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CrimsonAnimus
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Posted: 19 November 2008 10:28 pm |
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DoublePoppa wrote: How about making whoopie? Good exercise and stress relief.
LOL.
Are you volunteering (you flirt)...? 
Cravings are really, really hard. I read somewhere to make a list of all your emotions. Then, out next to them, write out what you do when you feel that emotion. For those emotions which trigger food, try to find an alternative activity for that particular emotion. Don't know if it would help...but worth a try.
If not, well, plenty of interesting suggestions here...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 19 November 2008 10:35 pm |
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Thanks for the support! I think it was an emotional binge for me, probably from fear. My surgery went well for the most part, I'm really sore, I got home about 2 hours ago. FYI: I don't like surgery, it is not fun, especially the recovery part.
I can't eat much now, because I don't feel too great, still need to watch the intake though. No exercise for two weeks. Which is terrible, because I know that binge gave me a gain, and I want to exercise and get it off quick before christmas, I'm still determined to get to 185.
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DoublePoppa
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Posted: 20 November 2008 02:45 am |
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I'm sorry about the surgery. That stinks. I think if your binging does have to do with emotional rollercoasters that is unfortunate. What is great is that you realize that and with that knowledge you can do something about it. It provides you an opportunity to take a closer look at whats really going on.
Good luck and no matter where you end up on at Christmas be proud of where you have come this year.
P.S. Although it was just a suggestion for the whoopie making, I would be happy to volunteer for service for plenty of the women on this site as long as a solid connection was built first. I am consistently shocked by the beauty and strength of the women on this forum. Im suprised that as far as I can tell no one has made a connection with anyone here.
Good luck and know that I am jealous of your husband or boyfriend.
Last edited on 20 November 2008 02:45 am by DoublePoppa
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 20 November 2008 03:06 am |
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Poppa, you really know how to make a girl blush! Thanks for the confidence boost, I really need it.
I'm going through phases right now, a couple hours I feel okay, then I feel bad, then okay again. Laughing really hurts! I love to laugh, and I've been trying to watch a funny movie. It's irony of the worst sort! I'm returning to work Sunday, I'm just hoping I'm feeling a whole lot better by then. I know I didnt really give myself enough time, but we're so tight at work, they really can't spare me anymore than that.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 22 November 2008 07:31 am |
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Tomorrow is a new day, and this is how it is going to go. I'm going to weigh in, and accept that number for what it is. And realize that this is just a temporary pause and not a step back. I will eat a set amount of food, because obviously I can't just free reign right now.
oatmeal
yogurt
banana
avacado
grapes
special k bar
pear
pistachios
small chicken dinner
I'm not going to worry how many calories that is, I'm going to worry about not bingeing and eating what I should eat not what I WANT to eat. Then I'm going to go from there. I hate starting over. Step 1 here we go...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 24 November 2008 01:45 am |
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Baby steps, more baby steps. I'm back at work five days after my surgery. I'm feeling tired and worn down, but okay. I've been working on the diet, it's not perfect but better. Baby steps.
Cereal & milk 320
coffee x2 200
banana 105
grapes 34
crackers & cheese 200
coffee x2 200
Chicken casserole 320
Total 1379
Last edited on 24 November 2008 07:02 am by OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 25 November 2008 02:37 am |
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baby steps, and cookies...
Well just two snickerdoodles...
cereal 320
pear 103
avacado 227
string cheese 80
2 snickerdoodles 310
string cheese 80
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 26 November 2008 04:04 am |
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Last night finished at 1770, just for some accountability.
I'm getting excited but nervous about Thanksgiving. Not only will there be a ton of yummy food I have to resist, all of my family will be there commenting about my weight. It's not that I don't appreciate they notice, it's just I hoped that nobody noticed I was fat in the first place (yeah right, like you could miss my big butt). Besides, I'm only halfway there, and everytime I get a comment all I can say is "well I'm still fat". I'm not trying to be rude, it's just true, I really am still fat, and I just don't feel good about it.
This year I'm making quite a few dishes. I love to cook, so this ought to be a lot of fun. I'm making a lot of healthy things I'm hoping my family is really going to love. I'm making spinach dip, broccoli salad, sweet potato casserole and a cranberry/raspberry pie. Now I know pie isn't the best thing in the world, but we always have really decadent deserts, so this really is a step in the right direction, the filling is mostly just cranberries and raspberries.
Today I've eaten
yogurt 120
banana 106
mango 135
coffee 100
cheesy crackers 210
2 burritos 1000
2 candies 150
Total 1821
wow that's really bad...
Last edited on 26 November 2008 08:32 am by OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 27 November 2008 03:56 am |
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I just want to be thin. I want to be thin...
Man I am so tired of being swollen. I was hoping it would be gone by today, but I actually think it's worse. And tomorrow I see everybody! Urgh. Oh well. Better by Christmas right? I want to start exercising but the doctor said nothing but short slow walks for three weeks. I want to get some serious pounds off before Christmas, like Nick style losses. But how am I supposed to do that if I can't exercise? I'm so sick of being the fat girl for Christmas. Here's to another disappointing year!
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cportwine
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Posted: 28 November 2008 06:12 am |
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You know, I don't think I have ever been in your diary.
Anyway, don't get down on yourself. #%@&! you got double poppa giving you compliments, what more could a girl want. No, seriously, you just had surgery, give yourself a break.
And to be honest, I don't know what your doctor is telling you, you can do and not do. But, you can lose weight without the exercise, yes, it is harder. But, I lost 30lbs or more without exercising. I don't recommend that to anyone. But, it's just a matter of eating less when you can't work out. I try to eat less on days that I am not working out. It's all about the calories.
I wouldn't worry about christmas either. I hardly doubt anyone there is thinking that you are the fat one. You are probably the only one who thinks that. So, have fun and don't worry about what others are thinking. Think about your family and making things special for them.
Anyway, I just couldn't help but reply. I don't like when I see someone down on themselves for things they can't control. You had surgery, your body needs time to recover. Just need to be patient.....
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 29 November 2008 03:25 pm |
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Your so right Cindy. I'm so concerned about how I look because of the relatives coming. I'm sure it's not healthy. It's so hard to be swollen and round again after all my hard work, I know it's temporary, but it's still hard to see. I've got some pretty nice scars to go with the stretch marks now! Funny enough they don't really bother me. I thought I would be more upset over them...
So my weight is still at 195. I've been mainly eating maintenance calories, I want to lose more, but at the same time I really don't feel that awesome, and it's more important for me to heal right now. I expect in a week or two those pounds will be gone. I plan to start my regular walks again in mid december. I'm hoping to shed some more pounds, but with this hold up I don't think I'll make my goal for the challenge, but I'm okay with that.
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cportwine
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Posted: 29 November 2008 04:26 pm |
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I know what you mean. When I hurt my foot and couldn't walk it about killed me. I had it in my head that I was gain all of my weight back just from cutting back on the walking. 
It's hard when you know one thing in your head, but you see something else in the mirror. After you get passed this, your hard work that you did will show through with flying colors. 
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 30 November 2008 03:22 pm |
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I have got to stop burning the midnight oil, I'm just making myself sick. I kept the window open and the radio blaring this morning to keep me coherent enough to drive. This all started after my surgery, first I decided to go back to work on the 3rd day from being released from the hospital (can anyone say work-a-holic?) Then I decided to work six days in a row, and a 12-shift. Yesterday after getting off work my sister and I (dragging along husband, boyfriend and three year old) went Christmas shopping (and I mostly bought clothes which I don't feel guilty about because I finally enjoy clothes shopping and if I don't have money for Christmas presents I'm okay with that.) The problem being the night before I only had four hours sleep, and I started work that morning at 5am. We shopped until 9pm. We had dinner, got stuck in traffic and got home about 12:30am. I have a 45 minute commute every morning, so I woke up at 3:30am this morning to get to work at 6am. If you're following where I'm going with this, then you know I'm exhausted and very likely not healing properly. I never thought I'd be a work-a-holic, I was never that person who put work before health or family. I really need to re-evaluate my work schedule, sit down with my boss and say, "hey, I want to watch my kid grow up, right now I'm scheduling him into my life, and that's not working for me." My poor baby misses me so much.
No weight loss. Had a little sizzler last night. Didn't go too over-board.
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cportwine
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Posted: 30 November 2008 04:43 pm |
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| Yes, I agree, you really should cut back on work, at least until you are healed up.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 3 December 2008 01:39 am |
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| No weight lost yet, still holding out hope though! I'm eating lower than maintenance calories, but not too low. My energy levels seem worse though, not better. I really need some days off for some rest and relaxation. I've just been working and cleaning. I don't do much else! But I think on Thursday when I finally have a day off I'm not going to clean, I'm just going to sit around and watch movies and sleep!
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mollymoo24
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Posted: 3 December 2008 03:43 am |
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl wrote: I really need some days off for some rest and relaxation. I've just been working and cleaning. I don't do much else! But I think on Thursday when I finally have a day off I'm not going to clean, I'm just going to sit around and watch movies and sleep! Please, make a commitment to yourself to do this.  It apparent you've been burning the candle at both ends and some recharging of the batteries is in order. I wish you a peaceful, restful day.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 4 December 2008 02:51 am |
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| 193. Is it swelling or weight? Not sure if that's weight lost or swelling reduction. Whatever it is I'll take it. I had kind of a low night last night, which apparently was a good thing because I dropped two pounds. I'm having a slightly higher day today, I went through quite a few calories by 2pm. Nothing outrageous, especially considering everything I passed up. At work we have "goodie days" during the holidays, and that makes being good extra hard. People bring all sorts of super yummy home-made holiday foods that I can't eat. I'll either use a whole lot of will-power or gain weight. I'm still determined to get to 185 by Christmas, so I'm not too worried about it, I'm so determined it's just gonna happen! There's no stopping me!
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cportwine
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Posted: 4 December 2008 04:11 am |
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Good for you! It's nice to hear determination in your voice...
Keep up the good work......
It sounds like you have gotten some sleep, also...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 5 December 2008 01:10 am |
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Cindy, the sleep helps a lot! I must remember to sleep more often in the future! Also not being tired makes me a lot less hungry!
I haven't weighed myself today, but I think I'm probably still the same. Eating as usual. Being good. Hoping to have a good night. It's my day off and I was worried I might go nuts on the eating front, but so far so good!
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 6 December 2008 01:29 am |
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Stay tuned- I've decided not to weigh myself until I get back to work on Sunday, I'm hoping for a drop.
It's been a productive day off, a lot of cleaning is getting done. I may or may not have family needing to stay the night at my house, but just in case they are I'm going to clean every dust bunny I can find! I'm very self-consious about my weight, I almost feel like I've failed as a person because I'm fat so I try to make up for it by having a really clean house, and really excellent food (which also doesn't help me!) I know that doesn't make sense, and why should I think anyone should judge me, but just believe me at this point, you don't know my grandmother. The woman who believes you can't be thin, clean or rich enough. It's not that I try to live by her standards, it's just that I can't stand to think that's she's looking down her nose at me. Anyway, off that subject before I get stressed...
Michael and I made cookies today, and I wasn't even tempted to have one. We had a lot of fun, he's old enough now to stir the batter and things. Now he's taking a nap (hurray! lol) and I'm just kind of relaxing and enjoying a moment to myself. Then back to cleaning! This job will never be done! Everyone besides me is a slob in this family!
I know I don't need the temptation but next weekend we have big plans involving gingerbread men. I've never made them before so wish me luck!
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cportwine
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Posted: 6 December 2008 03:26 am |
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I understand, I kind of do the same thing. I tend to do well at one thing or another and let the other things go. So, lately I have been cleaning, keeping a neat house. But, I have slacked off on the dieting and exercise because of it. Some day, I will find a happy medium and I am sure you will too.
Oh, I am glad you got through the cookies with flying colors. And good luck with the gingerbread men. I have never made them, and have heard from others, that they can be difficult. I not a big fan of them, so if I made them. I would make it with something like sugar cookie dough or something, lol. Probably wouldn't be the same....
Anyway, just popping in to see how you were doing.....
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 7 December 2008 04:00 pm |
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So I had a nasty run in with some See's candy last night. Actually it wasn't so bad, but still I've been trying to be extra good, not just calorie wise, but content of food wise, low sugar and everything. And apparently I need to be extra good because all I've lost is a couple of ounces. I really need to step it up. I think I'm okay to start walking a little at a time, so that starts today! My stomach was looking so much better with crunches, but I really can't do those yet. I think for the next week at least, or maybe until I reach 190 on the dot I'm going to zigzag calories as follows:
Mon, Wed, Fri 1400
Sun, Tue, Thur 1000
Sat 2000
That kind of puts me at the start of a cycle of zigzagging since it's Sunday. My official weigh in for the challenge is the tenth, and if I don't make 190 by then I'm deffinently not going to make my goal.
I was so upset yesterday I lost a bunch of hair again, and I'm just not really sure why. The doctor says he thinks it's just hormones from pregnancy and they can last up to four years. He said if it doesn't start improving signifigantly in the next few months we'll do something else. The problem is I don't want to be bald for Christmas!
Yesterday I went shopping, and while at the mall I let someone fiddle with my makeup a little. It looked okay and I bought some stuff. But today when I put it on I just felt ridiculous and upset. What's the point of trying to fix up ugly? It just doesn't get any better than this. Even being thin can't help! Okay, apparently I'm depressed this morning. Maybe the doctor is right, it's hormones!
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cportwine
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Posted: 7 December 2008 08:11 pm |
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Hey, don't be upset about the hair. You know they make really nice and real looking wigs now. Maybe, get yourself one for christmas. You know my daughter loves wigs and wears them all the time.
Plus, your picture is posted on here, and I can tell you that you are far from ugly. So, just stop that kind of talk, and put on your makeup.
Yea, I think your doctor is right. Hormones can make us crazy sometimes. So, hang in there. You should do something nice for yourself. Like a long bubble bath or something like that. You deserve it, and you need to appreciate yourself. I like to light a bunch of candles, play music and drink wine when I do the bath thing. It's amazing how relaxing it can be.
Anyway, I hope you day gets better...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 7 December 2008 08:27 pm |
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| I'm really liking the wine bubblebath idea, I might just have to try that. It sounds very relaxing.
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suenos
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Posted: 8 December 2008 05:50 am |
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Hey! Sorry about the hormones and stress...but it sounds like you and the little one are having some great times together and I bet those are the moments you'll both remember and treasure long after long after you've forgotten whatever random number the scale says during this period....the gingerbread making sounds like fun...are you maing a house?...I personally hate the taste of gingerbread -but love the smell so go figure....and I think it would be a blast to make a big elaborate gingerbread house.
About the stuff you were saying about your self-image, etc. etc.....this is what I think about everytime I read you make a disparaging comment about your looks..and I've hesitated to say it....but I'm going to anyway cause I wasted too much time myself tyring to fit into the "pretty box" and I know how that feels and where it leads....it sorta diminishes your life 'cause you spend less time/energy/enjoyment just being and loving who you actually are and discoveing who you want to be because of all the time spent trying to be the person others think you should be.....
and the point is (yes, ma'm I have a point here) "you don't have to be pretty"....not that you are not pretty, or shouldn't be pretty, or can't want to be pretty, but simply that we (as women) are under zero obligation to anyone on the face of this earth to meet some one else's criteria of "physically attractive" - even though most of us grow up with that idea poured into our heads from our family, society, the media. Very few men grow up with the idea that, along with all the other "stuff" they must do to succeed in life, they also have to twist themselves in knots every day to uphold some arbitrary, rigidily defined standard of male attractiveness. They can be muscular, or rail thin, or burly roughnecks, or adorable teddy bears - whatever - it's like for the most part there's this wide range that most men comfortably fall into (or confidently assume they fall into) regardless of age or bodytype and, for the most part they get to go out into the world without feeling some obligation to significantly alter or worry about over much about their "looks". If you have any doubts, look at the range of body types, facial types, ages, etc. among male actors who are considered handsome or sexy and marketable compared to the narrow range of bodytypes, features, ages, etc. of what's considered attractive, sexy and marketable among female actors.
....we can accept the message that making ourselves into a certain definition of "pretty" is something we have to spend our lives reaching for (in addition to all the other stuff we do in this world) or we can decide for ourselves (umm, kinda like guys do) that whatever attractive is - we already are. And that second concept - It's liberating as heck. You get up in the morning and no matter what you weigh, or the cooperative nature of your hair, or the giant zit that grew overnight in the middle of your forehead, you look in the mirror and tell yourself, and mean "dayum....I am one seriously hot woman..." and you strut through your day like you've got diamonds 'tween your thighs....allowing nothing and no one to steal your joy in just being you....
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 9 December 2008 03:59 am |
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Suenos you're awesome, I really need to try starting my day out thinking "dayum I'm hot" and I might just get somewhere.
I'm not losing any weight. After much deliberation I find a few key differences in my diet now as compared to when I was losing. I'm not eating as many fruits and veggies. I'm not walking (because of surgery but still) and I'm not getting as much fluids down. So I have some new goals that will helpfully not only make me feel better but lose weight as well.
1. Eat more fruits and veggies (which is honestly hard because I'm spending all of my money on Christmas and not healthy groceries)
2. 1 cup of coffee a day!
3. Add some small walks, I'm released to exercise again on the 15th but I think I could do some small walks now.
4. Drink more water.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 9 December 2008 02:45 pm |
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Aw, jeeze, Once. I could have written that entry.
So I'm issuing you a challenge! Today I pledge to eat 5 servings of veggies and no processed sugar. Are you with me?
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 10 December 2008 02:35 am |
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| I'm so with you Midge, I ate an apple this morning and weighed in two pounds less this morning!
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cportwine
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Posted: 10 December 2008 04:03 am |
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What's that saying...an apple a day keeps the doctor away... 
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 10 December 2008 04:13 am |
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Apparently it keeps the fat away!!! 9 time out of 10 if I'm not losing weight it seems to be because I'm not eating enough fruits and veggies. But I was due for a loss anyway. And I'm very happy about it.
I was going to wait until I hit 190 for another ticker, but who knows when that will be!
Last edited on 10 December 2008 04:16 am by OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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cportwine
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Posted: 10 December 2008 04:20 am |
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| It really is great news..... keep up the great work...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 11 December 2008 02:05 am |
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Its goodie day at the hospital, and i went through all of my calories for the day pretty early. What am i going to do for later... I don't really know but I don't want to binge, so I better come up with a plan. It's so hard to resist all of this good food, it's everywhere around here.
But I must be good because christmas is coming fast and I'm not even near my goal.
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cportwine
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Posted: 11 December 2008 03:52 am |
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When I go some place that has lots of goodies, I just snack all day long. A bite here and a bite there. And when no one is looking, the stuff I don't like goes in the garbage. I don't eat just because I took it. I mainly do that for the sweet stuff. The other stuff, I stay away from. Like say if they have meatballs, or the little smokies things.
Well, I don't know if that helps or not. But, I hope it does...Good Luck...
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 14 December 2008 06:14 pm |
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I love food poisoning! That was sarcasm by the way. Chicken is no longer my friend. I do not like throwing up!
Have I lost any weight? I don't know I haven't weighed myself. Which is probably a good thing because that food poisoning was interupting a huge binge that had been going on for a few days. So maybe it was actually a good thing in disguise.
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MidgeH
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Posted: 14 December 2008 08:01 pm |
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| Hope you're feeling better! It might be a good thing - if our bodies would just reject the junk we try and give it things would be a lot easier!
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 16 December 2008 02:50 am |
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I'm 192 today. okay I'm good with that. I would like to be 190 for my challenge weigh in two days from now. But I must remain realistic. So maybe I'll get 191. I really wanted to weigh 185 for christmas, but I don't think I can do that in ten days, do you? Maybe 188 but that's about it, not unless I starve myself, and it's just not gonna happen. I need to learn to be happy now. I'm not the weight I want to be, but I'm a much better weight, Im happier and healthier than I have been in a long time. Christmas is going to be fun even if I'm heavier than ideal and my hair isn't perfect (or my skin).
Tomorrow is my Birthday!
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suenos
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Posted: 16 December 2008 07:46 pm |
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| Happy Birthday Beautiful! I hope you're doing something fantabulous (yep, a totally made up word!).
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 19 December 2008 04:09 am |
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I hate the holiday's for food. There is candy and cookies everywhere, and I've been enjoying them way too often. I can't seem to stay on track diet wise and it's very depressing. So re-evaluation time. Why I still need to lose weight; Chapter 1...
1. My health, I may be at a healthier weight, but I'm not at the HEALTHIEST weight. And that's where I want to be.
2. Binge's are bad for me, I don't like them, I feel out of control, I am so done with the bingeing.
3. My size is not where I want it. I'm much more comfortable where I am, but I still feel big. When I look in the mirror I want to see a fit person.
4. I'm tired and I know it's because I haven't been eating as good, and carrying excess weight makes you tired.
That's enough reasons but I have more
5. I want to be considered "little"
6. I want to shop at skinny people stores (and I'm not talking standard sizes, I'm talking places where only the size 8 and unders go.)
7. I want to start running. I have some friends that go running and I want to go too, but I feel too fat to run.
So how am I going to accomplish this. I've been thinking about this, and you know I can plan all day and not get anywhere. I really need to get my head in the game and get my eye on the prize. I've lost focus. I need to remember that I'm not a slave to food and that I'm stronger than this, I can do this. I think I'm slipping up because I'm tired. I don't want to have to fight this, but apparently I do, after almost three years I think it's finally time to say that this will never go away I'll just have to keep fighting daily. And guess what? That sucks!!! But I will do it. I refuse to give up.
I do want to lose weight, but more importantly I have to stop the binge. My goal is to not binge for the next week. Baby steps right Peter?
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 20 December 2008 12:29 am |
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My best diet tip to anyone out there is; know where you want to be, have very specific goals and be ready to re-evaluate and re-think strategy often.
Today is going good, last night went pretty well. Today I'm shooting for 1500 calories, with no bingeing.
Tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut, possibly colored and I'm extremely nervous. It's been a long time, and bad things always seem to happen when I go to salons. Wish me luck.
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Sassykat
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Posted: 20 December 2008 01:26 am |
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| Good luck Once. I'm sure you will look beautiful.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 21 December 2008 03:59 pm |
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I've had long hair for a very long time. That being said I'm not very good about getting it trimmed regularly, which we all know is the building blocks of good hair. Needless to say a lot of hair was damaged at my ends and needed to go. But still I love having long hair. It's not really that short now, but I still feel bald! It doesn't look bad, in fact it looks healthy and it brings more curl out, but I still miss it. Okay, I feel better, I've mourned the loss of my hair and I'm ready to move on.
I am over-all happy with my hair. I have some red lowlights that I think look really nice. It's not too dramatic, just kind of suttle. Which is what I wanted. Because I don't do anything with my hair and I just might go into shock if something too drastic happened. The cut was bad enough, I mean, it's not a bad cut, but so much hair came off that it kind of scared me.
I've finished most of my Christmas shopping, boy will I be paying for that for awhile. I'm meal planning for the huge crowd we're having this year. I love big Christmas's with lot's of family, but boy are they a lot of work! And I'm cleaning like a mad woman! Why is it that my house never actually gets clean enough?
Still going good diet wise. I've noticed a sort of strange thing going on when I eat red meat though. I didn't eat red meat before I had surgery and now I do, and it still makes me sick. I had meatballs yesterday, just a couple, and I felt horrible for hours. I felt like that one night when I made beef tacos too. So I'm just going to take it easy with the meats, but I've never heard of that before, a meat sensitivity? Any ideas?
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 21 December 2008 07:57 pm |
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Lunch in the cafeteria is always really good on the weekends, but they don't have anything I want today. All I want is coffee. I don't even want to eat. This is where I get in trouble. Nothing sounds good, so I don't eat, then I'm starving, then I eat everything in sight... I think you see where this is going.
Almost time to go home! I'm so excited, I have so many little Christmas projects to get started on, I can't wait! Not only do I have gifts to wrap, baskets to decorate and cookies to bake (hey that rhymed :) my little projects include things that never get done unless we have guests. Like the bathroom door handle finally gets fixed, and I get a shelf in the laundry room. The family start arriving tomorrow so I better get to work!
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MidgeH
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Posted: 25 December 2008 05:00 pm |
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| Merry Christmas Once!
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mj36
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Posted: 26 December 2008 04:31 am |
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| I am new to this site, and decided to get acquainted by reading some journals. Yours struck a note with me because of your discussion on binging... the reason I got online tonight to seek out a weight loss forum was another world-class binge and the inability to motivate myself to lose weight! Seems like we are in the same boat with a sweet tooth and the ability to get on a runaway train when it comes to eating. I am looking forward to reading more and keeping up with your efforts, which will hopefully get me back on track with my own!
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 27 December 2008 02:03 am |
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The holidays have been pretty good to me so far. I haven't gained any weight. I did have a little pie last night, and I've had a few chocolates today. But otherwise I've been a very good girl. I better stop over in Cindy's weekend challenge and get geared up for tonight and tomorrow.
I was still the heaviest girl at Christmas, but it was a lot better this year. Sometimes I even felt like I looked pretty darn good. Which is saying a lot for me. Next year I'm not going to be the heaviest though, that's my goal, of course that's a lot of weight to lose, because not counting my great-aunt who probably tops out at 150 the rest of the women in my family weigh 130 and under. I'm serious my sister is 5'9" 125 and the rest are 5'3" and smaller 110 or less. It's very depressing.
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Sassykat
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Posted: 31 December 2008 03:23 am |
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| Happy New Year Once-Upon-A-Thin-Girl!
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mj36
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Posted: 31 December 2008 03:56 am |
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| So, next year you will have to take a picture of yourself looking fab and put it on your Christmas cards to show that you reached your goal of not being the biggest one there. I laughed about that, because that is one way I gauge my own size, if I am smaller than my sister and my two cousins... and I know they are doing the same thing as well.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 31 December 2008 05:21 am |
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Well I'm at 193 today, not bad, but not great either. I'm taking some baby steps to good eating. I'm not so worried about weight loss right now, I'm more worried about my tendancy to binge lately. I've been good the last few days. I still want to lose weight, but I realize that getting my eating under control is more important. I have found two people at work close to my weight who are also trying to lose weight. I haven't decided if this is good or bad yet.
My short term goal is to not binge for two weeks and to get to 180, no time limit, just 180 eventually. I realize I put a lot of pressure on myself before Christmas to lose a certain amount by Christmas, and this may have contributed to binges.
Tomorrow is my day off. I'm very happy because I didn't get enough rest around Christmas time. Also I'm very sick, and I need to sleep.
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OnceUpon-A-ThinGirl
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Posted: 2 January 2009 12:10 am |
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Why is it that I look at someone who is the same weight and height that I am and think "I'm way bigger than she is". It's not just something in my head. Even though the numbers are the same, I "feel" bigger. If it is body dismorphia then I have a severe case, because I'm telling you, there's no way I'm the same size she is! Even though we wear the same size pants!!! It doesn't compute, I know I look bigger!
Last night I ate more than I should have, but it wasn't terrible. I've done worse! Today is a new day, and a new year! And I'm ready to wipe the slate clean and be good to myself. I did join the next challenge, but my goal more than losing weight, is to not gain weight, and not to binge. I know it just happens sometimes, and I shouldn't feel so bad about it, but it's just so devastating to me when it does. I'm tired of this up and down feeling, I just want to live and not worry about food!
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mj36
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Posted: 2 January 2009 03:31 am |
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| I know what you mean about just wanting to live and not worry about food... except that is just what got me from my goal weight of 148 back to 179... unfortunately, this is kind of a life long thing for some of us, darn it all~ I think it is great that you set some goals for yourself, and that you are not putting yourself under intense time pressure. I do that to myself all the time! In fact, today I took out the calendar and set weight loss goals based on various events (a family party, my son's birthday, a vacation in April). Sometimes the stress right before my goal's date is killer! Wonder why I do that to myself??
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