you are getting a bit of your stride back. I hope you like the other Curves location too, seems to really work for you. And I am glad the pants went on just a tiny bit easier. Wish I could say the same!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 10 April 2008 02:31 am |
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Thanks for stopping by guys!
Still hanging in there...still doing a decent job within my calorie limits...made it to Curves today.
Too tired to list foods...time to pack my lunch and get ready for bed.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 11 April 2008 12:48 am |
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Almost made it to the weekend - YAY! 
All is well. Hanging in there. Have an appt at the attorney's tomorrow evening. Hopefully the last one lol. More papers to sign, etc. Can I say it once more? I can't wait for this to be over. I just feel like when this is done, I'll be able to finally take a deep breath and start living again. I soooo want to close this chapter of our lives and begin a brand new one!
I've noticed a few cravings/urges the last few days. Holding them at bay the best I can. Still learning to feel the feelings instead of eating them.
Hubs & I have our 20th wedding anniversary Saturday. He's been so crazy busy with work & fixing up the new place he really wants to go out for a little bit - which definitely means eating. This is one time when I don't want to throw caution to the wind and end up  ing out. Not when I'm still grasping at straws to stay on track. So, maybe a compromise? If I know beforehand where we'll go I can at least look up the menu online and prepare.
Thursday
Exercise: Tae Bo Amped 'Fat Burn Accelerator' dvd (50 min)
Calories: 1671
1 cup Kashi, 1 hard-boiled egg, banana; turkey club (whole wheat bread, turkey breast, turkey bacon, slice american cheese, lettuce, tomato, mustard), apple; 2-40 cal chocolates, pumkpin seeds; Activia yogurt, 1T ground flaxseed, strawberries; 4 oz meatloaf, 12 oz steamed mixed garden veggies, 2 dill pickles, grape tomatoes; sugar free pudding, snack size micro popcorn.
Last edited on 12 April 2008 05:03 pm by Scoobees
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Scoobees
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Posted: 12 April 2008 06:26 pm |
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Ahhh the weekend is here!
Yesterday's signing at the attorney's was postponed until Monday...bummmer...his secretary didn't even have the rest of the papers ready for us. Apparently, they are pretty swamped with bankruptcies.
So, we went to Home Depot to make some decisions on stuff for the new place - doors, windows, kitchen flooring, etc - all the way down to the toilet and grout LOL. Exciting stuff eh?
We ended up so starving we decided to go out to eat at Blue Sky - but I behaved. Luckily they have a 'diet plate' which consisted of a grilled chicken breast, cottage cheese, hard boiled egg, and fresh fruit. I was happy as a clam even though hubs was pigging out on his chicken alfredo. 
Still going out to dinner tonight for our anniversary. Don't know if I can be that good on another outing. We shall see. My plan is to get a really good workout in first and hope that persuades me to rein it in a bit.
And a big event...I actually weighed myself. Thank you Hisgal for inspiring me. I read in your diary that you did it, so I figured I better just get it over with. The grand total is 152 pounds. Wow, that really stinks. I know it was much worse a few weeks ago. I can tell by my clothes that I've been losing. All I can say is that I now know where I am for sure...and hopefully can get it moving in the right direction again. 
I also looked back in my diary to check my weigh ins. How sad. I made goal (135) on 8/11/07. September & November had me up to 137 already. December I climbed to 143.5. January 19 2008 I reached 147.5 but was down to 146 on the 26th. Last weigh in I could find was on 2/01/08 which was 145. Apparently the bottom fell out after that and the rest is history.
I can either dwell on the past or strive to get better. I'm sick of the past so I guess I'll go for the later.
Have a wonderful weekend friends!
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clarinetgurl
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Posted: 13 April 2008 12:48 pm |
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hey Scoobs! That stinks that your weight is back up. But at least you have a good motivation because you have felt what it it feels like to be at goal, and you know you can get there!!
Yesterday at my job one of the parties brought in a Scooby cake, like from a baker not from Walmart. It looked really awesome, you would have loved it
Glad you're about to be through with al this transition stuff. Hope you enjoy the rest of the weekend!
CG
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Scoobees
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Posted: 13 April 2008 07:50 pm |
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Thanks CG! Yeah, it stinks that my weight is up, but it's not like it was a surprise. I'm just thankful it's not even worse considering how awful I've been taking care of myself. And a Scooby cake? Oh, I want one!!!!
Ok, last week was an excellent week diet & exercise-wise. Let's keep it up Scoobs. 5 workouts...consistent eating. All good. Two nights of eating out and an anniversary that I COULD have used as an excuse to out and I didn't. I finally won a battle. It's been a long time coming.
I promised myself a hard workout yesterday to hopefully prevent myself from ruining it by over-eating out at dinner. I chose the hardest workout dvd that I own - Tae Bo II Get Ripped Advanced. Whew. 57 min of butt-kicking action. This is the one that I am actually thrilled to make it thru the warm-up! Anyway, good choice.
Hubs & I were out at Lowe's last night checking on some more building supplies when he got very hungry and wanted to go to Golden Corral up the street. A buffet place, of course. My worst nightmare, of course. His favorite, of course. He loves any 'all you can eat' type thing...and exactly the place I should never ever enter. I was totally nervous about blowing a good week...and balked a bit about going there, but said ok. Headed directly to the salad bar. Made an enormous salad w/lettuce, carrots, grape tomatoes, green peppers, cucumbers, etc with a tiny ladle of fat free catalina dressing and some fresh cut up fruit. Munched on that for a long time to get semi-filled up. Went back for the baked chicken breast, the tiniest sweet potato I've ever seen , cauliflower, and a very small amount of lima beans - I suspected they may have some butter on them. Delicious. I won't lie - I did check out the dessert counter and chose a small slice of my favorite blackberry pie but I only ate a few bites. It was delicious and I wanted it. If I would have denied myself my fave treat, I would have left the restaurant feeling deprived and would have gotten home and ate a bunch of other junk to feel better about it. I KNOW how I work lol. It was best to actually have those few bites and save myself a gazillion calories later.
What's the first thing I did this morning? Check the scale of course! I wanted to see if those two nights of eating out had any effect - even though I made good choices. It's hard to count calories on stuff you didn't prepare yourself, you know? What a relief. The scale didn't go up, in fact it's down 1/2 pound.  But that's the last time I'll step on the scale till next Saturday - it's TTOTM tomorrow.
So, I'm feeling good. I had two opportunities to slip up which I normally would have taken advantage of in a heartbeat. Keep it up.
Workouts & diet were great this week. Keep it up.
This coming week is shaping up to be quite hectic...hope I can keep it up!
Last edited on 13 April 2008 07:55 pm by Scoobees
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 13 April 2008 08:29 pm |
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Wow Scoobies,what a great job you did at the buffet! My hat's off to you; especially after my little AYCE graze-fest yesterday afternoon.
Oh, and by the way, Happy Anniversary to you and the hubs.
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voodoodoll
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Posted: 13 April 2008 09:04 pm |
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hey scoobees, wow you hav been through such a lot lately im so glad things are starting to get on track for you again, both with your life and your weight loss. no matter how hard we try to be healthy sometimes life gets in the way.
you have been doing so well lately, just visualise the goal and you will get their. i've lost weight and put some of it back on and it's so frustrating. but on the other hand i know i can do it and lose the weight again, and i know for a fact you can as you're a real superstar when it comes to this stuff
take care of yourself and i hope no more bad luck comes your way. hopefully the summer will bring with it happy times for you xx
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Scoobees
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Posted: 13 April 2008 10:36 pm |
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Thanks Mollymoo & Voodoodoll! I totally appreciate you guys stopping by.
It's hard to swallow my pride having a whopping 17 pound regain but that's what happens when I eat my feelings away for months and months...
I did it once and I do know I can lose it again. I need to keep being honest with myself. Yeah, my life sucks right now, but there are many many worse situations to be in. I know I am lucky.
This time down the scale is going to be a bit different. I was always SO worried about what to eat, how many calories, how much of a deficit, which exercise, how many calories did it burn, how many pounds did I lose this week, how can I lose faster, etc. Not this time. I am trying to be a little less wrapped up in it all. I was so constantly focused on that 'magical number' (135) and nothing else besides just GETTING there. It's obviously good to be focused and have a goal and all, but I was overly obsessed. Relax, I'll get there. New mantra?
I remember moaning and groaning way back when I was getting pretty close to my goal. The moaning was about losing only a pound a week...or 1/2 pound a week if I'm remembering correctly. And right now a post in my diary comes to my mind - I believe it was from Nir - and he said a simple 'what's the rush?'. At this moment I get it. Hey, it takes some people awhile. At the time, that stupid finish line was all I could see. This time around there is no such rush. If I'm losing 1/2 pound a week - whatever - it's all good and I'll get 'there' just as well.
Relax. Most of us generally know what to do/eat, etc. I am not going to overthink it all this time. I don't have the time or room in my brain right now. My calories intake has been pretty high (a little below maintenance) for the last couple weeks and if I stop losing weight, it's time to lower it a bit. Not rocket science, right? Or step up exercise a bit. Whatever.
Am I making any sense? Hey, it's been awhile since I've had a true rambling diary entry!! This is what happens when I've had time to stop and think over the weekend!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 14 April 2008 05:23 pm |
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Oh Scoobs!
I'm sorry to hear about the weight gain..............I truly know how much it stinks!  At least it's not the 40 lbs I put back on before I got control!
I keep looking at my spring clothes, now that we are actually suppose to get into the 50's today..........and 60's the rest of the week And you know what? Not a one of them is going to fit me. Even the ones I considered my "big" clothes are not loose But, like you, I have done it before, I will do it again, and this time I am not tracking calories or exercise. If the weight comes off at a  pace, instead of a  pace, so be it! Just as long as I get it off!
This is too funny...........but the hubs and I went shopping on Saturday, and where do we go for lunch? Old Country Buffet! I was torn too, between going or not going. But, you know what? We have been doing so good for weeks or months, and we just needed a break! We, too, headed straight for the salad bar, and loaded up a plate with all the greens and veggies. Then we went to the main course, and had rice and beef/broccoli stir-fry. I thought that would be a treat, as we almost never eat red meat anymore..........actually I've only had meat 3 times in 3 weeks, and they were very little helpings. I was disappointed!  The couple of little strips of beef I took were very tough! But the broccoli was delicious....and they had just put out fresh, so I took lots of broccoli! I also took 3 little pieces of orange chicken and some noodle thing with carrots and onions. Yeah! Then came the dessert bar. My mind was working just about like yours.........I knew if I denied myself, I would binge later. So I had a small slice of sugar free apple dessert, and a butterscotch chip/walnut bar, and then went back to the salad bar and got a pile of fruit.
We are trying to do the Eat to Live plan right now, so I guess this would be part of our 10% off plan But all I had the rest of the day were about 5-6 triscuit crackers, and then for dinner we had a salad and a piece of whole grain garlic bread (with light spread.) We knew we'd gotten a treat for lunch, so were able to keep it light the rest of the day. Can't feel bad about that, can I? I am not perfect! We just have to try to do our best, and forgive ourselves for the other times.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 15 April 2008 01:39 am |
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Hisgal - Just thinking about my summer clothes makes me wanna run & hide! I feel your pain, too! All those low cut jeans, shorts, and tight fitted summer tops I bought last spring/summer will look ridiculous (if they even fit) right now. Maybe by late summer? How's that for optimism?
If the weight comes off at a pace, instead of a pace, so be it! Just as long as I get it off!
That's exactly my way of thinking, too. No more rushing, racing, obsessing. I just can't be so one-dimensional anymore. There's so many more things on my plate (no pun for once! ) right now that need real attention. Getting the weight back off IS important to me of course; but it just doesn't hold the same priority anymore I guess. I really think that getting control of my emotional eating and having a more relaxed attitude about my weight loss will be a big key for me. I'm still counting calories though; this is like my one last obsession that I don't think I can let go of yet.
We knew we'd gotten a treat for lunch, so were able to keep it light the rest of the day. Can't feel bad about that, can I? I am not perfect! We just have to try to do our best, and forgive ourselves for the other times.
That is basically how I plan to live the rest of my life. It was a 'treat' - no full-blown craziness right? You make choices in moderation...balancing out the rest of your day. And no, you certainly can't feel bad about that!
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Busy day today with another one coming tomorrow. I didn't fit in any exercise - was hoping to make it to Curves. My calories were higher than normal - approximately at maintenance level today. Mainly good choices, just in and out too many times and grabbing too many quick snacks instead of being able to sit down and eat a real meal. Snacks - even when healthy - can add up real fast!
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suenos
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Posted: 15 April 2008 04:45 pm |
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Scoobs...just reading your last couple posts made me smile....I can totally relate.....especially what you wrote about just being able to see "the finish line" the first time around. Can I tell you how many times my focus on reaching a "finish line" tripped me up in the past? Total and comitted focus to reaching it - and then just a gradual or rapid slide back into life "as normal" ....I suspect if I added it up I've lost and regained at least 150lbs (or more) over the years just 'cause of the idea of there even being a "finish line"!!
I think you've got a great and realistic attitude this time around and it will go a lot further in helping you maintain the targerted loss rather than just reaching the target itself.
p.s. be glad you just had a "couple bites" of that pie....I have it on good authority (a friend who works at a local CG) that a single full slice is something like 500+ calories!!!!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 17 April 2008 12:50 am |
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Thanks Suenos for continuing to check up on me - I really appreciate it! Yeah, no more 'finish lines' for me anymore. I already feel somewhat a sense of relief just having a more relaxed, realistic attitude this time around. It also helps that I'm feeling better about everything in general also. Getting my life back in order...getting control of my emotional eating...getting my weight back down - it'll come in due time.
By the way - thanks for telling me about that blackberry pie!! That sweet little innocent thing is more than 500 calories??? I guess those are the last bites for me!  Wow. I was going to choose the tiny brownie square...but the pie was calling me. 
Good day today...AND made it to Curves. I was going to go for a walk instead, but I think it's supposed to be a bit warmer tomorrow so I'll go then. Had a great workout, dinner is done...time to catch up on a little reading with American Idol in the backround.
Gosh, I miss Biggest Loser already. Anyone see the season finale last night? I know Hisgal caught some of it. I am thrilled a woman finally won! Ali looked so awesome and soooo tiny! They all did fantastic jobs - I hope they can maintain their losses in the 'real world'.
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Scoobees
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Posted: 18 April 2008 01:18 am |
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What a gorgeous day it was today...and it's still 64 degrees after 9pm! It was definitely a day to get outdoors for exercise. I went to my favorite spot and had an awesome walking workout for an hour. Ahhhh it felt incredible to 'soak up the sun'. I wish I could somehow package that wonderful feeling. I felt the stress of the workday totally disappear. I couldn't help but smile the whole time...plus all the little league tots practicing baseball...and the soccer kids, etc. were so cute. Hope this is the first of many walks to come.
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 18 April 2008 03:38 am |
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Scoobees wrote:
What a gorgeous day it was today...and it's still 64 degrees after 9pm! It was definitely a day to get outdoors for exercise. I went to my favorite spot and had an awesome walking workout for an hour. Ahhhh it felt incredible to 'soak up the sun'. I wish I could somehow package that wonderful feeling. I felt the stress of the workday totally disappear. I couldn't help but smile the whole time...plus all the little league tots practicing baseball...and the soccer kids, etc. were so cute. Hope this is the first of many walks to come.
I am so glad you were able to get out and enjoy this glorious day. Being outside on days like today is a great mood enhancer!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 18 April 2008 06:58 pm |
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Being outside on days like today is a great mood enhancer!
Boy, isn't that the truth!! My troubles seem to melt away and I'm smiling!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 19 April 2008 01:14 am |
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Another gorgeous day ...I'm sure since it's the weekend it will HAVE to   .
Am really sore from yesterday's walk. I hate to admit that () but I do remember me posting that last spring also. It seems the first few walks get me sore - especially the quads...must be using the ole muscles in a different way or something. I did Tae Bo anyway today; so not only are my quads screaming, but now my butt is also. Ok, that didn't sound exactly right, but funny nevertheless.
Ok, evil scale - will you budge ever so slightly for me tomorrow???
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Scoobees
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Posted: 19 April 2008 05:44 pm |
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Ok, evil scale - will you budge ever so slightly for me tomorrow???
Ok, I need to be much more careful what I ask for! The evil scale DID budge, but I wish I would have left out the 'ever so slightly' part. I am down .5 pounds.
Someone remind me quick of my own words...the ole 'relax', 'be patient', 'what's the rush' stuff I just posted a few days ago.
Nah, I'm happy. It did go down. That's a truly wonderful thing when contrasted with how much I've been gaining over these last months. And even if it stays a .5 pound loss per week from here on out - I will be fine with it. What's the rush, right? Now last time around, I would have moaned and groaned and cut calories drastically for next week. Not this time. In fact, what's really funny is that I haven't even started cutting calories. I am counting calories but that's about it. I looked back over the week and figured out my average to be 1715 cal per day. The lowest was 1580, the highest 1951. The calculators here have me at 1811 for lightly active...so I'm averaging about 100 calories lower. I'm thinking cool...I'll stay here for now. If it "ain't broke - don't fix it" right? If I start having a string of no losses, I'll gradually take 'em lower.
Also, I looked at the calendar and my last 'slip-up' day...out day...whatever you want to call it was April 4th. I actually made it for 2 weeks - finally! Perhaps I really do have my emotional eating on an even keel. We'll see.
And another relief, our bankruptcy case is finally filed as of Wednesday! Whew! Hopefully no more harrassing (sp?) phone calls from creditors? Haven't received our court date yet - hopefully this is the final stretch and everything can be put to rest. And I can be me again...and live again. Woohoooooooo!
I plan on getting a workout in sometime today after errands. That will make it 5 for the week again which I am trying to strive for. Would like it to be 7 - but life can get in the way sometimes. I am soooo sore! The walk day + the Tae Bo Full Throttle dvd day = Scoobs not walking too good today! Holy  ! My thighs & booty really feel it. I was hoping for another walk day today - but my walk is more like a 'shuffle' right now! I would look pretty silly for sure. It's supposed to rain anyway, I'm sure I'll find something to do instead.
Ok, that's enough rambling! Have a wonderful weekend everyone!
Last edited on 19 April 2008 05:47 pm by Scoobees
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Scoobees
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Posted: 22 April 2008 09:06 pm |
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Hi all - still hanging in there; pretty busy as of late and neglecting my good ole diary once again.
I had a great workout yesteday at Curves and am on my way outdoors in a sec to power walk. It's getting a bit cloudy but I don't think is in the forecast...but I'd better get rolling just in case.
Hope everyone is having a fabulous week!!
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Hisgal
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Posted: 23 April 2008 02:30 am |
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Hi Scoobs,
Just stopped by to say "Hi!" So jealous of the CURVES trips And you got to walk today too!
Yesterday we had a high of 77 degrees.......it was beautiful......windy, but that helps keep down the sweat that comes with these hormone changes I did 3 laps, which equates to 2 miles. Nothing outstanding, I know, but I do it on my lunch hour....and sometimes I have another quick errand to run. I didn't get to walk today either.....well not much. I went to a funeral at 11:00, and walked from the church to downtown, to order some flowers for my daughter in CO. My shoes hurt my feet, so it wasn't a very energetic walk.
Hang in there Scoobs, life will get back to normal, and we will get to our goal weight!
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DeterminedGal
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Posted: 24 April 2008 07:29 pm |
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Scoobs,
I love how, no matter what is going on, you always have a positive attitude. Keep inspiring me friend.
:) DG
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Scoobees
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Posted: 26 April 2008 05:47 pm |
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Thanks Hisgal & DG! Thanks for sticking with me thru all this...stuff.
I haven't felt like writing for a few; I had 2 really yucky days (23rd & 24th) that I totally lost control of my eating. The 23rd was the sheriff sale date on my house and the 24th was just me still being very emotional over this. I thought I had this problem licked, but I guess not. It still peeks out every now and then. I think I'm back on board - we shall see. At least we finally received our court date for late May. Hopefully that will be the final nail in the coffin so to speak, and I can bury all this baggage and move on to much brigher pastures. 
Even though I really didn't want to, I need to be accountable so I did weigh myself this morning...keeping with my regular Saturday weigh-ins. As suspected, I am up to 153 (from last week's 151.5). Hoping to use the old water weight excuse...we'll see if it disappears for the next weigh in.
I'm back in good spirits though. Hubs is out working on the new house - I can't wait to move. It looks like it might still be another month away. He's got so much to do - and all by himself. So many people offer help - but of course no one really shows up. And he hasn't gotten done as much as he'd like to at this point; he had a couple heating/cooling jobs to do and a transmission job to start this evening. But when money calls, he has to answer of course! Gosh, I miss him! He did come home 'kinda' early last night (around 10:00) to watch a movie with me...but I was snoozing about half way through. We're going to run some errands together later on and probably stop for a bite to eat...and that is what 'quality time' has been lately. Better than nothing - I'll take it!!!!
That's about it for now. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 2 May 2008 12:03 am |
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Absent from my diary - but still doing well.
Been sick for the last few days - nothing major...just the sniffling, sneezing, coughing, sore throaty stuff. Sounds like a Nyquil commercial. Counting my blessings - my co-worker is out with pneumonia! (sp?) Yeah...I'll definitely take my sniffling anyday!
Don't feel like exercising at all...wanted to at least go to Curves, but didn't want to wheeze and sniffle all over the machines. Maybe by tomorrow I'll work in something here at home. Been very careful with calorie counting due to no exercise.
I decided to join Peter's weight loss challenge - even though I am usually a washout in these challenges - except for the very first one that Patcher's did. I would like that to help me keep focused on trying to lose a pound a week again. Heck, I'll take a half pound!!
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Scoobees
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Posted: 3 May 2008 04:27 pm |
