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Monkia
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Posted: 5 May 2008 05:49 pm |
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Well recently I have weighed myself and I have reached 18 stone and at 16 years old that is less than impressive.
I am of course an over eater. How do I break this though?
I know the causes it started from an early age, I was a premature child and once I had finished my time in nursrey school I was mentally still to young for primary school however another year in nursrey was denied and I was taken into my first year of primary.
I was a low acheiver and people and a very quiet person so of course I stuck out like a sore thumb and was ripe for the picking. So then it began teachers couldn't stand me because I couldn't absorb the information being taught as fast as the other children and well the children just wanted something to pick on to pass those long school days.
So for seven years I didn't have a friend nor did I ever recieve a compliment, except for one thing, my mother used to say "your such a good eater" basically because I always ate everything on my plate unlike my two brothers. So I think this is the start of my grip onto food, a sort of clinging onto that compliment and I probably ate so much to make up for being so lonely.
So at 9 years old I was 9 stone and horribly overweight and this wasn't helped by the fact that I was an early develper and was 5,6 the tallest in my class so I was easily noticed. Everyone mocked me and at lunch they threw bits of food, dirt and rocks at me.
One day I began crying and went to one of the dinner ladies who worked in the yard keeping an eye of the children she looked at me with a bored expression when I told her about one particular boy who was constantly attacking me she simply said "what do you want me to do about it, hit him?" and walked away leaving me to finish my crying in solitude.
Gradually I had all the confidence beaten out of me and I was terrified to go outside because people constantly harrased me when I did. So of course due to lack of exercise my weight shot up again and my mum just kept saying "it's puppy fat".
When I began secondary school I had somehow managed to trick myself into thinking I might fit in better there but it was pretty much the same story however I at least found two friends and this was like a luxury comparede to what it had been before.
I never ate in school to ashamed to be seen eating.
I finished secondary school and decided to take a year out before doing a-levels, nothing has happened with my weight loss and I still lack any social condience.
I have however decided to start eating healthier and me and one of my other friends who has also taken a year out have begun to go swimming 4 times a week in the mornings when the pool is empty.
Hopefully things will pick up but I can't help but feel negative. Four months left until I enter college and begin my a-levels and I am starting to feel sick with worry, I know I am going to end up being the fat reject again if I can't sort myself out.
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wendy
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Posted: 6 May 2008 01:13 am |
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Oh, honey, your story is so sad. I mean that. I am 40 and am still battling with the way kids treated me when I was your age. The only thing I can recommend is to see a counselor/psychiatrist who specializes in eating disorders. You are a prime candidate to develop one, and believe me, one who still fights with bulemia and body image, it is much easier to nip it in the bud while your young. I feel for you....so sad.
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Runner_Geek
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Posted: 6 May 2008 09:38 am |
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Starting a healthier lifestyle, which includes exercising daily, eating healthier, and seeing a therapist, will make you feel better. I hate that you had to go through that as a child and adolescent. Children can be so cruel. When you start to feel better, you will gain confidence and be able to get through college and the social scene.
xx
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Beth
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Posted: 6 May 2008 11:04 am |
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Your situation saddens me, too. However, you can turn lemons into lemonade! Get yourself an appointment with a therapist right away and start turning your life around. If you keep doing the same things, you will keep getting the same results. Just do it!!!!!!!! You can do it!!!!!!!!! 
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