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REDQUEEN
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| Location: | Virginia USA |
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Posted: 15 March 2006 05:07 pm |
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I HAD A GASTRIC BYPASS IN OCTOBER 2002. IT WAS VERY SUCCESFULL AND I HAVE BEEN TRULY BLESSED TO LOSE AROUND 162 POUNDS WHICH WAS ABOUT ONE HALF OF MY BODY WEIGHT. I KEEP A FOOD/CALORIE NOTEBOOK. I AM OBSESSED WITH CALORIE COUNTING AND FOOD. SOME TIMES I BINGE, BUT THEN I IMMEDIATELY THROW UP. I KNOW THAT MY BINGES ARE EMOTIONALLY RELATED. BUT I AM GETTING WORRIED THAT I CAN'T CONTROL MY BULLIMIC HABITS. IF I EAT ANYTHING THAT I THINK MAY HAVE TOO MANY CALORIES, OR SOMETHING THAT IS SWEET, OR EVEN SOMETHING THAT IS GOOD FOR ME, BUT MAKES ME FEEL FULL, I AM OFF TO THROW UP. MY HUSBAND AND SON KNOW THAT I AM BULLIMIC. BUT I HAVE MANAGED TO HIDE IT (FOR THE MOST PART) FROM THE REST OF MY FAMILY. MY QUESTION: IS THERE ANY ONE ELSE OUT THERE THAT CAN IDENTIFY WITH ME AND MY PROBLEM, OR AM I THE ONLY ONE? I LIVE IN TERROR OF GAINING WEIGHT. I HAVE NOT BEEN AS VILGILANT HERE LATELY AS I SHOULD BE. I AM SO AFRAID THAT I WILL WASTE THE BLESSING OF WEIGHT LOSS THAT I HAVE BEEN GIVEN. ANY ONE WITH ANY ADVICE, PLEASE HELP!!!!!!! ONE OTHER THING, I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO EXERCISE AS MUCH AS I USED TO, THIS TOO WORRIES ME.
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Peter
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Posted: 15 March 2006 06:06 pm |
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Redqueen, a recent Newsweek article stated that more people die from eating disorders than from any other mental disease. Bulimia is a serious disease and you should seek professional help.
My daughter was bulimic and I got help for her. I joke that I am a "failed bulimic" because I could never get myself to throw up when I wanted to. I mentioned that in this forum once and got criticized for joking about a serious matter. I joke about it because it sounds funny to me, but I always take it very seriously. I might be dead by now if I hadn't "failed" at it.
My eating habits got me to the point where a doctor looked me in the eyes and told me that I was going to kill myself if I didn't change my ways. I went to OA (see my FAQ on eating disorders) and spent many years sharing with others and getting and giving help. That's what I hope this forum does in a small way. Everything helps.
Being overweight and trying to lose weight is so common that simple weight loss makes up the majority of the discussion in these forums. But you are not alone! And even those of us that aren't bulimic all struggle with food.
I hope you get some help here, but I do suggest you seek professional help and hopefully that will lead you to a support group. It's very powerful to share with others and realize that you are not alone!
Best wishes,
Peter
P.S.
It would also be great if sometime you could share your story in the forum on surgery. It sounds like it was successful for you, and that's great! But as your story indicates, it doesn't magically fix all your problems and I think that's important to share with others considering surgery.
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Annie02
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Posted: 21 March 2006 01:25 pm |
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Dear Redqueen:
I just joined and couldn't believe that I found your post. I also have had a gastric bypass - 8 years ago. Mine was also very sucessful. I lost 125 pounds, half my body weight. At first it was so easy to keep the weight off but slowly, I started eating things that I shouldn't. But I could also throw it back up and justify that the calories did not stay in my body long enough to cause me to gain weight. I would weigh myself every morning and every night to ensure that I had not gained any weight.
I have now gained 50 pounds back and I am terrified that I will go back to being as fat as I use to be. I have such great ideas to lose the weight and start a new diet every Monday morning only to fail by Wednesday.
This time I am going to do it though. No more fad diets. I am going to go back to eating the way I am suppose to based on my gastric bypass. I am only going to eat 500 calories a day and walk every day either at lunch time or after work. I must stay away from sugar. I am terribly addicted to chocolate and jujubes.
Please help encourage me to lose the 50 pounds. I will also help you. We both must learn to eat healthy and stop throwing up or we won't be around for our families. We also must exercise every day. Don't feel that you are the only one as I am sure there are a lot of us out there. I work with 3 other ladies that have had gastric bypass surgery and they have all put weight back on. Quick fix that requires a life time of change.
Take Care - Annie02 
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REDQUEEN
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| Joined: | 19 December 2005 |
| Location: | Virginia USA |
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Posted: 21 March 2006 03:25 pm |
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DEAR ANNIE02,
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM TO MEET YOU. I HAVE SPENT MANY MONTHS THINKING THAT I AM THE ONLY ONE. ALTHOUGH OTHER PEOPLE HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT FEELS, YOU COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. I, HOWEVER, CAN NOT TOLERATE ALOT OF SWEETS, LIKE CHOCLATE. THEY WILL MAKE ME THROW UP. BUT, SINCE YOU UNDERSTAND I WILL TELL YOU THAT SOMETIMES IF I HAVE EATEN THINGS I KNOW THAT I SHOULDN'T, I WILL PURPOSELY EAT CHOCLATE OR OTHER THINGS THAT I KNOW THAT I CAN'T TOLERATE, JUST BECAUSE IT HELPS ME TO THROW UP MORE QUICKLY. OH ANNIE, I WISH THAT YOU LIVED CLOSER TO ME SO THAT I COULD JOIN YOU ON THOSE WALKS AT LUNCH TIME. (I AM IN VIRGINIA) I WILL TRY TO DO MY OWN WALKS TOO. I KNOW THAT YOU CAN DO THIS. MAYBE IF WE STAY IN CONTACT WITH EACH OTHER, WE CAN TALK OURSELVES OUT OF OUR BULIMIC WAYS. MAYBE WE CAN SHARE IDEAS AND ENCOURAGMENT. I KEEP A CALORIE NOTEBOOK. I JUST WROTE MY CALORIES FROM LAST NIGHT IN IT. I OVERATE, BUT THREW UP . YOU KNOW, ANNIE, THAT I CAN DO GOOD WHILE I'M AT WORK, BUT IT IS WHEN I GET HOME AND ON THE WEEKENDS THAT THINGS GO WRONG. I THINK MINE IS AN EMOTIONAL PROBLEM AS WELL AS AN EATING DISORDER. DO YOU HAVE MORE PROBLEMS DURING CERTAIN TIMES? I WILL HELP YOU ANY WAY THAT I CAN. I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU TOO. I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM YOU SOON. HANG IN THERE.
YOUR NEW FRIEND, REDQUEEN
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Annie02
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Posted: 21 March 2006 09:36 pm |
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Hi Redqueen:
I was so happy that you wrote back. I'm at work right now so I will make this short, but I promise to write more when I get home. I am also sorry that we are so far away but if we stay in touch and encourage each other, we can both get to our goal. Don't feel bad about telling me that you eat chocolate to make yourself throw up. For the first couple of years after my surgery, I could just drink water and then I would throw up. But now, I stick my fingers down my throat to induce vomiting. I don't even feel bad about it. Talk about sick. My daughter tells me I'm bulimic but I don't even try to hide it anymore. I just excuse myself after dinner and go throw up.
I have tried to stop, but I always give in. I justify what I do by saying that I only throw up after supper, but if I was to over eat at a restaurant during the day, I would throw up also.
I'm just like you. I can be so good at work but the minute I get home at night I want to eat. It is a constant battle. The weekends are the worst. You want to go out and enjoy yourself with the family but everything revolves around eating. Now that I have met you, I feel that I can do it this time. My son is getting married in August and I don't want to be the fat mother-in-law. I have to get back to work, but I will stay in touch.
Take care, your new friend. Annie02
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Peter
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Posted: 22 March 2006 09:12 am |
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How nice that you two have found each other. I hope you will keep posting here as you never know how many others it will help... whether they post or not. Far more people read these forums than post in them.
Annie02, I trust that your doctor has advised you about the 500 calories a day. I don't know about after surgery, but under normal circumstances that would be a very unhealthy amount to eat.
Best wishes to you both!
Peter
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Annie02
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Posted: 22 March 2006 01:34 pm |
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Hi Peter:
Thanks for your concern. I am not really pleased with my surgeon but he is the only one in my area. He is the one that has advised the 500 calories a day. You are correct. It does seem unhealthy. When I stuck with that amount in the past the weight stayed off but I was hungry all the time. What would be a healthy amount for a 43 year old woman. I am 5 feet tall.
Thanks Annie02
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REDQUEEN
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| Joined: | 19 December 2005 |
| Location: | Virginia USA |
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Posted: 22 March 2006 03:35 pm |
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HEY ANNIE,
I HAD MY SURGERY AT THE UNIVERSITY OF VIRGINIA. MY NUTRITIONIST TOLD ME NOT TO DROP BELOW 1200 CALORIES A DAY. WHEN I FIRST HAD MY SURGERY, I WOULD EAT LESS THAN 800 PER DAY, AND THEN I WOULD TRIED TO BURN THOSE OFF WITH WALKING AND EXERCISE. BUT THE NUTRITIONIST SAID THAT I SHOULD NOT TRY TO BURN OFF EVERYTHING THAT I EAT, AND THAT I SHOULD NOT DROP BELOW 1200 CALORIES PER DAY. IT CAUSES YOUR METABOLISM TO SHUT DOWN. I HOPE THAT THIS HELPS YOU. I ALSO SAID A PRAYER FOR YOU AND ME AND OUR PROBLEM. I AM AT WORK, AND UNFORTUNATELY VERY BUSY, BUT I WILL WRITE YOU A NOTE AGAIN LATER. YOUR FRIEND, REDQUEEN
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Annie02
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Posted: 23 March 2006 12:30 am |
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Hi Redqueen:
How was your day? I didn't go for a walk today but I'm not going to beat myself up about it. It was very cold and windy and I had a meeting at lunch. So I took the stairs a few times and will plan to dress warmer tomorrow for my walk.
I was able to bypass the candy jar or should I say jars at work. There seems to be temptation everywhere but the more we say no, the easier it will get. I finally got back on the scales this morning and wasn't as shocked as I thought that I would be. I was already 4 pounds later than 2 weeks ago so that made me feel better.
I had my surgery at our General Hospital. It will be 9 years this September. I have always went to my surgeon for follow up and he was the one that said to keep it under 500 calories a day. I stopped going to him when he started to push diet pills on me and told me to stick to clear broth until I got back down to my goal weight. I see my family doctor know for help.
Thanks for the info on my metabolism. I will increase my calories and see what happens. It scares me though because I have been conditioned to think that more calories, more pounds. Thanks also for praying for me. That is sweet. I will also pray for you. I have taken up knitting hats at night to keep my hands busy and I am going to donate the hats to charity. I have made 20 baby hats and 20 adult hats so far.
Hope you have a great evening and please keep writing. You are helping motivate me and I hope that I can do the same for you.
Your friend Annie02
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Peter
Founder, caloriesperhour.com
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Posted: 23 March 2006 08:26 am |
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I wasn't sure if dieting worked the same after surgery. But what Redqueen suggests is pretty much standard. The Please Help Me, I'm Stuck! forum is full of posts where it is suggested that the solution may be to eat more.
I don't know what special nutrition requirements you have, but be sure to read the first few paragraphs of the FAQ on low calorie diets:
http://www.caloriesperhour.com/faqs_lowcal.html
Peter
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Annie02
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Posted: 23 March 2006 12:52 pm |
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Thanks Peter. I read some of the Tutorials and there is some very helpful information.
Annie02
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REDQUEEN
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Posted: 23 March 2006 11:05 pm |
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HEY ANNIE,
I HAVEN'T HAD MUCH TIME TO WRITE TO YOU, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW WHAT A BLESSING YOU HAVE BEEN TO ME. I ALREADY FEEL MUCH BETTER ABOUT THINGS KNOWING SOME ONE ELSE IS GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING. OUR WEATHER HERE IS COLD AND A LITTLE SNOWY, SO I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO WALK EITHER.
I KNOW THAT IT WAS HARD FOR ME TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I COULD EAT 1200 CALORIES TOO. BUT IT IS HARD ENOUGH TO LOSE WEIGHT WITH OUT OUR BODIES SLOWING US DOWN BY GOING INTO STARVATION MODE.
I USED TO CROCHET AND CROSS STITCH, BEFORE I STARTED WORKING IN THIS OFFICE. I JUST DON'T HAVE MUCH TIME, BUT I ADMIRE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE DOING FOR OTHERS. I THINK IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO KEEP BUSY, IT KEEPS MY MIND OFF OF FOOD.
I CHECKED OUT THE NEWS LETTERS FROM MEGAN PORTER ON THIS SITE, I LOVE MOTIVATIONAL THINGS AND I FOUND ONE THERE THAT IS GOING ON MY REFRIGERATOR, CABINETS, AND FOOD PANTRY. IT IS  H--A--L--T THIS STANDS FOR HUNGRY. . ANGRY. . . LONELY. . .TIRED. I REALLY NEED TO ASK MYSELF THAT. MOST TIMES, AS I AM SURE YOU KNOW, I AM NOT HUNGRY AT ALL, BUT I EAT ANY WAY.
WELL, BACK TO WORK FOR ME, I WILL KEEP PRAYING FOR YOU, I APPRECIATE YOU PRAYING FOR ME. I WILL BE WAITING TO HEAR FROM YOU SOON.
YOUR FRIEND, REDQUEEN
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Annie02
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Posted: 24 March 2006 01:29 am |
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Hi Redqueen:
Glad to hear from you today. That's a great saying to put on your frig. For me, the "H" would stand for happy. I eat for every emotion. I use to be envious of people that said that they could not eat when they were stressed or depressed. Not me, I would just eat more. I can't ever remember a time when I have lost my appetite.
What do you do in your office. I work for a large Canadian insurance company (don't worry, I won't try to sell you insurance) I am an analyst and have been with the company for 15 years. It's hard when you sit at a desk all day. There always seems to be someone celebrating a birthday, anniversary, retirement etc and there is always food. A friend retired today after 30 years and oh what glorious food they had at her party. Just thinking of you and how I did not want to let you down gave me strength to stay away from the cake and eat the veggies and cheese. I can't believe how much just writing to someone that has similar problems has motivated me to succeed. (it is also easy because you are so nice) Redqueen, I will admit to you (but unfortunately others read this too) but I am still throwing up after supper. Once I have reached my goal again, I will stop.
I don't mean to sound like a hypocrite, but I hope that you are trying to stop throwing up as it is so bad for the both of us. Tomorrow is going to be a test as I have taken a vacation day and being at home aways makes me want to eat. Also, my husband likes to go out to eat and I know that he means well (Oh come on honey, just once won't kill you) but he doesn't realize that if I give in to temptation once it's so much harder to get back on the wagon. The weather is suppose to warm up a bit so hopefully we can get out and take the dogs for a nice long walk to burn up some calories.
Well I guess I better go. Hope to hear from you again soon. Have a great day.
Your Friend Annie
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KICKIN_IT_IN_MI
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Posted: 24 March 2006 01:35 am |
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It's bad enough to have an eating disorder that most of us have where we find it very hard to control the amount or kind of food that we eat.
But to go through the surgery and now have an issue where you feel the need to vomit makes me want to cry for you.
Don't get me wrong, I applaud you for talking about it so you make naieve people like me wake up and see the severity of this kind of operation.
Many of us think "What a great operation, If I weighed xxx I could have that operation and it would be easier for me to loose weight too!"
But we don't hear often enough how it is still just as hard to reprogram yourself to eat smaller amounts and the proper food.
Good luck to you both, and God Bless.
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REDQUEEN
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Posted: 24 March 2006 05:42 pm |
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HEY ANNIE,
I, TOO, CAN'T REMEMBER A TIME WHEN I DIDN'T HAVE AN APPETITE AS WELL. I AM DOING MY BEST TO CONTROLL MY DESIRES TO THROW UP, AND I KNOW THAT YOU ARE TOO.
I HOPE YOU DO WELL TODAY, AND GET AN CHANCE TO GO OUT AND WALK YOUR DOGS AND ENJOY THE OUT DOORS. I AM HOPING TO DO THE SAME THING THIS WEEKEND. MY HUSBAND WILL BE OUT OF TOWN SO MY SON AND I WILL, HOPEFULLY, HAVE A CHANCE TO GO WALKING IN THE MOUNTAINS.
I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU THIS WEEKEND, I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING ALL ABOUT THE SUCCESS YOU HAD. YOU ARE A BIG MOTIVATION FACTOR TO ME. I AM PROUD OF YOU FOR BEING STRONGER THAN THAT CAKE! I WISH THAT I COULD REPORT TO YOU THAT I WAS STRONGER THAN THE BROWNIE I ATE LAST NIGHT AT MY LADIES MEETING. BUT I WILL BE READY TO RESIST, AS YOU DID, NEXT TIME.
I WILL WRITE MORE ABOUT MY JOB AND OTHER THINGS AS SOON AS I CAN FIND SOME TIME. JUST REMEMBER THAT I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST. UNTIL THEN, I REMAIN. . .
YOUR THANKFUL FRIEND, REDQUEEN
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REDQUEEN
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Posted: 24 March 2006 05:53 pm |
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HEY KICKIN,
THANK YOU FOR YOUR BEST WISHES. I AM SURE THAT NOT EVERYONE THAT HAS HAD GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IS IN THE SAME BOAT AND ANNIE AND I. IT WAS NICE OF YOU TO BE SO UNDERSTANDING AND CARING, AND I AM SURE THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO WOULDN'T BE.
DO YOU SUFFER FROM AN EATING DISORDER? I WOULD BE INTERESTED IN YOUR STORY IF YOU DO, SINCE AS YOU CAN SEE FROM OUR WRITINGS, ANNIE AND I THOUGHT WE WERE THE ONLY ONES. YOU WOULD GIVE US A DIFFERENT PERSPECTIVE.
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME, FOR ANNIE, AND FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO POST ON THIS SITE. THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE HURTING (FOR DIFFERENT REASONS). IT IS GOOD TO KNOW THAT YOU AREN'T ALONE.
HAVE A BLESSED DAY,
REDQUEEN
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KICKIN_IT_IN_MI
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Posted: 25 March 2006 08:20 pm |
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My disorder is the fact that I select the wrong things to eat that include too many "goodies", I eat at all the wrong times, and I am lazy and I don't enjoy exercise.
After eating in the above manner I then proceed to berate myself and eat more, no wonder my self esteem is so bad.
It's a vicious cycle, but luckily my recent attempt at getting my life together has been successful to the point that I at least have not given up. Don't get me wrong I have not been that successful in loosing my weight but at least I have not gained it all back. Some may not look at my issue as a disorder but in my mind it is.
I cannot starve myself or make myself vomit which is a good thing because I would probably have those issues also.
I am happy you have a friend on this site that you can converse with. Keep in mind that what you both share, is being viewed by others that although they may not respond to your blog you may be helping them just the same.
NOTE: I used to feel sorry for people who had dysfunctional lives, then at some point in my life I realized that many of us are dysfunctional. So I ask the question, Are we really living a dysfunctional life or are others just blind to the fact that their life isn't perfect also? Food for thought.
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REDQUEEN
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Posted: 15 May 2006 05:15 pm |
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I HAVEN'T POSTED ANYTHING HERE FOR QUITE AWHILE. I AM WONDERING IF THERE ARE ANY MORE OF US. I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME RESEARCH ON THE TOPIC OF BULIMIA. I AM LEARNING QUITE A BIT ABOUT THIS ILLNESS.
HOPEFULLY, I WILL EVENTUALLY GET THE UPPER HAND ON THIS UGLY PROBLEM. I HAVE TALKED WITH MY DOCTOR ABOUT THIS. I HAVE ALSO TALKED WITH MY SISTER. SO, I GUESS MAYBE THAT IS A START.
BEST WISHES TO ALL, AND I LOOK FORWARD TO HEARING FROM ANY ONE WHO CAN GIVE ME MORE INSIGHT, OR WHO MIGHT JUST NEED A BUDDY.
REDQUEEN
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Coopr
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Posted: 15 May 2006 08:15 pm |
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As I have said in other threads I think I am borderline having this problem, I was overeating before and hit a point of where I didn't care about my body.
I have wanted to change so bad over 3-4 months after a scare with vertigo related to my weight (sounds odd but true) and only being 26, I started starving myself with 300-500 cals a day. Once in a while I would have a night out with the wife and go somewhere and maybe eat a meal that was 700-1000 cals and go to the restroom and try purge the food in my stomach (you can say I've failed on that as well), I didn't take into account I only had 200 cals earlier that day so I was in no real danger of overeating.
I found what was the most dangerous habit the and main catalyst was looking at the scale before I went to bed, as well as when I woke up. That has a real bad mental affect on you, I was weighing the 1-2 gallons of water I drank throughout the day as well as food weight in my stomach so I would freak out over a few ounces. About a week ago I stopped looking daily, and put the effort I am spending worrying about calories into working out harder at the gym. When I reach the point which I almost cant handle the burn I remind myself that this is what I am doing to always make sure I wont weigh more than I do now and I will never go back. Grant it I may only get a few more reps out of each set, but those are the ones that count.
I work so hard, when I leave the gym I am almost in a euphoric state and don't care for several hours about any negative thoughts, I'm not saying I binge and eat a lot, I may not even eat, but my point is I don't fret about the food I at the night before, or the food I ate for breakfast.
Currently I have slowed loosing weight, but I am loosing a significant amount of inches, which is my ultimate goal; less fat more lean muscle. I have went from a 46 pant to a 42 pant in a few months. I just want to look good, so if I weight 235 pounds with a 34-36 inch pant size I have done what I want, then hopefully would come the willingness to gain weight (Lean muscle only) by working harder and eating even better, and maintain my waist. But thats a ways off and I will celebrate, then cross that bridge when I get there.
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marionette
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Posted: 7 February 2008 07:44 pm |
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500 calories a day for anyone- post op WLS or not- is not good. perhaps your surgeon said in the very beginning that would be your caloric intake, due to the extremely limited food intake, but once you get to maintaining your weight loss it should be around 12-1500 calories.
also consider that all the vomiting you're doing is wreaking total havoc on your pouch and esophegus- NOT good. you don't have any stomach room to spare, getting an ulcer in the pouch you have could be very, very bad.
yes, go back to your post op basics- at least 60 grams of protein a day, and 64oz of water. no more than 15g of sugar per serving. if you follow that in a healthful way, you'll fall into a healthy calorie range. and of course, exercise. you still have the tool- use it the way it's meant to be used and practicing reasonable, healthy habits will work.
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REDQUEEN
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Posted: 7 February 2008 08:20 pm |
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Hi Marionette,
Thank you for your concern and for your advice. You are exactly right about the calorie information. You are also right about the havoc on my digestive system too.
I have improved so much since I first posted on this thread.  I have learned so much about bulimia! I have discovered, that in my case, the bulimia was never truly about the weight, it was more due to emotional issues. 
I also think, in my case at least, being bulimic is kind of like being an alcoholic, I am never going to be totally "better", just recovered. I journal alot, and I have come to recognize and to be prepared for situations that could trigger a relapse.
Once again, thanks for your concern! I would love to hear your story some time. . . have you had a similar experience?
REDQUEEN
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Annie02
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Posted: 8 February 2008 10:15 am |
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Hi Marionette:
I would also like to thank you for your advise and kind words and I too am also in recovery (I like the term Redqueen). I think just being able to have a safe place to voice what I was doing helped a lot and also the connection that I made with Redqueen. I was unable to talk to my family about what I was doing. Did not want to face their disappointment.
It is one day at a time as they say in AA. I have finally learned to accept that if I want to get the body that I deserve, I am going to have to work my a*& off for it. Eating healthy and being active.
My daughter has starting the process of seeing a surgeon for gastric bypass surgery. I can only think that I have not been a very positive role model in her life but I will support her ever step of the way and she certainly knows that it is a life style change that she will have to live with for the rest of her life.
Thanks again Marionette and hi Redqueen. I have not heard from you for a while. Hope you are doing well. 
Bye for now,
Annette
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